Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hi everyone! Happy to see me again? Hehe.
Rite now next to me En. Zulhabri and Midun are playing some old romantic songs which i favour much hehe. Mengembalikan kenangan lama when Yaya and i used to listen to these songs together back our time in Pre-U dulu :)
I have one happy news for you all. I managed to join MBA program in UIA, will be starting in this becoming July insya-Allah.
Currently bz handling reunion for my school batch on this becoming 1 May. I used not to contact my frens during my study time dulu. And now i did, and only then i realized how much i missed them, how much i appreciate and treasure them, in my deepest heart. They were the one who backed me up in everything. Still remember despite of my position as Head Girl and Penolong Ketua Aspuri, my dormmates and i pernah kena denda tidur kat luar koridor for twice sbb buat bising..1 sbb excited nak balik umah, and the other sbb celebrate birthday saper ntah. Dahlah time tu tgh demam, warden tahan tak bagi masuk bilik sampai pukul 1 ker pukul 2 pagi. Pastu dia suh masuk bilik. Hehe.
During kena denda pasal celebrate birthday tu, our warden was very, very SAIKO. Coz she tortured us by giving lecture like this: (i still remember becoz i found it so funny, yet saiko jugak hehe)
Warden : Kenapa tak light off lagi? Dah pukul berapa dah ni?
Kami : Senyap (tak berani nak menjawab)
Warden : Ooo, kamu tak tahu nak light off pukul berapa yer? Nak cikgu terangkan?
Baik, kamu kenal apa itu jam?
Jam adalah sesuatu benda yang menunjukkan masa. Tak tau nak tgk masa light off? Light off pukul 11.15
mlm,kan?
Kami : Senyap lagi
Warden : Tak tahu nak tgk jam ker masing-masing? Mari sini cikgu terangkan yer (dgn nada berapi-api melecture kitorang)
Kamu kenal tak apa itu jarum panjang? Jarum panjang adalah jarum yang menunjuk kepada angka jam.
Apabila pukul 11.15 mlm, jarum panjang akan menunjuk kepada nombor 11.
Kami : Senyap lagi, but me dah start nak gelak sbb mcm rasa kelakar.
Warden : Tahu apa itu jarum pendek? Jarum pendek adalah jarum yang menunjuk angka minit. Kalau masa light off,
jarum pendek akan menunjuk kepada angka 3. Faham?!!
Kami : Senyap lagi. Semua menikus.
Warden : Angkat tangan masing-masing, saya nak ketuk tangan.
Kami : Serentak angkat tangan dan kenalah ketuk tgn dgn pembaris kayu.
Luckily i was the first person yg kena, so taklah sakit sgt. Yg lain, ada yang hampir nak berdarah. Agaknya warden ngamuk kot sbb masing-masing buat reaksi senyap, dia ingat tak sakit kot. Tu yang makin kuat dia ketuk tangan tu, nasib, nasib. Hehe. Sebelum dia bagi kami masuk tidur dlm dorm, dia kata esok nama kami kena panggil sorang2 kat depan perhimpunan.
Esoknya, i hide myself from others. Dah takut giler kalau kena panggil kat depan. Yerlah, pengawas buat perangai, maunya tak malu nanti kalau kena panggil. Alhamdulillah lepas, warden tak panggil pun. Tapi Ketua Aspuri (my geng juga tapi lain dorm) pandang lain macam jek. Yerlah, dah diamanah utk bantu dia jaga disiplin asrama, dgn penolong2 dia sekali kena denda dgn warden sbb buat perangai. Nasib ler dapat penolong like me.
Yg second case tu, semua kena tidur dlm stor next to our dorm. Giler maut punyer hukuman. Hehe.
Apa pun, semuanya menjadi kenangan manis (kenangan pahit pun jadi manis jugak hehe) di sekolah dulu. Nice nice.
And insya-Allah in next 2 weeks, i'll be seeing all of them. Some has established themselves in career and family, and some are still pursuing their studies. Apa pun, it will nice to see them after abt 7 yrs being separated from each other. How Allah has shown me that i am still lucky of having these people as my friends by giving me opportunity to contact and handle the reunion. Alhamdulillah wa subhanallah di atas segalanya :)
Utk Hany, i know it's been quite long we have not met each other. Terserempak dgn Ika and Farah pun during lunch tadi kat kantin. Rasa mcm nak peluk jer Ika tapi segan ler pulak depan org. And tadi dengan beraninya sentuh perut Farah yang semakin membesar hehe. Semoga Farah and kandungannya sejahtera selalu.
Ok, panjang pulak dah citer ni. Later k.
Wassalam. :)
ps: Utk someone yg merasakan tekanan kerjanya di tahap volcano nak meletus, sabarlah. Perbanyakkan sabar, insya-Allah everything will be fine. The time will come where all problem will fade. Just be strong k :)
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Fraudsters in FMD
Assalamualaikum wbt,
I know you are not going to believe this!! There are fraudsters in FMD!! Seriously!!
Wanna know who?
Keyrul, Suhaini and ME!! I repeat, ME!!
Hehe.
