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Assalamualaikum wbt,

Alhamdulillah!!!

Dapat result exam semalam. I'm the second highest in the class, defeated by 1 or 2 marks extra by this pakcik yg memang tak dinafikan pandai and rajinlaa..dlm kelas selalu tanya ustaz pasal itu and ini yg menyebabkan aku yg mmg tak tau bende ni ternganga2, dahlaa tu, selalu tak dtg kelas pulak (bukan ponteng ek, tak dtg sbb selalu outstation hehe).

One thing pokcik ni biler dia bertanya, takde aa irritating mcm pokcik yg selalu berlagak pandai mcm dalam kelas Mak Teh and Kak Rin kat Level 1 dulu (setiap kali lepas kelas jek derang akan ngumpat pokcik tu, kesian jek dgr, tapi tu aa..saper suh berlagak pandai mcm tau sumer, so bebudak yg baru nak belajar mulalaa tak puas hati.Yg derang tak puas hati tu sbb soalan yg patutnya ustaz yang jawab, ni dia lak berlagak cam ustaz pegi jawabkan sumer soalan yg ditanya dek bebudak kelas, maunya tak bengang org dibuatnya). Syukur syukur dalam kelas aku takde org camtuh, cuma aku selalu compete ngan sorang Dato' ni aa, kat level 2 dulu pernah bertekak ngan dia pasal Arabic ni sbb dia tak nak ustaz ajar kaedah yang susah2 and complete, aku lak nak vice versa.Rugi ah belajar tak complete. Susah pun takpe, tak faham pun takpelah kan, as long as diberikan pendedahan.Takde aa nanti naik level ternganga2 sbb tak pernah belajar. Tapi skang ni aku ngan Dato' ni kira geng gaklaa..sbb kalau Dato' tu borak ngan ustaz, mesti pandang muka aku jer mcm nak minta consent kakakaka. (uish, riak dah ni hehe)

So semalam our last class, kitorang buat pot luck makan sesama reramai. Dato' ni bawa roti Perancis dan kuah kacang ful (cam mana ntah nak spell nama kacang nih, tapi kacang yg mmg glamer di Arab). Sedap giler dia buat, dia masak sendiri tu, siap kitorang minta resepi camner nak buat. Mmg best sampai kitorang semua bantai makan 2 ketul roti each of one. Siap Dato' tu bawak bekas tupperwear plastik siap2 bekalkan kitorang sorang satu kuah kacang tu. Very generous of him, alhamdulillah.

Semalam sumer org pakat2 tak nak pergi majlis penyampaian sijil yang formal sbb kitorang dah enjoy berborak and makan-makan. Buat penyampaian di kelas sendiri jek. Time ni ler mmg sumer org pakat berbual to get know each other very well, and actually sumer org yg rata2 join this course mmg power2, Dato'2 and Datin2, doctors, professors, engineers, aku jek yg profession mcm takde ler bagus sgt. Hei, tapi dah patut bersyukurlah,kan? Allah dah cukup Pemurahlah tu nak bagi kita kerja and peluang mendapatkan nafkah, kalau tak, jangankan nak join kelas ni, nak makan seharian pun belum tentu dapat :)

Waktu nak balik, semua pakat nak sambung and jumpa balik kat kelas Lanjutan 1. Ustaz Rahimi pesan jgn fed up belajar Arabic ni. Susah mcm mana pun jgn fed up. Pastu siap analogikan kelas ni mcm makan nasi. Dia kata, kita belajar ni mcm makan nasi. Walaupun kekadang kita makan lauk tak sedap, tapi kita tetap makan juga hari2. Maksudnya kenalah bersabar dan istiqamah.

Alhamdulillah for the good result that i've got. Actually i belajar 2 hari jer, dan satu hari tu i kurung diri dlm bilik meeting utk study (patutnya i cuti, tapi manager suh dtg gak handle something, so pas habis buat keje i study dlm bilik meeting sengsorang). Teringat waktu jadi SRC dulu, time exam jek melarikan diri kat tempat2 yg susah org nak cari hehe). Actually usaha tak kuat sgt, banyaknya kepada markah belas ehsan ustaz jer rasanya. Dia bagi kitorang markah penuh utk attendance, tu yg byk membantu sebenarnya. I yg selalu tak dtg outstation pun dia bagi markah penuh atttendance. Baik betul ustaz Rahimi ni.

Waktu balik Mak Teh bincang pasal Ustaz Wan Zuki yg ajar i kat Level 2 dulu. Kak Juriah, my ex-classmate cakap yg ustaz Wan Zuki ni ajar laju giler sampai dia tak dpt nak catch up, tapi dia ajar mmg complete.. Cuba bayangkan dalam kelas selama 2 jam tu, dia boleh ajar dialog dan tamarin lengkap takde tinggal soalan satu pun kecuali soalan yg kacang2 sgt tak perlu nak diperbincangkan, tapi jrg sgt kes yg mcm tu. Dan yg paling kitorang faham sgt2, setengah jam terakhir kelas dia akan suh bina ayat dan jawab soalan sorang2. Part ni ler yg tak best tuh, sbb sumer org kena bersedia. For me, i also have to admit yg ustaz ni mmg ajar laju, siap dlm borang penilaian pengajar tu, i've commented that he was teaching like a rocket. Tapi baguslaa cara dia and i mmg puas hati pun, sbb i faham kot yg bagus tu hehe. Yang lain allahualam. Yg tak dpt catch up tu mmg susah sket kot nak faham nahu yg basic2 ni. Tapi ok jek Dato' and 8 9 org yg lain. Kiranya execptionallah case org tak faham Ustaz Wan Zuki ni ajar apa. But he was very concern with this one kakak yg belajar next to me dulu. Mmg i know she can't catch up very well, and ustaz siap bagi dia tambahan notes bagi dia faham. Bagus ah ustaz ni.And tindakan Kak Juriah utk stay kat level 2 sampai dia bebetul faham mmg bagus. Sbb i rasa saper yg tak dpt nak catch up kat level 2, ibarat membunuh diri di Level 3. Sbbnya syllabus 3 ni dah susah dan tersangatlah abstract aku rasa. Ustaz Rahimi pun cakap yg Level 3 ni mmg level yg paling susah sebenarnya dlm byk2 kelas level dan lanjutan Arabic kat UIA.

Mungkin ingat nak sambung ke Lanjutan 1 pulak pasni. Tapi tak berani nak janji sbb takut kelas MBA susah, nanti tak dpt nak catch up dedua. Kena tgk keadaan dulu. Hopefully bleh manage dedua. Doakan k :)

Semalam waktu balik ada sorang datin ni terjatuh kat jalan tar waktu nak turun ke kelas balik waktu habis penyampaian sijil. Habis berdarah dahi and hidung dia. Nasib baik ada doktor, my classmate tolong tgkkan luka dia. Pastu ada org hantar dia kat Assunta Hospital. Yang ngeri tgk tu, jari dia dislocate sebiji mcm jari watak pemanjat gunung wanita dlm Vertical Limit yang dislocate time nak cari adik hero yg terjatuh dlm gaung tu. Allah bagi dugaan kat dia, moga dia redha. Ada rahmat tu insya-Allah (tak kiralah rahmat apa, rahmat untuk rasa bersyukur sbb baru terjatuh kat jalan jer,dan bukannya jatuh dr helikopter ker, kapal terbang ker, so rahmat juga tu and kena bersyukurlah jugak tu,kan? )

Ok, panjang dah catatan hari ni.

Jumpa lagi insya-Allah :)

Wassalam.

Retorika

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Learnt a lot within this week. Alhamdulillah Allah bukakan jalan untuk belajar pelbagai perspektif kehidupan...sebagai seorang insan.

Subhanallah walhamdulillah.

Melihat cara orang lain berfikir yang ternyata betapa matang dan bersedianya mereka di dalam menangani, menghalusi dan menimbangtara sesuatu keadaan yang terhasil dalam satu-satu keadaan menyebabkan diri ini tertanya " Biler aku boleh jadi seperti mereka?"

Hati menjawab, " semua insan berbeza dari segi pemikiran, perbuatan dan pengamalan, manakan sama setiap orang dalam berbuat dan berfikir sesuatu."

Betul. Tapi aku berharap aku boleh mencapai tahap kematangan fikiran seperti itu.

Mungkin satu hari nanti,biiznillah insya-Allah.

Wassalam.

Tepu..

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Rite now my brain is tepu, tepu setepunya. I can't pour anything inside anymore.

Why tepu?

Hehe,study for my Arabic final exam. I wanted very badly to take leave for today, but my manager called me at 10 p.m last nite just to ask me to copy down his presentation file to other managers' laptops!! Arrghhh...sometimes people just do not know how to be independent for such small tasks. Ni mulalah nak buat ghibah ni, astaghfirullah.

Luckily this time my manager is going for the presentation in Perak, and i wished him luck since this is his first time doing presentation in front of external customers. I never liked being the presenter for the external customers coz it need your guts to present for about 1 hour in English in front of the big customers, and i dun like the idea of thinking and guessing whether do they understand or not what i'm trying to tell them since our presentation is a little bit technical.But, i have to admit that the chance given to me to become the presenter had brought me to a lot of places, and i did enjoyed my trips especially in Sabah and Sarawak cos my officemates and i managed to travel and did a lot of things together. Really had fun actually.

I now that my current template of blog is dull and quite empty i would say. But i'm not keen to change any part of it, yet. Busy of handling a lot of things and my fingers are fully tied. Sometimes you just feel that you want to dissapear from this Earth for about one week and then come back again to continue your routine life. I wish i can do that, but where i wanna go? To other planets you think? Har har har, you can dream and only dream to have those opportunities.

Hey, why my blog sounds so bad and uurrghh, tense?

Hehe, i do not knowlah what to say. Whether i shall arrange my life in more proper way or i shall stay put into what i'm doing and facing now.

I think the first one is better i guess. I hate when at a time you really and very badly want to have some changes or face new things in life, unpredicted new things come and change all the way whatever you have planned before.

The exact point that i want to scream out is:

WHY LER I HAVE TO REPLACE KAK FIDA TO BECOME A BUSINESS CONTROLLER? MY OWN JOBS NOW PUN ARE OUT OF MY HANDS. AAARRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Full stop.

Humiliation

Assalamualaikum wbt again,

Yeah i know i know, it's like a decade that i have not touch this blog. Not becoz i dun have idea to write upon, tapi mcm malas nak mengarang and update apa yg perlu ;)

Last Monday went to Rahimi's wedding ceremony, giler lama pengantin bertakhta kat singgahsana makan beradab. Jenuh menunggu bilerlaa pengantin ni nak turun-turun, last2 turun juga, siap meredah semak samun nak jumpa kitorang. Memang terharulah raja sehari meredah semak samun nak berjumpa dengan rakyat jelata. Hehe.

Yesterday went to MARA accompanying my sister buat education loan, punyerlah lama siap i have the chance utk interview org2 counter lagi tanya ttg pre-requisite utk apply loan. Pastu jumpa bebudak yg nak apply loan juga, n actually most of the students tgh apply nak pegi oversea i think. Bertuahnya mereka dpt pergi, one of my dreams is to further studies in UK. Tunggu Phd lah kot baru leh pergi. Skang ni grab apa yg dapat dulu. UIA pun best juga,kan? ;)

Arabic class went well. This becoming Monday will be our final exam after abt 5 months learning the subject. Actually i'm not that confident since banyak kelas that i had to let go due to my outstation occasions. Yet, my ustaz was very kind to discuss with us what are the questions that gonna be out (actually what he did was asking us abt several type of questions whether they are ok or not, if not ok then he won't take them as exam questions). Of course we would response based on our preference on easy questions.Giler best ustaz ni. Kalau tak pening mau mengingatkan in which condition the fi'il is mabni and i'rab, which conditions it turns to be mansub, majrur and majhul. Aiyaa..i dun even have the guts to open and review the book. So many things to catch up actually. Tapi nasib baik ustaz dah pinpoint soalan. Senang sket ler :)

My family? Actually my 3 youngest sisters were enjoying their holidays heavenly when my parent took them to Langkawi and did bla bla bla. Everyday called and update us on what they did for the 4 days they were there. Nice for them and nice for us yang dah besar2 ni coz we had enough freedom to do whatever we wanna do. It's not that with the appearance of my parent that i can't do anything that i want, but this time it was really giving my siblings and me a big break to spend our time and our money lavishly!!Har har har.

