Assalamualaikum wbt,
Last nite i scolded my younger sister, now i feel bad for doing so. She didn't cook at home and i teased her for not cooking, telling her kalau tak nak masak baik tak yah balik umah and duduk jek kat kolej (i know it's seem a lil bit harsh but i purposely joking ok)..suddenly she got sensitive and raised her voice up to me..so apa lagi..mmg kena marahlah by me, lecture sedikit keras..now i feel bad coz i was the one who started the thing, and ended up i scolded her pulak. Dah ler dia ni perempuan melayu terakhir kat rumah tu..sensitif sungguh. Biler dah rasa menyesal ni..teringat ler plak kisah2 waktu i pernah marah2 my 3 lil sisters waktu me masih bebudak and tak matang dulu. Rasa menyesal giler buli derang waktu kecik2 dulu..padahal derangkan budak kecik lagi. Shouldn't done that at the first place. But i know despite that, i'm a good sister to them coz i rarely scold or pukul them..very2 rare coz they all semua actually tak nakal2..kalau degil biasanya i cubit jek..tu pun tak kuat sbb hanya sbg pengajaran. Plus, i always treat them outside and buy them new clothes, that's why they prefer me a lot compared to my sister and my younger sister Eqa hehe. Takpelah..pasni kena minta maaf kat dia.
Yesterday i had meeting with GM and all managers for staff relocation in my dept..ended up dr takde keje langsung tetiba berlambak2 keje nk kena buat. Haiyyooh..this is end of the year, time org sumer bercuti..i've got a handful tasks pulak from my GM. I need to organize a workshop in PD next month for our BP and KPI 2007. And yesterday my GM requested me to prepare a special report for our second big boss..i've done it last nite with lots of details, colourful graphs and elaborations, with assumption that it might give an adequate overview of our achievement for the past 3 months. 3 months ok..sorting out all figures and trends..lastly when i submitted to my GM this morning..he said my report is quite detail and wanted me to reduce my report from 15 pages to 5 pages only. Throw away several graphs and elaborations, and it should be fine for my big boss, he says. Addooii..it was not easy task to interprete so many data in hand, summarize them and present them as clear as possible in one report, suddenly kena throw away analysis. Sayang tau masa yang dah digunakan..tapi takpe..at least i know what is happening to my department at the moment..sebelum ni my staff yg buat report and i vet thru jek..tak sama kita buat sendiri statistics dengan vet thru report sebenarnya. Dulu when i used to make my divisional report..all statistics at my fingers..tanya jeklah apa pun, insya Allah bolehlah jawab dgn penuh confident. Skang ni biler my staff yang buat, baca report 2 kali baru boleh ingat betul2 dlm kepala. Tu pun kekadang terlupa, siap leh minta staff back up dlm meeting. Hehe. Itulah yang membezakan kemahiran dan kepakaran seseorang. Org yg membuat itu lebih pakar dr mereka yang tak membuat langsung.
Actually my hands are tight with 5 assignments, all need to be prepared by this week. I have 1 personal assignment and 1 group project for As-Shariah & Econs, and 2 case study and 1 group project for International Finance. Actually, i dun like Finance and all subjects that deals with calculations eventho my background is Accounting...Kak Win & Kak Yana..tolong!! Takut aa International Finance..everytime Dr Obay suh calculate tukaran wang asing..mulalah rasa nervous sbb mcm tak confident padahal calculation senang jek. Tak nak ambik aa subject audit Finance..ni baru International Finance..belum lagi Derivatives & Portfolio Mgt..camner nk buat nih? Dahlaa assignment mcm susah jek...kena analyse Balance of Payment for Malaysia and 80 pages of case study..ya Allah..membaca artikel 80 pages utk satu presentation for 25 or 30 minutes only..pastu dahlah susah..artikel IMF mengenai Central Bank Autonomy..we have to analyse the relationship between Central Bank Autonomy with other several variables like inflation level and political autonomy. Subject mcm best, tapi mcm susah jugak. Saper2 yg keje bank especially Bank Negara will benefit most from this subject. I'm thinking to join Bank Negara or KLSE kalau tak dpt jadi lecturer..so nampak gayanya kena gak ler belajar Finance. Aduh..kuatkanlah semangatku Ya Allah.
:)
Today is a good day..hari Jumaat..hari yg penuh berkat, i should be very happy for being able to breathe and still alive to seek for forgiveness from Allah and from those who i had mistakenly did something wrong.
Saya minta maaf pada semua ada salah dan silap. Ingin diucapkan Salam Aidiladha kepadas semua semoga kita menghayati apa erti sebuah pengorbanan dr perspektif Islam yg sebenar.
Wish good luck also to Nisa' team for the Nisa' Games..i couldn't extend my hands at the moment due to my studies, insya Allah after habis study, berkesempatanlah insya Allah untuk bergerak kembali bersama secara lebih produktif.