Actually this evening after office hour, i have completed my task and suddenly these 2 persons came to me and invited to have a drink together. And i went. Waktu tgh minum tu, byk bende kitorang cerita, and i never expect that Keyrul at one day will admit something to me, eventhough it was indirectly meant (and i think i was the only one who understand since i knew the whole story). I'm not going to tell ya what was it, but heck, it was something came honest from his heart eventhough it looks like he was pretentious not to look so. Haha, gottcha!
After finishing our drinks and his dinner, we discussed on the SME that we had presented on last Monday. Discussed on the comments given by Tn Hj and the overall results. SME result was out, but with no personal comments to each presentation that we made except those comments given right after our presentation session was done.
We want to know what was in Tn Hj's mind and opinion on our presentation results and skills, one by one. And suddenly Keyrul came up with this idea! Apa kata kita pergi geledah and tgk result SME kat tempat Midun? Takkan dia simpan dlm cabinet kot? I was so surprised hearing that actually, yerlah becoz we never do that kind of stuff before,kan. But not that long i was also become very fonded with that idea and we agreed to be come the fraudsters of FMD, by curi2 tgk comment Tn Hj pasal kitorang personally!!
Crazy! Yes, it was. Bukannya bende tu rahsia sgt pun, sbb Midun mmg invite kitorang utk tk sendiri comment Tn Hj pada kitorang. Masalahnya dia ada kes siasatan kat Penang skang ni, ntah biler nak balik, tu yg tak sabar nak tgk tu.
Balik ofis, the first thing we did was visiting Midun's place and searching for the folder. We couldn't find it. Keyrul didn't want to give up and checked bawah meja pulak. Here were they! And he just grabbed those papers and start looking for Tn Hj's comments on us!
And you want to know what Tn Hj's comment on me?
Alhamdulillah, i was very satisfied on what he did comment on my performance. No need to be stated in here. Every praise is returned back to Allah as He is the One who qualified for those praises. Syukur alhamdulillah :)
Dear readers, I would like to have your favour. Please, and please. Do not tell this thing at anybody, especially someone from FMD. Eventhough the results were not secret actually, tapi kami dah violate hak privacy dan kepercayaan Midun.
The only thing that i can learn from this whole experience is....
MMG SERONOK BUAT DOSA
Sbb tu ramai yg terjerumus sbb dosa itu seronok, mudah manakala nak berjuang ke jalan kebaikan itu, jalannya amat payah, derita, mengorbankan keseronokan diri sendiri dan sebagainya.
Next time i won't do it. What do you feel if someone geledah your things just to have some stupid results that you gonna give it to him anyway? The time is the only barrier.
Biarlah rahsia ini antara kita, aight?
Wassalam.
Iringilah satu-satu kejahatan itu dengan kebaikan, moga dengan kebaikan itu ia akan dapat memadam akan kejahatan tadi (Pemahaman diri sendiri berdasarkan sepotong hadith yang dah tak ingat susunan wording dan sumbernya)
I know you are not going to believe this!! There are fraudsters in FMD!! Seriously!!
Wanna know who?
Keyrul, Suhaini and ME!! I repeat, ME!!
Hehe.
Actually this evening after office hour, i have completed my task and suddenly these 2 persons came to me and invited to have a drink together. And i went. Waktu tgh minum tu, byk bende kitorang cerita, and i never expect that Keyrul at one day will admit something to me, eventhough it was indirectly meant (and i think i was the only one who understand since i knew the whole story). I'm not going to tell ya what was it, but heck, it was something came honest from his heart eventhough it looks like he was pretentious not to look so. Haha, gottcha!
After finishing our drinks and his dinner, we discussed on the SME that we had presented on last Monday. Discussed on the comments given by Tn Hj and the overall results. SME result was out, but with no personal comments to each presentation that we made except those comments given right after our presentation session was done.
We want to know what was in Tn Hj's mind and opinion on our presentation results and skills, one by one. And suddenly Keyrul came up with this idea! Apa kata kita pergi geledah and tgk result SME kat tempat Midun? Takkan dia simpan dlm cabinet kot? I was so surprised hearing that actually, yerlah becoz we never do that kind of stuff before,kan. But not that long i was also become very fonded with that idea and we agreed to be come the fraudsters of FMD, by curi2 tgk comment Tn Hj pasal kitorang personally!!
Crazy! Yes, it was. Bukannya bende tu rahsia sgt pun, sbb Midun mmg invite kitorang utk tk sendiri comment Tn Hj pada kitorang. Masalahnya dia ada kes siasatan kat Penang skang ni, ntah biler nak balik, tu yg tak sabar nak tgk tu.
Balik ofis, the first thing we did was visiting Midun's place and searching for the folder. We couldn't find it. Keyrul didn't want to give up and checked bawah meja pulak. Here were they! And he just grabbed those papers and start looking for Tn Hj's comments on us!
And you want to know what Tn Hj's comment on me?
Alhamdulillah, i was very satisfied on what he did comment on my performance. No need to be stated in here. Every praise is returned back to Allah as He is the One who qualified for those praises. Syukur alhamdulillah :)
Dear readers, I would like to have your favour. Please, and please. Do not tell this thing at anybody, especially someone from FMD. Eventhough the results were not secret actually, tapi kami dah violate hak privacy dan kepercayaan Midun.
