I am so LURVEDD!!

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Actually, starting from early this year, my mum had declared that she won't cook for dinner anymore for us, since byk makanan dia basi sbb kitorang tak makan.

I threatened mildly her once "Kalau ibu tak masak, nanti iena makan kat luar hari-hari"

My mum answered "Takpe, lebih baik mcm tu dr sakit hati tgk makanan tak berluak padahal dah penat2 masak". Hehe, ibuku sudah merajuk :D

Bukan kitorang tak nak makan, me sometimes balik lewat kalau ada discussion or nak siapkan keje kat ofis,biler balik penat sgt utk makan unless lapar sgt. My younger sisters and Along pun mcm tu jugak. Furthermore, ibu suka masak gulai ikan cili api yg kami kurang nak makan sbb bosan makan lauk tu, dr kecik sampai besar lauk tu jerlaa ibu suka masak. Naper ibu suka masak? Sebab dia tahu ayah kitorang takkan makan sgt kalau lauk gulai ikan cili api tu takde.Ayah tak minat sgt makan kari, asam pedas, sup2 or whatsoever, nak jugak gulai ikan masak cili api.

Kalau rajin, kami goreng ler telur ke apa ker utk makan nasi, tapi tak sentuh gulai ikan sgt. End up either nasi atau lauk gulai tu akan basi atau tersimpan di fridge for 2 3 days. Mengamuk ler ibu, penat dia masak.

Jadinya mmg me kalau balik akan telefon rumah dulu tanya ibu masak ker tidak, kalau tidak i have to resort to any fast food restaurant (sbb malas nak masak, penat aa, balik keje nak kena masak hoho, i'm sure working mothers like Hany, Aida and Aini won't agree with me hoho)

Tapi skang ni the situation has changed since my younger bro from UKM lepak di umah bercuti 3 bulan sebelum nak habiskan final semester and my younger bro from UUM sedang balik bercuti utk practical for 6 months (tak tau ler apsal lama sgt practical dia nih), so most of the day skang ni mmg my mum masak for dinner.And lagi satu, sejak ibu mengajar mengaji di surau, so dia ada penty of time jugaklah utk kami kat umah berbanding dulu.

So last 2 nites, she had cooked nasi dagang special for us. I didn't have the chance to eat it since i got into sleep rite after solat Isyak (my Along dah kata dah jgn lepak atas katil, nanti tertidur, i encountered her that i said i'm not going to sleep, just baca2 paper only on the bed, last-last terlena padahal ibu dah hidang nasi dagang time tu, terjaga balik kol 4 pagi, punyerlaa lama tidur.Dah terjaga tu, siap pk nak study ker tak, last2 rasa malas and sambung tidur huhu)

So last nite habis buat finalization of FMD Corporate Video kat tempat Keyrul sampai Maghrib, solat maghrib pastu ajak DZ and Kak Imah dinner sbb dah tak tahan sgt lapar. Biler balik, tgk Ili (my younger bro) sdg dinner, dia kata best, tapi me yg dah full mcm malas nak makan sbb dah kenyang.Pastu my younger sis Ira pulak balik terus makan nasi dagang, dia pun kata best, so i tried ler sikit.

Ya Allah, sedapnya ibu masak. I went to dapur and cari nasi dagang and i dunno what to call this lauk daging, either it was soup or gulai kurma, but my mum said both were wrong, dia kata special lauk for nasi dagang. Pastu i opened my fridge and there, my rainbow pudding that my mum had reserved for me, i guess ler since the previous nite i dun have the chance to taste it. Best best. Tengah2 makan tu, terasa disayangi pulak hohoh.

Ibu dulu every weekend sure buat something special for us, but that was before kami sumer berpecah2 ke serata Semenanjung Malaysia ni, ada yg kat utara, ada yg kat selatan. So mcm missed jugak ler ibu masak2 special ni kecuali time Raya.


One thing i realized,there are several food that i would like my mum cook and i dare ask nobody to touch the ingredients except for my mum. I like to eat gulai keladi masak cili api campur ikan bilis yg mum buat. Best sgt, won't trade it for something else hehe.Lagi satu kalau ibu buat sambal, mesti best. Kekadang pelik apsal biler i buat mesti tak sama ngan ibu nyer,padahal ingredients, cara masak sama jek. Hmm...nak kena conduct CSI investigation camnih heheh.


One thing yg kelakar sbb skang ni my mum dah mengajar mengaji, so anak2 murid dia panggil dia ustazah, kami pulak yg tak biasa. Pastu ada anak2 murid dia yg nama Zulaikha dan Zulhilmi, apa lagi, my mum treat these 2 kids mcm anak sendiri, kalau salah jer my mum jadi sedikit ter'over' emosional sbb dia mcm regards bebudak ni as anak2 dia sbb nama derang sama to my younger sis and younger bro, Eqa and Imi. Ya Allah, dgr my mum bercerita mcm mana dia garang kat bebudak ni kalau derang tak dtg atau dtg lambat, ngeri giler. Kalau me, mesti tak nak ngaji dah hehe. My mum said dia mcm terasa ada connection ngan bebudak ni sbb nama derang sama ngan anak2 dia.Yg lagi klakar, one day tu my mum buat agar2 utk sumer anak2 murid dia, my mum boleh siap bagi extra kat 2 budak ni sbb kira treat special dia regards as anak2 sendiri, tapi biler dah balik umah menyesal sbb bagi tak fair treatment to the rest. Some times biler marah waktu mengajar these 2 kids, my mum mcm tercakap "Kan IBU dah kata,oopss... kan ustazah dah kata..". Ekeke, sadis jugak aa jadi bebudak 2 org ni, my mum bagi extra care kat derang,sometimes she tends to become more garang and become more baik to them hohoh. Nasib baik takde nama murid lain yg serupa to my name ker, my sis ker, my other younger bro Ili ker, Ira, Erni atau Aida. Kalau tak, derang pun senasib kena deraan mental ngan my mum kekeke. Kesian jek dengar, tapi my mum said dia tak leh nak buat apa, sbb nama sama so dia mmg jaga bebetul budak 2 org nih hoho.

Pagi tadi ada 2 org anak murid ibu dtg umah nak something, derang cakap, "Akak, ustazah nak kain petak2 kecil" Haa...ustazah?? huhu, terpaksalaa terima realiti org panggil my mum ustazah kekeke.


Ok guys,need to concentrate on my job plak pasni, apa pun nak cakap, happy sbb skang ni buat keje i suka, and happy sbb ada happy family. Grateful to Allah :)

Wassalam.

High risk to get high return

Assalamualaikum wbt,

This semester i am taking Operation Management and Finance. Finance is the most unfavorable subject to me due to its extensive mathematical calculations and formulas, and i hate maths!!

So to speak, i hate Finance too hoho.

The best thing about this subject is my Prof who is very knowledgable and make efforts to explain to us about a lot of things related to financial world that i never acrossed before (for instance Gold Dinar and etc), and yeah, now i have a financial calculator that can count multiple categories of loans, name it and i can calculate it straight away, using this calculator hohoh.

Notes: You can pay me RM 1 per caculation requested since the calculator that i'm using now is very expensive, huh its price is RM 165 and i believe i will use it only for 3 months!!Huhu :D

One new fact that we have learnt in this course is that the conventional bank and islamic bank has not so much difference in terms of operating, since both are creating loans from nothing (money on paper only). But Prof has emphasized that the economical impact of these 2 loan systems are different, since in islamic system we treat the excess payment that we pay to the bank as total profit, meanwhile in conventional bank, the excess payment is treated as interest. Therefore the total impact and accounting treatment of these transactions are different. And what is the difference? I could not answer since i have not ask that to my Prof yet, but i am interested to know what is it actually.Later k.

The most astonishing part that we have encounter when we are dealing with loans calculations is that, when we want to pay earlier the total loans that we acquire from banks, the total balance payment calculated by Islamic banks are much2 higher than the conventional banks, which had sparked a consensus by us as the students that it is much better to make borrowings from conventional bank rather than islamic banks when it comes to early payment. When we ask our Prof whether do we have any options since we want to avoid the riba, he said that if our islamic bank give us loan based on the 'real money', not the ones which get created of nothing at the first place, then it is ok to go for islamic banks.The problem nowadays is that islamic banks do not practice that, and actually for middle east countries, the Bai al-Bitaman Ajil(BBA) concept is not accepted. They will go for Musharakah Mutanakisah Partnership (MMP) which is implemented by having the bank to buy the asset at the first place, then only they will sell to consumers at a marked-up price, provided both parties agree on the total sale proceeds.

I dun want to make an impression to you that conventional bank is better, since at this point of time i am yet to study the impact and the difference of these 2 banks make on the economy. Nanti ada org ambil bulat2 whatever i write here as your base to make loans from conventional.Wait till i finish study the impact and the differences of these 2 banking systems k :)

To get high return, you must prepare to face higher risk (this is a very popular concept in financial subjects especially when it comes to stock and asset valuations). And i'm doing it now for my life, dun ask what types of risk and return that i'm going for at this moment, but i believe if my intention is pure, insya Allah the return that i will get is sufficient for me for dunya wa akhirah. (Hoho, i know most of you dun understand what the heck i'm talking about, but dun worry, this is for my own understanding :).

Wassalam

Manusia ini sungguh berkira sifatnya

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Saya dapat satu pelajaran kehidupan pagi ini.

Manusia sungguh berkira ttg nikmat (pendapatan, perbelanjaan, wang, harta, etc)

Berkiranya kita sehingga 1 sen pun kalau kita boleh tuntut sekiranya McD tak dapat nak pulangkan, kita nak tuntut jugak rasanya.

Sebab apa?

Sebab kita rasa 1 sen tu hak kita, kita ada hak untuk menuntut.

Tetapi cuba kita renungkan sekejap, adakah Allah berkira dengan kita dalam mencurahkan nikmatNya pada kita walaupun kita berterusan mengkufuri nikmat yang kita ada sekarang ini. Itulah sifat Ar-Rahman Allah, di mana Dia Pemurah dalam memberikan rezeki, mencakupi pada semua termasuk non-muslim yang sememangnya kita tahu ingkar padaNya, dan sifat Ar Rahim khas untuk kaum muslimin terutama pada mereka yang ikhlas mengabadikan diri kepadaNya.

Tapi perlu diingat, Allah tetap berkira ttg apa yang kita buat di sepanjang kehidupan kita ini. Calculation Allah akan dibuat di Yaumil Masyar nanti, even satu zarah kebaikan dan keburukan pun akan ditimbang dan dikira.

Kita sudah tahu hakikat ini, masih berkira-kirakah kita hendak berbuat kebaikan?

Sering teringat dengan nasihat seorang sahabat saya,

"Jangan bertangguh-tangguh berbuat kebaikan".

Dan nasihat saya,

"Jangan berkira-kira kalau hendak berbuat kebaikan, laksanakan semaksimum mungkin, mana tahu di akhirat nanti kita mungkin menyesal kerana kita tak laksanakan semaksimum dan sebaik mungkin sedangkan kita punya capacity untuk berbuat demikian".

Wassalam.

:D

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I have training for PROMPT at TTC starting from Monday to Wednesday, so do miss my entries k.

I know i know, you guys must be really miss me nanti, hehe. Be patient,on thursday nanti i will be back here again insya Allah ;)

To someone who-get-checked-up-by-a-cute-doctor, I wish ya a VERY GOOD LUCK!!

Mana tahu ada rezeki, as you have said "Aku harap doctor cute tu akan call aku"

Huhu, who is that lady?

Make a brilliant guess ya, I am sure she will shout at her lungs very well when she read this at the first place, kekeke.

Who is that lucky lady?

Make a guess,make a guess.