Oklah yer..jumpa lagi insya Allah. Selamat hari Raya :)
Assalamualaikum warah matullahi wabarakatuh wa maghfiratuh.
Friday, December 29, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
Gambar2 mendamaikan
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Subhanallah...cantiknya gambar2 di bawah. Sgt mendamaikan :)
Subhanallah...cantiknya gambar2 di bawah. Sgt mendamaikan :)
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Impian hidup
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Rasa bersalah pulak sbb rasa bengang kat ofismate saya di dalam posting terdahulu..manusia tak pernah lepas dr kesilapan..tapi saya tak nak removekan posting saya tu..biar jadi satu catatan buat diri saya bahawa saya pernah mengalami cabaran di dalam bekerja hehe.
Kita selalu fikir bahawa masalah kita yang paling besar dalam dunia ni, sedangkan sebenarnya banyak isu di dunia ni yg lebih memerlukan perhatian.
Entah, mungkin kerana terlalu sibuk dengan kerja dan belajar...saya sudah lupa untuk melihat dunia ini dari sudut dan angle yang biasa saya buat dulu. Menghargai keindahan dan kegembiraan yang wujud di dalam pelbagai dimensi kehidupan..tidak kiralah dr sudut rohani dan sebagainya. Saya yang dulu terasa seperti ingin berlari menghadap dunia..ingin mencari makna kehidupan dengan cara saya sendiri..yang saya gambarkan umpama pencarian erti hidup yang diselangi dengan kegembiraan dan keseronokan kerana mendapat pengalaman dan pelajaran hidup.
Kini, terasa diri sedikit penat dan tidak berupaya untuk lari seperti dahulu. Tapi sungguh, saya tidak mahu semangat itu hilang dr diri saya. Saya masih ingin belajar mengenai kehidupan ini sebanyak-banyaknya, tanpa melupakan destinasi abadi saya di dunia sana. Menikmati kehidupan ini sepuas-puasnya..dan demi itu saya harus kukuh dengan apa yang saya sematkan dalam hati..yang sudah terbayang dan ingin saya tuju satu hari nanti.
Saya ingin bebas dari segala ikatan yang mengikat diri saya untuk membuat sesuatu yang saya inginkan dalam hidup.
:)
:)
Rasa bersalah pulak sbb rasa bengang kat ofismate saya di dalam posting terdahulu..manusia tak pernah lepas dr kesilapan..tapi saya tak nak removekan posting saya tu..biar jadi satu catatan buat diri saya bahawa saya pernah mengalami cabaran di dalam bekerja hehe.
Kita selalu fikir bahawa masalah kita yang paling besar dalam dunia ni, sedangkan sebenarnya banyak isu di dunia ni yg lebih memerlukan perhatian.
Entah, mungkin kerana terlalu sibuk dengan kerja dan belajar...saya sudah lupa untuk melihat dunia ini dari sudut dan angle yang biasa saya buat dulu. Menghargai keindahan dan kegembiraan yang wujud di dalam pelbagai dimensi kehidupan..tidak kiralah dr sudut rohani dan sebagainya. Saya yang dulu terasa seperti ingin berlari menghadap dunia..ingin mencari makna kehidupan dengan cara saya sendiri..yang saya gambarkan umpama pencarian erti hidup yang diselangi dengan kegembiraan dan keseronokan kerana mendapat pengalaman dan pelajaran hidup.
Kini, terasa diri sedikit penat dan tidak berupaya untuk lari seperti dahulu. Tapi sungguh, saya tidak mahu semangat itu hilang dr diri saya. Saya masih ingin belajar mengenai kehidupan ini sebanyak-banyaknya, tanpa melupakan destinasi abadi saya di dunia sana. Menikmati kehidupan ini sepuas-puasnya..dan demi itu saya harus kukuh dengan apa yang saya sematkan dalam hati..yang sudah terbayang dan ingin saya tuju satu hari nanti.
Saya ingin bebas dari segala ikatan yang mengikat diri saya untuk membuat sesuatu yang saya inginkan dalam hidup.
:)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Erti seorang kawan
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Saya baru kembali dr teambuilding FMD, alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dgn baik,kecuali ketika di sesi closing of the ceremony due to my own weakness sbb first time jadi organizer program kat FMD ni, being a someone yg perfectionist, sedikit terkilan sbb ada sedikit kecacatan di dalam program yang saya organize ini..tetapi saya juga patut menerima hakikat bahawa manusia itu tidak sempurna..kena menerima bahawa kita ini ada kekurangan dan kelebihan tersendiri. The best way ialah menerima kelemahan diri dan kemnudian memperbaiki diri di masa hadapan.