The only thing that i can learn from this whole experience is....
MMG SERONOK BUAT DOSA
Sbb tu ramai yg terjerumus sbb dosa itu seronok, mudah manakala nak berjuang ke jalan kebaikan itu, jalannya amat payah, derita, mengorbankan keseronokan diri sendiri dan sebagainya.
Next time i won't do it. What do you feel if someone geledah your things just to have some stupid results that you gonna give it to him anyway? The time is the only barrier.
Biarlah rahsia ini antara kita, aight?
Wassalam.
Iringilah satu-satu kejahatan itu dengan kebaikan, moga dengan kebaikan itu ia akan dapat memadam akan kejahatan tadi (Pemahaman diri sendiri berdasarkan sepotong hadith yang dah tak ingat susunan wording dan sumbernya)
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
:)
Assalamualaikum and wbt,
Semalam i was extremely happy sampai dpt migraine :)
I was very happy due to my successful presentation for Subject Matter Expert, my group was the only group yg terima comment yg paling ringan berbanding group2 yang lain. Tn Hj comment takde comparison dgn entity lain, takut FMD buat procedure syok sendiri jer hehe. Alhamdulillah, i was very contented and happy :)
Semalam Mak Teh tak sihat, so i went to Arabic class by myself alone. This was my second time pergi kelas Arab sorang2. Tapi best jugak, cuma takut jugaklah sbb pegi kelas malam-malam. Kalau ikut rasa, macam tak nak pergi sbb sorang-sorang jer yang nak pegi kelas, tapi bila fikirkan nanti tak dapat ilmu, pergi jugalah. Rugi rasanya tak pergi sbb selama ni pun asyik tak dpt nak attend sbb selalu pergi outstation.
Ustaz Rahimi ajar ttg wazan2, pening kepala sbb ada 10 wazan nak kena hafal and practice. Pasni nak kena study bebetul balik. Tak faham dibuatnya. Next month peksa pulak tu. Aaaaa.
Soalan :Apa buku yang anda sedang baca sekarang ini?
Jawapan : Tiada kecuali buku Arab, tu pun sebab pergi kelas.
Soalan : Susah ker nak buka buku apa pun?
Jawapan : Takde masa sekarang ni, balik kerja jer penat. Rasa nak tidur terus. Tu yang tak buka buku tu.
Soalan : Habis tu biler agaknya boleh buka buku?
Jawapan : Mungkin during weekends kot, tu pun mungkin novel, majalah. Penatlah, nak relax jer during weekends.
Familiar with the dialogue? I believe most of us facing the same problem, susah sangat nak buka buku. Skang ni apa kata kita mulakan kempen " One page for a day". Should be nice,kan? :)
Apa nak baca hari ni ek?
Browse Internet jerlah.....(kat Internet pun kita boleh dpt ilmu,kan? ;)
Wassalam
Semalam i was extremely happy sampai dpt migraine :)
I was very happy due to my successful presentation for Subject Matter Expert, my group was the only group yg terima comment yg paling ringan berbanding group2 yang lain. Tn Hj comment takde comparison dgn entity lain, takut FMD buat procedure syok sendiri jer hehe. Alhamdulillah, i was very contented and happy :)
Semalam Mak Teh tak sihat, so i went to Arabic class by myself alone. This was my second time pergi kelas Arab sorang2. Tapi best jugak, cuma takut jugaklah sbb pegi kelas malam-malam. Kalau ikut rasa, macam tak nak pergi sbb sorang-sorang jer yang nak pegi kelas, tapi bila fikirkan nanti tak dapat ilmu, pergi jugalah. Rugi rasanya tak pergi sbb selama ni pun asyik tak dpt nak attend sbb selalu pergi outstation.
Ustaz Rahimi ajar ttg wazan2, pening kepala sbb ada 10 wazan nak kena hafal and practice. Pasni nak kena study bebetul balik. Tak faham dibuatnya. Next month peksa pulak tu. Aaaaa.
Soalan :Apa buku yang anda sedang baca sekarang ini?
Jawapan : Tiada kecuali buku Arab, tu pun sebab pergi kelas.
Soalan : Susah ker nak buka buku apa pun?
Jawapan : Takde masa sekarang ni, balik kerja jer penat. Rasa nak tidur terus. Tu yang tak buka buku tu.
Soalan : Habis tu biler agaknya boleh buka buku?
Jawapan : Mungkin during weekends kot, tu pun mungkin novel, majalah. Penatlah, nak relax jer during weekends.
Familiar with the dialogue? I believe most of us facing the same problem, susah sangat nak buka buku. Skang ni apa kata kita mulakan kempen " One page for a day". Should be nice,kan? :)
Apa nak baca hari ni ek?
Browse Internet jerlah.....(kat Internet pun kita boleh dpt ilmu,kan? ;)
Wassalam
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Cacamarba
Assalamualaikum and greetings,
What a hectic day for today, serius terasa mcm nak nangis n rasa nak berhenti keje, tak larat nak keje jer rasanya.