Hoho :D

Wassalam

Hukum Bersolat dalam Gereja

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Actually sehari 2 ni sdg concentrate tahap Ultraman (tukar istilah tahap naga sbb tau Cpol mesti nak kenakan me lagi kalau guna istilah naga tu :P ), menyiapkan laporan overall performance of FMD to be presented in our monthly management meeting this morning. Alhamdulillah, dapat pujian ngee ngee :D

Yati, i dun feel satisfied you guys nak buka co berlima jek, ooo..mana aci camnih!! Lagi 3 org mana mau campak (Shelly, Zarid and me huhu). Kena bukak berlapan jugak kalau nak buka audit or consultancy company hoho.Tapi nampak gayanya, cuma Halim and Mafus jek yang mengejar cita-cita, yang lelain bidang ntah ke mana2 :)

Kak Saf, hoho iena mcm iklan Horlicks?? Hehe, iena tiru Ika jek, dia yg selalu sebut hoho, iena pun dah terikut2, kan Ika kan? ;D (Daku rindu samamu, mesti bangga giler me ckp publicly rindu kat dia, so pelagi Tikot? Biler mau jumpa? Aku hutang ko 2 treats nih, satu utk Econs, satu utk apa ek? Luper dah :)

Tikot, biasa ler aku, kalau time idea mencurah2 aku tulis ler, kalau takde, biar jek ler blog ni kosong hehe.Cakap org jek ek, dia tuh pun sama jugak, siap boleh tulis satu cerita Kasut lak lagi hoho :P

Aini, takpe ler, ko kalau nak sambung master, baik pi oversea, lagi best :)

Now to my YTR geng yang lama tak jumpa Miss Rubaiti Afti Rusli (hoho, sajer jek mention your name penuh2 afti, bagi glamer sket, insan power YTR nih hoho), this is the answer for your question abt hukum bersolat dalam gereja. Meh kita belajar sesama :D


Hukum Bersolat di dalam gereja

1) Apakah hukum menunaikan solat di gereja?

Jawapan:

Dalam permasalahan ini, Dr Yusof Al-Qardawi dalam Kitab Fatawa Muasarah jilid 1 telah menyatakan bahawa harus bagi seseorang Muslim untuk menunaikan solat di dalam gereja berdasarkan pada hadis Nabi (SAW) yang bermaksud: “Telah dianugerahkan padaku lima perkara yang tidak diberikan kepada seorang pun sebelumku- Nabi (SAW) menyebut salah satu dari lima perkara tersebut ialah: dan dijadikan bumi ini bagiku tempat sujud; suci lagi menyucikan. Maka mana-mana lelaki dari kalangan umatku apabila solat menjadi wajib keatasnya, hendaklah dia solat”.

Dari hadis ini diiktibarkan seluruh bumi atau tanah (yang suci dari najis) sebagai tempat sujud bagi seseorang Muslim dan merupakan tempat untuk sujud dan solat padanya. Tempat ini termasuklah gereja dan seumpamanya tetapi adalah lebih aula(baik/ afdal) dijauhi daripada solat di tempat-tempat seumpama ini kerana takutkan syubhah. Jika sekiranya tidak didapati tempat selain gereja atau seumpamanya maka dibolehkan solat padanya,maka ketahuilah bumi ini adalah milik Tuhan dan seluruh bumi ini tempat sujud bagi orang Islam. Dan sesungguhnya Umar Al-Khattab itu hampir-hampir menunaikan solat di gereja yang bernama Al-Qiyamah ketika dikatakan padanya: “sembahyanglah olehmu” . Maka dia menjawab: “Tidak , aku tidak akan tunaikan solat di sini sehinggalah tidak datang orang-orang Islam selepasku lalu mereka berkata: “ di sini (Al-Qiyamah) Umar telah tunaikan solat”. Lalu mereka mengambilnya sebagai tempat sujud bagi orang Islam.


Secara ringkasnya, diperbolehkan untuk bersolat, tetapi adalah digalakkan utk tidak berbuat demikian, this was what my ustazah had mentioned to me dulu jugak ttg isu bersolat dalam gereja :)

Moga dapat manfaat k.

Afti, biler mau dapat kad jemputan ni? ;)

Surat untuk my very beloved sister

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Akak,

Iena rasa sedih biler akak kata akak nak undur diri, i know that you have your own plan and mungkin akan berpindah dr luar KL tahun ni, tapi undur diri terus??

Allahu Akbar, dalam setiap program biasanya kita akan bersama, skang ni akak nak undur diri, iena nak pergi program dgn siapa? Kak Iqin dah takde lagi, akak pun nak tinggalkan iena jugak ker?

Mmg ramai lagi kakak2 yang iena boleh jumpa, Kak Asiah etc, tapi takkan sama. Iena tak leh nak kongsi cerita yang biasa kita kongsi, Iena tak biasa reveal hal peribadi kecuali pada mereka yang sgt2 rapat, and you are one of them.

Skang ni akak nak undur diri, sedihlaa akak, sedih sgt.

Takpelah pun kita duduk berjauhan, tapi masih bersama. Kebersamaan itu tetap satu sumbangan, kalau akak rasa akak tak memberikan apa2 sumbangan pun selama ni. That is what Kak Adawiyah is doing, dia mengajar di Seremban tapi masih bersama.

Akak, iena harap akak tak undur diri walaupun lepas ni kita tak pergi program sama-sama, nanti iena rasa iena keseorangan walaupun ada Kak Umi, Kak Jamilah, Kak Asiah bersama. They are not the same like you, so please re-consider your decision, for me.

Please....

Your sis,

Iena.

Pengisian hidup over last weekend

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Huh, dunia ini sudah berpusing giler lagaknya apabila segolongan kecil di Amerika Syarikat diketuai oleh Professor Amina Wadud, seorang Professor Pengajian Islam di Virginia Commonwealth University mengerjakan solat jumaat (dalam gereja) diimamkan oleh Aminah sendiri pada Jumaat lalu. Tak tau apa nak komen dah ttg ni.

Alhamdulillah weekend ini terisi sungguh dgn aktiviti2 bermanfaat.

Jumaat lepas ada sedikit diskusi dgn Abg Faizal yang memaksa hati ini re-consider back my decision yang memberat untuk memberikan perhatian kepada aktiviti yag dirasakan lebih disukai berbanding dgn tanggungjawab yang sedia ada digalas sekarang.
Antara keinginan dan keperluan, setelah ditimbang tara, lebih baik mengutamakan keperluan dari keinginan, apatah lagi keinginan itu masih ada alternatif lain, sedangkan keperluan itu kalau difikirkan dalam situasi semasa, amat diperlukan walaupun saya hanya mampu berbuat sedikit.Malu saya kalau menarik diri sekarang sedangkan org lain sedang bersusah payah berusaha dan saya bertindak meninggalkan mereka, hanya semata-mata mengejar keinginan yang sebenarnya punya banyak alternatif lain (mesti org tak faham apa yg saya cerita ni, tapi takpe, ini catatan hati saya, hanya mereka-mereka yang memahami sahaja mengetahui :).

Alhamdulillah Sabtu lepas saya berpeluang bersolat di Masjid KLCC, dalam banyak2 masjid kat KL ni, masjid KLCC merupakan masjid kesukaan saya. Suka dgn ketenangan masjid ni, biasanya kalau tamat kelas pada hari Sabtu atau Ahad, saya suka singgah di masjid ini untuk bersolat dan kemudian baru pulang ke rumah. Semester lepas saya tidak berpeluang untuk singgah di masjid ini kerana selalunya bersolat di UIA atau singgah di Masjid Jamek sebelum balik, tapi pada Sabtu lepas entah kenapa hati terdetik utk singgah di KLCC. Cuba bayangkan pakai baju kurung pegi KLCC, rasa janggal sungguh. Mmg dari kecil kalau pegi shopping complex tak biasa pakai baju kurung, kalau pakai jubah pun biasanya pakai jubah seluar,tapi pakai baju kurung??Huhu, dalam mimpi jer bulih kot. Hehe, ingat lagi dulu waktu Pre-U geng2 ajak pegi Jusco di Melaka lepas kelas pun, kalau time pakai baju kurung mesti rasa nak tolak utk join, tapi biasanya akan kena pegi jugak sbb geng2 PAKSA, especially biler dah duduk satu rumah kat Taman Dahlia ngan Aida, Aini, Ayu, Jie, Siha, Husna, Aze and Paie (guys, rindu ngan korang sumer). Derang ni sumer alim-alim belaka, pegi kelas pakai baju kurung and tudung labuh, me and Siha jek brutal pegi kelas pakai seluar and T-shirt hoho. Kawan ngan derang ler baru belajar sikit jadi baik, pegi shopping complex pakai baju kurung huhu.

Alhamdulillah lepas solat pergi me'round2' KLCC (kagum dgn diri sendiri sbb mampu nak round pakai baju kurung huhu), cari kasut flat heel sbb kasut lama dah rosak, yang tinggal sumer high heels yang menyakitkan kaki jek kalau jalan jejauh, pastu sbb tak sempat nak singgah Kinokuniya (my favourite place kalau pi KLCC), maka singgahlah satu store yang jual magazines kat sebelah kedai jual Roti Boy kat ground floor. Selak-selak magazine science and tetiba jumpa magazine Wireless World, huhu, seronok giler, terus pegi beli. Rasa relief jumpa magazine sbb dia banyak citer ttg trend komunikasi dunia skang ni, my job kan skang ni kena strategize ttg telecommunication fraud, so kena ler ambil tahu ttg trend communication dunia skang ni. Alhamdulillah terjumpa magazine ni, senang sket nak buat analysis and forecasting.

Terjumpa juga satu majalah Islam 'Islamica', bagus contentnya menyentuh ttg permasalahan dunia umat Islam sekarang ni, cumanya harganya mahal sikit, RM 35. If you guys rasa nak luaskan skop pembacaan islam yang lebih serius, try to look at this zine.I think it's worthwile rasanya, i didn't buy it sbb cash tak cukup time tu sbb dah beli kasut and magazine Wireless World, and malas pula nak menapak balik mencari ATM machine. Next time kalau singgah KLCC balik ingat nak beli.

Tgh menyelak magazine Islamica ni, Kak Mas ketua Nisa' call. Katanya saya dan Kak Wiyah senyap jek sebulan 2 ni. Hehe, terpaksa admit bahawa saya 'beruzlah' dari sebarang aktiviti Nisa' sejak 4 minggu terakhir semester lepas di mana saya berada di dalam keadaan tertekan menghadapi projects dan exams. I had to becoz ketika itu keutamaan saya adalah untuk lulus dan tamatkan semester saya berbanding di Nisa' di mana saya percaya sahabat2 Nisa yang lain masih boleh bergerak sbb saya mmg tak punya peranan besar di sana , tapi skang ni alhamdulillah skang ni sudah bertukar work scope membuat business planning and analysis, maka saya sudah banyak masa terluang sekarang berbanding dulu ketika saya bertugas di unit legal, banyak masa saya diperuntukkan untuk kes-kes Corporate Customers, outstation, kes undang2 dan tribunal serta Fraud Account. Untuk MAPS baru2 ini, ex-manager mengakui pada officemate yang dia memberikan markah tinggi pada saya sebab dia kata saya deserve kerana sepanjang saya bekerja di bawah dia, saya lebih banyak buat kerja dan planning berbanding dia.Alhamdulillah, saya sendiri tak sangka manager and GM boleh markah setinggi itu, tapi Aini jgn sedih sbb your MAPS kurang sgt2, rezeki kita berbeza2. Rezeki anti lebih murah kerana dikurniakan husband and keluarga yang bahagia, my rezeki belum lagi ke tahap itu.Apa pun,suka diingatkan kita kena sentiasa bersyukur. Saya suka berpegang dgn kata2 ini, 'Let us be grateful for what we have and what we dun have' :)

Sejak dah bertukar unit Business Control ni, saya mempunyai lebih masa for quality time with family, saya sudah kerap pulang awal sampai adik hairan kenapa saya selalu pulang awal sekarang ni, paling lewat pun selepas Maghrib sbb nak tunaikan solat kat office before balik. Naper tak balik lepas kol 5.30? Hehe, kalau balik umah seawal itu, rasanya lebih byk masa saya akan berada di depan TV, jadinya lebih baik stay di office buat assignment, baca newspaper etc etc.Insya Allah minggu ni, dah start untuk balik awal, sharp at 5.30 sbb ada project khas bersama Eqa (my younger sis)di rumah huhu.