Di program tersebut saya ternangis di depan semua staff FMD, kerana menerima satu nota drpd groupmate, seorang kawan yang pernah rapat dgn saya dahulu, dan kini tidak lagi…saya sendiri tidak tahu kenapa dia menjauhkan diri dr saya. Saya menangis bukan kerana nota itu sendiri, tetapi kerana sender of that message himself. Kami satu kumpulan di teambuilding, tapi tidak berbicara seperti yang sepatutnya. Masing2 senyap kalau tiada perbincangan yang perlu membuat kami berbicara.
Telah lama saya sedar sikap beliau yg menjauhkan diri, malah sebelum kami ke Sabah & Sarawak pada bulan 6 yg lepas. Saya menghantar SMS, kad dan e mail memohon maaf pada beliau sekiranya ada kesilapan di pihak saya, tetapi tiada jawapan diterima. Beliau melihat saya tanpa senyum walaupun melalui hadapan bilik saya setiap hari untuk keluar masuk pejabat.
Pening kepala saya memikirkan apa masalah yg berlaku di antara kami berdua..mungkin saya tersilap bicara, tapi saya sudah meminta maaf walaupun saya tak pasti apa masalahnya.
Hari ini saya makan tgh hari dengan seorang ofismate yang sempat berbicara dgn beliau minggu lepas, and jangkaan rakan saya ini mengenai masalah di antara saya dan rakan saya seorang ini adalah disebabkan jawatan yang saya pegang sekarang ini.
Betul, saya akui saya sgt muda untuk memegang jawatan seorang pengurus di bahagian saya ini..tetapi saya hanya menerima tanggungjawab ini setelah insan yang sepatutnya memegang jawatan ini menolak awal2 untuk terus memegang jawatan ini kerana beliau tidak mahu berurusan secara direct dengan GM saya. Pada mulanya saya hampir2 menolak ketika ditawarkan post ini ..tetapi jawatan ini berkaitan dengan kerja2 yg melibatkan financial and strategy..being having accounting background, and I’m taking MBA at the moment berkenaan dengan Strategic Management, of course saya lebih meminati kerja2 ini drpd buat enforcement dan buat policy yang sepatutnya saya buat, tetapisekarang ini dibuat oleh insan yang menolak jawatan saya sekarang ini.Kami switch keje. She’s happy doing my original task, and myself also happy doing the financial and strategy walaupun bebannya sedikit berat dan tiada pertambahan gaji pun…tak kisahlah kan kalau gaji tak naik pun..kerana pertama saya lihat saya dpt belajar byk mengenai pengurusan, dan kedua saya mmg suka buat financial...saya sgt rindukan kerja2 Accounting ketika saya berada di bawah Legal & Account dahulu, and sekarang saya dah dapat, takkan saya nk lepaskan pula. My GM is being considerate to me by giving me an exec to assist me in running my unit, alhamdulillah.
Tapi tak sangka ada insan yang tidak suka saya berada di jawatan ini. Mengatakan it was an unwise decision to do the job and accept the responsibility..and I dun deserve this position becoz i'm too young. I love this job actually. By doing this job, I have the opportunity to learn new things that really interest me rather than doing investigation. Mmg menjawat position ini saya menerima byk kelebihan like having my own room yg besar, dapat pakai laptop yg hanya disediakan untuk manager dan investigator sahaja di bahagian saya ini, dan sering kena panggil berbincang dgn GM and other managers, tapi bukannya saya yg minta this post at the first place. Sekiranya insan yg patut menerima jawatan ini tidak menolak post ini awal2 dahulu, or even kalau dia mahukan jawatan ini dipulangkan kepadanya kembali..saya tiada masalah untuk mengembalikan post ini kepadanya.
Saya juga dapat tahu bahawa ada yg tak puas hati kerana saya dah tak huha lagi mcm dulu. Bagaimana mahu huha kalau kerja direct bawah GM yg biasanya terpaksa membuat kerja2 yang urgent..kemudian ditambah lagi dengan study saya. Kekadang time takde kejelah saya mencari bahan di Internet atau buat assignment, atau baca buku. Tiada masa sgt nk huha2 mcm saya jadi exec di Legal & Account dulu. Agaknya mereka terasa seperti saya ini mengasingkan diri, tapi nk kata saya mengasingkan diri pun tidak juga coz saya berjalan2 juga ke unit lain atau jumpa staff saya. Cuma mmg bukan perangai saya nak buang masa berbual2 time saya tgh ada keje.
Biler saya duduk kat post ni, baru saya kenal siapa kawan sejati sebenarnya. Bukanlah sikap saya suka bergaduh…tapi kalau org dah minta maaf byk kali tapi tak sanggup nk maafkan, saya pun rasa bengang jugak, takkan mahu disembah baru nak maafkan kot.Lagi buat saya bengang sbb saya tak tau apa salah saya. Kalau bergaduh tau punca ok jugaklah kot, ni blur, tak tau apa citer.