Ok, enough of telling my personal life.

Let's go to a more serious topic which i think is more worthy to talk about.

This morning i received an e mail, highlighting the real situations currently faced by our muslim brothers and sisters in most so-called Islamic countries. Suppression, killings and humiliations to them are something that we should think and ponder upon rite now. Personally i was so angry of what had happened to our Iraqis brothers. DAMN and hell to the kaafirun,(pardon me for my sick and vulgar wordings here), but really i am so angry with the Britons and American soldiers. Semoga Allah melaknati mereka! They are so-sick minded. What the heck of their thinking by humiliating people by making them do something so uncivilised with the intention to tear down their pride and honor! OURS actually, as muslims!!

And we, as the people admitting and declaring ourselves as muslim, what did we do to help them and ourselves?

I know at this point of time, we are lack of facilities to help the Palestinians, Iraqis and the rest, however we are still in the capacity of contributing something. Du'a and pray. Yes, we can help them by making du'a hoping all these suppressions end with victory at our side.

Satu titik darah muslimin takkan kita halalkan sampai bila-bila! Forever and ever! Until the end of our breath and until the time has come for us to meet our Khaliq. And i'm waiting for that time to claim for whatever destruction that they have caused us! Geram and marah sangat dengan mereka. Mmg digalakkan untuk berdoa supaya mereka turn to Islam, tapi derang jahat sangat that i'm hoping that they will be thrown into An-naar immediately without any judgement pun.

Astaghfirullah, emotionalnya catatan for today. But can we just sit down quitely seeing our muslim brothers were humiliated like animals? Of course you dun expect me to do that isn't it?

Praying much for our brothers and sister around the globe. May Allah save our aqeedah and lives till the end of our breath.

Wassalam.

Zaman dulu-dulu

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Hi everyone! Happy to see me again? Hehe.

Rite now next to me En. Zulhabri and Midun are playing some old romantic songs which i favour much hehe. Mengembalikan kenangan lama when Yaya and i used to listen to these songs together back our time in Pre-U dulu :)

I have one happy news for you all. I managed to join MBA program in UIA, will be starting in this becoming July insya-Allah.

Currently bz handling reunion for my school batch on this becoming 1 May. I used not to contact my frens during my study time dulu. And now i did, and only then i realized how much i missed them, how much i appreciate and treasure them, in my deepest heart. They were the one who backed me up in everything. Still remember despite of my position as Head Girl and Penolong Ketua Aspuri, my dormmates and i pernah kena denda tidur kat luar koridor for twice sbb buat bising..1 sbb excited nak balik umah, and the other sbb celebrate birthday saper ntah. Dahlah time tu tgh demam, warden tahan tak bagi masuk bilik sampai pukul 1 ker pukul 2 pagi. Pastu dia suh masuk bilik. Hehe.

During kena denda pasal celebrate birthday tu, our warden was very, very SAIKO. Coz she tortured us by giving lecture like this: (i still remember becoz i found it so funny, yet saiko jugak hehe)

Warden : Kenapa tak light off lagi? Dah pukul berapa dah ni?
Kami : Senyap (tak berani nak menjawab)
Warden : Ooo, kamu tak tahu nak light off pukul berapa yer? Nak cikgu terangkan?
Baik, kamu kenal apa itu jam?
Jam adalah sesuatu benda yang menunjukkan masa. Tak tau nak tgk masa light off? Light off pukul 11.15
mlm,kan?
Kami : Senyap lagi
Warden : Tak tahu nak tgk jam ker masing-masing? Mari sini cikgu terangkan yer (dgn nada berapi-api melecture kitorang)
Kamu kenal tak apa itu jarum panjang? Jarum panjang adalah jarum yang menunjuk kepada angka jam.
Apabila pukul 11.15 mlm, jarum panjang akan menunjuk kepada nombor 11.
Kami : Senyap lagi, but me dah start nak gelak sbb mcm rasa kelakar.
Warden : Tahu apa itu jarum pendek? Jarum pendek adalah jarum yang menunjuk angka minit. Kalau masa light off,
jarum pendek akan menunjuk kepada angka 3. Faham?!!
Kami : Senyap lagi. Semua menikus.
Warden : Angkat tangan masing-masing, saya nak ketuk tangan.
Kami : Serentak angkat tangan dan kenalah ketuk tgn dgn pembaris kayu.

Luckily i was the first person yg kena, so taklah sakit sgt. Yg lain, ada yang hampir nak berdarah. Agaknya warden ngamuk kot sbb masing-masing buat reaksi senyap, dia ingat tak sakit kot. Tu yang makin kuat dia ketuk tangan tu, nasib, nasib. Hehe. Sebelum dia bagi kami masuk tidur dlm dorm, dia kata esok nama kami kena panggil sorang2 kat depan perhimpunan.

Esoknya, i hide myself from others. Dah takut giler kalau kena panggil kat depan. Yerlah, pengawas buat perangai, maunya tak malu nanti kalau kena panggil. Alhamdulillah lepas, warden tak panggil pun. Tapi Ketua Aspuri (my geng juga tapi lain dorm) pandang lain macam jek. Yerlah, dah diamanah utk bantu dia jaga disiplin asrama, dgn penolong2 dia sekali kena denda dgn warden sbb buat perangai. Nasib ler dapat penolong like me.

Yg second case tu, semua kena tidur dlm stor next to our dorm. Giler maut punyer hukuman. Hehe.

Apa pun, semuanya menjadi kenangan manis (kenangan pahit pun jadi manis jugak hehe) di sekolah dulu. Nice nice.

And insya-Allah in next 2 weeks, i'll be seeing all of them. Some has established themselves in career and family, and some are still pursuing their studies. Apa pun, it will nice to see them after abt 7 yrs being separated from each other. How Allah has shown me that i am still lucky of having these people as my friends by giving me opportunity to contact and handle the reunion. Alhamdulillah wa subhanallah di atas segalanya :)

Utk Hany, i know it's been quite long we have not met each other. Terserempak dgn Ika and Farah pun during lunch tadi kat kantin. Rasa mcm nak peluk jer Ika tapi segan ler pulak depan org. And tadi dengan beraninya sentuh perut Farah yang semakin membesar hehe. Semoga Farah and kandungannya sejahtera selalu.

Ok, panjang pulak dah citer ni. Later k.

Wassalam. :)

ps: Utk someone yg merasakan tekanan kerjanya di tahap volcano nak meletus, sabarlah. Perbanyakkan sabar, insya-Allah everything will be fine. The time will come where all problem will fade. Just be strong k :)

Fraudsters in FMD

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I know you are not going to believe this!! There are fraudsters in FMD!! Seriously!!

Wanna know who?

Keyrul, Suhaini and ME!! I repeat, ME!!

Hehe.

Actually this evening after office hour, i have completed my task and suddenly these 2 persons came to me and invited to have a drink together. And i went. Waktu tgh minum tu, byk bende kitorang cerita, and i never expect that Keyrul at one day will admit something to me, eventhough it was indirectly meant (and i think i was the only one who understand since i knew the whole story). I'm not going to tell ya what was it, but heck, it was something came honest from his heart eventhough it looks like he was pretentious not to look so. Haha, gottcha!

After finishing our drinks and his dinner, we discussed on the SME that we had presented on last Monday. Discussed on the comments given by Tn Hj and the overall results. SME result was out, but with no personal comments to each presentation that we made except those comments given right after our presentation session was done.

We want to know what was in Tn Hj's mind and opinion on our presentation results and skills, one by one. And suddenly Keyrul came up with this idea! Apa kata kita pergi geledah and tgk result SME kat tempat Midun? Takkan dia simpan dlm cabinet kot? I was so surprised hearing that actually, yerlah becoz we never do that kind of stuff before,kan. But not that long i was also become very fonded with that idea and we agreed to be come the fraudsters of FMD, by curi2 tgk comment Tn Hj pasal kitorang personally!!

Crazy! Yes, it was. Bukannya bende tu rahsia sgt pun, sbb Midun mmg invite kitorang utk tk sendiri comment Tn Hj pada kitorang. Masalahnya dia ada kes siasatan kat Penang skang ni, ntah biler nak balik, tu yg tak sabar nak tgk tu.

Balik ofis, the first thing we did was visiting Midun's place and searching for the folder. We couldn't find it. Keyrul didn't want to give up and checked bawah meja pulak. Here were they! And he just grabbed those papers and start looking for Tn Hj's comments on us!

And you want to know what Tn Hj's comment on me?

Alhamdulillah, i was very satisfied on what he did comment on my performance. No need to be stated in here. Every praise is returned back to Allah as He is the One who qualified for those praises. Syukur alhamdulillah :)

Dear readers, I would like to have your favour. Please, and please. Do not tell this thing at anybody, especially someone from FMD. Eventhough the results were not secret actually, tapi kami dah violate hak privacy dan kepercayaan Midun.

The only thing that i can learn from this whole experience is....

MMG SERONOK BUAT DOSA

Sbb tu ramai yg terjerumus sbb dosa itu seronok, mudah manakala nak berjuang ke jalan kebaikan itu, jalannya amat payah, derita, mengorbankan keseronokan diri sendiri dan sebagainya.

Next time i won't do it. What do you feel if someone geledah your things just to have some stupid results that you gonna give it to him anyway? The time is the only barrier.

Biarlah rahsia ini antara kita, aight?

Wassalam.

Iringilah satu-satu kejahatan itu dengan kebaikan, moga dengan kebaikan itu ia akan dapat memadam akan kejahatan tadi (Pemahaman diri sendiri berdasarkan sepotong hadith yang dah tak ingat susunan wording dan sumbernya)

:)

Assalamualaikum and wbt,

Semalam i was extremely happy sampai dpt migraine :)

I was very happy due to my successful presentation for Subject Matter Expert, my group was the only group yg terima comment yg paling ringan berbanding group2 yang lain. Tn Hj comment takde comparison dgn entity lain, takut FMD buat procedure syok sendiri jer hehe. Alhamdulillah, i was very contented and happy :)

Semalam Mak Teh tak sihat, so i went to Arabic class by myself alone. This was my second time pergi kelas Arab sorang2. Tapi best jugak, cuma takut jugaklah sbb pegi kelas malam-malam. Kalau ikut rasa, macam tak nak pergi sbb sorang-sorang jer yang nak pegi kelas, tapi bila fikirkan nanti tak dapat ilmu, pergi jugalah. Rugi rasanya tak pergi sbb selama ni pun asyik tak dpt nak attend sbb selalu pergi outstation.

Ustaz Rahimi ajar ttg wazan2, pening kepala sbb ada 10 wazan nak kena hafal and practice. Pasni nak kena study bebetul balik. Tak faham dibuatnya. Next month peksa pulak tu. Aaaaa.

Soalan :Apa buku yang anda sedang baca sekarang ini?
Jawapan : Tiada kecuali buku Arab, tu pun sebab pergi kelas.
Soalan : Susah ker nak buka buku apa pun?
Jawapan : Takde masa sekarang ni, balik kerja jer penat. Rasa nak tidur terus. Tu yang tak buka buku tu.
Soalan : Habis tu biler agaknya boleh buka buku?
Jawapan : Mungkin during weekends kot, tu pun mungkin novel, majalah. Penatlah, nak relax jer during weekends.


Familiar with the dialogue? I believe most of us facing the same problem, susah sangat nak buka buku. Skang ni apa kata kita mulakan kempen " One page for a day". Should be nice,kan? :)

Apa nak baca hari ni ek?

Browse Internet jerlah.....(kat Internet pun kita boleh dpt ilmu,kan? ;)

Wassalam

Cacamarba

Assalamualaikum and greetings,

What a hectic day for today, serius terasa mcm nak nangis n rasa nak berhenti keje, tak larat nak keje jer rasanya.

Lepas solat Asar tadi, duduk sekejap merenung karenah diri selama 24 tahun ni. Teringat kembali zaman kecil-kecil sampai dah besar ni. Banyak kenangan manis dan pahit yang dicipta, alhamdulillah untuk kesemuanya. Kak iqin tunjuk gambar kami waktu ketika ke pondok kat Kelantan dulu hehe. Nama group kitorang Pondokeers, kelakar pulak rasanya hehe.