Semalam pergi melawat Farah Wahidah, bayangkan dr pagi berada di UIA Gombak (kawasan dlm Selangor), balik dari kelas menuju pula ke Bangi (kawasan dalam Selangor lagi satu) merentasi KL huhu. Jauh sungguh langkah semalam. Sepatutnya berkumpul dgn sahabat2 di rumah Abg Faizal, tapi sbb balik dr UIA pun dah lewat sbb ada discussion Finance, and of course akan sampai lewat juga ke rumah Abg Faizal, makanya straight away pegi melawat Farah kat hospital. Farah dapat baby boy, Ahmad Mu'az namanya. Waktu bertanya kat Farah apa nama baby and Farah jawab Ahmad Mu'az,dalam hati berkata "Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, naperlaa geng2 aku ni suka sgt rebut nama yang aku suka huhu". Ingat lagi kami berebut nama Anas (time tu Farah baru kahwin tapi belum pregnant pun), tetiba Kak Lin pulak yang ambil. Frust betul kami time tu, pastu last Friday i told myself, kalau ada baby boy nanti nak letak nama Mu'az pulak. Suddenly Farah bagitau yg anak dia nama Ahmad Mu'az, haiyaa..keciwa daku. I said to her, naper ambil nama tu, i had reserve that name for my baby (cheaaa, kahwin pun blom dah berangan cop nama baby hehe, tak kire ler,persediaan di masa hadapan keke).Farah jawab,husband dia yg suka nama tu.

Takpelah,bukan rezeki saya, however at this moment i have 2 other reserved names in my mind that i won't tell anyone, tapi kalau nama2 ni kena ambil jugak, mmg merana ler sket huhu. Rasanya kena kahwin cepat supaya cepat dpt baby, pastu letak nama favourite so that tak yah berebut dgn anak org lain hoho (nakal giler idea nih, takpe aa kan,bukannya berdosa pun hehe)


Ok ler, panjang sgt dah ni, later k. Paper pun, i did feel happy and grateful for i had a very good pengisian hidup over last weekend, and hopefully sepanjang minggu ini pengisian hidup saya akan lebih baik, doakan k.

Wassalam.

Yahudi rancang ambil alih Makam Nabi

BAITULMAQDIS, 17 Mac - Golongan ekstremis Yahudi merancang untuk mengambil alih tapak suci Makam Nabi di Baitulmaqdis sebagai satu usaha untuk mensabotaj pelan pengunduran tentera Israel dari Gaza.

Sebuah rakaman video yang disiarkan oleh stesen televisyen Israel Channel Two menunjukkan, sekumpulan perancang termasuk golongan rabai (ketua kumpulan agama) dan ekstremis bersayap kanan mengadakan pertemuan bagi membincangkan perkara tersebut.

Menurut stesen itu lagi, pertemuan tersebut diadakan di sebuah lokasi rahsia di bandar lama Baitulmaqdis yang melibatkan wakil daripada 30 buah kumpulan.

``Kita mesti menguasai Makam Nabi jika mahu menghentikan pelan pengunduran tentera Israel dari Gaza.

``Sekiranya 50,000 orang berarak ke Makam Nabi, saya yakin Tuhan yang ada di syurga akan melihat kita, begitu juga dengan semua institusi di Israel tidak boleh bersikap tidak ambil peduli (terhadap perkara ini),'' kata seorang peserta.

Laporan Channel Two juga difahamkan, kumpulan ekstremis Yahudi terbabit akan mengadakan raptai penuh di sekitar Makam Nabi dalam tempoh tiga minggu akan datang.

Sehingga kini, para peserta yang hadir masih belum memutuskan sama ada untuk mengambil alih kawasan berkenaan sebelum atau selepas kerajaan Israel mengundurkan tentera dan penduduknya dari Gaza.

Proses pengunduran tentera Israel sepenuhnya dijangka bermula Julai ini. - AFP

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Memang dasar Yahudi yang tak habis-habis dengan tipu muslihatnya. Kalau ler sekarang ni ada teknologi membunuh tanpa dapat dikesan, mmg Sharon akan dibunuh dulu, pastu Bush, pastu org2 White House, pastu sekutu2 lainnya.

Why laa we are so weak today, if the plan to overtake Makam Nabi tu bebetul hendak dibuat, kita akan bersenyap diri sahajakah?

Wassalam.

Taubat satu kejayaan

SESUNGGUHNYA berjayalah orang yang setelah menerima peringatan itu berusaha untuk membersihkan dirinya (dengan taat dan amal yang soleh). Dan menyebut-nyebut dengan lidah dan hatinya akan nama Tuhannya, serta mengerjakan sembahyang (dengan khusyuk). (Al-A'la :14-15)

Huraian:

Insaf dan taubat daripada melakukan perkara-perkara yang ditegah oleh Allah s.w.t. bukanlah sesuatu yang merugikan.

Sebaliknya ia adalah satu kejayaan besar kepada individu tersebut kerana telah berjaya melawan nafsu ammarah dan nafsu lawwamah yang mengajak kepada keburukan.

Allah s.w.t. memuji mereka yang bertaubat setelah mengetahui balasan dan azab yang bakal menimpa, jika mereka mengingkari perintah Allah s.w.t.

Taubat yang paling disukai oleh Allah s.w.t. pula ialah taubat nasuha, iaitu taubat yang bersungguh-sungguh untuk tidak mengulangi lagi perbuatan yang sama.

Di antara amalan soleh yang dapat memelihara diri daripada kembali melakukan kejahatan ialah berzikir, bertahmid, membaca al-Quran, mendengar kuliah ilmu, solat yang ditunaikan dengan khusyuk dn lain-lain lagi.

Islam sememangnya tidak pernah menghalang umatnya daripada mencari kehidupan dunia. Firman Allah s.w.t. di dalam surah al-Qasas ayat 77 bermaksud:

Dan tuntutlah dengan harta kekayaan yang telah dikurniakan Allah kepadamu akan pahala dan kebahagiaan Hari Akhirat dan janganlah engkau melupakan bahagianmu (keperluan dan bekalanmu) di dalam dunia.

Dengan sebab itu, setiap individu perlu pandai mengimbangi keperluan dunia tanpa mengabaikan keperluan ukhrawi agar tidak terbabas dari batas dan ajaran yang ditetapkan oleh Islam dan kembali kepada jalan Allah s.w.t.

Oleh kerana itu, Allah s.w.t. menyifatkan golongan yang mengambil peringatan-Nya lalu bertaubat dan beramal soleh dengan penuh ikhlas kerana Allah s.w.t. sebagai golongan yang berjaya.

Kesimpulan

Taubat yang dilakukan secara bersungguh-sungguh akan memberi kejayaan kepada diri individu daripada segala perbuatan dosa yang telah lalu.

Rahmat dan keampunan Allah s.w.t. sentiasa terbuka kepada manusia yang ingin kembali ke jalan kebenaran dan kejayaan.

- Disediakan oleh Jabatan Kemajuan Islam Malaysia (Jakim).

Catatan buat Yati

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Buat adik Yati, adik di kalangan adik2 yang paling kakak sayang..

Akak tahu Yati kecewa mendengar keputusan Petronas kerana tidak membenarkan Yati menyambung Master, tapi pastinya ada rahmat di sebalik semua peristiwa.

Tidak semua yang kita mahukan di dunia ni akan kita dapat, tapi sebagai hamba yang mengakui dirinya beriman atas ketentuan Tuhan, kita mesti bersyukur dengan segala apa yang kita punya dan yang tidak kita punyai, insya Allah ada hikmah yang masih belum tercerlang di depan mata, tapi insya Allah, pasti ada hikmahnya, mungkin bukan sekarang, tapi pasti ada.

Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu.Dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagi kamu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.." Al-baqarah:216.

Hai orang-orang yang beriman jadikanlah sabar dan shalat sebagai penolongmu, sesungguhnya Allah beserta orang-orang yang sabar. (QS. 2:153)

So adik tersayang akak sorang ni, la tahzan k, berdoa byk2, insya Allah dipermudahkan segala urusan di dunia dan akhirat.

:)

Suratul Maryam

Assalamualaikum wbt,

(1)

Mendapat sedikit pengajaran ketika membaca Suratul Maryam yang menceritakan Nabi Zakaria memohon zuriat daripada Allah sedangkan diri baginda sudah tua dan isteri baginda tidak berupaya melahirkan zuriat.

Allah memperkenankan doa baginda namun baginda hairan, mana mungkin diri baginda yang sudah tua dan isterinya yang mandul boleh melahirkan zuriat?

Tercatat di dalam Kitabullah:


[19:0] In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

[19:1] K. H. Y. `A. S.* (Kaaf Haa Yaa `Ayn Saad)

[19:2] A narration about your Lord's mercy towards His servant Zachariah.

[19:3] He called his Lord, a secret call.

[19:4] He said, "My Lord, the bones have turned brittle in my body, and my hair is aflame with gray. As I implore You, my Lord, I never despair.

[19:5] "I worry about my dependants after me, and my wife has been sterile. Grant me, from You, an heir.

[19:6] "Let him be my heir and the heir of Jacob's clan, and make him, my Lord, acceptable."

[19:7] "O Zachariah, we give you good news; a boy whose name shall be John (Yahya). We never created anyone like him before."

[19:8] He said, "My Lord, will I have a son despite my wife's sterility, and despite my old age?"

[19:9] He said, "Thus said your Lord: `It is easy for Me to do. I created you before that, and you were nothing.' "


We were nothing when Allah created us, we are totally NOTHING!

Pengajaran yang dpt ana timba dr ayat2 ini:

1. Allah itu Maha Berkuasa, pohon sajer segala keinginan hati,insya Allah Allah sentiasa mendengar.Sama ada cepat atau lambat sahaja, yang pasti Dia mendengar.

2. Siapa kita untuk berlagak di dunia ini sedangkan we are nobody/nothing ketika diciptakan. Bongkak itu sifat Tuhan, bukan sifat kita sebagai makhlukNya. Tak perlu meninggi diri.

3. Jangan melawan cakap ibu sebab disebutkan dalam surah yang sama:

The Infant Makes a Statement(perihal Nabi Isa bercakap ketika masih bayi)

[19:29] She pointed to him. They said, "How can we talk with an infant in the crib?"

[19:30] (The infant spoke and) said, "I am a servant of GOD. He has given me the scripture, and has appointed me a prophet.

[19:31] "He made me blessed wherever I go, and enjoined me to observe the Contact Prayers (Salat) and the obligatory charity (Zakat) for as long as I live.

[19:32] "I am to honor my mother; He did not make me a disobedient rebel.

[19:33] And peace be upon me the day I was born, the day I die, and the day I get resurrected."


Hehe, saya anak yang degil dan keras hati, sendiri mengakui dan ibu bersetuju, katanya saya mewarisi sifatnya yang keras hati dan tidak mudah mengalah, tidak seperti ayah yang lembut hati. Saya mmg jenis yang akan mempertahankan pendapat sendiri apabila yakin benar, dan ibu juga bersikap demikian. Makanya apabila dedua berselisih pendapat, masing-masing nak tegakkan benang sendiri, hasilnya terhasillah satu perdebatan ala ala Dewan Parlimen bersidang hoho.

So lepas ni tak boleh ketegaq lagi (Hany selalu guna istilah ni :D ), tapi best debat ngan ibu, siap boleh tubuh satu team pembangkang kat rumah, Ibu vs Iena & Adik-adik, biasanya ibu kalah ler ngan kami and end up kami gelak ramai-ramai setelah tamat perdebatan yang biasanya hangat. Kalau bebetul ibu marah, kami senyap kibarkan bendera putih, kalau kami menang, ibu akan gelak mengaku kalah.

Despite of perdebatan ini juga, kami menjadi lebih rapat, selesa berkongsi cerita yang dulu kami tidak alami kerana kami semuanya dulu duduk di asrama dan kemudian ke universiti.

Sayang my ibu!! :)


(2)

Menghabiskan 2 hari membaca 1515 karangan Faisal Tehrani, mmg berbara hati membaca plot di mana menceritakan org2 Islam dimurtadkan selepas penaklukan Melaka. Tak tau ler betul ke tidak kisah yang sebenarnya, tapi kalau betul, mmg bergolak rasa hati ni cuba membayangkan apa yang terjadi.Marah sungguh sungguh dibuatnya.

Quite confuse juga dgn cerita ni, entah yang mana satu versi kisah yang ingin dihighlightkan sebagai benar-benar berlaku atau yang sebaliknya. Dengan nama watak-watak yang sama, mmg agak sedikit mengelirukan. Tapi yang pasti, novel ini berharga untuk dibaca :)

Susah peritnya berjuang mempertahankan negeri yang dilanggar orang, sukarnya ingin mendapatkan kembali hak yang dirampas,baru kini saya faham perasaannya. Dan insya Allah lebih memahami penderitaan saudara2 kita di Palestin yang sedang berjuang mendapatkan kembali hak yang terlucut.