Lepas solat Asar tadi, duduk sekejap merenung karenah diri selama 24 tahun ni. Teringat kembali zaman kecil-kecil sampai dah besar ni. Banyak kenangan manis dan pahit yang dicipta, alhamdulillah untuk kesemuanya. Kak iqin tunjuk gambar kami waktu ketika ke pondok kat Kelantan dulu hehe. Nama group kitorang Pondokeers, kelakar pulak rasanya hehe.
That was my first time wearing tudung labuh sejak keluar sekolah menengah dulu. One statement i issued out waktu kat pondok dulu was my reluctance to wear jubah. Rasa mcm diri hipokrit. Alhamdulillah skang ni takde perasaan tu lagi. Keinginan diri yang diperkenankan Allah. Dulu selalu doa kalau dah kuar MMU nanti, tak nak rasa segan pakai jubah kat public. Cuma skang ni tak mampu nak pakai tudung labuh jer kat luar. Sumer tudung labuh dah hilang gi mana ntah. Dulu kat U malas nak pakai sbb malas nak gosok. Besar sgt hehe. Lama-lama hilang dah tudung tu. Ada satu yg warna pink dan warna kuning jek. Yang putih dan hijau ntah gi mana ntah. Hehe. Ntah bilerlaa nak pakai lagi.
Dah 2 hari teringat kat Yaya. She is my best buddy kat Pre-U dulu, my roommate. I was very happy to have her as my roommate. Rajin, pandai dan wacky jugak kekadang. Perangai and ketrampilan kitorang mmg berbeza habis. But we managed to stay and have fun together. Masih ingat lagi panjat bumbung hostel nak tgk meteor rain sampai pukul 4 pagi. Ah, zaman Pre-U mmg best!
Oklah, i couldn't take it anymore. Actually just drop by sbb nak hilang tension bekerja ni. Skang nak balik and have a review on articles abt Customer Handling. Sekarang ni hidup mcm agak cacamarba sket sbb byk keje yg berlainan bidang yg nak dicater. Nak cater customer, cater legal cases, cater fraud account, tak larat sebenarnya.
Sabar iena, sabar. Jangan mengeluh. Banyakkan bersabar krn kerja ini tidak akan habis sehingga anda berumur 55 tahun (sekiranya umur masih panjang dan tiada faktor lain yang mengakibatkan tempoh bekerja menjadi singkat). Hehe.
Ok, assalamualaikum.
What a hectic day for today, serius terasa mcm nak nangis n rasa nak berhenti keje, tak larat nak keje jer rasanya.
Lepas solat Asar tadi, duduk sekejap merenung karenah diri selama 24 tahun ni. Teringat kembali zaman kecil-kecil sampai dah besar ni. Banyak kenangan manis dan pahit yang dicipta, alhamdulillah untuk kesemuanya. Kak iqin tunjuk gambar kami waktu ketika ke pondok kat Kelantan dulu hehe. Nama group kitorang Pondokeers, kelakar pulak rasanya hehe.
That was my first time wearing tudung labuh sejak keluar sekolah menengah dulu. One statement i issued out waktu kat pondok dulu was my reluctance to wear jubah. Rasa mcm diri hipokrit. Alhamdulillah skang ni takde perasaan tu lagi. Keinginan diri yang diperkenankan Allah. Dulu selalu doa kalau dah kuar MMU nanti, tak nak rasa segan pakai jubah kat public. Cuma skang ni tak mampu nak pakai tudung labuh jer kat luar. Sumer tudung labuh dah hilang gi mana ntah. Dulu kat U malas nak pakai sbb malas nak gosok. Besar sgt hehe. Lama-lama hilang dah tudung tu. Ada satu yg warna pink dan warna kuning jek. Yang putih dan hijau ntah gi mana ntah. Hehe. Ntah bilerlaa nak pakai lagi.
Dah 2 hari teringat kat Yaya. She is my best buddy kat Pre-U dulu, my roommate. I was very happy to have her as my roommate. Rajin, pandai dan wacky jugak kekadang. Perangai and ketrampilan kitorang mmg berbeza habis. But we managed to stay and have fun together. Masih ingat lagi panjat bumbung hostel nak tgk meteor rain sampai pukul 4 pagi. Ah, zaman Pre-U mmg best!
Oklah, i couldn't take it anymore. Actually just drop by sbb nak hilang tension bekerja ni. Skang nak balik and have a review on articles abt Customer Handling. Sekarang ni hidup mcm agak cacamarba sket sbb byk keje yg berlainan bidang yg nak dicater. Nak cater customer, cater legal cases, cater fraud account, tak larat sebenarnya.
Sabar iena, sabar. Jangan mengeluh. Banyakkan bersabar krn kerja ini tidak akan habis sehingga anda berumur 55 tahun (sekiranya umur masih panjang dan tiada faktor lain yang mengakibatkan tempoh bekerja menjadi singkat). Hehe.
Ok, assalamualaikum.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Tgh makan kuew tiow
Assalamualaikum and bwt,
Hehe, tajuk sebelum ni Lapar, tajuk skang ni Tgh makan kuew tiow. Actually tgh hari tadi tak makan sbb concentrate ngan keje, tu yg lapar tahap naga, kuar kol 4.50 tadi cari makanan kat kantin.