That was my first time wearing tudung labuh sejak keluar sekolah menengah dulu. One statement i issued out waktu kat pondok dulu was my reluctance to wear jubah. Rasa mcm diri hipokrit. Alhamdulillah skang ni takde perasaan tu lagi. Keinginan diri yang diperkenankan Allah. Dulu selalu doa kalau dah kuar MMU nanti, tak nak rasa segan pakai jubah kat public. Cuma skang ni tak mampu nak pakai tudung labuh jer kat luar. Sumer tudung labuh dah hilang gi mana ntah. Dulu kat U malas nak pakai sbb malas nak gosok. Besar sgt hehe. Lama-lama hilang dah tudung tu. Ada satu yg warna pink dan warna kuning jek. Yang putih dan hijau ntah gi mana ntah. Hehe. Ntah bilerlaa nak pakai lagi.

Dah 2 hari teringat kat Yaya. She is my best buddy kat Pre-U dulu, my roommate. I was very happy to have her as my roommate. Rajin, pandai dan wacky jugak kekadang. Perangai and ketrampilan kitorang mmg berbeza habis. But we managed to stay and have fun together. Masih ingat lagi panjat bumbung hostel nak tgk meteor rain sampai pukul 4 pagi. Ah, zaman Pre-U mmg best!

Oklah, i couldn't take it anymore. Actually just drop by sbb nak hilang tension bekerja ni. Skang nak balik and have a review on articles abt Customer Handling. Sekarang ni hidup mcm agak cacamarba sket sbb byk keje yg berlainan bidang yg nak dicater. Nak cater customer, cater legal cases, cater fraud account, tak larat sebenarnya.

Sabar iena, sabar. Jangan mengeluh. Banyakkan bersabar krn kerja ini tidak akan habis sehingga anda berumur 55 tahun (sekiranya umur masih panjang dan tiada faktor lain yang mengakibatkan tempoh bekerja menjadi singkat). Hehe.

Ok, assalamualaikum.

Tgh makan kuew tiow

Assalamualaikum and bwt,

Hehe, tajuk sebelum ni Lapar, tajuk skang ni Tgh makan kuew tiow. Actually tgh hari tadi tak makan sbb concentrate ngan keje, tu yg lapar tahap naga, kuar kol 4.50 tadi cari makanan kat kantin.

Nak bagitau skang ni my hard disk kat MMU dulu dah ada kat umah, skang ni asyik dgr lagu best2 jerlaa..rindu giler ngan lagu2 tu sumer, mmg bestlaa..lagu Melayu ada, English, Cina, nasyid, Quran...aaa..best best!Rindulaa dgn suasana kat MMu dulu. Biler dah keje ni, rasa jadi student lagi best dr jadi org bekerja ni.

Semalam gih interview MBA kat UIA..boleh tahan jugak susah soalan2 dia..nasib baik interviewers pompuan, kalau lelaki lagi terbelit2 lidah nak menjawab. Ada satu soalan ni berbunyi" What do you think you are going to be within next 10 to 15 yrs? Giler maut soalan, mmglah pernah terfikir tapi takdelah rasa nak dilisankan kat mulut, so i answered dgn hentam keromonya i nak jadi someone yg duduk di position high management. Pastu soalan ni pulak keluar " necessarily in Telekom during that 10-15 yrs? I said no, if i think i have better opportunity outside, then i'll go". Dia tanya lagi, if you go, what sector are you interested in? Addduhh..tak pernah2 kufikir ini soalan, but i answered jugaklah that i'm in interested in Banking. Why Banking? I said becoz it deals with money. Why do you interested in money? Saiko tak rasa..apalaa yg nak kujawab dgn soalan itu..uwaaaaa!!!!

One of the interviewer said i have fairly high chance due to my academic track record, but they have to prioritize other applicants with 10-15 working experience first, if the competition is not stiff, highly chance i could join the session lah. Ntah ler, kalau ada rezeki, adalah kot. Doakan ek :)

Yang bestnya, derang suh bawa scroll yg original dlm sesi tu, so i brought ler MMU Online Scroll, kita mana ada scroll paper kan. Pastu they were so excited lah tgk. Bangga kejap jadi budak MMU. Hehe.

Oklah ek, nak habiskan makan. Pastu nak solat and pegi kelas Arab.

Ma'as salamah.

Lapar

Assalamualaikum wbt and greetings,

Hmm.. quite for a long time this blog has not being updated isn' it? Hehe, as what i asked you before in my last blog, just assume that i was not around in the office, and yes i wasn't in the office since last Tuesday, due to:

1. My great grandmother had passed away on Tuesday..inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un
2. I have training course for 3 days starting on Wed.

So what i'm gonna tell ya for today?

About my arwah great grandmother? Hmm..best jugak nak citer. She was someone that we (my siblings and I) were very afraid of dulu, waktu zaman kecik2. She was someone who used to 'berteriak'(takdelaa garang..tapi takutlah jugak) at us kalau kitorang nak pegi kedai waktu kat kampung dulu. Kalau nak pegi kedaikan, my grandmum's house and her house were next to each other..so kecik2 dulu if we were want to go to kedai, at the border line of these 2 houses, we were like spies searching for her glance kat depan pintu or serambi umah, kalau takde, baru berani jalan lalu depan umah arwah (and usually arwah mesti akan jerit tanya kitorang nak pegi mana n kitorang akan lari mcm tak cukup tanah), and kalau ada pulak..i'll be the head yg akan direct my sibling to ready to run as fast as we could so that arwah takkan perasan kitorang (tapi biasanya arwah akan perasan jugak, n seperti biasa kena jerit jugaklah hehe).

We used to try her 'rokok daun' without the gambir or pinang, solely rokok daun jer. Arwah mmg bagi kitorang hisap rokok daun tu coz mmg takde paper dlm dia..pastu belajar makan sireh jugaklah sometimes. Tak sedap pun sirehnya, pedas jer rasanya. Tu jerlah kot kenangan kami dengan dia. The rest tu seperti biasa kalau raya pergilah melawat, and usually arwah akan cakap " dah bosar pun, dulu kocik yo" (slang Negeri 9) and akan selalu tanya "sapo eh ni?" to me kalau salam raya, sebab arwah tak ingat rupa cicit dia yang dah besar2 ni.. hehe. One thing that i am sure, arwah mmg seorang isteri yang baik. Really took care my moyang lelaki, kalau makan akan bagi pinggan special, jaga makan minum and pakaian, akan dulukan moyang lelaki dlm sumer perkara (my auntie yang citer)..:)

Am i sad? I dunno what to say, but i was not crying at all. Mungkin sbb jauh kot hubungan kami, kalau my real grandma or grandpa yang passed away, i'll be crying like nobody businesslah kot. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur ahli keluargaku. Atuk and uwan kat Pilah pun mcm dah tak kuat jer dah tu, ingat nak selalu jenguk, tapi kekadang tak berkesempatan. Kerja banyaklah, itulah, inilah.

This is human, always take for granted for everything. Once something or someone has gone away, then at that real time only we mourn the lost that we have to bear for the rest of our lives.

Apa pun, biler dah cakap camni, i feel like i want to get back and have a good time with my family members. Both of my younger bros skang ni kat umah sbb IPT cuti 3 bulan. Yang the youngest 3 jer takde sbb derang kat sekolah. Mcm terbalik pulak, dulu waktu kami yg besar2 ni kat asrama and university, tinggal 3 budak kecik ni jer temankan ibu kat umah. Skang ni biler kitorang dah bekerja and balik universiti, 3 org ni pulak yg takde. Hehe.

Actually malas giler nak stay back buat keje. Tapi kang keje berlambak tertangguh. Perut dah lapar giler dah ni. Nak stay nak ker tak nak? Nak? Tak nak?

Rasa mcm malas, balik jum.

But before that, i am happy to give my comment on our latest election result last week. I dunno what had happened back there at SPR side, but i am more to think that they were not transparent as what they were claiming. The defeat of Terengganu and at most of the places was so unbelievable, yet that was what Allah decided for us. Ada hikmahnya insya-Allah. Mungkin perlunya kita atur barisan dan gerak kerja baru. I was not that sad to face the defeat, coz i am sure that kita akan bangkit kembali, dgn gerak kerja yang lebih baik, insya-Allah. Kemenangan mutlak tak akan berada di tangan mereka selamanya, tapi buat kita yang berazam untuk berjuang menegakkan Islam di muka bumi ini, kemenangan mutlak akan kita capai di negeri akhirat sana, insya-Allah sekiranya disertakan dengan usaha. Pray for our success fi dun'yaa wa akhirah.

Hari ni dpt e mail dr Pres Alumni YTR, ada AGM on this becoming 18 April 2004. Sesiapa yang nak bertanding menjadi exco dialu-alukan. Erk, kena bertanding jugak ker? Hehe, takpelah. Bagilah post pada sesiapa yang berminat, yang rasa-rasanya berkemampuan nak laksanakan amanah as an exco tu. For me, payah sket sbb skang ni dah tahap naga tahap ke'bz'annya. Tak mampulah nak handle bebende ni lagi. I am sure the tasks will be more or less akan byk merangka aktiviti n planning utk meramaikan ahli alumni. Tak kisahlah, cuma i was appointed as one of the Auditors for YTR Fund untuk sesi 2002/2003 on last AGM. Nak kena minta laporan kewangan ni, nanti kang tak laksanakan amanah pulak. Hehe.

Al-Fatihah for Allahyarham Sheikh Yassin (Palestin) n my great grandma. Moga Allah menempatkan mereka di kalangan mereka yang Dia redhai. Ameen.

Wassalam.

Baru balik dr outstation

Assalamualaikum wbt,

This morning i was not in a good mood. With piles of work on my table, with my scheduled meeting with CE R&D TM and Fleet Management today, with the expected presentation slides to be completed today to be sent to CMO..my head is spinning like gasing.

Just came back from Malacca actually. This time, Customer Awareness Program was held in Malacca for 3 days. I have to do the same presentation as before. Alhamdulillah i was given opportunity to jalan2 satu Malaysia ni, tapi biler balik dr outstation, kerja yg berlambak nak kena catch up tu yg tak tahan tu..aaaaaa!!!

Hehe, kalau agak2 my blog ni isn't updated for a very long time, just make a guess that i'm not around. Sure outstation ler tu. Yesterday i took urgent leave, couldn't spare my energy for work. Flat seflatnya pagi semalam. Today i have to come coz i've got to complete my slide presentation for CMO thingy. Yeah rite, semalam eventho i took my urgent leave, at 12 a.m i had received a SMS from CE R&D requesting me to see him at UPM to finalize our findings. Aiyaaa..tgh2 cuti pun kena pergi menghadap, tense tense. But i went jugaklah coz his one-to one meeting with Dato' CE is scheduled on 23 March, so everything shall be completed before that date. Project ni was meant for TM Leaders, tapi kekadang rasa mcm kita pulak yg kena buat assignment ni. Anyway CE R&D ok, tapi mungkin sbb we both are bz sgt sampai kitorang buat meeting and tindakan mengikut flow and keadaan, not that structured that i used to do in FMD. In FMD, everything you have to list down, must have action plan and target date. Giler detail.

Ok..dah pukul 9.30 pagi, kena rush utk siapkan presentation pulak, satu bende pun tak siap lagi.

This morning i opened TV3 at 6.30 in the morning. Ustazah Bahiyah tgh bagi penerangan mengenai beberapa amalan yang menyelamatkan kita daripada siksaan di akhirat. Ada banyak kisah yang diceritakan, tapi several points that i could catch :

1. Sentiasa menjaga silaturrahim
2. Sentiasa berbaik sangka dengan Allah
3. Sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah
4. Sentiasa takut akan Allah di dalam keadaan terang mahupun gelap dan sunyi

Tu jer yg tgh terlintas di kepala sekarang ini. Ok, wassalam.

Otak terasa seperti mau rentung

Assalamualaikum and wbt,

Hehe, feel funny about my heading? You should feel so..becoz really, that's what i feel now..otak terasa seperti mau rentung!!