Doakan saudara-saudara kita di sana dan di mana jua sentiasa mendapat pertolongan Allah dan mendapat kejayaan.

Wassalam.

Terlena

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Saya sudah terlupa banyak perkara, dek kerana kesenangan dan kemudahan hidup yang dirasa.

Terasa seperti dikejutkan dari mimpi manis apabila mendapat dan mendengar du'a dr URL yang diforwardkan by a junior petang tadi.

http://desert.lvo.info/video/Dua.htm

The same du'a yang Hany ada sebut di blognya baru-baru ini, yang memang telah lama diterima sejak dulu lagi, dan kemudian ia kembali untuk mengetuk pintu hati, lekakah saya selama ini?

Saya mengaku, saya leka, lekanya saya dengan segala kesenangan dan kemudahan yang Allah berikan kepada saya, sehingga saya lupa dunia Islam hari ini sebenarnya lemah, masih banyak yang perlu kita lakukan untuk membangunkannya hingga tertegak mulia di bumi ini.

Banyaknya tanggungjawab kita belum tertunai, dan hati saya sudah takut untuk memikirkan apa nanti yang hendak dijawab di depan Tuhan..

Barakallahu fiik pada Adik Aiz.Barakallah krn mem'forward'kan URL tersebut pada akak.

Tersentak sebentar dari lena yang panjang.

Wassalam.

Jie has a newborn baby

Assalamualaikum wbt,

(1)

Yesterday went to visit Jie and her newborn baby di Ampang Puteri with Ika, tak sangka rupanya di sana sudah menunggu Ayu and her friend.Unfortunately, baby berada di dalam nursery due to demam kuning, so all of us could not see him, fortunately Jie and Nuar ada snap gambar baby derang, so tgk kat camera jer :)

Teka siapa nama baby Jie? Hoho, dekat sgt dgn nama anak Hany Aliff Nufayl, anak Jie namanya Fahim Naufal,mengambil nama sempena cantuman alphabet F dan N mewakili Fakhrul dan Najibah. Teringat kat Ustaz Fahim yang mengajar di Pre-U dulu. Jie kata ada juga cadangan nak letak Fahim Mujahid,tapi biler fikir dah ada sorang nama ustaz MMU kat situ, tambah pulak Mujahid yang sememangnya di MMU dulu ada juga seorang ustaz yang namanya sama, mmg terserlahlah betapa loyalnya mereka kat MMU kalau bebetul ambil nama tu, jadinya mereka decide nama sorang ustaz MMU jer cukup, tak yah sampai 2, lagipun mereka mmg nak nama Naufal tu dr awal-awal lagi, sejak Hany belum bersalinkan Nufayl hoho. Apa nih Hany, dahlaa size korang dekat dekat jer kecilnya, nama anak pun nak berebut ker? :P

Hoho, Ika sudah advance dlm bab-bab memelihara baby, dah boleh 'lepas' dah ni, so Ika, biler lagi? ;) Ngee...pasni ada yang kena 'tornado' dari bangunan Menara Telekom menuju ke bangunan Telekom Jalan Raja Chulan pulak lepas ni hehe.

Nuar looks happy, sempat me bertanya pada dia "amacam dah jadi ayah ni?ok tak?"

Nuar : Happy laa, cuma biler dia dah masuk nursery ni mcm terasa lost sbb dah 2 hari ada ngan kitorang, pastu skang ni takde.

Hehe, takpe Nuar, after this for whole life you can own him insya Allah :)

Lepas melawat Jie, berjalan ke Ampang Point, dah lama sgt tak pergi berjalan window shopping sejak dah start study ni, so jalan puas-puas sampai terasa kaki mau patah dibuatnya sbb pakai high heels, pasni taubat kalau nak pi berjalan jauh tak nak pakai high heels, tak baik untuk kesihatan kaki hohoho.


(2)

Semalam berjalan dr stesen LRT Plaza Rakyat menuju ke office, terjumpa dengan 2 orang buta yang meminta sedeqah. Kesian sgt tgk, unfortunately my route tidak melalui kawasan mereka, so when i was walking i was thinking...

"Mcm mana agaknya yer mereka melalui kehidupan sehari-hari? Dengan tak nampaknya, dan entah entah mereka sudah berkeluarga, peritnya menanggung hidup.."

Tapi dalam satu laporan by The Star ada mengupas ttg betapa pemurahnya masyarakat Malaysia sehingga seorang peminta sedeqah boleh hidup senang sebenarnya.

That is not my point to discuss about this subject on whether should we help them or not with regard to the fact that they can earn so much money by meminta sedeqah actually.

My point is that...

Have we ever think let say in one moment Allah tarik salah satu nikmat drpd kita, redha tak kita dengan pemergian nikmat tu? Tak perlu memikirkan ttg kematian whatsoever, fikirkan sahaja duit kita hilang RM 50 (sekarang ni org hilang RM 10 pun kurang kisah sbb terasa nilainya agak bearable lagi, so mari kita guna RM50 pulak), tak pun RM 100. Mesti melilau mencari mana perginya duit tu, betul tak? Kalau masih tak jumpa, siap sibuk mencari saper ada ambil duit kita, check satu-satu beg, beg duit, beg sekolah (kalau masih guna), beg pasar, segala-gala beg ler kalau ada, yang pentingnya CARI.

Kalau dah puas cari tapi masih tak jumpa?

Hati mesti terkilan, betul tak? I bet semua org akan terkilan, mesti akan fikir "mana ler aku cicirkan duit tu,kalau ler aku beli something-something, berguna jugak duit tu..". See, betapa tak redhanya kita?

Cheaa, saya mengulas mcm ler saya tak mengalami keadaan itu. Saya turut mengalaminya, lagi ler,dulu waktu kecil kecil tertinggal pemadam atau pembaris di rumah tak bawa ke sekolah pun saya sudah tidak senang hati (tu waktu kecik2 jerlaa hoho).

Dalam Al-Quran menyebut, betapa manusia ini kurang bersyukur. Ketika membaca La Tahzan di rumah Abang Faizal sekejap ketika menjaga Nufayl, i came across this message saying that we shouldn't be sad because we have OTHEEEEERRRRR (nak tunjukkan betapa banyaknya kuantiti) nikmat that are still with us, where we should be grateful for each of them.We can walk, we can talk, we can see, we can earn good money, we do have family and friends, we have good qualifications, we have house, we have car, we have so much, yet sometimes we do feel that all of them are not yet enough and we still urge for something else.

I'm not saying that it is wrong, totally Allah has urged us to try our best to earn and get the best outcomes possible as Allah loves someone who is hardworking in doing something in particular, its just that when you are losing something, you must realize that there are so MUCH nikmat that we have not yet be grateful with. Try to take it as dugaan, pray to Allah for a lesser burden, insya Allah everything will settle, sooner or later.

Kurangnya rasa kebergantungan kita pada Allah menyebabkan kita rasa sukar untuk menerima cubaan dan dugaan, kita menangis over small matters that if we compare our problem to someone's else at different part of our Earth, we should feel ashame about ourselves.

(Actually this catatan is for my own tazkeerah coz i used to cry a lot for my assignments and work pressures, now i do feel shame over myself for it hehe).

Wassalam :)

You Are Never Alone

You Are Never Alone


Sometimes, when the world's not on your side

You don't know where to run to

You don't know where to hide.



You gaze, at the stars in the sky

At the mountains so high

Through the tears in your eyes.



Looking for a reason,

to replace what is gone.

Just remember, remember

That you are never alone.



You are never alone (you are never alone)

Just reach into your heart

And Allah is always there.

You are never alone (you are never alone)

Through sorrow and through grief

Through happiness and peace

You are never alone.



So now as you long for your past

Prepare for your future

But knowing nothings going to last

You see this life is but a road

A straight and narrow path

To our final abode



So travel well O Muslim

And Paradise will be your home

And always remember

That you are never alone.



You are never alone (you are never alone)

Just reach into your heart

And Allah is always there.

You are never alone (Allah is there)

Through sorrow and through grief

Through happiness and peace

You are never alone.



You are never alone (you are never never alone)

Just reach into your heart

And Allah is always there.

You are never alone (you are never alone)

Through sorrow and through grief

Through happiness and peace

You are never alone.


Zain Bhikha - You are Never Alone

(from the album, 'Towards the Light')

Tahfiz vs Electrical Engineering, MMU vs UIA

Assalamualaikum wbt,

(1) Tahfiz vs Electrical Engineering

On last Friday nite, i was preparing myself to get my sleep at abt 1 ' clock in the morning, tidur lewat sikit. Suddenly my younger sis's handphone ringing, so i picked it up since my younger sis has gone to sleep much earlier. I was so jahat that i pretended to be my younger sis while answering the phone becoz i know this is the guy that my younger sis always talked to every nite sampai pukul 1 pagi, so i want to know who is he.While the phone was ringing,its screen displayed 'Nenek YB', uik..pandai sungguh my younger sis ni sorokkan identiti bf dia (i assumed the caller is my younger sis's bf sbb asyik bergayut every nite).

Me: Assalamualaikum.Hello?
The caller : (luper dia ada jawab salam ker tidak), apsal angkat lambat?
Me: Sajer.
The caller : Sajer jer? Apsal?
Me: Sajer jer.
The caller : Sajer jer? (Nada dia dah blank..i couldn't tahan my gelak)
Me: Dik, Ira dah tidur sebenarnya, ni kakak dia (ngee ngee...i was sure he was stunned to hear that hoho)
The caller : Ha? Ni kakak Ira? Maaf kak, saya cuma nak bagitau dia yang saya dah ambilkan borang dia di sekolah tadi, kakak sampaikan kat dia nanti yer (dengan nada takut takut dan sungguh formal hohoho)
Me: Alrite dik, nanti akak sampaikan kat Ira k. Saper nama adik ni?
The caller : Wan, akak, akak tak marah ker saya call ni?
Me: Naper akak nak marah pulak, ok jek.
The caller : Ok kak, tu jer nak bagitau.
Me: Ok, assalamualaikum. (The call was ended)

Selang 1 minit, the phone was ringing again, so i picked it up and i heard the same voice just now.

Wan : Akak, boleh ker saya call akak guna telefon rumah?
Me: Ha? Nak call akak? Err..err, ok, bleh jek.
(Dlm hati dah terpk, awat budak ni nak tepon me pulak isk isk)

Tepon rumah berbunyi and i picked it up.

Wan : Akak, akak jangan marah Ira pulak saya call dia malam-malam. Akak marah ker?
Me: Marah? Nak marah apanya, korang dah besar, takde der nak marah-marah der.
Wan : Akak sportinglaa
Me: Biasaaaa..kekek (chea chea, mamat ni nak ambil hati aku ker apa nih, puji2 pulak,ambik peluang nih nak tanya pasal diri dia, sekolah mana, umur baper, duduk kat mana etc etc, pastu tanya how was his SPM paper)
Wan : Ni laa akak, paper saya tu ok kot, cumanya saya tgh confuse, tulaa yang saya call akak nih..saya sebenarnya confuse nak sambung Tahfiz atau Electrical Eng, camner ek akak?
Me : (Dah ternganga dah sbb tak expect soalan tu keluar). Hmm..adik minat yang mana? Naper adik rasa nak ambik Tahfiz? Minat ker ngan Electrical?Dah buat solat istikharah?
Wan : Saya minat Tahfiz kak, lagipun skang ni dah akhir zaman, kena fikir pasal akhirat juga kak.Saya suka juga Electrical, and skang ni saya target nak buka business dgn pakcik2 saya. Tapikan kak, saya sebenarnya tak kisah pun tak belajar tinggi2 sgt sbb saya bukannya nak makan gaji, saya suka kerja sendiri2, pakcik2 saya pun mcm tu juga, boleh jer hidup.
Me: (Hish budak ni, selamba jek ckp camtuh, tak pk ke education tu penting? ) Naper Wan cakap camtu, ilmu tu penting, walaupun kita tak nak makan gaji and nak keje sendiri, tapi ilmu tu tetap penting. Kalau kata nak buka business, tanpa ilmu yg cukup, mcm mana kita nak expand business tu sampai ke national atau international level.Ibu ngan ayah keje apa?
Wan: Ummi buka restoran sendiri, ayah dulu arkitek tapi skang ni tolong ummi kat restoran.
Me: (Wah,ayah arkitek, mcm mana boleh ada anak yang ber'mentaliti' mcm ni nih?) Ooo ok ok. Takpe takpe, skang ni Wan kata Tahfiz utk akhirat, habis tu Wan fikir belajar Electrical tu bukan untuk akhirat ker? (Pastu lecturelaa dia ttg manfaat jadi engineer kpd manusia, as long we regard the work as ibadah, ke akhirat juga gunanya)
Wan : Saya bukan apa kak, dedua saya suka, cumanya saya dah plan kalau saya ambil Tahfiz, lepas keluar saya nak buka sekolah tahfiz pula, pakcik sedara saya dah berjaya buka satu, and derang sumer nak support saya belajar tahfiz kak.
Me : Ic ic, ok ler kalau camtu, cumanya jgn ler fikir course selain agama ni tidak contribute kepada Islam atau akhirat, kena expandkan sikit pemikiran adik tu k. So skang ni, tunggu jer result SPM, kalau dpt offer memana, buat solat istikharah byk2 and decide, kalau takde, pergi sekolah tahfiz tu k.