Nak bagitau skang ni my hard disk kat MMU dulu dah ada kat umah, skang ni asyik dgr lagu best2 jerlaa..rindu giler ngan lagu2 tu sumer, mmg bestlaa..lagu Melayu ada, English, Cina, nasyid, Quran...aaa..best best!Rindulaa dgn suasana kat MMu dulu. Biler dah keje ni, rasa jadi student lagi best dr jadi org bekerja ni.
Semalam gih interview MBA kat UIA..boleh tahan jugak susah soalan2 dia..nasib baik interviewers pompuan, kalau lelaki lagi terbelit2 lidah nak menjawab. Ada satu soalan ni berbunyi" What do you think you are going to be within next 10 to 15 yrs? Giler maut soalan, mmglah pernah terfikir tapi takdelah rasa nak dilisankan kat mulut, so i answered dgn hentam keromonya i nak jadi someone yg duduk di position high management. Pastu soalan ni pulak keluar " necessarily in Telekom during that 10-15 yrs? I said no, if i think i have better opportunity outside, then i'll go". Dia tanya lagi, if you go, what sector are you interested in? Addduhh..tak pernah2 kufikir ini soalan, but i answered jugaklah that i'm in interested in Banking. Why Banking? I said becoz it deals with money. Why do you interested in money? Saiko tak rasa..apalaa yg nak kujawab dgn soalan itu..uwaaaaa!!!!
One of the interviewer said i have fairly high chance due to my academic track record, but they have to prioritize other applicants with 10-15 working experience first, if the competition is not stiff, highly chance i could join the session lah. Ntah ler, kalau ada rezeki, adalah kot. Doakan ek :)
Yang bestnya, derang suh bawa scroll yg original dlm sesi tu, so i brought ler MMU Online Scroll, kita mana ada scroll paper kan. Pastu they were so excited lah tgk. Bangga kejap jadi budak MMU. Hehe.
Oklah ek, nak habiskan makan. Pastu nak solat and pegi kelas Arab.
Ma'as salamah.
Hehe, tajuk sebelum ni Lapar, tajuk skang ni Tgh makan kuew tiow. Actually tgh hari tadi tak makan sbb concentrate ngan keje, tu yg lapar tahap naga, kuar kol 4.50 tadi cari makanan kat kantin.
Nak bagitau skang ni my hard disk kat MMU dulu dah ada kat umah, skang ni asyik dgr lagu best2 jerlaa..rindu giler ngan lagu2 tu sumer, mmg bestlaa..lagu Melayu ada, English, Cina, nasyid, Quran...aaa..best best!Rindulaa dgn suasana kat MMu dulu. Biler dah keje ni, rasa jadi student lagi best dr jadi org bekerja ni.
Semalam gih interview MBA kat UIA..boleh tahan jugak susah soalan2 dia..nasib baik interviewers pompuan, kalau lelaki lagi terbelit2 lidah nak menjawab. Ada satu soalan ni berbunyi" What do you think you are going to be within next 10 to 15 yrs? Giler maut soalan, mmglah pernah terfikir tapi takdelah rasa nak dilisankan kat mulut, so i answered dgn hentam keromonya i nak jadi someone yg duduk di position high management. Pastu soalan ni pulak keluar " necessarily in Telekom during that 10-15 yrs? I said no, if i think i have better opportunity outside, then i'll go". Dia tanya lagi, if you go, what sector are you interested in? Addduhh..tak pernah2 kufikir ini soalan, but i answered jugaklah that i'm in interested in Banking. Why Banking? I said becoz it deals with money. Why do you interested in money? Saiko tak rasa..apalaa yg nak kujawab dgn soalan itu..uwaaaaa!!!!
One of the interviewer said i have fairly high chance due to my academic track record, but they have to prioritize other applicants with 10-15 working experience first, if the competition is not stiff, highly chance i could join the session lah. Ntah ler, kalau ada rezeki, adalah kot. Doakan ek :)
Yang bestnya, derang suh bawa scroll yg original dlm sesi tu, so i brought ler MMU Online Scroll, kita mana ada scroll paper kan. Pastu they were so excited lah tgk. Bangga kejap jadi budak MMU. Hehe.
Oklah ek, nak habiskan makan. Pastu nak solat and pegi kelas Arab.
Ma'as salamah.
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Lapar
Assalamualaikum wbt and greetings,
Hmm.. quite for a long time this blog has not being updated isn' it? Hehe, as what i asked you before in my last blog, just assume that i was not around in the office, and yes i wasn't in the office since last Tuesday, due to:
1. My great grandmother had passed away on Tuesday..inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un
2. I have training course for 3 days starting on Wed.
So what i'm gonna tell ya for today?
About my arwah great grandmother? Hmm..best jugak nak citer. She was someone that we (my siblings and I) were very afraid of dulu, waktu zaman kecik2. She was someone who used to 'berteriak'(takdelaa garang..tapi takutlah jugak) at us kalau kitorang nak pegi kedai waktu kat kampung dulu. Kalau nak pegi kedaikan, my grandmum's house and her house were next to each other..so kecik2 dulu if we were want to go to kedai, at the border line of these 2 houses, we were like spies searching for her glance kat depan pintu or serambi umah, kalau takde, baru berani jalan lalu depan umah arwah (and usually arwah mesti akan jerit tanya kitorang nak pegi mana n kitorang akan lari mcm tak cukup tanah), and kalau ada pulak..i'll be the head yg akan direct my sibling to ready to run as fast as we could so that arwah takkan perasan kitorang (tapi biasanya arwah akan perasan jugak, n seperti biasa kena jerit jugaklah hehe).