Serious, saya tak suka kawan sebegini. Kalau tak suka, bagitau apa masalahnya so that I can clarify or rectify the things..ni menjauhkan diri terus, buat masalah lagi teruk lagi ada. Sekali kawan saya yang lain pernah buat begitu pada saya, saya lecture terus, bagi 5 6 SMS sekaligus. Dahlah time tu saya mmg tak bersalah tapi disalah anggap…mmg panjang berjela ler saya lecture. Tak puas hati cakap..bukannya dapat apa pun kalau pendam2. Cakap terus terang apa salah saya, then saya tahulah apa nk betulkan. Ntah apa2 jek. For me, seorang kawan adalah seorang yg sanggup tegur dan tunjukkan apa salah kita, supaya kita menjadi seorang yg lebih baik. Yg sanggup bertolak ansur walaupun dia tahu dia tidak bersalah dan berada di pihak yang benar. Saya sebenarnya tak pernah ada kawan mcm ni, yg jenis tak reti nk maafkan org. Seingat saya ketika saya di MMU dulu, saya pernah bergaduh dgn 2 org sahaja, iaitu Ika dan Abg Nafis. Gaduh ngan Ika tu, mmg salah saya sendiri, tu pun Ika sanggup buatkan saya breakfast before saya pegi exam padahal time tu kami tgh gaduh, punyerlah baik si Tikot ni. Ngan Abg Nafis..saya rasa saya gak kot yg jadi punca sbb saya over sensitif...kami tak bercakap juga beberapa minggu..tapi time tu saya tahu apa salah saya, and kami tak bercakap pun tak lama..ok balik sebab we were partner biro Usrah dulu.
Sampai sekarang saya berharap agar perhubungan saya dgn ofismate saya ni will get better soon..harap sgt2 actually. Kalau tak jalan juga, apalah yg saya boleh buat after 3 4 kali minta maaf, org buat dek jek. Pada awal2 dulu mmg tertekan saya dibuatnya..sbb saya sayang friendship kami yg pernah terjalin..sanggup minta maaf walaupun tak tau apa masalah sebenarnya. Skang ni..berdoa yg terbaik shjlah. Sudah malas nk layan perasaan, sbb biler layan saya jadi sedih..tu yg ternangis waktu kat teambuilding tu. Kalau dia tak suka saya duduk di post ini, apa yg boleh saya buat. Takkan saya nak minta dilepaskan jawatan pulak. Last resort, buat yg terbaik jerlah sambil berdoa semoga semuanya ok.
Manusia ini penuh dengan pelbagai karenah dan gaya..tapi takpe, at least by having this crisis, make me more mature mengenai pergaulan sesama rakan dan manusia.
Ketika dalam krisis ini juga, saya teringat Jenal pernah beritahu saya bahawa bukan semua benda yang kita buat kita nak cerita kat org (time tu Treasurer SRC kami merajuk ngan dia time buat program College), baru saya faham maksud dia yg sebenarnya. Kita berdiam diri dan senyap, pasti ada sesuatu sebab cthnya keje/study..tetapi takkanlah kita nak heboh2 kat org kita tgh buat apa yang sampai buat kita senyap dan kurang bergaul dgn org.
Oklah yer..jumpa lagi…actually nk citer perkara2 yg best..tapi terkeluar citer yg tak best..biar saya luahkan kat sini sbb lepas ni saya dah malas nak ambil pusing lagi pasal hal ni..you do your own job, and i do mine..saya takdelah kejam sgt..tapi bengang gak ngan org yg berperangai mcm ni..dah ler sy tgh migraine ni. Sabarkanlah hati ini Ya Allah...moga sentiasa sabar dan bersangka baik dengan org. Susah nk berlapang dada ni sebenarnya, especially kalau kita rasa kita betul. Kalaulah tak ingat Islam mengajar supaya tak berdendam atau bergaduh, agaknya lama dah lidah ni jadi cepat laser, kerana sayangkan kawan dan tak mahu gaduh2, sanggup menahan telinga kena perli and sindiran yg tajam. Kalau tak fikirkan bahawa kalau jadi laser akan buat suasana lagi teruk, mmg cepat sahaja terasa mulut ini ingin menjawab. Syukur saya mmg berat mulut kalau part2 nak melaser2 org ni, sbb bukannya best pun main laser2 ni..nanti lagi teruk keadaan. Baik senyap and buat dek jek .
Hoping that my du’a will come true..tak perlu nak pening2 kepala pasal org lagi insya Allah. Ameen.
Saya nk minta diri dulu..kepala saya sudah semakin sakit.
Assalamualaikum wbt.
Saya baru kembali dr teambuilding FMD, alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dgn baik,kecuali ketika di sesi closing of the ceremony due to my own weakness sbb first time jadi organizer program kat FMD ni, being a someone yg perfectionist, sedikit terkilan sbb ada sedikit kecacatan di dalam program yang saya organize ini..tetapi saya juga patut menerima hakikat bahawa manusia itu tidak sempurna..kena menerima bahawa kita ini ada kekurangan dan kelebihan tersendiri. The best way ialah menerima kelemahan diri dan kemnudian memperbaiki diri di masa hadapan.