Pastu kami sembang bab-bab lain sampai pukul 3 pagi. Kelakar budak nih, patut ler my younger sis selalu bergayut ngan dia. Anyway dia bukan my younger sis's bf pun, geng baik jek. Cumanya ketika berbual dgn dia, terasa mcm bagusnyaaa budak nih, umur 18 tahun dah terpk nak jadi tahfiz, siap nak buka sekolah tahfiz lagi. Me at 18? Ntah ler..lagi nak enjoy lagi ader. Bagus sungguh budak ni, kerek2 pun ada jugaklaa sifat kepimpinan, siap boleh berdebat with me ttg soal Bida'ah, huish me at 18 Bida'ah pun tak tau apa sgt. Time tu terpk betapa indahnya Islam menekankan pendidikan dan tarbiyah dr kecil bermula dr rumah, hasilnya kita akan nampak di kemudian hari :)


(2) MMU vs UIA

Semalam masuk kelas, belajar ttg Operation Management. Entah mengapa tiba-tiba membuat perbandingan antara MMU dan UIA.

Honestly, I would say MMU is more advance in terms of latest knowledge exposure especially when it comes to K-aspects (K economy, technology etc).I think MMU is much better in terms of up-to-date exposures and highly professional, seriously.

On the other hand, my reason to be in UIA was justified as i want to try IPTA after being 4 yrs in IPTS. My first choice is UIA, and the second one is UM.UM's schedule is not flexible to me, therefore i chose UIA, and i was happy with my decision. But after 3 semesters being in UIA, i have clearer picture that MMU is better. HOWEVER, it's up to someone's personal motives also. Some of my classmates prefer UIA due to its location that is very near to their houses, and some is due to its 'International' status. Its all depends on what your personal wants, i guess.

So guys, if you think you want to get better exposure, choose MMU to pursue your Master, but if you want to try out for different environment and make comparisons, then the options are wide enough as we have UKM, UPM etc.

I am proud to be a MMUrian hohoho.

Wassalam.

Affliction (perkara yang menyedihkan)

Question: What is the ruling regarding the one who becomes angry when an affliction befalls him?

Answer: People are upon 4 levels regarding the circumstances of affliction:

The First Level
Being angry, and this is in various ways:

The first type: That the anger is by the heart as if he is angry at his Lord. So he becomes angry with what Allaah has decreed for him, and this (level) is haraam. And it is possible that this could lead to kufr (disbelief). Allaah said:


“And among mankind is he who worships Allaah as it were, upon the very edge (i.e. in doubt); if good befalls him, he is content therewith; but if a trial befalls him, he turns back on his face (i.e. reverts back to disbelief after embracing Islaam). He loses both this world and the Hereafter.” - Al-Hajj (22):11


The second type: That the anger is by the tongue like making duaa for destruction or ruin and what is similar to that, and this is haraam.

The third type: That the anger is by the limbs like slapping the cheeks, ripping the clothes, pulling out hair, and similar to that, and all of this is haraam in contradiction to patience which is waajib (obligatory).

The Second Level:
Being patient, just as the poet said:


“Patience is like its name - bitter in taste, yet its outcomes are sweeter than honey.”


So the person sees this thing (the affliction) weighs very heavy upon him, yet he bears it although he dislikes that it happened. Rather, his eemaan bears it and restrains him from being angry. So the time of affliction and the time of no affliction is not the same to him, and this (level) is waajib, because Allaah commanded the people to be patient, saying:


“…and be patient. Surely, Allaah is with those who are As-Saabireen (the patient ones, etc.).” - Al-Anfaal (8):46


The Third Level:
Being pleased with the affliction in that the person is pleased with the affliction and whether it happened or not, it is the same to him so he it is not difficult upon him. He does not bear it as if it is something weighing heavy on him, and this (level) is mustahabb (preferred - between haraam and waajib) and it is not waajib according to the most correct opinion. The difference between this level and the one before it is apparent because the affliction happening or not happening is the same due to the pleasure of the one on this level. As for the level before it, the affliction is hard upon him, yet he remains patient over it.

The Fourth Level:
Thanking/being grateful and this is the highest level. This is that the person thanks Allaah for the affliction which has struck him in that he knows that this affliction is an expiation for his sins and perhaps a cause for an increase in his good deeds. The Prophet (Õáì Çááå Úáíå æÓáã) said:


“There is no affliction which strikes the Muslim except that Allaah expiates with it (sins), even with a thorn that may poke him.” (Recorded by Bukhaari and Muslim)


Fataawa Arkaan al-Islaam - Fatwaa 64, page 126


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Actually mcm tak prefer nak post posting yg sedih2 ni dlm keadaan yg ceria skang ni, tapi rasanya baik kita kongsi ilmu sesama :)

Wassalam.

You Raise Me Up

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You Raise Me Up

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.

There is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up… To more than I can be.


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Boleh tahan jugak lagu ni, no wonder ramai org suka lagu ni. To this person you-know-who-you-are, be strong always k, i will always pray for your happiness dunia wa akhirah. And dun worry, our naughty secret yesterday will safe with me (err..err..tapi kalau nak black mail ok,gak kan? Heheh)


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Ika owes me one, wahai Lady Ika, nasib baik ler your reason tak dpt join gathering Farah semalam sbb sakit kepala, kalau tak, mungkin ada yg kena cekik pagi ni hehe.

Yesterday pegi gathering bezday Farah yang dibuat sekali utk Mala, Norli and Shaz. Ni sumer our juniors di MMU dulu, about 21 org turned up, and i was the only senior in the group. Haiyaaa..tu yg terasa seperti mau balik jek tak nak join gathering tu, tapi alang-alang dah sampai, join jek. We celebrated at Pizza Hut, Mid Valley.

Semua geng2 apartment kat MMu dulu ada, Deq No, Ina, Mala and her 2 frens, Shaz, Lisa, Nadia, Farah, Sok, Laili, Momay, Sarah Mamat, Norli and fiance, Zaza and bf, Nad and Yan. Ada lagi kot, tak teringat dah skang ni.

We were laughing at our lungs last nite, especially while i was talking to Sok. Betul2 heaven and kecoh bebudak ni buat gathering, mcm Laili cakap semalam ' Aku buat Pizza Hut ni mcm restoran aku pulak' ekeke. Huish, gathering my batch punyer ler bersopan and takde aa bising2 sgt, bebudak junior ni punyer, masya Allah, mcm nak runtuh Pizza Hut tu dibuatnya. Celebrate 4 org sekaligus, mana tak bising :)

Biler jumpa Shaz, terasa ya Allah rindunya ngan exco-exco usrah dulu. Dah lama tak bergurau senda mcm kami biasa buat biler ber'iftar' setiap Isnin dan Khamis dulu. And rasanya ramai giler exco yang lahir bulan 6, me, zarp, Abg Faris and ada lagi kot. Terjumpa Mar waktu di kenduri kahwin Kak Saf (uish, Kak Saf cun giler time kahwin tu, berubah habis muka :D), peluk Mar, rindu kat dia. Shafizan dah lama tak jumpa walaupun kami satu UIA buat Master, Sue, Amla, exco2 lelaki kecuali Mudin mmg lamaaaa sgt tak jumpa. Rindu kat Ise my little bro yg nakal mcm Mudin jugak, Kaduk,my bureau partner Abg Nafis, and the rest.. aiyaaa..missed them all. Kalau ada Shaz jer dulu, mesti kitorang gelak sakan punyer dlm meeting, sbb dia ni happy go lucky walaupun kadang2 serius dlm memberikan pendapat. She's good, really good. And same to the rest. Biler jumpa adik2 junior and see how they have become mature, become so independent, i was so happy. Ika and I were used to 'lepak' at their apartment dulu, and there were so much that we share together.

Tq to all my lil sisters di apartment dulu, really treasure our sweet moments dulu. Teringat lagi every evening kita tunggu sama-sama drama Cina pasal keluarga pahlawan perempuan kot rasanya. Best best.

Wish ya all the best for your future undertakings, insya Allah :)

Sempat menyinggah ke MPH bersama Nad mencari buku, i bought buku 1515 Faisal Tehrani sbb dah lama nak beli tapi tak terbeli, cari buku Tunggu Teduh Dulu tapi takde, jumpa buku2 Dan Brown yg sesat lagi menyesatkan, cantik2 sgt warna cover buku dia mcm buku Angel & Demons tu(tak ingat dah the exact title dia), cheaa..memula ingat nak beli, tapi rasanya nak pinjam kat Aini je ler. Bleh aa Aini, kita exchange buku, Aida jadi mediator hehe. Terjumpa buku Don't Be Sad (La Tahzan) in English version, the wordings are much simpler than the Malay translation, belek-belek kejap and fikir nak beli ker tak, hari tu ada terjumpa buku tu di rumah Abg Faizal and baca sket buku tu. Ok juga sebenarnya, tapi tak jadi nak beli buku tu tu sbb mmg tak plan nak beli yg English version, and memikirkan i have to save money utk my study fee. After dah bayar yuran baru boleh beli kot.Tak pun pinjam kat Ika atau my manager, my manager beli direct dr Indon and hard cover, cantik sgt. Hmm.. later later, habiskan dulu buku2 di rumah yang berlambak lagi tak terbaca hehe.



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Luper nak story that actually me balik kampung kat Pedas, N9 rite after kenduri kahwin Kak Saf on last Saturday. Kak Saf and husband berpakaian hijau pucuk pisang (rasanya Ika berbara jek sbb tu warna kegemaran dia, dia kata dia nak kahwen pakai warna tu kot ihiks), time2 sampai jer tak ramai bebudak MMU time tu, yg ada Rahimi and Syuhairah, Abg Ismail and Kak Sarah, Kak Nisa' and Abg Nazrol, pastu adalah several people yg i don't know much.Ika dtg selang 5 minit. Sdg makan baru ler jumpa Liana, Ika and Kak Mamah. Pastu gi salam Kak Saf (tq Kak Saf sbb benarkan iena bawa makcik and sepupu twin iena :), ucap semoga berbahagia dunia dan akhirat dan melahirkan generasi soleh dan solehah pada pengantin, kemudian berpatah balik ke meja makan dan tetiba ternampak Mar,pegi peluk makcik sorang ni.Rindu betul kat dia.

Balik kampung, tgk tgk Pak Ngah sekeluarga dah ada and dah bersedia nak balik KL balik. Ler, org baru sampai, derang dah nak balik. Rupanya my little cousin akan terima anugerah di sekolah esoknya, so derang kena balik juga by that night.

Uwan masak lauk best, gulai ayam masak lemak cili api campur dengan keladi. Huhu, dah lamanya tak makan masakan uwan. Jie and Zainal pernah puji masakan uwan best, mmg ler best, tapi kena tahan ler pedas. Ekekek, ingat lagi mengangkut bebudak ni balik kampung, uwan masak sambal apa ntah yg pedas giler sampai berpeluh2 bebudak ni makan, tapi bertambah jugak nasi dan lauknya, makan non-stop. Ekekeke.