Giler byk kerja nak kena handle...and at 2.30 p.m tadi Tn Hj panggil masuk bilik..asking about my decision to replace Kak Fida or not! haiyaa..i've got a lot to do skang ni..tu nak kejar..ni nak kejar..nak gantikan tempat Kak Fida pulak for about 3 months..mau terbakar otak dibuatnya. Cuma ada sedikit pelepasan on KPI..Ya Allah, ringanlah beban hambaMu ini..terasa mcm tak cukup masa pulak skang ni. Tahun lepas relax giler, tahun ni rasa mcm tak cukup tgn. Tak tau yg mana satu nak didahulukan dulu. Hehe.

Semalam berbual dgn Abg Faris Rasoulli, exco SRC tahun ni. Byk kerja katanya. Hidup agak tak tentu arah. Hehe, pengalaman biasa menjadi seorang exco. Ika dah pernah rasa, Zainal dah pernah rasa, Cpol pun dah pernah rasa..faham-faham sendiri jerlah beban tugas yg perlu ditanggung. Mana nak cater for studies, nak cater for kawan2, nak cater for personal life. Semuanya terpaksa dicompressed menjadi satu kehidupan yang agak kurang stabil dirasakan.

Actually i have to thank my real close classmate n groupmates for standing behind me all the time. Seriously, without Zarid, Shelly, Mafus, Halim, Rahimi, Yati pruz and Elly, i think and i am sure that i'll become a dead meat. They were the ones who had helped me a lot in my studies. Backed me up for our projects, our assignment, our final thesis..i am very grateful to have them as my friends, really. Terhutang budi sangat-sangat sampai tak tau mcm mana nak say thank you in words to them. They did understand my conditions when i was performing as an exco, they knew that i didn't have enough time to be spent leisurely and academically, so what they did were very helpful to me. They decided every date that we supposed to meet and have discussion, assign and update everything that i need to know. My goodness, kalaulah ditakdirkan mereka tak dianugerahkan oleh Allah to be my friends, i do not know what to say. Perhaps i'm not someone that you can see today.

Cuma one thing that i stressed to Abg Faris yesterday about being an exco. Kena ikhlas. Tak perlu merungut selalu. Zainal selalu ingatkan yg apa kami buat dulu bukannya tugas, tapi tanggung jawab. Memikirkan tanggungjawab yang perlu dibuat kerana Allah, akan menyebabkan kita rela sacrifice a lot of things, including personal life. Cuma skang ni biler dah kerja, diri terasa menjadi sedikit selfish kerana inginkan masa untuk diri sendiri, sedangkan mmg dah sedia tahu tanggung jawab utk berdakwah itu ada and lies on each of us. Jahat,kan? Selalu rasa nak mengelak kalau diajak utk turun meeting during weekends, sbb rasa nak rest and bermalas-malasan di rumah. Hehe.

Secara konklusinya, (actually tak suka betul guna istilah BM yang diambil drpd istilah English) apa pun yg kita buat, kita niatkan krn Allah (tapi itu jugaklah yg selalu terlupa nak buat). Rugi masa dan effort yg kita buat ini kalau kita tak niatkan kerana utk beramal. Kalau otak rentung pun, kalau dah kita buat kerana Allah, apa pun sanggup diharungi,kan?

So guys, mari kita tanam niat sama-sama mengerjakan segala pekerjaan ini kerana Dia. Rezeki kita pun Dia yang tentukan, jadi apa sangat yang dikejar akan dunia ini. (hasil belajar 1 hadis dlm kelas bahasa Arab). Time ustaz terangkan pasal maksud hadis ni dlm kelas, terasa malu sungguh. Terasa sgt apa yang kita buat sekarang ni mcm umpama mengejar kekayaan dunia, sedangkan kenalah berpada-pada dalam mencari keuntungan di dunia dan banyakkan mencari untuk akhirat. Betul-betul mcm orang tersedar dr tidur biler ustaz bacakan hadis tu. Insaf kejap.

Ok, dah nak bergerak ke kelas Arab. Actually sekarang ni mcm dah lost jugak dgn arabic ni, sebab selalu tak dtg kelas. Ni yang payahnya kalau kena selalu outstation, terpaksa burn kelas. Rugi jer rasanya. Apa pun, kita usahalah mana yang terdaya, selebihnya kita pulangkan pada Allah. :)

Ma'as salamah.

Live without passion, what exactly the outcomes gonna be?

Bertemu kembali

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Just came back from Penang. For about 4 days i was there assessing my customers. The experience was so good since i had given opportunity to follow some investigations works done by En. Zul and Zaki. Only 3 of us yg turun Penang as Investigation Officers.

Each time i travel with some of my officemates, we were became closer and closer with each other, which is good actually. We became more open-minded, less misunderstandings for each other, and the most important thing is that we have FUN together! Hehe, actually nope, that is not the most important thing actually. Among all, the knowledge and feeling sharing among us which counts most. Seriously, i've learnt a lot this time from the perspective of adults. We talked about life, career, general knowledge and even politics!! I've grown up!! hehe.

During our journey back to KL, we discussed on the role of parent in forming the best attitude and capabilities of children. I'm not yet married, but i can fixed myself into the conversation by reflecting to my own childhood experiences. I believe that what i become now is the result of the freedom of decision making given by my parent. At any time and at any matter which need decision to be made. Not only me, but to all my siblings except for my 3 youngest sisters coz they are more like spoilt brats to us (the older sisters and bros..hehe). Actually they are not that spoilt, tapi sbb dimanjakan sgt by my mum, tu yg tak reti nak independent tu. Goreng ikan pun nak kena org ajar. but now i think there lots improvement have been made. Dah tau nak goreng sayur, masak gulai. Satu jer yg derang fail, masak nasi..sure berkerak. Tulaa, dulu belajar masak pakai periuk karan, biler dah rosak tak tau nak adjust api nasi biler pakai periuk biasa.Hehe.

I've learn something about life today. Looking at the world with some perception which i used to look at during i was in Matriculation dulu. Sometimes i felt that it would be nice, very very nice to go back to the fine old times, where i won't have to face the bitterness of experience at certain episodes of my life. Happy living as a student without not so much to worry about life. I have to admit that my best experience as a student was in my matriculation, back in malacca in 1999. I'm glad to study in MMU eventhough at the first place UM is my first choice. I got the UM offer, but my father didn't let me go and study there. In MMU i ended up became an Accounting grad. Lots of interesting stories there. Not enuf space if i have to tell ya all the stories.

This evening kak Fida said that perhaps i'll be replacing her place for about 2 months. She's expecting a child in May. Of course i'm happy to have the chance to practice my accounting skills since Kak Fida's works are dealing with budgeting. But on the other hand, i'm scared for i have LOTS of LOTS things to do. Seriously, sometimes i feel that i should pasang 2 pasang tangan palsu lagi untuk buat keje. Skang ni tgh hectic ngan keje sampai tak tau mana satu nak buat.

Kak Fida kata mungkin ada sorang exec yg akan diserapkan di bawah unit dia, and the best candidate for that post is me, coz of my accounting background. Rite now i'm not that keen to be happy with that news eventhough that was my dream dulu ketika baru2 masuk FMD. I want to practice my accounting, what the heck of being an accounting grad and yet you can't perform what you have learnt in university before? Quite a waste isn't it? 4 years was not a short period to learn all the creepy theoritical and practical concepts of accounting. But i managed to settle all down. Big applause for myself!! Hehe.

Alrite, later k. Need to move on.

Life isn't easy, but the power to change it lies with us, so make up your mind! Grow up and make the best of you :)

Wassalam.

Bertemu lagi

Assalamualaikum wbt,

It's been quite a long time i have not update this blog..too much commitments to be prioritized before this blog :)

Di sepanjang past 1 week, i was so miserable....not due to my hectic schedule solely, but with my emotional and inner self as well. I had became someone strange even to myself. But alhamdulillah at this very moment, i gain back my real self. And become stronger...

This afternoon, my sis invited me too swim near at my house. Yeah rite, i have to wear swimming suit kalau nak terjun kolam. Seriously, swimming is one of my favourites to do if i have chance to do so. Kalau tak fikirkan iman, mmg setuju ajer ikut my sis. Tapi takkan nak buat,kan? Melepaskan pakaian dan membuka aurat di depan org ramai? Hish..tak mampu nak buat skang ni. Dulu waktu kecil2 bolehlah nak selamba jer kot hehe.

I've got a lot to say, tapi byk sgt and tak mampu nak diluahkan dgn kata-kata. Tgklah kalau rajin, i'll post. Skang ni mcm terasa malas nak blog coz i'm someone yg cepat rasa bosan dgn sesuatu benda. Tak pernah nak stay lama. So tgklah sampai biler blog ni boleh bertahan k ;)

Next week nak ke Penang about 1 week. So my blog akan berehat selama 1 week jugaklah..later guys..need to complete my tasks first.

Wassalam.


Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah masa silam
pasti aku sudah
mengubah haluan hidupku
yang sering tersasar

Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah hati
yang lemah
sering terpedaya ini
pasti aku sudah
mengubah ia
menjadi hati
yang lembut menghadap Tuhan
tapi waja menghadap syaitan

Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah diri
menjadi insan
cemerlang di dunia sana
akan kucuba
walau perit
menghadap duka

Mampukah?

Mengoreksi Diri

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Hari ni dimulakan dgn pagi yg sibuk, Tn Hj nakkan pencalonan R&R untuk Exec and Manager terbaik for HR nominations. Pastu analyze bil pelanggan kat Penang thru Brains, pastu update Fraud Account. Aaaaa, byknya keje yg tak settle lagi.

For about 2 days Ika and i were at Siha's house. Lepak sana after went to Kak Sity's wedding hehe. Kat umah Siha kitorang pegi memancing ikan, dpt ler beberapa ekor ikan siakap and lampam. Siha masak lauk ikan yg kitorang tangkap, best best hehe. Balik dr Taiping, boleh pulak bas rosak kat terowong Jelapang, 3 jam stuck kat tol Jelapang. Tiring and i had to let go my Arabic class since we arrived here last nite at 8 something p.m. My class starts at 8 p.m.Mmg tak sempat nak catch. Dahlaa last Wed tak pergi sbb ada program kat Seremban, rugi betul.

I was so tense thinking about my program kat Penang scheduled on this becoming Wed and Thurs sepanjang stuck kat tol Jelapang tu, last last i SMSed my manager requested for postponement becoz i didn't ready at all nak pegi Penang hari ni. Dgn CNO yg tak konfem contact sana, takkan nak pegi sesuka hati. Dahlah jauh. Tunda buat next week. I've got a lot to be completed within this week. And i can't afford to let them go just becoz i've got to go to Penang today. Just can't.

Hati akan tenang dgn mengingat Allah. I feel that i'm quite far from Him nowadays. Tak pelihara diri dr dosa, tak spend masa nak menjengah Quran, sibuk dgn aktiviti-aktiviti leisure n kerja yg tak berkesudahan. Sampai bila nak jadi camni? Sampai matahari terbit di sebelah Barat, atau sampai nafas terakhir tersangkut di kerongkong?

Think and revise. Berhijrah dan beristiqamah. That's what we should do.

Kerana apa?

Kerana kita tak selamanya menongkat dunia. Di dunia sana Allah menunggu kita menghadapNya. Semoga ada bekalan diri yang tersisa.

"Pelihara kami di dunia dan akhirat Ya Allah, moga kami menjadi di kalangan mereka yang beruntung"

Wassalam.

Menunggu ketika

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Now waiting for jeep En. Khalid sampai ofis, so i take the chance to write something in here. Supposedly pukul 2 tadi dah bertolak ke Seremban, tapi tetiba Tn Hj nakkan laptop dia dihantar ke Menara. So kena tunggu jeep sampai sini dulu.

This morning ada talk given by Change Mgmt Office pasal Culture Leadership Initiative, bersekali dgn Farah and Azni. This program is about assisting and assessing TM leaders. I've assigned to CE R&D TM, kat UPM. Balik ofis terus kena panggil by my manager En. Budi. Topik perbincangan kami more on politik di tempat kerja. He claimed that when i join this program, i'll learn the bad culture of TM so he wanted me to get prepared to face the bad side of TM.