We used to try her 'rokok daun' without the gambir or pinang, solely rokok daun jer. Arwah mmg bagi kitorang hisap rokok daun tu coz mmg takde paper dlm dia..pastu belajar makan sireh jugaklah sometimes. Tak sedap pun sirehnya, pedas jer rasanya. Tu jerlah kot kenangan kami dengan dia. The rest tu seperti biasa kalau raya pergilah melawat, and usually arwah akan cakap " dah bosar pun, dulu kocik yo" (slang Negeri 9) and akan selalu tanya "sapo eh ni?" to me kalau salam raya, sebab arwah tak ingat rupa cicit dia yang dah besar2 ni.. hehe. One thing that i am sure, arwah mmg seorang isteri yang baik. Really took care my moyang lelaki, kalau makan akan bagi pinggan special, jaga makan minum and pakaian, akan dulukan moyang lelaki dlm sumer perkara (my auntie yang citer)..:)
Am i sad? I dunno what to say, but i was not crying at all. Mungkin sbb jauh kot hubungan kami, kalau my real grandma or grandpa yang passed away, i'll be crying like nobody businesslah kot. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur ahli keluargaku. Atuk and uwan kat Pilah pun mcm dah tak kuat jer dah tu, ingat nak selalu jenguk, tapi kekadang tak berkesempatan. Kerja banyaklah, itulah, inilah.
This is human, always take for granted for everything. Once something or someone has gone away, then at that real time only we mourn the lost that we have to bear for the rest of our lives.
Apa pun, biler dah cakap camni, i feel like i want to get back and have a good time with my family members. Both of my younger bros skang ni kat umah sbb IPT cuti 3 bulan. Yang the youngest 3 jer takde sbb derang kat sekolah. Mcm terbalik pulak, dulu waktu kami yg besar2 ni kat asrama and university, tinggal 3 budak kecik ni jer temankan ibu kat umah. Skang ni biler kitorang dah bekerja and balik universiti, 3 org ni pulak yg takde. Hehe.
Actually malas giler nak stay back buat keje. Tapi kang keje berlambak tertangguh. Perut dah lapar giler dah ni. Nak stay nak ker tak nak? Nak? Tak nak?
Rasa mcm malas, balik jum.
But before that, i am happy to give my comment on our latest election result last week. I dunno what had happened back there at SPR side, but i am more to think that they were not transparent as what they were claiming. The defeat of Terengganu and at most of the places was so unbelievable, yet that was what Allah decided for us. Ada hikmahnya insya-Allah. Mungkin perlunya kita atur barisan dan gerak kerja baru. I was not that sad to face the defeat, coz i am sure that kita akan bangkit kembali, dgn gerak kerja yang lebih baik, insya-Allah. Kemenangan mutlak tak akan berada di tangan mereka selamanya, tapi buat kita yang berazam untuk berjuang menegakkan Islam di muka bumi ini, kemenangan mutlak akan kita capai di negeri akhirat sana, insya-Allah sekiranya disertakan dengan usaha. Pray for our success fi dun'yaa wa akhirah.
Hari ni dpt e mail dr Pres Alumni YTR, ada AGM on this becoming 18 April 2004. Sesiapa yang nak bertanding menjadi exco dialu-alukan. Erk, kena bertanding jugak ker? Hehe, takpelah. Bagilah post pada sesiapa yang berminat, yang rasa-rasanya berkemampuan nak laksanakan amanah as an exco tu. For me, payah sket sbb skang ni dah tahap naga tahap ke'bz'annya. Tak mampulah nak handle bebende ni lagi. I am sure the tasks will be more or less akan byk merangka aktiviti n planning utk meramaikan ahli alumni. Tak kisahlah, cuma i was appointed as one of the Auditors for YTR Fund untuk sesi 2002/2003 on last AGM. Nak kena minta laporan kewangan ni, nanti kang tak laksanakan amanah pulak. Hehe.
Al-Fatihah for Allahyarham Sheikh Yassin (Palestin) n my great grandma. Moga Allah menempatkan mereka di kalangan mereka yang Dia redhai. Ameen.
Wassalam.
Hmm.. quite for a long time this blog has not being updated isn' it? Hehe, as what i asked you before in my last blog, just assume that i was not around in the office, and yes i wasn't in the office since last Tuesday, due to:
1. My great grandmother had passed away on Tuesday..inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un
2. I have training course for 3 days starting on Wed.
So what i'm gonna tell ya for today?