The next day berbual ngan atuk, atuk skang ni nampak kuat sikit ler dari dulu.Time tgh2 berbual tu boleh terlena pulak, hish teruk betul cucu dia sorang ni. Tak tahan giler ngantuk time tu, cuaca panas, lepas tu baru lepas makan pulak tu, mmg mengantuk ler hehe. Tapi best,hilang kerinduan kat kampung. Rasa bersalah sgt sbb during Chinese New Year i didn't go back sbb my parent ke Kelantan for several days. My task was to jaga my adik2 yg baru balik dr asrama dan UUM, takut derang tak study and nak kena memasak utk derang.Uwan bagitau that atuk sembelih 2 ekor ayam ingatkan me balik, aiyaaa..bersalahnya rasa. Tapi takpe, dah balik dah ni, makan jugak ayam yang atuk sembelih :D

Ok, later k.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Acheh

Sila hebahkan maklumat ini kepada teman2...

Assalaamu'alaikum wbt.,

Peluang menjadi Sukarelawan AMAL (relawan) melalui
Yayasan Amal Malaysia,sebuah NGO's yang bertemakan "Working For
Humanitarian-Serve To Allah".

Keutamaan kepada bahagian perubatan atau pembantu
doktor. Namun, Sosial Workers juga kami mengalu-alukannya.
Lokasi bertugas di Meulabuh, Acheh.

Berikut adalah jadual bulan Mac/April 2005 :

06 - 14 Mac (9 hari)
13 - 21 Mac (9 hari)
20 - 28 Mac (9 hari)
27 - 04 April (9 hari)

(All subject to Air Asia Confirmation)

Free Air Ticket : Sponsored by Air Asia Bhd
Lain-lain kos perjalanan, belanja : Di tanggung
sendiri sekitar RM200~RM300 shj.
Makan minum di Meulabuh, Aceh tiada masalah. Akan di
uruskan oleh pihak Yayasan Amal M'sia di sana.
Pakaian mengikut kesesuian keadaan dan bilangan hari
di sana.

Sila berikan maklumat berikut :
1) Nama Penuh Dalam IC
2) No. IC
3) No. Passport
4) Tarikh Luput Passport (minima 6 bulan sebelum
tarikh berlepas)
5) Profesyen
6) No. HP/Tel

Yang berminat untuk menyumbang tenaga sebagai
sukarelawan, sila hubungi
:
Hj. Husin - 019-9451105
En. Faiz - 019-3396676
Drs Jamal - 019-6644796
En. Azri (Selangor) - 012-2837754, 03-78705040-pej
En. Sufian (Negeri Sembilan) - 013-3589328



regards,
AMA
Bekas Relawan Banda Acheh
Misi Khas Korban Eid Adhah 1425 &
Lapangan Bulan Sabit Merah Indonesia, Lambaro, Acheh
Besar.
20 Jan hingga 26 Jan 2005.


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I dun think that i can go this time, my class will start back on this becoming Saturday, and it will only ends in early June.

For others who are interested, feel free to contact the above mentioned personnels k.

Wassalam.

Suruhanjaya Antara Agama

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Semalam merujuk akhbar Malay Mail (selalu beli The Star tapi tak jumpa kat 7 Eleven, Malay Mail pun boleh ler), sampai rumah ketika menunggu ibu hidangkan makanan, menyelak berita-berita best (bertuah ler dpt anak pompuan mcm nih, patutnya dia yg hidangkan utk ibu, ini terbalik pulak :D). Biasanya kami dinner lepas solat Isyak, tapi rasanya ibu nak makan awal, jadinya kami makan sebelum Maghrib.

Ingin menyentuh kepada isu hangat semenjak 2 menjak ni, mengenai keputusan cadangan penubuhan Suruhanjaya Antara Agama (Inter Religious Commission - IRC/ICM) atau Suruhanjaya Antara Fahaman (Inter Faith Commmission - IFC)yang dipersetujui oleh semua untuk ditangguhkan. Melihat terdapat beberapa pandangan berbeza di mana ada pihak yang bersetuju agar ditangguhkan untuk melihat pro and consnya kewujudan Commission ini, dan ada yang secara terus membantah penubuhannya.

Me? At first thought i would say ABSOLUTELY NO, why we need all these? At my second thought, "Wait a minute, perhaps we can see what this Commission is all about, and what is it SOOOOO IMPORTANT that this Majlis Peguam nak tegakkan sgt ttg penubuhan Commission ni".

I have to agree with one of the editor's opinion (i could not remember at which section, but he is a Muslim) proposing for all to see and review the proposal. I mean, yeah, eventhough we cannot agree on the formation of the Commission, that could not hinder us to listen whatever being proposed. Islam teach us to be tolerant, however only at certain extents that will not harm Islam at any cause and at any way. I think Pak Lah should listen to the proposal, evaluate it and decide. Honestly, I would prefer the proposal to be rejected, but only after the proposal being tabled out properly and then give justifications to these people, dun you think so?

I have this sense that Majlis Peguam sekarang ni sdg cari glamour haram, first is due to their statement on azan, and now the IRC? Heck, do they think they are politicians here? But i did read about a statement from Majlis Peguam Muslim that they also opposed this proposal, but somehow ada a religious party that asked them to shut up and concentrate more on the legal issues. Sheesh, on this matter pun nak bergaduh padahal the both bodies are representing Islam. What a shame. Kenapa perlu nak bergaduh2 in newspaper padahal you are free to call up each other to clarify the issue, talk nicely rather than humiliating another party that obviously want to help you to solve the matter. Tak faham naper badan2 sebegini ber'politik' mencari glamer haram camnih. Malas nak layan.

Semalam berbual ngan Bro Cpol ttg isu politik juga ler, again i have to stress that i'm not keen into politics, my participation in Nisa or whatever registered or non-registered body is solely for some reasons that i believe it's not appropriate to be revealed here, but honestly it was not due to my interest on politics. Kalau ikut hati yg tak betul ni, boleh jer pk and cakap, why i have to be bothered about other people matters when me alone have so much other things to do? Itu kalau ikut hati yang jahat dan tak rasional ni ler bercakap, kalau fikir on the 'other' perspective, it would be much different. As Bro Zainal had mentioned to me during our final session for SRC in MMU, "Islam ni syumul dan menyeluruh kepada semua aspek, jgn ambil separuh2 mana yg kita suka dan tinggalkan mana2 yg kita tak suka" (lebih kurang gitu ler maksudnya, the exact wordings came out from his mouth i could not remember). Ehek, kan dah kena basuh :P.

But truly my discussion with Bro Cpol yesterday was so much enlightening, it was about our commitment to Islam and the appropriate way to select our platforms in order to contribute to it. While in discussion, I was then realized that I forgot to do something very very important for myself due to some reasons of being so busy with my studies etc before, and my short discussion with Bro Cpol yesterday had knocked my head asking me to take the necessary steps that i should have done much much earlier. Hmm, Zurina Zurina, what have you done for the past 1 year? (knocking my own head).

Whatever pun, hopefully this issue will be resolved soon. From my personal opinion, anything that will cause harm to Islam shall be opposed and rejected, but secara berhikmah where we dun want to cause any unnecessary dissatisfactions among other parties. Memberi justifikasi perlu berhikmah, and that's what i think Pak Lah need to do to solve this matter.

Wish him luck and moga dapat petunjuk dr Allah.

Ameen.

Yeaayyyy!!! Syukran ya Allah :)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Bestnya hidup saya hari ni, alhamdulillah :).

All are due to:

1. My new position as someone handling for Business Strategy & Reporting had made me felt so revitalized again in FMD, now i can show my true capability and preference. I'm now in charge for the division's strategy and direction, with the assistance of other units, and i really like that because i can apply whatever things i've learnt in my class. Really really like my new task, simply the best that suits me very well. Alhamdulillah :)

2. Corporate video kami hari ini dapat pujian 'Fantastic!!' by our GM. My team was very glad to hear that comment. After countless nights that we have gone through by going home very late, sometimes at 11.30 p.m pun we were still stuck in the office to complete some parts of the video (Abg Faizal dah baper kali dah beristighfar biler dapat tau yg i was still in the office doing the project biler buat follow up ttg menu nasi tomato last week, tapi skang ni dah boleh tarik nafas lega). Alhamdulillah again.

3. Result exam saya dah kuar!!! I know Tikot will be very flattered by hearing this, but for Tikot's attention and the rest, i get an A for my ECONOMICS subject!!! Yeaaayyy!! Really love this subject, and actually i favour a lot the lecturer that had taught us the subject, Prof Mansor Ibrahim, the Dean of Kuliyyah Economics and Business in UIA. Tak sia-sia bagi attention kat subject dia hehe. (Ika tau naper i like him very much...ngee :D , but please dun misunderstand on my statement, i like his way and style, not more than that :)

I didn't get an A for my Marketing, however i didn't feel sad over it since i had predicted the result rite after my examination paper (tu yg pegi baca buku Faisal Tehrani Tunggu Teduh Dulu tu sbb pressure tak dpt jawap soalan exam. I had predicted that i will fail the Marketing subject actually, since i really didn't know what the heck i was answering in my examination paper, but alhamdulillah i manage to get a B+. Not bad, i got a B+ instead of my initial prediction of F. Should be ok what, lagipun after my bad experiences of high fever, pressure and cryings that i have gone through for this subject,i should be grateful to Allah for the good result that i have obtained at countless time, countless that never ended :)

4. Today is just nice for me, i can go home early and watch the Korea series 'Jewel in the Palace'. For abt 1 month i have not watch the series,kali ni nak tgk puas puas :)


Ok, nak solat Asar, and having my very good rest at home.

See ya, assalamualaikum wbt :)

Da Vinci Code

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Da Vinci Code

A story that has capability in triggering my interest to keep reading it due to its technicality and super thinking methods in solving the clues mentioned in the book, not bad to be categorized as a a good reading actually. I have to admit that i did sacrifice about one whole day during last 2 weeks to read this book at non-stop mode, not because i didn't want to stop, but i just couldn't! The book did attract my eagerness to read more and more about the episode of these 2 person who are searching for some clues, to reveal the truth of whatever secret that has been kept silent for quite some time.

This book is quite tricky and need your full attention to comprehend the message being tabled out, the continuation of the story and some of the facts given. It explicitly describes about a big conspiracy by the Christians in eliminiting the direct influences of pagans (sembahan patung-patung dan unsur-unsur alam), dominated and lead by some of established names in history like Isaac Newtons, Leornado Da Vinci,Victor Hugo and several big names of historians, artists and scientists.

Whatever pun, as this book has claims that all information that being written are true except for the storyline, i believe there are potentials for all of us to debate on the real message that this book wants us to believe, or perceive at least. I did learnt some things that i never knew before, like Sunday was meant for Day to preach the Sun ( the day that this author mentions as indirect influence by pagans in our daily life). The meaning of sign Peace that we used to do when we snap pictures. At this point of time, i just take them as exposure that worth to be known and explored more, if i have ample time. I believe Ika is more interested in doing research on this, correct Ika? ;)

Aida and Aini also had read the book respectively. I think they have better understanding on the subject of the book instead of me. So if you wanna have some kind of understanding and discussion, better refer to them,alright?

I treasure and recommend highly this book to others due to its openness in discussing the lacking and weaknesses of some religions especially Christianity (this book is quite absurd since its actually promoting pagans preachings rather than Christianity, and had claimed that there is no single religion that is pure by God but merely faith). Faith here is meant something that we do trust, believe and hold deeply in ourselves (yet when i came to this chapter, i got quite confuse, dun supposedly religion is equal to faith?). Halim has mentioned to me and Ika that he kept mengucap or bersyahadah while reading this book. Me too actually. But, we have to learn the real challenges out there, waiting us to face them, directly or not. And for that purpose, i recommend this book to you guys, read it and think. Apply the situation to Islam, and you will know what i mean. The so-called secret society defending the pagans are doing something BIG to protect their belief eventhough they have been challenged tremendously by the Christians, and how should we react to that? Keep silent and waiting for something or someone (Imam Mahadi or an Ummat leader)to save Islam and ummah? Hey, stop dreaming my friends, please do use our both hands to work, our mind to think and ponder to help Islam, and let Allah decide the rest. Defence our ummah!
(Huiyyo, bersemangatnya, takpe takpe, lama dah api semangat ni turun dek bebende dunia, bagi dia terbakar kejap and hopefully utk tempoh yg lama)

Alrite, enuff enuff, i need to take my rest after giving my 1000% commitment to my GM's presentation reports and slides today.Thanks to Allah, i'm doing business strategy and reporting, which enable me to perform my accounting and business skills now. No more legal and customer thingy running to my head.My MBA does help me a lot in understanding most of the operational and business issues in TM,its very helpful and interesting because i can apply (and i'm doing some currently actually) the whatever i've learnt in class into my working environment, alhamdulillah :)

Till my fingers meet my keyboard again tomorrow, insya Allah.