Hmm..what to say then? I just keep quiet and went to my place straight away after that. Actually malas nak ambil tahu what are the bad cultures of TM sebenarnya. I think kat mana2 organization pun mmg ada bad side of it, be it political, operational or financial aspects. So be it, and i dun care!! Hahaha, jahat giler statement ni hehe.

We'll seelah nanti camner. I'll just go with the flow i guess. Sekarang ini i'm not that motivated to think and propose any possible changes on existing culture of TM. Perhaps once my assessment starts, i'll think of it.

OK, jeep dah ready utk bergerak ke Seremban.

Berjumpa kembali on this Friday insya-Allah :)

Wassalam.

Presentation

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Skang ni sdg bertelekung di depan pc menunggu solat Maghrib, malam ni kena balik lambat sket sbb dah 2 hari tinggalkan keje utk join workshop JPPF.

Esok nak ke Seremban and stay there for 3 days sbb ada presentation, and next week berkemungkinan besar akan ke Penang sbb ada technical visit. Berserabut kepala biler buat kerja pelbagai cabang ni. System nak kena cater, customer nak kena cater, legal matters pun nak kena cater. Ntah mana satu fokus nak diberikan pun tak tau sebenarnya.

Esok akan ada briefing pasal Culture Transformation Initiative TM organized by Change Management Office kol 9.30 pagi, briefing utk selected young executives utk assist TM leaders. Ok jugak sebenarnya, boleh tgk camner TM leaders buat keje, hopefully dapat leader yg best.

Hari ni best coz my group (Kak Fidah, Keirul, Abg Is and me) presented our analysis on our pattern detection for our system. Kira paling gempak among the others hehe. Yg lain Tn Hj kata dia blur, ngan group kitorang jer dia kata nampaklah bayang2 sket hehe.Best best. Tapi hadiah utk kumpulan terbaik kami kongsi ramai2 sbb hadiah satu jer, which is good sbb nampaklah Tn Hj adil. Hadiah satu jer, so kalau satu kumpulan jer yg dpt, kesian kumpulan2 lain.

Tu jer kot nak cakap. Malam ni nak kena revise presentation sbb malas nak rasa saiko lagi utk buat presentation mcm kat Sabah dulu. 2 malam tak tidur sbb menghafal n takut nak bagi presentation. 2 pagi juga tak lalu nak breakfast kat hotel tu sbb sibuk mengingat fakta. Mengalahkan org nak ambik SPM! Terdaya nak minum fresh orange n satu muffin jer padahal punyerlah byk makanan lain yg best2 kat hotel tu.

First time bagi presentation kat berpuluh2 org internal staff and customers dlm sesi berlainan, maunya tak takut. Dlm English pulak tu for 1 hour! Cuba bayangkan..1 HOUR in English!! Tapi after dah habis presentation kat Sabah, kira mcm dah confident sket nak buat presentation kat Sarawak. Waktu first presentation tu, mmg takut tapi buat2 selamba jer present, tapi yg kelakarnya managers n Midun boleh kata bagus pulak after dah habis present! Alhamdulillah :)

Oklah, nak solat maghrib dulu, wassalam :)

Link best --> http://www.b4death.com/fla/never.swf. Nice song :)

Hati tersenyum riang

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Hehe..hari ni daku menjadi sedikit jahat ;)

For today and tomorrow, i'll have special bengkel for JPPF. We'll be provided breakfast, lunch and minum petang. Today, i didn't get my portion of lunch becoz sibuk main dam dgn Midun kat MSN. Tulah, padan muka..saper suh main. Org pegi makan, dia pegi main. Terpaksalaa beli food kat canteen.

Actually skang ni tgh happy, di dalam kebosanan dan ke'monotonous'an hidup ini, alhamdulillah masih ada perkara yg menggirangkan hati, alhamdulillah :)

Malam ni ada Arabic, satu page pun tak bukak lagi. Khamis ni ada presentation di Seremban and next week ada technical visit di Penang. Aaaa...kehidupanku yg makin sibuk dan perlukan perancangan yg rapi di awal-awal tahun ini *sigh*

Kerja banyak dr dulu, tapi i'm happy coz takdelah terasa makan gaji buta sgt. Last year mmg serius terasa kerja takde makna sbb takde direction. Ntah haper2 jer rasanya. Alhamdulillah i have better manager now, need to work smart and learn as much as possible *smile*

ok..nak solat Zuhur dulu.

Before i go, i want to say sorry for someone that i know she'll understand whom i referring to..sorry for being so stern and left you behind for my program on Saturday. I didn't mean to left, tapi dlm kelam kabut nak mengejar masa utk makan and solat, terus pergi tanpa inform. Pastu terlupa terus sampai petang. I know you were hurt becoz i didn't call you back, and turned down your request to meet after the game (becoz i was in my auntie's car heading home during that call being made). I'm so sorry if you get hurt by me. Really didn't mean it at all.

Guess why i don't talk directly to her and request for an apology? Coz...i'm not someone who can praise or request forgiveness directly in front of someone's face..i just can't. And she knew it that i can't. Hopefully she'll understand why i say sorry in here rather than talking directly to her.

Get to go, wassalam.

~Sahabat adalah salah satu harta yang bernilai dlm kehidupan~.

Dugaan

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seorang budak perempuan berketurunan Tajik
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Hanya kerana dia bergelar Islam?

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Paderi Israel mengalu-alukan paderi kristian
untuk memurtadkan saudara-saudara Islam
dari masjid ke masjid.

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Integrasi dan perkauman dijadikan alasan

Ya Allah
Banyaknya dugaan
Semoga kuat hati hamba-hambaMu ini
dalam meniti kehidupan
yang akan mendatang

Sabarlah saudara-saudaraku
yang sedang menahan derita
mahupun yang sedang berjuang
kiranya dunia ini
umpama penjara bagi org2 mukmin
maka berbahagialah kamu
yang sedang diuji
tanda kasih sayangNya
yang masih terlempar
ke atas diri

Diriku bagaimana?
Tidak diuji dengan begitu payah
namun masih menangis
umpama dunia ini
hampir kiamat lakunya
tidak segankah?

Mengemis Kasih

Tuhan
Dulu pernah
aku menagih simpati
kepada manusia
yang alpa jua buta

lalu terheretlah
aku di lorong gelisah
luka hati yang berdarah
kini jadi kian parah

semalam sudah sampai
ke penghujungnya
kisah seribu duka
kuharap sudah berlalu
tak ingin lagi
kuulangi kembali
jerat dosa yang menghiris hati

(1)
Tuhan
dosaku menggunung tinggi
tapi rahmatMu melangit luas
harga selautan syukurku
hanyalah setitis
nikmatMu di bumi

Tuhan
walau taubat sering kumungkir
tapi pengampunanMu
tak pernah bertepi
bila selangkah
kurapat padaMu
seribu langkah
Kau rapat padaku

Ulang (1)

Allah 2x

Mengemis kasih by Raihan

Gratitude

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Pagi ini dimulakan dengan senyuman, walaupun di hati sedikit terkesan dengan catatan Ika and Mudin semalam. Come on Ika, you are strong enough to face all the challenges, aren't you? :) And Mudin, verily berjemaah di dalam membuat sesuatu itu penting. I'm highly agree for what you have raised in your blog. We need to be together in unity in order to achieve our matlamat regardless in what field and for what purpose.

Last nite Ika, Mizie and I had a great dinner at Mc D, enjoying our Prosperity Burger and Vanilla Coke. Brought Mizie for a tour at our office, and went back together after that. Myself mmg langkah kanan betul biler Mizie datang hehe. Hanya kami bertiga sajer yg tau kenapa (can't reveal to anyone becoz have been asked to keep my mouth shut by Ika hehe).

Today i would like to touch on the matter of gratitude.

Why gratitude? Why not other things? Perhaps we could analyze ourselves, have we grateful enough for whatever happened and received by us in our lives? Have we performed as what required and requested by Allah in showing our gratitude for whatever He had given to us? I believe all of us have great circles of family and friends, good education, decent life to be enjoyed, enough dough to buy and serve meals, and everything is in good shape i believe insya-Allah. Does Allah deserve to get our respect and thankfulness for whatever He had provide us? Of course yes, eventhough He does not need it becoz He does not rely on His creations in any aspect, without us He is still The Almighty. We are individually nothing to be compared to this huge world of His creations, especially if we don't act and behave as mukminun, becoming worse than animals as a matter of facts in Quran!Na'uzubillahi min zalik.

For whatever sadness or complaints, face it with sabar. It's true that SABAR itu susah ( as depicted from my friend's blog), tapi payah itu juga satu nikmat yang perlu kita syukuri, isn' it? Be thankful for what we have and what we don't have, for it become a proof that we redha on Allah and with that we hope that Allah juga akan redha pada kita.

Again, mari berjemaah di dalam menegakkan Islam di dalam diri, dan juga masyarakat umumnya. Moga diberikan kelapangan di dalam mencapai matlamat abadi di dunia sana.

Wassalam.

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What is Thankfulness?

In Islamic terminology, Thankfulness is the acknowledgment of the fact that Allâh is the only Grantor of graces, and full submission to Allâh in a way that assures that acknowledgment. The graces (favors) of Allâh are endless and countless. Allâh says in His Book:
"And if you were to count the blessings of Allâh, you will never be able to count them." {Sûrah Ibraîim (14): 34}
He, the All Mighty also says:

"And whatever blessings and good you have, it is from Allâh .." {Sûrah an-Nahl, (16): 53}



How can a servant (Abd) thank Allâh?

{The word ‘slaves’ represents mankind, for all of mankind are expected to totally submit to the will of Allâh}The servant can thank Allâh in many ways. These include:

Prostrating to Allâh, when the servant receives a blessing from Allâh or when Allâh saves him from a disaster. The Messenger of Allâh (salAllâhu alaihi wasallam) used to prostrate to Allâh whenever he received a pleasant thing or was told good news. This prostration is conducted for the sole purpose of giving thanks to Allâh, the Granter of the grace and benefit that the servant received. [see Fiqh as-Sunnah by Sayyid Sabiq (English trans.) vol.2, p.45]

Abdur-Rahmân ibn 'Auf relates that the Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) went out once and he followed him until he entered a grove of palm trees and prostrated. His prostration was so long that 'Abdur-Rahmân feared that Allâh had taken his soul. 'Abdur-Rahmân came to look at him and he raised his head and said: "What is wrong, Abdur-Rahmân'?" Abdur Rahmân mentioned what had happened, and he (sallAllâhu alaihi wa-sallam) said: "Gibra'el came to me and said: 'Shall I not give you glad tidings'? Allâh says to you, Whoever prays upon you, I pray upon him. Whoever salutes you, I salute him.' Therefore, I prostrated to Allâh in thanks." {This is related by Ahmad and by Al-Hâkim who says: "It is sahih according to the criterion of al-Bukhâri and Muslim}


Thanking Allâh in words: The majority of the scholars agreed that if the servant does not thank Allâh for the grace he has, then that grace will go away and may never come back. Allâh's Messenger (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said: "It is a fine thing when a believer praises and thanks Allâh if good comes to him, and praises Allâh and shows endurance if smitten by affliction. The believer is rewarded for everything, even for the morsel he raises to his wife's mouth." {Bayhaqi transmitted it in Shu'ab al-Iman. Sunan at-Tirmidhî no.1733 See also Sahîh Muslim (7138)}

Talking about the benefits Allâh has granted him. This is because concealing the benefits of Allâh is ungrateful. Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "Do they believe in the false deities and deny the favor of Allâh." {Sûrah an-Nahl (16):72} Ibn Kathîr commented that denying the favors of Allâh means hiding his grants and/or relating them to others than Allâh.
Narrated by Zaid bin Khâlid Al Juhani : The Prophet led us in the Fajr prayer at Hudaibiya after a rainy night. On completion of the prayer, he faced the people and said, "Do you know what your Lord has said (revealed)?" The people replied, "Allâh and His Apostle know better." He said, "Allâh has said, 'In this morning some of my slaves remained as true believers and some became non-believers; whoever said that the rain was due to the Blessings and the Mercy of Allâh had belief in Me and he disbelieves in the stars, and whoever said that it rained because of a particular star had no belief in Me but believes in that star." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri (1:807)}


Helping people in need. It was mentioned in a Hadîth of Prophet Muhammad (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) that: "As the grants from Allâh to a servant increase, so will the people's needs of that blessed servant's services. If the servant ignores their needs, it will cause those grants to be removed" (lbn Hibban) The Prophet (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "If anyone strokes an orphan's head, doing so only for Allâh's sake, he will have blessings for every hair over which his hand passes; and if anyone treats well an orphan girl or boy under his care, he and I shall be like these two in Paradise," putting two of his fingers together." {Sunan at-Tirmidhî no.4974}

Why does the servant not thank Allâh?