About my arwah great grandmother? Hmm..best jugak nak citer. She was someone that we (my siblings and I) were very afraid of dulu, waktu zaman kecik2. She was someone who used to 'berteriak'(takdelaa garang..tapi takutlah jugak) at us kalau kitorang nak pegi kedai waktu kat kampung dulu. Kalau nak pegi kedaikan, my grandmum's house and her house were next to each other..so kecik2 dulu if we were want to go to kedai, at the border line of these 2 houses, we were like spies searching for her glance kat depan pintu or serambi umah, kalau takde, baru berani jalan lalu depan umah arwah (and usually arwah mesti akan jerit tanya kitorang nak pegi mana n kitorang akan lari mcm tak cukup tanah), and kalau ada pulak..i'll be the head yg akan direct my sibling to ready to run as fast as we could so that arwah takkan perasan kitorang (tapi biasanya arwah akan perasan jugak, n seperti biasa kena jerit jugaklah hehe).
We used to try her 'rokok daun' without the gambir or pinang, solely rokok daun jer. Arwah mmg bagi kitorang hisap rokok daun tu coz mmg takde paper dlm dia..pastu belajar makan sireh jugaklah sometimes. Tak sedap pun sirehnya, pedas jer rasanya. Tu jerlah kot kenangan kami dengan dia. The rest tu seperti biasa kalau raya pergilah melawat, and usually arwah akan cakap " dah bosar pun, dulu kocik yo" (slang Negeri 9) and akan selalu tanya "sapo eh ni?" to me kalau salam raya, sebab arwah tak ingat rupa cicit dia yang dah besar2 ni.. hehe. One thing that i am sure, arwah mmg seorang isteri yang baik. Really took care my moyang lelaki, kalau makan akan bagi pinggan special, jaga makan minum and pakaian, akan dulukan moyang lelaki dlm sumer perkara (my auntie yang citer)..:)
Am i sad? I dunno what to say, but i was not crying at all. Mungkin sbb jauh kot hubungan kami, kalau my real grandma or grandpa yang passed away, i'll be crying like nobody businesslah kot. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur ahli keluargaku. Atuk and uwan kat Pilah pun mcm dah tak kuat jer dah tu, ingat nak selalu jenguk, tapi kekadang tak berkesempatan. Kerja banyaklah, itulah, inilah.
This is human, always take for granted for everything. Once something or someone has gone away, then at that real time only we mourn the lost that we have to bear for the rest of our lives.
Apa pun, biler dah cakap camni, i feel like i want to get back and have a good time with my family members. Both of my younger bros skang ni kat umah sbb IPT cuti 3 bulan. Yang the youngest 3 jer takde sbb derang kat sekolah. Mcm terbalik pulak, dulu waktu kami yg besar2 ni kat asrama and university, tinggal 3 budak kecik ni jer temankan ibu kat umah. Skang ni biler kitorang dah bekerja and balik universiti, 3 org ni pulak yg takde. Hehe.
Actually malas giler nak stay back buat keje. Tapi kang keje berlambak tertangguh. Perut dah lapar giler dah ni. Nak stay nak ker tak nak? Nak? Tak nak?
Rasa mcm malas, balik jum.
But before that, i am happy to give my comment on our latest election result last week. I dunno what had happened back there at SPR side, but i am more to think that they were not transparent as what they were claiming. The defeat of Terengganu and at most of the places was so unbelievable, yet that was what Allah decided for us. Ada hikmahnya insya-Allah. Mungkin perlunya kita atur barisan dan gerak kerja baru. I was not that sad to face the defeat, coz i am sure that kita akan bangkit kembali, dgn gerak kerja yang lebih baik, insya-Allah. Kemenangan mutlak tak akan berada di tangan mereka selamanya, tapi buat kita yang berazam untuk berjuang menegakkan Islam di muka bumi ini, kemenangan mutlak akan kita capai di negeri akhirat sana, insya-Allah sekiranya disertakan dengan usaha. Pray for our success fi dun'yaa wa akhirah.
Hari ni dpt e mail dr Pres Alumni YTR, ada AGM on this becoming 18 April 2004. Sesiapa yang nak bertanding menjadi exco dialu-alukan. Erk, kena bertanding jugak ker? Hehe, takpelah. Bagilah post pada sesiapa yang berminat, yang rasa-rasanya berkemampuan nak laksanakan amanah as an exco tu. For me, payah sket sbb skang ni dah tahap naga tahap ke'bz'annya. Tak mampulah nak handle bebende ni lagi. I am sure the tasks will be more or less akan byk merangka aktiviti n planning utk meramaikan ahli alumni. Tak kisahlah, cuma i was appointed as one of the Auditors for YTR Fund untuk sesi 2002/2003 on last AGM. Nak kena minta laporan kewangan ni, nanti kang tak laksanakan amanah pulak. Hehe.
Al-Fatihah for Allahyarham Sheikh Yassin (Palestin) n my great grandma. Moga Allah menempatkan mereka di kalangan mereka yang Dia redhai. Ameen.
Wassalam.
Friday, March 19, 2004
Baru balik dr outstation
Assalamualaikum wbt,
This morning i was not in a good mood. With piles of work on my table, with my scheduled meeting with CE R&D TM and Fleet Management today, with the expected presentation slides to be completed today to be sent to CMO..my head is spinning like gasing.
Just came back from Malacca actually. This time, Customer Awareness Program was held in Malacca for 3 days. I have to do the same presentation as before. Alhamdulillah i was given opportunity to jalan2 satu Malaysia ni, tapi biler balik dr outstation, kerja yg berlambak nak kena catch up tu yg tak tahan tu..aaaaaa!!!