Di program tersebut saya ternangis di depan semua staff FMD, kerana menerima satu nota drpd groupmate, seorang kawan yang pernah rapat dgn saya dahulu, dan kini tidak lagi…saya sendiri tidak tahu kenapa dia menjauhkan diri dr saya. Saya menangis bukan kerana nota itu sendiri, tetapi kerana sender of that message himself. Kami satu kumpulan di teambuilding, tapi tidak berbicara seperti yang sepatutnya. Masing2 senyap kalau tiada perbincangan yang perlu membuat kami berbicara.
Telah lama saya sedar sikap beliau yg menjauhkan diri, malah sebelum kami ke Sabah & Sarawak pada bulan 6 yg lepas. Saya menghantar SMS, kad dan e mail memohon maaf pada beliau sekiranya ada kesilapan di pihak saya, tetapi tiada jawapan diterima. Beliau melihat saya tanpa senyum walaupun melalui hadapan bilik saya setiap hari untuk keluar masuk pejabat.
Pening kepala saya memikirkan apa masalah yg berlaku di antara kami berdua..mungkin saya tersilap bicara, tapi saya sudah meminta maaf walaupun saya tak pasti apa masalahnya.
Hari ini saya makan tgh hari dengan seorang ofismate yang sempat berbicara dgn beliau minggu lepas, and jangkaan rakan saya ini mengenai masalah di antara saya dan rakan saya seorang ini adalah disebabkan jawatan yang saya pegang sekarang ini.
Betul, saya akui saya sgt muda untuk memegang jawatan seorang pengurus di bahagian saya ini..tetapi saya hanya menerima tanggungjawab ini setelah insan yang sepatutnya memegang jawatan ini menolak awal2 untuk terus memegang jawatan ini kerana beliau tidak mahu berurusan secara direct dengan GM saya. Pada mulanya saya hampir2 menolak ketika ditawarkan post ini ..tetapi jawatan ini berkaitan dengan kerja2 yg melibatkan financial and strategy..being having accounting background, and I’m taking MBA at the moment berkenaan dengan Strategic Management, of course saya lebih meminati kerja2 ini drpd buat enforcement dan buat policy yang sepatutnya saya buat, tetapisekarang ini dibuat oleh insan yang menolak jawatan saya sekarang ini.Kami switch keje. She’s happy doing my original task, and myself also happy doing the financial and strategy walaupun bebannya sedikit berat dan tiada pertambahan gaji pun…tak kisahlah kan kalau gaji tak naik pun..kerana pertama saya lihat saya dpt belajar byk mengenai pengurusan, dan kedua saya mmg suka buat financial...saya sgt rindukan kerja2 Accounting ketika saya berada di bawah Legal & Account dahulu, and sekarang saya dah dapat, takkan saya nk lepaskan pula. My GM is being considerate to me by giving me an exec to assist me in running my unit, alhamdulillah.
Tapi tak sangka ada insan yang tidak suka saya berada di jawatan ini. Mengatakan it was an unwise decision to do the job and accept the responsibility..and I dun deserve this position becoz i'm too young. I love this job actually. By doing this job, I have the opportunity to learn new things that really interest me rather than doing investigation. Mmg menjawat position ini saya menerima byk kelebihan like having my own room yg besar, dapat pakai laptop yg hanya disediakan untuk manager dan investigator sahaja di bahagian saya ini, dan sering kena panggil berbincang dgn GM and other managers, tapi bukannya saya yg minta this post at the first place. Sekiranya insan yg patut menerima jawatan ini tidak menolak post ini awal2 dahulu, or even kalau dia mahukan jawatan ini dipulangkan kepadanya kembali..saya tiada masalah untuk mengembalikan post ini kepadanya.
Saya juga dapat tahu bahawa ada yg tak puas hati kerana saya dah tak huha lagi mcm dulu. Bagaimana mahu huha kalau kerja direct bawah GM yg biasanya terpaksa membuat kerja2 yang urgent..kemudian ditambah lagi dengan study saya. Kekadang time takde kejelah saya mencari bahan di Internet atau buat assignment, atau baca buku. Tiada masa sgt nk huha2 mcm saya jadi exec di Legal & Account dulu. Agaknya mereka terasa seperti saya ini mengasingkan diri, tapi nk kata saya mengasingkan diri pun tidak juga coz saya berjalan2 juga ke unit lain atau jumpa staff saya. Cuma mmg bukan perangai saya nak buang masa berbual2 time saya tgh ada keje.