The servant may not thank Allâh for several reasons:

The servant may be unaware of the general grants that were bestowed by Allâh on the creatures. Many people wrongly think that money is the only thing to be considered and ignore the other general grants such as hearing, vision, sanity and health. The Prophet (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "There are two blessings which many people lose: (They are) health and free time for doing good." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol 8: 421}
آishah, the Prophet's wife said: " Whenever a servant drinks a drop of water which gets into his body and leaves it with no harm, then a thanks is due."

A man came to a good Muslim and complained that Allâh made him very poor. The good man said: "Would you like to have ten thousand dinars and be insane?" The Complainer answered: "No." The good man said: "Would you like to have ten thousand dinars but have your legs chopped off" The complainer answered: "No." The good man then said: "Aren't you ashamed of yourself complaining about your Lord while all of these grants which are His; have been bestowed on you?"


The servant may not give thanks to his Lord because he is unaware of the people who have less bounties than him. . This is mentioned in a Hadîth in Sahîh Muslim, that: Allâh's Messenger (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Look at those people who have less than you and never look at those who have more grants than you, this will ensure that you will not depreciate Allâh's grants." {Sahîh Muslim no.1530}
At times of hardship, one should turn his eyes towards a person who owns less worldly things than him. He will then be calmed and his ungratefulness will disappear. One will then thank his Lord and say: "Thanks to Allâh who has guarded me against the harm which He has afflicted others, and who has chosen not to afflict me" {Sunan at-Tirmidhî }


The servant may not give thanks to his Lord because he is unaware of Allâh's names, attributes and laws. The real ignorant person is the one who gets deceived by the amount of money he has or by his position or his power. He forgets the fact that as Allâh has granted, He may also take the blessings away. Allâh says in His Book, "Say, O Allâh! Lord of Power (and Rule) You give Power to whom You will and You take away power from whom You will, and you endue with honor whom you will, and humiliate who you will. In Your Hand is the good. Verily, You are Able to do all things." {Sûrah al-Imrân (3):26}

When does Allâh take His grants away from His servants?
When one commits sins: The Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "The servant will be deprived a provision because he committed a sin" (Musnad Ahmed)
On the other hand, fearing Allâh causes His provisions to come forth, Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "And whoever fears Allâh and keeps his duty to Him, Allâh will make way for him out of every difficulty, And He will provide for him from sources he never imagined" {Sûrah at-Talaq (65):2-3}


When the servant relates the grants to himself and does not acknowledge that Allâh is their Grantor as Qaroon (a tyrannical king mentioned in the Qur'aan al-Qasas (28): 78 ) said: "This has been given to me only because of knowledge I possess." Consequently. his punishment was, "So We caused the earth to swallow him and his dwelling place. Then he had no group or party to help him against Allâh." {Sûrah al-Qasas (28): 81}


When the servant does not give Zakaat. The Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Indeed Allâh the Most High said, 'We have sent down the wealth for the prayer to be established and that Zakât be given; and if the son of آdam had a valley, he would love to have a second; if he had two valleys, he would love to have a third, and nothing will fill the belly of the son of آdam except dust …" {Musnad Ahmed & at-Tabarânî. Sahîh al-Jâmi, no.1777}

So the money is actually Allâh's money, and we have been entrusted with it. And he (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Do not shut your money bag; otherwise Allâh too will withhold His blessings from you. Spend (in Allâh's cause) as much as you can afford. " {Sahîh al-Bukhâri 2/515}

The Prophet of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) also said, "Do not withhold your money by counting it (i.e. hoarding it), (for if you did so), Allâh would also withhold His blessings from you." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol.2: 514}


When the servant of Allâh becomes arrogant due to the large amount of money he has. If the person feels superior to other people, and his wealth becomes his only business, if he talks about it and only about it wherever he goes, and forgets to remember Allâh and praise Him; if he starts evaluating people based on their wealth, then Allâh will remove his grants. Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "Woe to every slanderer and back biter. Who has gathered wealth and counted it. He thinks that his wealth will make last forever. Nay! Verily, he will be thrown into the crushing fire." {Sûrah al-Humazah (104):1-4}

And finally there is no better example for us than the Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) who used to offer night prayers till his feet became swollen. Somebody said to him, "Allâh has forgiven you, your faults of the past and those to follow." On that, he said, "Shouldn't I be a thankful slave (of Allâh)?" {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol.6: 360}

Source : Islamic Networks

Think Seriously

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Yesterday i didn't update my blog due to my hectic schedule of handling 2 meetings, one with Credit Management Division and one with Legal Division. Ended up i had slight pening di kepala hehe. Bayangkan an Accounting grad kena belajar legal terms and stuff, kena tau Act tu and Act ini, kena membezakan Civil and Criminal case, maunya tak pening :)

Today i had lunch with Hany and Ika, and we talked about pursuing studies. Ika left then for she wanted to buy ikan peliharaan as her pet, leaving Hany and me chatting about our plans.

As the discussion goes, i'm talking to myself...what i want to be in life actually? Just becoz i am stuck in Fraud Management Division and do not performing accounting works, that doesn't mean that i shall lost control of my life to be whoever i want to be. But seriously, i do not know what i wanna be, it seems blur to me becoz i know my chance to be an accountant is quite low. My AGM is someone who is very very strict on the issue of letting any one of FMD staff transfers to other departments. He won't approve, and the only ideal time to leave is when your service period in this department reaches 4-5 years. Can i still make it to be an accountant after 5 years performing in non-accounting division? Absolutely not.

So, what should i do and go from here? Let my life directions and fate merely controlled by situations? Of course not. I really hate that concept, and rite now i think the wisest thing to do instead of grumbling or whatsoever is accept whatever you have now, and start to plan for your own future and betterment. And that is what i'm doing now by sitting MBA insya-Allah in this June. It's just that i do not know where am i heading to..to be what? who? when? how? and will be continued by other questions endlessly i would say.

It's time for me to take my life seriously now, for today and for future. No more become a young hopeless wavering person in life. Need to be independent in whatever i do, with help from Allah of course. Hmm..just pray for my success k, my dreams are not that much, and i'm not seeking much either. I just want to be a simple, decent person who has a meaningful and beautiful life. That's all i want, for now and in the Hereafter, insya-Allah.

Just want to say thank you very much to someone who had supported me yesterday when i was down. Really appreciate your effort to calm me down. May Allah bless you for whatever you have done :)

Alrite, need to go. Till fingers meet keyboard again k.

Wassalam.

Theatre

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Byk perkara yang mahu diceritakan, mahu ditangiskan, mahu diketawakan, mahu disenyumkan..tapi kebanyakannya hanya mampu terzahir di hati sahaja. I believe tak semua perkara perlu diceritakan, we should reserve some to ourselves, don't you think so?

Last Friday. What was so interesting about last Friday? Actually on last Friday, Halim did invite Ika and me to watch a theatre entitled Opera Ayu Cendana, supported by my younger sister Eqa (kena tukar nama sbb ramai org dah get confused between Ika my friend and Ika my younger sis) yg kata teater tu best sbb dia pernah attend kat USM dulu, so Ika and i went together with Halim, his younger bro, his sister and her sister's friends.

Eventhough my head was spinning like gasing due to tidur yg tak cukup sbb kena prepare 2 business plan utk 2 malam berturut2, dek kerana kasihankan Halim, pergilah jugak. Lagipun this was my first time watching theatre after dah grad, waktu kat U dulu selalu jugak tgk teater PLM. So might as well take the opportunity nak tgk apa yg bestnya teater ni. So we went.

The theatre was under Fauziah Nawi's group, namely as Steffani (tak taulaa naper nama dia Western sgt), the story was ok i would say, astonished jugak tgk Fauziah Nawi menyanyi sbb tak sangka dia terer nyanyi, and the actors and actresses also were impressive to me.

The only thing yg i tak berkenan was cara teater ni dilakonkan. Bersentuh-sentuhan antara hero and heroin. Isk, tak geli agaknya derang ni. Naik bulu roma tgk derang ni berlakon. I'm not blaming org2 teater ni bluntly, kadang-kadang org yg berilmu di kalangan kita kurang gemar utk participate this type of activities, tak banyak teguran yg diberikan. Therefore most of these type of activities/performances end up like that. Tapi, kalau dah Quran kata : Jangan kamu hampiri zina...tak kiralah apa caranya, maka tak bolehlah buat. Rasanya peringatan dah ada, berumur lebih 1400 tahun lak lagi, kalau tak digunapakai dek tuan punya badan, takkan nak salahkan org yg tak memberi nasihat pulak,kan?

Dlm dewan teater tu, otak berfikir..agak-agak kalau diajak tgk teater lagi..nak tgk lagi tak ek? Kalau fikir-fikir, mcm terasa duit yg kita bayar utk teater tu seperti menyokong pulak perbuatan yg derang buat tu. Tapi fikir dalam lagi, kalau bukan kita yang nak melihat dan menegur, siapa lagi nak tegur? Kalau semua org alim berfikiran mcm tu( please bear in mind that i'm not addressing myself as org alim and org teater tu jahat k coz i know i'm not alim and who knows ibadah mereka lebih baik dr kita), jadi mereka-mereka ini akan terus terpinggir dari skop dakwah kita. Pendakwah seharusnya tidak harus memilih bulu dalam mengerjakan dakwah,kan?

What can i conclude here is...kita bantulah mana yg terdaya. And what i did was, i put comment berbunyi " kalau boleh elakkan sentuhan fizikal antara lelaki dan perempuan, hopefully ada improvement in future" kat borang survey yg diserahkan pada kami sebelum teater bermula hehe. terasa mcm nak letak jugak pasal tutup aurat, tapi tak tertulis sbb memikirkan yg derang sure-sure gelakkan comment camtu. Tapi sepatutnya kita kena cakap jugak sbb perkara tu wajib diberitahu. Isk, berdosa rasanya sbb tak cakap. Nanti kalau ada teater lain, i will spell it out insya-Allah.

Mencari sinar

terperosok diri di satu sudut
mencari sinar yang telah lama hilang
dari dalam hati
sekian lama

basah sudah tabir mata
mengingatkan dosa yg bersepah
mengira betapa tingginya noda
mengejek diri
betapa kotornya lumpur dosa
yg memalit diri

akan diterimakah amalan selama ini
yg dipersembahkan kian hari
entah mana kusyu'nya
entah mana ikhlasnya
jadi
apa saja
yang dibawa ke akhirat sana?

Ya Allah
Jangan Kau palingkan wajahMu
di saat ku menghadap
membentang amalan

Janganlah Kau murka
atas kelalaian diri yang sememangnya daif
moga ada
belas ihsanMu
dalam menunjuk jalan nur
untuk hamba berdosa ini...


Sentiasalah kita memohon keampunan dariNya.

~Kita tidak selamanya menongkat dunia~

Pesona Dunia

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Pesona Dunia

Pesona hati membara *Chorus
Di ruang kamar hatiku
Betapa indahnya dunia
mempersona di jiwa

terasa bagai di syurga
gembira tiada terkira
tanpa kukenali
diriku siapa

Bulan dipagari bintang
mentari sinari siang
persada indahnya alam
mempersona di jiwa

dunia hanya pinjaman
buat sementara cuma
memujuk alam
kekal selamanya

insan hanyut dalam kegelapan*
tanpa arah dan haluan
dikaburi nikmat dunia
sandiwara dan tipu daya

insan lena dalam kepalsuan
dialun mimpi memperdaya
tanpa mengenal dosa pahala
hanya memburu nikmat dunia

islam pedoman sepanjang jalan
memancar cahaya
ke serata alam

Chorus *

suara islam terus bergema
menusuk jiwa membelai sukma
memadam dosa dan noda
suci diri hidup bahagia
menerangi hidup manusia
nan gelap
karatnya dosa

Chorus *


~ Hanya cintaMu kuharap sungguh, dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh~

Reflection

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello guys!!