Wassalam.

Senyuman hati

Assalamualaikum wbt,

(1) Rindu

:)

Senyum yang bukan sahaja terlahir di wajah tapi jua terlukis dr hati yang paling dalam, tidak tahu hendak ditujukan kepada siapa, yang pasti hati ini sedang senyum.

Sudah lama tidak merasai senyuman ini, alhamdulillah ia kembali.

Terasa masa ini sudah saya pegang, dan saya aturkan sendiri. Mungkin menjadi salah satu faktor mengapa senyuman ini terpotret di lukisan hati.

Saya sudah rindukan Quran, dan bacaan-bacaan ilmiah yang telah lama saya tinggalkan kerana mengejar akademik yang tuntutannya bukan sedikit mahunya. Saya juga rindukan kelas Bahasa Arab saya, dan sudah rindu untuk menjejak kaki ke UIA PJ, untuk bertemu dengan pakcik cafe yang peramah, bertemu dengan auntie2 dan uncle2 yang menyeronokkan, berjumpa dgn gelagat ustaz2 yang selalu buat saya gelak riang, semuanya terlipat manis dalam kenangan.

Sebegitu dalam pun kerinduan itu, saya tidak mampu mengambil langkah untuk menyambung kembali kelas, berikutan tuntutan kerja dan studi yang begitu hebat saya rasakan. Takut bahu tidak tergalas beban, biarlah kerinduan itu saya cukupkan dgn merenung kalimah Al-Quran, kerana di situ juga satu sumber untuk saya mengenali lughatul Jannah ini.

Lapangnya dunia ketika ini, moga-moga ia sentiasa lapang untuk saya di dalam mencari erti hidup sebenar sebelum menunggu perpindahan saya ke alam akhirat sana.

Doakan saya.



(2) Nasi tomato

Semalam Ika selaku Chef dibantu oleh Kak Aza dan Ida telah berjaya memasak nasi tomato di rumah Abg Faizal, best best. Pasni leh buka catering berjaya. Nama syarikat pun dah ada, Syarikat AIs (gabungan nama Kak Aza, Ika, Ida dan err...saper ek? :D) Kak Aza jadi CEO, Ika jadi COO, Ida jadi Chief of Marketing & PR, err..saper ek tu jadi CFO..ngee :D. Saper nak jadi BOD lagi, bulih forward nama, insan-insan seperti di atas sedia untuk mempertimbangkannya, walau bagaimana pun ingin diingatkan bahawa satu sesi ujian akan dijalankan untuk membuktikan anda benar-benar layak. Nak tahu apa ujiannya?

(Drum roll)

KENA MASAK UNTUK SESI MEETING SETERUSNYA HEHEHE :D

Pasni Hany, Aida, Aini, Najibot, Farah Wahidah bleh kot. Tak lupa juga invitation dipanjang kepada Kak Wiyah, kakak-kakak lain dan Kak Saf selaku pengantin baru, bolehlah cuba nasib :D



(3) Nufayl dan Amiir (budak kenit 1 dan 2)

Ketika sedang menjaga Nufayl yang sedang tidur ketika meeting sedang berjalan dan Ika berehat sebentar di dalam bilik solat, saya merenung dalam dalam bayi ini.Comel, terasa betapa besarnya keagungan Tuhan di dalam menciptakan makhluk-makhlukNya.

Berbisik ke telinganya "Nufayl dah besar nanti kena jadi pejuang agama k, auntie doakan". Habis jer berbisik, Nufayl terjaga menangis. Ika keluar dr bilik menengok dan kemudian Hany muncul,sbb baby tak nangis Hany turun balik. Pastu baby nangis balik, kami sumbatkan dia dengan botol susu, senyap sekejap. Ingatkan baby terus tertidur so Ika masuk bilik solat balik, baby pulak sambung meragam. Hoho,ni yng rasa nak panggil jek umminya tapi umminya sdg bermeeting di tingkat bawah. Apa yer nak buat tak nak bagi Nufayl ni meragam? Saya letakkan dia di atas lantai kerana mengagak Nufayl mahu meniarap, tapi budak kenit ni masih menangis juga,Ika pulak sedang terlena sebentar di bilik solat, last last saya capai album di almari bagi Nufayl tgk gambar Abg Faizal dan Abg Teghe yang sungguh comey ketika di KISAS dulu (maaflah yer Abg Faizal kerana mengorbankan sekejap gambar abg, dah itu yang tercapai di tangan ketika meletakkan Nufayl di lantai, Iena korbankan sekejap jer tak lama hehe). Hany naik ke atas dan saya turun ke bawah, Ika pulak menjalankan eksperimen menguji kecanggihan teknologi celullar di dalam kaedah menyenyapkan bayi yang sedang meragam ketika Hany menyertai meeting kami di bawah.Berjaya sungguh Tikot. Pasni rasanya dia boleh bukak nurseri berteknologi tinggi selepas berjaya membuat eksperimen dengan Nufayl (Tikot, mau jadi business partner bulih? Ekekek)

Lepas meeting menjenguk sekejap Amiir anak Abg Faizal di Teras Jernang bersama Ika, Kak Aza dan Ida. Budak kenit no 2 ni dah lama tak jumpa, biler jumpa sibuk main dgn kunci kereta abahnya. Nak jadi driver F1 yer Amiir? Takpe takpe, Auntie doakan jugak yer :) (Cheaa cheaa..guna istilah auntie tu instead of makcik, takpelah kan, nampak moden sikit, istilah makcik tu tak rock ler, ni actually nota peringatan kat Hany sbb dia perkenalkan kami as makcik2 kat Nufayl semalam, kesian kat kitorang tau Hany :P )

Ok, perlu minta diri dulu. Doakan saya sentiasa tenang dan gembira di dalam melalui kehidupan ini k :)

Wassalam.

Al Fatihah to Rostam (Patah)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Pagi ini menerima berita mengejutkan, my friend di STTJ dulu baru meninggal due to denggi di Melaka. Baru semalam menelefon wife Allahyarham bertanyakan khabar, dan pagi ini dia sudah tiada.

Allah, sedihnya biler teringat balik zaman kami jadi pengawas di STTJ dulu, Rostam was Penolong Ketua Pengawas Lelaki 2 ketika itu. Kami tidak begitu rapat, tapi bolehlah nak dikatakan tiada masalah untuk berkomunikasi. Ingat lagi Arwah kalau pegi bertugas mesti bersama dengan Faris, geng baik dia kalau pergi duty.

I think it was justified why i was crying like nobody business when my younger bro kena viral fever waktu time denggi tgh hangat during last year or last 2 years. Menangis telefon Ika bagitau that i was so worry biler my younger bro was admitted to HUKM sbb demam dia teruk sgt. I felt trauma biler dgr denggi sbb dapat tahu one of my female seniors di STTJ dulu pun passed away sbb denggi, so when my bro was admitted, mmg tak tentu arah jadinya.Supposedly there was a jamuan or party di rumah Zarid and i was invited, but i didn't go when i heard that my bro was admitted. Pergi melawat dia, i still remembered Rahimi called consoling me not to worry abt my younger bro when i was in my father's car heading to HUKM.Mmg menangis ler time tu.

Actually my bro was admitted abt one 4 days after dia kembali dr UKM, ditemani oleh geng2 dia yang mmg menghantar my bro balik rumah dengan keadaan berpapah. Hospital UKM tak nak terima my bro sebab katil hospital dah penuh dengan pesakit denggi. So terus kami bawa dia ke HUKM, time tu i and my father brought him and waited for abt 1 hour waiting for Doc to turned up. In the mean time, mmg asyik membasahkan tuala menyejukkan dahi my bro yg sgt panas, and menggosok tapak kaki dia utk warmkan kaki dia yang sangat sejuk. Tapi time tu he was not admitted sbb kena tunggu result test for 3 days. Biler hari ke-empat dpt tau dia kena admitted, mmg menangis. Malam tu terus pergi melawat, and when i temankan dia makan, dia vomit darah, in front of my eyes!! Aduh, lagilaa takut and terus tanya nurse, nasib baik dia kata tu normal. Normal?? Giler betul, tapi sbb nurse kata ok, takdelah takut sgt walaupun actually takut jugak ler. My younger bro was treated by a specialist and siap jadi bahan eksperimen by doktor2 pelatih sbb dia kena special viral fever, bukannya denggi. Apa pun, alhamdulillah my bro selamat :)

Al fatihah to Rostam my friend, kasihan pada anak dia. Tak sampai hati nak call wife dia skang ni. Rasa bersalah sebab tak dapat nak turun Melaka sekarang ni, and tambah rasa bersalah sbb tak sempat nak minta maaf dr Allahyarham kot kot ada buat salah kat dia dulu. Moga roh Allahyarham sentiasa dicucuri rahmat.

Teringat to my staff yang meninggal last month, Allahyarhamah Pn Rohani.

Entah biler sampai saat saya, di atas kesempatan ini saya minta maaf sgt2 dr hujung rambut ke hujung jari kaki mohon kemaafan atas segala kesalahan yang saya lakukan sama ada secara sengaja atau pun tidak, secara zahir mahupun batin kepada semua. Maafkan saya dunia akhirat yer,saya mohon maaf sungguh2.

Wassalam.

:)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Sdg menarik nafas panjang sekarang ni. Baru jer habis presentation Corporate Video to GM and commitee tadi, alhamdulillah dapat pujian. Seronok sket sbb mmg bagi commitment to this project eventhough supposedly i'm not in the team, mmg tangan kayu pasal graphic2 nih, tapi Keyrul ajak, so why not i join, perhaps i can learn new things here.

Yup, i did learnt so many things, how to crack software, how to animate and how to cut dubbing voice and songs, cuma Keyrul tak sempat nak ajar mcm mana nak hack website org jek lagi, hehe.Tapi serius best, eventhough tertekan dgn exam and due dates utk present part by part to GM, tapi the experience was nice. And i've learnt something that eventhough we can't contribute much on doing the things sbb tak tau nak buat, however by our participation and willingness just to stand and sit next to our mates who are dying doing the tasks sahaja are sufficient enough. Just be there, watching and giving opinions, will be highly appreciated. That was what we felt when Zaki, En. Mahmud and those unrelated to our works gave comments and be there for us.
:)

I know this afternoon i got so sucked up into anger, but i did felt it was justified. I couldn't accept to be shouted at by other people when i know that i'm not wrong. Lainlaaa kalau bebetul salah. Pernah kena tegur dgn Pres SRC dulu sbb tak siapkan minit, tu pun air muka dah berubah, inikan pulak tetiba kena naik suara tak pasal-pasal. Mmg minta maaflah, sampai ke petang tak tgk langsung muka manager. And i think he knows that i was angry that he didn't dare to sit next to me sdgkan sebelum ni kalau dlm meeting room mmg kebiasaannya akan duduk next to me. I know i'm jahat, and mmg jarang my marah kekal sehingga separuh hari, but this one i cannot accept. Tgk ler besok kot kot hati ni baik sket tak nak berdendam, dah bleh ler kot tgk muka manager balik. Anyway, he is no longer my manager becoz i've been transferred into other unit, so i'm free to do whatever i want to do hoho (bunyi jahat giler :D )

Islam kan suruh kita sentiasa memaafkan org...

Ha ah, tapi hati ni jahat sket nak retain rasa marah tu lelama sket :)

Went for a 'lunch' at 5.30 p.m with Keyrul, Tiza and Abg Is since this afternoon i didn't take my lunch sbb nak siapkan corporate video + takde selera sbb dlm terlibat di dalam krisis dgn ex boss, ended up banyak hal pejabat yang diceritakan. Get surprised of our talk content actually. Mcm-mcm perkara yg tak pernah terlintas di kepala diperbincangkan, penat otak ni nak memahami segala perkara yang sepatutnya diperbincangkan di meja mesyuarat instead of di meja makan hehe.

Oklah, i'm ok rite now, esok berlagak mcm biasa jek ngan ex boss, furnish jerlah apa yang perlu.