Biler saya duduk kat post ni, baru saya kenal siapa kawan sejati sebenarnya. Bukanlah sikap saya suka bergaduh…tapi kalau org dah minta maaf byk kali tapi tak sanggup nk maafkan, saya pun rasa bengang jugak, takkan mahu disembah baru nak maafkan kot.Lagi buat saya bengang sbb saya tak tau apa salah saya. Kalau bergaduh tau punca ok jugaklah kot, ni blur, tak tau apa citer.
Serious, saya tak suka kawan sebegini. Kalau tak suka, bagitau apa masalahnya so that I can clarify or rectify the things..ni menjauhkan diri terus, buat masalah lagi teruk lagi ada. Sekali kawan saya yang lain pernah buat begitu pada saya, saya lecture terus, bagi 5 6 SMS sekaligus. Dahlah time tu saya mmg tak bersalah tapi disalah anggap…mmg panjang berjela ler saya lecture. Tak puas hati cakap..bukannya dapat apa pun kalau pendam2. Cakap terus terang apa salah saya, then saya tahulah apa nk betulkan. Ntah apa2 jek. For me, seorang kawan adalah seorang yg sanggup tegur dan tunjukkan apa salah kita, supaya kita menjadi seorang yg lebih baik. Yg sanggup bertolak ansur walaupun dia tahu dia tidak bersalah dan berada di pihak yang benar. Saya sebenarnya tak pernah ada kawan mcm ni, yg jenis tak reti nk maafkan org. Seingat saya ketika saya di MMU dulu, saya pernah bergaduh dgn 2 org sahaja, iaitu Ika dan Abg Nafis. Gaduh ngan Ika tu, mmg salah saya sendiri, tu pun Ika sanggup buatkan saya breakfast before saya pegi exam padahal time tu kami tgh gaduh, punyerlah baik si Tikot ni. Ngan Abg Nafis..saya rasa saya gak kot yg jadi punca sbb saya over sensitif...kami tak bercakap juga beberapa minggu..tapi time tu saya tahu apa salah saya, and kami tak bercakap pun tak lama..ok balik sebab we were partner biro Usrah dulu.
Sampai sekarang saya berharap agar perhubungan saya dgn ofismate saya ni will get better soon..harap sgt2 actually. Kalau tak jalan juga, apalah yg saya boleh buat after 3 4 kali minta maaf, org buat dek jek. Pada awal2 dulu mmg tertekan saya dibuatnya..sbb saya sayang friendship kami yg pernah terjalin..sanggup minta maaf walaupun tak tau apa masalah sebenarnya. Skang ni..berdoa yg terbaik shjlah. Sudah malas nk layan perasaan, sbb biler layan saya jadi sedih..tu yg ternangis waktu kat teambuilding tu. Kalau dia tak suka saya duduk di post ini, apa yg boleh saya buat. Takkan saya nak minta dilepaskan jawatan pulak. Last resort, buat yg terbaik jerlah sambil berdoa semoga semuanya ok.
Manusia ini penuh dengan pelbagai karenah dan gaya..tapi takpe, at least by having this crisis, make me more mature mengenai pergaulan sesama rakan dan manusia.
Ketika dalam krisis ini juga, saya teringat Jenal pernah beritahu saya bahawa bukan semua benda yang kita buat kita nak cerita kat org (time tu Treasurer SRC kami merajuk ngan dia time buat program College), baru saya faham maksud dia yg sebenarnya. Kita berdiam diri dan senyap, pasti ada sesuatu sebab cthnya keje/study..tetapi takkanlah kita nak heboh2 kat org kita tgh buat apa yang sampai buat kita senyap dan kurang bergaul dgn org.
Oklah yer..jumpa lagi…actually nk citer perkara2 yg best..tapi terkeluar citer yg tak best..biar saya luahkan kat sini sbb lepas ni saya dah malas nak ambil pusing lagi pasal hal ni..you do your own job, and i do mine..saya takdelah kejam sgt..tapi bengang gak ngan org yg berperangai mcm ni..dah ler sy tgh migraine ni. Sabarkanlah hati ini Ya Allah...moga sentiasa sabar dan bersangka baik dengan org. Susah nk berlapang dada ni sebenarnya, especially kalau kita rasa kita betul. Kalaulah tak ingat Islam mengajar supaya tak berdendam atau bergaduh, agaknya lama dah lidah ni jadi cepat laser, kerana sayangkan kawan dan tak mahu gaduh2, sanggup menahan telinga kena perli and sindiran yg tajam. Kalau tak fikirkan bahawa kalau jadi laser akan buat suasana lagi teruk, mmg cepat sahaja terasa mulut ini ingin menjawab. Syukur saya mmg berat mulut kalau part2 nak melaser2 org ni, sbb bukannya best pun main laser2 ni..nanti lagi teruk keadaan. Baik senyap and buat dek jek .
Hoping that my du’a will come true..tak perlu nak pening2 kepala pasal org lagi insya Allah. Ameen.
Saya nk minta diri dulu..kepala saya sudah semakin sakit.