I know it's been days i haven't update my blog..just couldn't find my time since balik dr Terengganu on last Saturday. Being bz with my Business Plan presentation for my unit and also for my Quality Program. Last nite i went back at 9.30 p.m becoz my manager went back early (eventhough he was supposedly the one who should do the BP and i supposedly assisting him, at the end i was the one who did it all! ) But nevermind, as long as we work as one team and he is the one who'll do the presentation, i dun mind at all! Hehe.

Supposedly i dun have time tu blog for today, seriously!! My Quality Program has not finish, and i'm going to my Arabic class within next 30 minutes, and i think tonite i'm not going to sleep for i have to prepare presentation slides and paper work! Sepatutnya dah siap semalam, tapi PC kat umah tak boleh read Drive A, tak boleh nak buka file, tense tense. Dah baik, drive A pulak tak jalan.

This morning En. Budi presented the BP, and i was so astonished of his capability to boast (not boast actually, it's more to ability menjadikan isu kecil jadi sebesar naga!) Seriously, i was the one who did all the works for the past year, and he was only appointed to be my manager in last December, and he manipulated the presentation content like a PRO sampai i pun pening tak paham apa yg dia cakap, yg peliknya sumer org including my AGM paham pulak! That's the beauty of a him kot being a Marketing grad, and then took Master of Communication and now pursuing his doctorates in Persuasive Communication! Tak lama lagi kena panggil dia Dr Budiman. Hish, giler gempak my manager!!

When this thing happened today, i glanced back to myself and compare myself to him. Perhaps it's true that some people say that your education background and surroundings have some influences on you. Like myself, being an accountant and having a family yg bercakap jenis straighforward, tak berkias2 atau berkeluk2 has formed me to be a straightforward person juga. I do not know how to berkias2 sgt, and i can't catch up very well dgn lawak2 hidden ni. Biler buat presentation in front of my customers or in the meeting, i will sit and start to speak the main and important contents only. Other than that, i usually didn't touch or it was not came up in my mind langsung!So to speak, mmg jenis straighforward tak ingatlah hehe. I thought i'm the only one yg mcm ni, tapi rupanya my sisters pun mcm tu jugak. Ape pun, i'm comfortable with the condition, so cheers!!

Ok ok, need to go for my class. Last class was like .. i dunno how to say, but i couldn't catch the subject very well...serious blur! Dlm keta kena bukak buku balik..and malam ni i'm not going to sleep ler kot..aaaaa!!

Bye everyone!

rufi'atil aqlam.. wa jaffatissuhuff
~ Telah diangkat pena dan telah keringlah lembaran~

Speechless

I've got a lot to be informed to all of you, but i can't. The only thing that i can explain is this morning i went to court for fraud case and the judgement is 12 mths!! Nice enuff for us!

Ok, need to rush for Arabic class, see ya next week k :)

Usaha tanpa henti

Assalamualaikum wbt again,

Nak tambah something, this morning i received SMS from Kak Athirah. The msg sounds:

Kerja utk Islam tiada hentinya, hingga terhentinya nafas. Jika hari ini ada ruang utk kita menyumbang sesuatu untuk islam, mengapa perlu tunggu hari esok krn kita tidak pernah tahu adakah kita masih hidup untuk esoknya. Semoga kita sentiasa segar dan bersemangat dlm menyampaikan seruanNya yg Maha Mulia.

Sama-sama kita renungkan.

Wassalam.

FMD Family Day

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Morning to everyone!! :)

Actually sekarang ni sdg menahan pedas makan nasi goreng yang diletakkan sambal..fuh fuh..pedas! Nama jer org N9, pedas pun tak tahan hehe.

Aight, this morning i'm gonna tell you about FMD' Family Day, conducted on 17 January at Rebutia, Gombak. What a fun day for us that day!! I brought my parent and Ika with me, and we were in the same group with Tn Hj Tajul, my AGM!!! I was his co-champion..haiyaa..naperlaa letak my name in his group..seganlaa!

During our journey to Rebutia, suddenly my father's windscreen retak sbb terkena batu jalan, giler tak? Kat Gombak ada banyak construction going on, so ntah camner boleh terkena pulak batu, my mum terjerit and get panic! Alhamdulillah cermin ok lagi, i requested my father to bring the car to workshop, risau tak nampak jalan, tapi sbb dah jauh, we decided to repair the car biler balik nanti. So we continued the journey with windscreen yg retak.

Sampai kat Rebutia, terus mendaftar, lots of families dah berkumpul, and we took our breakfast. En Zul conducted the senamrobik, and then we proceeded with the games. Let me tell you, the games were all fun! Every group was fighting with each other to win!! We have 5 groups, namely as Pagong, Tagi, Maraamu,Ogakor and Samburu, all depicted from Survivor series!! Hehe.

On that day we had Tarik Tali, Terompah Gergasi, Isi air dlm botol, Bawa Bola Ping Pong dgn Sudu, Cari Gula-gula, Kepit Belon dgn Kepala, and Longest Chain, they all were fun, and guess what, our team managed to be the second winner!! Hehe, kalah kpd kumpulan En. Zul, derang asyik dpt no 1 jer. Oklah tu, kira takdelah malu sgt Tn Hj kan, malu aa group AGM kalau kalah teruk pulak hehe.

I joined most of the games, and i shouted loud out of my lungs all the time, terasa jadi mcm ketua cheerleader pulak, keke. And boleh pulak suami Kak Fida ingat me anak staff, uishh betapa mudanya rupaku sampai org ingat aku anak staff insetad of real staff kekeke. Alhamdulillah ok jugak,kan? Tn Hj terkejut biler dapat tau Ika is 23 yrs old and pursuing for her Master, dia ingat Ika tu under age..akaka..saiko saiko.

Apa pun, mmg hari tu best despite my father's windscreen pecah, rasa mcm berbaloi pulak. Cuma my mum cakap kalau ajak pergi bercuti jer, mesti ada something berlaku. Dulu kat Pangkor my mum demam teruk sampai warded kat Pusrawi for 2 days, lepas tu my gelang hilang dekat Hutan Lipur Lentang, and then kat Rebutia cermin kereta pulak pecah. Apa pun semuanya dah tersurat, dah ditentukan Allah sejak azali lagi perkara-perkara ni akan berlaku, bukannya kita yg hendak ia berlaku.

My mum tanya, tak terkilan ker gelang emas hilang? Ibu rasa terkilan walaupun bukan ibu yang pakai gelang tu. Apa yg boleh i jawab? I senyap jer, tapi dlm hati berkata, kalau ibu rasa terkilan, iena lagi terkilan. Tu gelang iena, iena yang pakai di tangan tetiap hari selama setahun, takkan tak terkilan? Batu gelang tu beli kat Mesir waktu ikut Delegasi Cyber Bumi Anbiya', pastu tempah guna duit sendiri, tak terkilan? Terkilan sungguh-sungguh, waktu mencari di sungai tu, hati berdoa jer kat Allah supaya dijumpakan balik dengan gelang tu. Tu jerlah satu-satunya barang personal yang ada hasil kenangan DCBA selain daripada pictures captured, sarung tangan, kertas beli kat Mesir dan tasbih. Sedih sampai 2 pagi terjaga dr bangun tidur, mesti tgk tangan, tapi gelang dah takde.

Nak buat mcm mana, dah takde rezeki. And sampai skang ni terasa mcm fobia nak mandi sungai lagi. Jodoh dgn gelang tu Allah tetapkan hanya utk setahun sebulan jer tempohnya. Tapi masih dikira beruntung krn i lost gelang tangan shj, bukannya tangan, patutnya bersyukur,kan? Cuba bayangkan kita kehilangan anggota badan secara tiba-tiba tanpa apa-apa persediaan? What we gonna do that time? Bersyukurlah apa yang kita ada sekarang ni, insya-Allah kalau ada rezeki, digantikan dengan rezeki yang lebih baik insya-Allah :)

Narrated Abû Huraira radhiAllâhu `anhu: Allâh's Apostle said,

"Whoever says, 'Subhan Allâh wa bihamdihi,' one hundred times a day, will be forgiven all his sins even if they were as much as the foam of the sea." [Sahîh Al-Bukhari]

Mari kita cuba practice k, moga-moga terbiasa dan menjadi amalan harian, insya-Allah :)

Thanks to PM and Mudin yg rajin bantu ana furnish blog ni, barakallahu fikum :). Malam ni ada Arabic class, lunch nanti kena buka buku revise balik apa yg diajar last week, byk nahu waktu Level 2 dah terlupa :)

Before end, nak nyanyi sket:

"Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to Farah, Happy Birthday to You!!!!!

To my beloved ex-rumet and one of my bestfriends, Happy Birthday Farah!! Moga Allah sentiasa merahmati dan memurahkan rezeki dunia dan akhirat, insya-Allah :) Apa plan ngan husband sempena your bezday ni? ;)

Apa pun Farah, i'm glad you become one of my bestfriends, apa pun kenangan di bilik dan U dulu will be treasured and kept in my heart forever and ever. Thanks for standing beside me whenever i need you, thanks for your understanding and bimbingan (ni Ameerah kat kampus dulu nih, jgn memain, camnerlah budak nakal mcm me ni boleh tersesat satu bilik ngan dia heheh). May Allah bless you and your family always :)

Rindu jugak kat my beloved sis di US, sis Yati, apalaa citer dia, senyap jek skang ni :)

Wassalam.

Hantu kat FMD

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Last nite i went back from office at 10.45 p.m..and something scary happened last nite. Guess what? I heard some music has been turned on at midun's place and i was ALONE!! Nobody was there with me, and who had turned the music on? Allahualam..but i was scared and packed back as fast as i can and fled off. Ni gara2 pc kat umah rosaklah ni, kalau tak tak payah nak stay back kat ofis sampai pukul 10 malam...urrghh..pasni nak buat rules, once pc kat umah tu dah ok, jgn harap ada saper2 yg boleh install games dlm pc tuh...pc rosak sbb main games byk sgt ler tu!

"NO MORE GAMES IN THIS PC" I'll do that and paste it on the pc screen by myself, seriously!!

Emo pulak pepagi Jumaat ni, yerlah..keje yg boleh siap last 2 days tak dpt nak siap sbb pc kat umah rosak..bengang tak? Urrghh...tense tense.

I wish my own real pc yg kat UUM skang ni dihantar balik ke umah..rindu giler ngan pc tu. PC kat umah ni bukan tak best, tapi i prefer my own pc most.

Senyum itu satu sedeqah, dan menyabarkan diri dari terus berasa marah adalah satu pahala, so iena, behave yourself! :)

A servant [of Allâh's] committed a sin and said: O Allâh, forgive me my sin. And He (glorified and exalted be He) said: My servant has committed a sin and has known that he has a Lord who forgives sins and punishes for them. Then he sinned again and said: O Lord, forgive me my sin. And He (glorified and exalted be He) said: My servant has committed a sin and has known that he has a Lord who forgives sins and punishes for them. Then he sinned again and said: O Lord, forgive me my sin. And He (glorified and exalted be He) said: My servant has committed a sin and has known that he has a Lord who forgives sins and punishes for sins. Do what you wish, for I have forgiven you. [Hadîth Qudsi]

Betapa luasnya ruang pengampunan Allah pada kita, terpulang pada kita dlm hendak berusaha mencari pengampunan dan redha Allah. As human beings, we can not run from committing sins, but please always turn for His forgiveness, biarpun kesalahan itu berulangkali kita lakukan.

Sama-sama kita dalam mencari redhaNya.

~Mardhatillah~

Being an accountant who is not practicing except for herself

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Just went back from paying my phone bills, and i started counting my money like an accountant, try to allocate and planned for possible disbursements for this month, and my salary will be only available tomorrow!! hmm..need to plan my financial allocation wisely, i've invested about RM 7200 in Maybank and only to get know that the money will be calculated and approved for any withdrawal based on NPV rate!! Haiyaaa, it means i have been keeping the money for small profit (the assumption is applied only for 2003, by 2004 the rate will increase pending on how much i invest for the year). Nevermind, wishing that i still live for another 10 years, then RM72,000 will be MINE!! hehehe.