Wassalam :)

Hati sedang hangat

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Today my mood was not good. Bengang giler ngan ex manager, lantak ler, pasni jatuh tersungkur pun i dun care. Buat ler keje sengsorang, menangis ler sengsorang, i dun have any relation as staff lagi pada dia.

Bengang giler sbb dah susah payah tolong dia, boleh plak nak berlagak depan staff baru dgn naikkan suara ngan me. Buat laa sendiri semua, malas nak tolong lagi dah. Malas nak buat semua bende yg ada relation ngan dia, malas malas and malas!!

Huish jahatnya, tapi peduli apa,hati tgh berbara. Ingat org senyap jek selama ni, buat apa jer yg disuruh, boleh main2 naik suara ngan me. Tak tau volcano dlm hati ni bebiler masa jer boleh meletup.

Ya Allah jahatnya aku. Tapi tak kire aaa, tgh bengang ni. Lantak laaa.

Tgh emo tgh emo.

Good news for me, starting from today i am transferred to Kawalan Operasi handling Business Strategy & Reporting direct under GM. Boleh buat keje Accounting, alhamdulillah

Nak sambung buat Corporate Video, wassalam.

Felt revitalized and reborn again :)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Hohoho, last nite when i came back from dinner treat by Mudin wif Ika and Waleeda(Mudin's fiance) waiting for America's Top Model slot (hoho, i'm following this slot since the first series, people always astonished to listen that i do follow these type of slots for instance beauty pageants, Grammy Awards and etc, hello, i'm just an ordinary person ek, suka hati ler mau tgk apa keke) , straight away i told my younger sis Ira that i felt so energized, revitalized and felt being reborn again yesterday morning. In the train to work, i had the chance to look up to the sky, thinking freely and appreciating whatever i have in life, and started to think what are the new things that i want to do in life within this 3 free weeks of semester break. Better do something. And Ira laughing like nobody business when i told her that, she felt it was so funny and unbelievable. Saiko punyer adik, baru beriyer-iyer bercerita and nak minta simpati dia dah gelakkan :P

Trust me, for the past one month, i have no chance to do the thing that i used to do. No story books except buku Menunggu Teduh by Faisal Tehrani that i read at Ika's house after my Marketing exam (tension sgt sampai pegi baca buku tu, buku tu pun bukannya baca satu buku pun, baca page tengah-tengah, pastu kat akhir2, tak tau ler bleh considered baca buku ker tidak hehe).

Quran? I know it's shame to say this, but i haven't read it for the past 3 weeks. Giler,kan?

Kekadang pk apa ler yg dikejar sgt dgn MBA ni sampai my opportunity cost begitu besar, apa sgt yg nak dikejar sampai mengorbankan hak peribadi untuk bersama Tuhan? Cuma satu jer ler, solat makin panjang sbbnya asyik pressure memanjang, so dekat sejadah ler meluahkan segalanya :)

Rupanya bukan me sorang yg pressure, ada sorang tu yang minta me keep swimming tu pun pressure jugak, tapi dia kuat semangat, takpe Cpol, harap-harap tekanan anta makin berkurangan k. Ana doakan :)

And thanks a lot to you guys, for giving me support when i need it most especially Ika for being my Econs teacher, and the rest, there are so many of you that i dun feel it fair to mention some and left the rest, so better to make all unsaid. Barakallahu fikum, may Allah bless you all with His rahmah :)

Cuti Chinese New Year, ingat nak balik kampung lawat atuk, rindunyaaaa kat atuk. I want to sit next to him and bercerita mcm what we used to do dulu-dulu. I missed him actually.

My Econs paper on last Sunday was ok, alhamdulillah. Sedih jugaklaa habis subject Econs ni sbb subject ni best, and ditambah dgn lecturer yg takde ler hensem kalau nak pk pk, tapi tak tau ler naper suka tgk muka dia. Me and Kak Ika kalau duduk sebelah menyebelah dlm kelas mesti jadi nakal usha lecturer ni ( i mean bisik-bisik waktu kelas, cakap suka aa tgk muka lecturer ni). Minta maaf yer, takde hasrat nak usha lecturer ni sbb dia dah berusia, cuma suka tgk muka dia jek , and sbb dia boleh buat lawak cerdik dan terhormat, suka aa ngan dia, i hope he'll be teaching us on one subject for other semester nanti.

Balik dr UIA, lepak umah Jie sbb kami ada gathering geng-geng satu rumah di Pre-U dulu. Ayu, Siha turun dr Penang, Aida wif husband and children, Aini with husband and daughter, Azie turun dr Melaka, Jie and Nuar selaku tuan rumah, Ika selaku tetamu jemputan. Husna dan Paie jer yg tak dpt hadir, Husna masih di UK, Paie allahualam, luper plak nak tanya naper dia tak dtg.

Kecoh giler umah Jie hari tu, ngan Auni yang buat action bleh jadi penyanyi suprano bak kata Ika, Amni yg kami sumbat dia dgn daun salad tak henti-henti n Fawwaz yang senyum penuh unik (dia senyum sebelah jek, comeyy sgt). Seronoklah berkumpul balik reramai antara kami, and Jie masak boleh tahan. Degil minah kenit ni, dah tau perut tu makin membesar, org kata jgn masak tak payah ler masak, order je ler, degil jugak dia nak masak, kan dah penat, nasib baik ada cik abg yg nak bantu kat dapur, kalau idak mau pengsan makcik sorang ni hehe. Tapi dia masak best, alhamdulillah. Moga murah rezeki Najibot (nama betul dia Najibah, tapi suka panggil dia Najibot hehe) and husband pemalu, Nuar.

Balik dr umah Jie, pegi lawat Aidah Misran pulak, my bestfren di SMPP dulu. tak sempat nak ke majlis akad nikah dia yang berlangsung pada malam Sabtu, so pegi pada petang Ahad lepas kenduri dia. Lama dah tak jumpa bestfren sorang ni, biler jumpa dia n husband, byk ler citer2 kami. Husband dia walaupun first time jumpa, peramah and mmg bersopan sungguh. Bolehlah nak citer panjang ngan dia. Yang rasa terbakar sket tu biler dia kata bebudak MMU ni kebanyakannya bebudak yg tak berapa bright tapi sbb kaya so bolehlaa study sana. Huish, time tu mmg terasa terbakarlaa jugak, awatnya dia cakap camtu. Pastu rupanya kat office dia, ada budak Lim Kok Wing and MMU, tapi performance budak MMU tu tak mcm standard budak Lim Kok Wing. Tak dpt ler nak comment byk sbb bebudak FCM punyer keje, compete pulak dgn budak Lim Kok Wing, rasanya LKW lebih better kot. Allahualam.

Ok ler, nak sambung buat video corporate, insya-Allah kita jumpa lagi next week kalau umur saya masih panjang.

Ilal liqa' wassalamualaikum :)

P/S : Mudin, syukran sbb belanja dinner semalam, bertuah awak dapat Waleeda tu, comel and bersopan. Bagus adikku, nanti kalau awak dah kahwin, akak dah ada proxy nak cubit atau nak pukul awak kalau awak nakal heheh ;)

Wassalam.

Unforgettable semester

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Saya sudah menangis pagi ini di meja ofis, menangis yg bukan jenis cover2 punyer, ni mmg jenis yang kuat melepaskan perasaan apabila Kak Imah bertanyakan ttg exam semalam.

Sebu rasanya pagi ini. Overwhelmed pressure.

Sejak dari pagi tadi, baru berada di dalam train bersama Ika dan Jie, belum lagi sampai ofis, sudah terasa pressure memanjat diri. Orang lain sudah berada di UIA untuk bersedia dgn exam Econs Ahad ni, saya perlu di ofis berikutan banyak tugasan yang perlu diselesaikan. Corporate video dan tugasan rutin lainnya yang memerlukan saya berada di ofis. Perlu dan wajib. Esok saya sepatutnya bercuti, tetapi GM keluar e mail minta semua executives table BP untuk Quality Initiatives, which means i have to work juga tomorrow!! Keyrul sudah datang mahukan saya berada di tempat dia untuk sudahkan our Corporate Video. Ya Allah, bergolaknya rasa hati pada pagi ini.

Semalam exam Marketing. Kali ini saya bebetul tak yakin dengan jawapan yang saya berikan semalam, entahkan tepat atau tidak dengan kehendak soalan. Study case basis, so i have to answer the questions based on the case study provided. Case study sudah diberikan sejak minggu lepas, sudah dihadamkan tetapi apabila sampai exam, entah apa yang dijawab. Tidak tahu apa kehendak soalan, dan dengan sesuka hatinya menjawab asalkan tiada ruang kosong. Paling benci apabila perlu menghadapi exam dengan keadaan yang penuh ketidakpastian. Emir my classmate sempat mengucapkan good luck, dan berkata yang dia sedang berdebar-debar tidak tahu apa yang bakal ditanya dlm Exam Marketing nanti. Jangan tanya saya, kerana saya sendiri merasakan preparation saya tidak cukup comprehensive berbanding preparation exams saya pada semester sudah. Semester kali ini banyak menuntut kesabaran saya yang bukan sedikit, dengan outstation dan tugasan luar, dengan kesibukan membuat project pada setiap minggu, rasanya semester ini saya kurang perform. Being a prefectionist, saya merasakan performance kali ini is below from my common standard. Saya bukan jenis mementingkan markah, kalau saya sudah berbuat sehabis baik tapi resultnya tidak sebaik mana, saya sudah berpuas hati. Sebab saya tahu saya sudah berusaha sehabis baik. Kali ini, entahlah. Preparation tidak cukup atas desakan masa dan keperluan peribadi.

Bertemu dengan Azwan dan Liana di Management Centre, UIA pada pukul 2.30 petang selepas memohon kebenaran pulang awal dr my manager. Azwan said to us that nothing can be done dah, hafal ker tak hafal, buat jerlah dlm exam hall nanti. Salah sendiri tak study awal. Kami gelak. Tapi masing-masing faham, mmg semester kali ini menuntut masa kami begitu banyak. Azwan sibuk dengan IT reporting dia untuk Bank Negara. Kak Liana jek yg ada masa utk spend her times di Genting etc. kadang-kadang dia pelik kenapa i have to prepare those business plan, video corporate and etc, yg mcm tak relevan dgn my own tasks, i just said to her, it's normal in my division. You do something that is beyond your routine tasks because you are required to do so by the management.

This morning, after i've cried (Kak Imah hugged me like a baby, malunya), i asked Kak Imah to accompany me beli makanan utk releasekan stress. Betullah org kata, menangis boleh bantu kita hilangkan perasaan tertekan.

Cukuplah lesson that i've learnt from this semester. How bz you are, just do your revision by hook or by crook. I really hope the next semesters after this, i'll perform better.

I will remember this semester very-very much. With my experiences in Penang that led me to have high fever while doing my assignment and business presentations, until to the last moment of doing my exam paper last nite.

Whine Zurina, whine. After this, no more. And please no more.

Saya sendiri sudah bosan mengeluh, apatah lagi org yg mendengar. I hope i won't repeat the same thing again and again.

Wish me luck for the next exam, and wish me happy dunia dan akhirat.

Acheh trip: Last week i asked my mum one more time, she was 50-50 to let me go. Memula tak bagi, pastu bagi. So i planned to go for next week since i have the passport with me already. However, GM has delayed our BP presentation to 7 Feb, which means on next Monday. I have to be in the office to back up my manager. And the last week of February, high possibility i will be in Sabah to make business presentations. Therefore, my chance to go to Acheh is 50 - 50. And i don't even know if En. Budi will approve my one week leave application or not if it is not during the week of Chinese New Year. Kalau ada yang nak pergi, just inform me k.

Wassalam.

P/S: Rasa teruk jek mengeluh pasal exam n study, bukannya teruk sgt pun actually kalau compare dgn masalah dunia yang lain, tapi tak kira jugak sbb pk nak lepaskan perasaan. Uwaaa!!! :D

Exams

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Sorry sbb tak dpt nak update blog, minggu ni i have 2 final exams, Marketing and Econs.

Doakan kejayaan saya k :)

P/S : Schedule penerbangan ke Acheh utk bulan Feb:

1. 31 Jan - 8 feb
2. 6 - 14 Feb
3. 14 - 20 Feb
4. 18 - 26 Feb
5. 24 - 4 March

All dates are subject to Air Asia confirmation on availability.

Wassalam.