Assalamualaikum wbt.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Seoul
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Semalam join Scorecard Challenge Meeting for Group Finance, with GCFO as the Chairman checked and challenge one by one scorecard all divisions in Group Finance.My second big boss takde krn attend SmartOrange, so my GM and I had to attend the meeting to back up Group Business Assurance (GBA) Scorecard.
Petang tu had a discussion with Pn Hasiah on the BSC, and after that buat keje di ofis Siha sementara menunggu dinner di Seoul di Plaza Pantai.
Aniza joined us despite of sudden invitation...ajak juga Sam tapi dia tgh bz ngan keje..heran betul ofis Aniza and Sam ni..memalam pun masih aktif lagi..we went to Seoul with adik Siha...and there we had our dinner.
Best..yummy..and yg paling best sbb dpt jumpa Aniza..minah ni adalah satu2nya geng yang boleh usik and kenakan me all the time, we are close especially waktu kat Pre-U dulu..pastu i sambung degree di cyber, dia di melaka.
Semalam selepas dah lama tak cekik tengkuk orang..Aniza yg kena hehe,best best.
Next time Niza kalau nk kena cekik lagi dgn me..blehlaa kita kuar makan lagi hehe.
Alrite, nk pen off dulu..assalamualaikum :)
:)
Semalam join Scorecard Challenge Meeting for Group Finance, with GCFO as the Chairman checked and challenge one by one scorecard all divisions in Group Finance.My second big boss takde krn attend SmartOrange, so my GM and I had to attend the meeting to back up Group Business Assurance (GBA) Scorecard.
Petang tu had a discussion with Pn Hasiah on the BSC, and after that buat keje di ofis Siha sementara menunggu dinner di Seoul di Plaza Pantai.
Aniza joined us despite of sudden invitation...ajak juga Sam tapi dia tgh bz ngan keje..heran betul ofis Aniza and Sam ni..memalam pun masih aktif lagi..we went to Seoul with adik Siha...and there we had our dinner.
Best..yummy..and yg paling best sbb dpt jumpa Aniza..minah ni adalah satu2nya geng yang boleh usik and kenakan me all the time, we are close especially waktu kat Pre-U dulu..pastu i sambung degree di cyber, dia di melaka.
Semalam selepas dah lama tak cekik tengkuk orang..Aniza yg kena hehe,best best.
Next time Niza kalau nk kena cekik lagi dgn me..blehlaa kita kuar makan lagi hehe.
Alrite, nk pen off dulu..assalamualaikum :)
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
A Story To Read
Assalamualaikum wbt,
A story to learn about...(taken from Kak Sity's blog)
I took this story from Ayu... she got it from her good fren mayee... it is a sad story.. so caution to those with weak hearts :P ehhehehe
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay,physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to thesecond-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter,having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
Ternangis baca citer ni..ya Allah, Kau kurniakanlah kemudahan kepada semua ibu bapa yg mempunyai anak yang kurang upaya.
(2) Saya sdg organize teambuilding 2006 FMD for my division for this becoming 12-14 Dec 2006 at Ulu Pangsun..hehe..i had arranged exciting outdoor activities with consultant like war games, flying fox and rakit challenge..could not wait for this event..but i bet balik event ni..sure badan jadi mcm robot coz we have all outdoor activities in Ulu Pangsun. 1 kelas jek indoor, tu pun sbb nak time dh nk balik KL balik. Tn Hj suh arrange solat dlm hutan, tak kiralah time tu tgh basah kuyup baru lepas redah sungai atau tidak..huh..ganas betul my GM nih...siap kena kira markah plak tu..saper tak solat kena tolak markah, tak solat jemaah pun kena tolak markah..bagus bagus..time ni ler nak expose those yg tak pernah solat dlm hutan mcm mana nak solat kalau dlm keadaan darurat ngee ngee :D
(3) Saya baru habis mid term As Shariah..had a heavy flu time menjawab paper exam..dr mula menulis sampailah ke huruf terakhir..astaghfirullah..mmg rasanya ada among my classmates yg tergelak kot dgr saya bersin tak henti2...the exam was ok..nk kata senang pun ok jugak sbb sebelum hari exam tu, kami buat discussion on past year papers. Ketika solat Maghrib di masjid KLCC selepas balik discussion di UIA, mmg terkejut biler tetiba Ika and Siha tegur rite after me bagi salam, tak sangka lak terjumpa kat masjid tu...pastu kitorang round KLCC kejap sebelum heading to Big Plate,Taman Melawati for dinner. Tell you what, that was my first time berhuha sebelum nk exam, sebelum ni jgn harap ler nk sajer2 buang masa kalau time nk exam. Tapi maybe sbb dh buat discussion..ok kot. Malam sebelum exam tu pun i went to sleep early, woke up to revise my notes at 5.30 a.m. Siha tergelak biler dpt tau yg kami buat discussion hanya untuk mid term yg bernilai 20% jer dr seluruh assessment. Tapi percayalah, mid term nilaa yg membezakan kita akan dapat A ker tak..dahlaa UIA ni ada quota nk bagi A. Hopefully result ok, insya Allah. Habis exam Ika masak lunch kat umah dia, sebelum makan ambil ubat, lepas makan terus tumbang.