I plan to pursue my MBA this June, need money about RM4K for registration..isk isk..minta parent tanggung boleh tak ek? hehe..i'm keeping about half of my monthly salary for that purpose, kalau tak cukup jugak, then my parent will be the best financial resort for melah kot hehe.

Wanna buy a car or not? hmm..UIA can be reached by train and bus, which gives me alternative instead of buying a car, seelah how, if i think that it's necessary for me, then i'll buy, if not, wait for my father's planning to buy a car for Ika. Ika i think need the car mostlah compared to me, she needs to go to Putrajaya for her research for her Master. Ika told me that she received a call from a blind student, pursuing his Master at UM in Counselling, requesting Ika to be his eyes by reading to him all the books and study materials. See!! Even a blind person wants to continue his study for Master, inikan pulak Ika yg sihat walafiat, sponsored by my parent and ada kemungkinan dibelikan kereta, boleh pulak tak nak sambung belajar. Lastly she made up her mind FIRMLY to pursue her studies, which i support the effort so much!! hehe.

My mum keep asking me when i want to get married? Hahaha, kalau ada calonnya takpe jugak, ni takde..mcm mana ler nak kahwin hehe. If a nice, well educated, well equipped with agama guy ni senang nak dicari umpama mencari ikan di pasar, lama dah daku membelinya kekeke.

Sabarlah ibu, ada rezeki adalah insya-Allah. The only thing that i can do for now is keep praying to Allah, praying to be granted for a good husband which can help me to be a better muslimah. That's the general dua' for all muslimah, isn't it? hehe.

Janji Allah : Perempuan yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik. So, usahalah perbaiki diri selalu. Allah tidak akan memungkiri janji-janjiNya :)


Semalam ada kelas Arabic, ustaz baru dtg mengajar menggantikan Ustaz Fauzi. His name is Ustaz Rahimi, ok jugak dia mengajar..takdelah rasa tertekan walaupun the subject really need your full concentration in the class.. alhamdulillah Allah lapangkan hati menerima ilmu semalam.

Semalam ulang balik topik Al Ibna' wal I'rab (Keadaan yang tidak berubah dan keadaan yang berubah). This time the explanation was better compared to the last one, and got this one pakcik yg terer selalu tanya soalan. Alhamdulillah takdelah dia ni jenis sorang yg irritating, kekadang ada org tu dah pandai, berlagak pulak mcm pakcik2 kat kelas Mak Teh during last semester. So far so good, the class went well and i'm thinking of continuing the class. During the journey nak ke UIA, i opened my arabic book and glance thru the content. Terasa sedikit nak vomit and i did actually before performed Maghrib prayer kat masjid UIA, tertekan kot. Tapi kelas semalam ok, so i guess should be oklah kot for me to continue joining the class in the future.

Wish i can speak Arabic fluently by 2005, doakan k :)


" Verily, whosoever associates with Allaah anything, for him Allaah has forbidden Paradise, and the Fire will be his abode; and the wrongdoers shall have no helpers." [5:72] " Verily, whosoever associates with Allaah anything, for him Allaah has forbidden Paradise, and the Fire will be his abode; and the wrongdoers shall have no helpers." [5:72]

Mohon semoga kita dipelihara dari menyekutukanNya dengan cara atau kaedah sekalipun. Sometimes kita membuat sesuatu krn riya' atau hendak menunjuk2 pada org, sedangkan riya' itu sendiri adalah syirik kecil. Na'uzubillah min zalik.

Pelihara hati ini Ya Allah, pelihara segalanya agar aku dapat menghadapMu dengan tenang dan penuh pengharapan agar dikurniakan rahmat dan belas kasihanMu. Ameen.

Ngantuk

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Aaaaa..i have Arabic class tonight!! Haven't revise the subject last nite coz i had a serious discussion with my family members on something which i can't reveal it in here (it's family matters hehe) and i slept at 1.30 a.m.

I'm someone who need to sleep at least for 6 hours, if not i'll become weng like today. *weng weng* So, wish that i can complete all my tasks for today before 5 p.m so that i can have a glance thru at my Arabic book. Hopefully no more migraine attack for me tonite :)

My body is cramping and feel tired quite badly. Tonite i have to sleep early so that tomorrow my body will become stabil again.

~Ngantuknyaaaa~

Arabic - Level 3

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I started my day with a good feeling, since last nite i was attacked by terrible painful migraine due to pressure of learning Arabic for level 3 last nite. It was not that hard actually, but perhaps due to my shock of learning new things which i thought at first as not that hard, the migraine seems so fierce and merciless attacking me that caused me to vomit several times after reached home. Terrible, terrible experience.

This morning when i was photostating my business plan, the urge to vomit came again and i was standing in front of the photostate machine and try to vomit (selamber jer, kalau bebetul vomit kat dpn machine tu naya jer), but i know that i was not going to, tu yg berani tu hehe. Luckily it was not that long for me to gain back my stability.Serious, tak sangka tekanan belajar arabic sampai mcm ni sekali hehe.

The class was ok, the cute ustaz (Ust. Wan Zuki) was no more my ustaz, he was replaced by Ustaz Fauzi Yusuf, funny and active jugak, boleh aa buat2 lawak compared to Ustaz Wan Zuki yg segan-segan sket hehe. Belajar ttg terms yg mabni( fixed regardless of situations) and mu'rab (boleh berubah) mengikut situations. Bendenya mcm senang jer kalau pk-pk, tak tau ler naper semalam begitu tense sampai kena migraine hehe. Tapi ustaz pun mmg cakap, at the first glance dia tgk buku teks level 3 tu pun, dia mcm tak percaya sbb dia kata susah, tapi dia kata dia gained confidence coz most of us dah ada basic and boleh jawab waktu dia tanya soalan2 basic dlm kelas. Most of my classmates dulu chose to stay at level 2 coz they wanted to strengthen their comprehension on the subject, which i believe it's good for those yg masih rasa tak confident, coz me myself yg begitu confident waktu memula nak start kelas pun boleh terus kena migraine biler dah start belajar dek krn susahnya, inikan pulak yg rasa derang still weak, mau jenuh nak memahamkan level 3 ni hehe.

The text book is thicker than level 2, and no more pictures or dialogues for us. Most of the content touch on nahu(grammar) basically. Last nite ustaz asked me to form a sentence using allazi (yang) and i was so terperanjat until i kept quite for several seconds before developing an ayat (tu pun tak sure betul ker tidak, hentam jer hehe). One thing i dislike about learning arabic ni is i have to get prepared for any spontaneous request by ustaz to form sentence. Urrghh..susah nak buat ayat sebenarnya, and i think ustaz wan zuki realized that i dun favour any request as such, tu yg dia tak pernah tanya spontaneous to me dlm kelas dulu hehe.

Takpe iena, take the challenge, you can do it!! Please pray for me for this one ya, i dun think i can cope of any migraine attack anymore after my terrible experience last nite. My last thing to do is quitting the arabic class.

Last nite ustaz asked why we want to join arabic class at the first place? So many reasons poured out by the class including me (we have to answer the question one by one), and actually when reflecting my intention time nak ambil kelas ni dulu, it was purposely taken just becoz i was so bored acting like a robot dulu. Serious tertekan becoz mmg terasa jd mcm robot, pegi keje and balik keje, pastu tidur and get up at the next morning and start all the routine again. At certain times jer i became a human again(time tgh lepak2 kat umah ika atau do something beneficial).

What did i answer for that particular question last nite? Hehe..adrusu al lughatul arabiah li afhama lughatul quran (saya belajar bahasa arab kerana hendak memahami bahasa Quran), which is true, i wanted to learn arabic in order for me to learn and understand quran better. Tapi kekadang nak buka quran pun malas, biler nak pandainya ntah. Takpe, pray for me to be istiqamah in this battle of understanding a language arguably considered as the hardest and toughest language in the world ya!

Actually i came across this news cutting article about arabic while browsing UIA Coordinator's website, and it mentions that arabic is not the hardest language at all, coz Allah has created Quran in Arabic, which directly indicates that Arabic is easy to be learnt and accepted by all. A good point to be pondered on,kan?

"Ta'lamu lughatal arabiah wa a'lamuha an nas" (Belajarlah bahasa Arab dan ajarkanlahnya kepada manusia) - hadith Rasulullah saw mentioned by ustaz semalam. Sahihlah kot dah ustaz tu yg cakap hehe. Allahu 'alam bis showab (Hanya Allah yang mengetahui dengan benarnya) - ni pun ustaz ajar semalam.

Best jugak belajar Arab :)

Surf this URL kalau nak tau byk ttg Arabic course offered by UIA:

http://www2.iiu.edu.my/arabic/kuba/

kalau nak join, mehlah :)

Continuos Learning

Assalamualaikum wbt,

What a lovely morning today, i feel satisfied a lot, alhamdulillah :)

Today i browsed thru several blogs, and i came over this one posting which emphasized on the importance of continuous learning, be it by reading, attending informal and formal classes/seminars or forums, or just pondering over ayat2 kauniyyah(betul ker ni ek? haven't check the correct spelling), assuming that my spelling is correct, kauniyyah is meant for ciptaan2 Allah di muka bumi ini yang mendorong kita berfikir dan menghayati kebesaran Allah swt.

Yeah, i had to admit that during the absorption of the points rendered by the blog's owner, it's true that some of us especially me, we don't have this enough courage to be drowned into this massive, large ocean of 'ilmu when we actually are required to do so, at where it is fully encouraged and become a fardhu ain for us as Muslims to go and seek 'ilmu as when and where it is possible. And yet, how many of us have this strong determination to do that?

I hope at this very early stage of 2004, i shall fully occupied myself with 'ilmu seeking activities, no matter how and no matter what. I was touched by one of Ika's posting last week about this poem mentioning on dakwah. Seriously until last night, i kept thinking and checking on myself, what have i've done until today, until this present breath that i take, that i do for Islam or for Allah?

I had suddenly changed became a pathethic inferiority complex person since a month after Raya, i keep comparing myself to one this girl eventhough i know it wasn't right, yet indirectly it helped me to identify and get know of me very well, to see where am i standing and what should i pursue to create a more concrete, strong and valuable personality and identity. Alhamdulillah Allah has given me some opportunities for me to review back my performance as His slave, eventhough it was quite hurt for me to get thru of it. As hurt as it was, yet there was a very important and crucial point for me to be pondered on...WHERE DO I STAND IN FRONT OF ALLAH'S EYES?

"Verily, His Command, when He intends a thing, is only that He says to it, ‘Be, and it is!’" [36:82].


Alhamdulillah for whatever decision You have made for me Ya Allah, and forgive me if i ever felt discontented with what You have gave to me. Forgive me as i don't want to lose Your attention and rahmah, for now and forever. Ameen ya Rabbal alameen.

If you want to have a look at the poem of dakwah that i had mentioned just now, please click at Ika's link at your right handside view or surf at this URL: http://zueika.blogspot.com/ and search for Jika Tidak Hidup Untuk Dakwah. I like it very much. Jazakallahu khairan to the author, regardless where and who he/she is.

Must be strong..always

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Nothing to be said or mentioned further, just wanna paste this sweet quotation sent by zarp this morning:

Perempuan yang gagah...

-adalah perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan

-adalah perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan

-adalah perempuan yang tabah menanggung kerinduan setelah ditinggalkan

-adalah perempuan yang tidak meminta2 agar dipenuhi segala keinginannya

kegagahan perempuan berdiri di atas teguh iman, seluruh kegagahan ini ada pada Saidatina Khadijah....

Adalah kegagahan sempurna bagi seorang wanita......:)


Still mourning on my lovely bracelet, sabar iena..if you want to be a strong woman, you have to be strong in facing losses...becoz no matter how, the final analysis will be between you and Him only. So please redha for whatever has happened, becoz there are so much nikmah that haven't you appreciate and be grateful.

Remember, there is nothing immortal except Allah, always be grateful, always be grateful.