Petang tu ikut Siha pegi PIKOM kat KLCC, ingat nak usha camera, tapi disebabkan time mengusha tu pun less than 1 hour exhibition tu nk close, tak jadilah..usha lain kali. Tapi mmg habislaa sumer org counter camera tu diinterview sbb nak tau spec paling bagus. My camera skang ni nama jek my camera, tapi my younger sisters yg guna, bawak pegi sekolahlaa..asramalaa, kolejlaa..mementang kakak dia sorang ni jenis mmg tak ambil gambar selalu. Pasni kalau beli lagi sekali..saper2 nk pinjam kena bayar sewa..best gak,kan? Hehe :D
Oklah ek, esok nak pi join BSC Scorecard Challenge Meeting kat Menara..nk tgk
mcm mana sesi ni dijalankan..and time ni ler nk kenal all the big boss kat Group Finance ni.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)
A story to learn about...(taken from Kak Sity's blog)
I took this story from Ayu... she got it from her good fren mayee... it is a sad story.. so caution to those with weak hearts :P ehhehehe
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay,physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to thesecond-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter,having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
Ternangis baca citer ni..ya Allah, Kau kurniakanlah kemudahan kepada semua ibu bapa yg mempunyai anak yang kurang upaya.
(2) Saya sdg organize teambuilding 2006 FMD for my division for this becoming 12-14 Dec 2006 at Ulu Pangsun..hehe..i had arranged exciting outdoor activities with consultant like war games, flying fox and rakit challenge..could not wait for this event..but i bet balik event ni..sure badan jadi mcm robot coz we have all outdoor activities in Ulu Pangsun. 1 kelas jek indoor, tu pun sbb nak time dh nk balik KL balik. Tn Hj suh arrange solat dlm hutan, tak kiralah time tu tgh basah kuyup baru lepas redah sungai atau tidak..huh..ganas betul my GM nih...siap kena kira markah plak tu..saper tak solat kena tolak markah, tak solat jemaah pun kena tolak markah..bagus bagus..time ni ler nak expose those yg tak pernah solat dlm hutan mcm mana nak solat kalau dlm keadaan darurat ngee ngee :D
(3) Saya baru habis mid term As Shariah..had a heavy flu time menjawab paper exam..dr mula menulis sampailah ke huruf terakhir..astaghfirullah..mmg rasanya ada among my classmates yg tergelak kot dgr saya bersin tak henti2...the exam was ok..nk kata senang pun ok jugak sbb sebelum hari exam tu, kami buat discussion on past year papers. Ketika solat Maghrib di masjid KLCC selepas balik discussion di UIA, mmg terkejut biler tetiba Ika and Siha tegur rite after me bagi salam, tak sangka lak terjumpa kat masjid tu...pastu kitorang round KLCC kejap sebelum heading to Big Plate,Taman Melawati for dinner. Tell you what, that was my first time berhuha sebelum nk exam, sebelum ni jgn harap ler nk sajer2 buang masa kalau time nk exam. Tapi maybe sbb dh buat discussion..ok kot. Malam sebelum exam tu pun i went to sleep early, woke up to revise my notes at 5.30 a.m. Siha tergelak biler dpt tau yg kami buat discussion hanya untuk mid term yg bernilai 20% jer dr seluruh assessment. Tapi percayalah, mid term nilaa yg membezakan kita akan dapat A ker tak..dahlaa UIA ni ada quota nk bagi A. Hopefully result ok, insya Allah. Habis exam Ika masak lunch kat umah dia, sebelum makan ambil ubat, lepas makan terus tumbang.
Petang tu ikut Siha pegi PIKOM kat KLCC, ingat nak usha camera, tapi disebabkan time mengusha tu pun less than 1 hour exhibition tu nk close, tak jadilah..usha lain kali. Tapi mmg habislaa sumer org counter camera tu diinterview sbb nak tau spec paling bagus. My camera skang ni nama jek my camera, tapi my younger sisters yg guna, bawak pegi sekolahlaa..asramalaa, kolejlaa..mementang kakak dia sorang ni jenis mmg tak ambil gambar selalu. Pasni kalau beli lagi sekali..saper2 nk pinjam kena bayar sewa..best gak,kan? Hehe :D
Oklah ek, esok nak pi join BSC Scorecard Challenge Meeting kat Menara..nk tgk
mcm mana sesi ni dijalankan..and time ni ler nk kenal all the big boss kat Group Finance ni.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)
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