Hehe, kalau agak2 my blog ni isn't updated for a very long time, just make a guess that i'm not around. Sure outstation ler tu. Yesterday i took urgent leave, couldn't spare my energy for work. Flat seflatnya pagi semalam. Today i have to come coz i've got to complete my slide presentation for CMO thingy. Yeah rite, semalam eventho i took my urgent leave, at 12 a.m i had received a SMS from CE R&D requesting me to see him at UPM to finalize our findings. Aiyaaa..tgh2 cuti pun kena pergi menghadap, tense tense. But i went jugaklah coz his one-to one meeting with Dato' CE is scheduled on 23 March, so everything shall be completed before that date. Project ni was meant for TM Leaders, tapi kekadang rasa mcm kita pulak yg kena buat assignment ni. Anyway CE R&D ok, tapi mungkin sbb we both are bz sgt sampai kitorang buat meeting and tindakan mengikut flow and keadaan, not that structured that i used to do in FMD. In FMD, everything you have to list down, must have action plan and target date. Giler detail.
Ok..dah pukul 9.30 pagi, kena rush utk siapkan presentation pulak, satu bende pun tak siap lagi.
This morning i opened TV3 at 6.30 in the morning. Ustazah Bahiyah tgh bagi penerangan mengenai beberapa amalan yang menyelamatkan kita daripada siksaan di akhirat. Ada banyak kisah yang diceritakan, tapi several points that i could catch :
1. Sentiasa menjaga silaturrahim
2. Sentiasa berbaik sangka dengan Allah
3. Sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah
4. Sentiasa takut akan Allah di dalam keadaan terang mahupun gelap dan sunyi
Tu jer yg tgh terlintas di kepala sekarang ini. Ok, wassalam.
This morning i was not in a good mood. With piles of work on my table, with my scheduled meeting with CE R&D TM and Fleet Management today, with the expected presentation slides to be completed today to be sent to CMO..my head is spinning like gasing.
Just came back from Malacca actually. This time, Customer Awareness Program was held in Malacca for 3 days. I have to do the same presentation as before. Alhamdulillah i was given opportunity to jalan2 satu Malaysia ni, tapi biler balik dr outstation, kerja yg berlambak nak kena catch up tu yg tak tahan tu..aaaaaa!!!
Hehe, kalau agak2 my blog ni isn't updated for a very long time, just make a guess that i'm not around. Sure outstation ler tu. Yesterday i took urgent leave, couldn't spare my energy for work. Flat seflatnya pagi semalam. Today i have to come coz i've got to complete my slide presentation for CMO thingy. Yeah rite, semalam eventho i took my urgent leave, at 12 a.m i had received a SMS from CE R&D requesting me to see him at UPM to finalize our findings. Aiyaaa..tgh2 cuti pun kena pergi menghadap, tense tense. But i went jugaklah coz his one-to one meeting with Dato' CE is scheduled on 23 March, so everything shall be completed before that date. Project ni was meant for TM Leaders, tapi kekadang rasa mcm kita pulak yg kena buat assignment ni. Anyway CE R&D ok, tapi mungkin sbb we both are bz sgt sampai kitorang buat meeting and tindakan mengikut flow and keadaan, not that structured that i used to do in FMD. In FMD, everything you have to list down, must have action plan and target date. Giler detail.
Ok..dah pukul 9.30 pagi, kena rush utk siapkan presentation pulak, satu bende pun tak siap lagi.
This morning i opened TV3 at 6.30 in the morning. Ustazah Bahiyah tgh bagi penerangan mengenai beberapa amalan yang menyelamatkan kita daripada siksaan di akhirat. Ada banyak kisah yang diceritakan, tapi several points that i could catch :
1. Sentiasa menjaga silaturrahim
2. Sentiasa berbaik sangka dengan Allah
3. Sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah
4. Sentiasa takut akan Allah di dalam keadaan terang mahupun gelap dan sunyi
Tu jer yg tgh terlintas di kepala sekarang ini. Ok, wassalam.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Otak terasa seperti mau rentung
Assalamualaikum and wbt,
Hehe, feel funny about my heading? You should feel so..becoz really, that's what i feel now..otak terasa seperti mau rentung!!
Giler byk kerja nak kena handle...and at 2.30 p.m tadi Tn Hj panggil masuk bilik..asking about my decision to replace Kak Fida or not! haiyaa..i've got a lot to do skang ni..tu nak kejar..ni nak kejar..nak gantikan tempat Kak Fida pulak for about 3 months..mau terbakar otak dibuatnya. Cuma ada sedikit pelepasan on KPI..Ya Allah, ringanlah beban hambaMu ini..terasa mcm tak cukup masa pulak skang ni. Tahun lepas relax giler, tahun ni rasa mcm tak cukup tgn. Tak tau yg mana satu nak didahulukan dulu. Hehe.
Semalam berbual dgn Abg Faris Rasoulli, exco SRC tahun ni. Byk kerja katanya. Hidup agak tak tentu arah. Hehe, pengalaman biasa menjadi seorang exco. Ika dah pernah rasa, Zainal dah pernah rasa, Cpol pun dah pernah rasa..faham-faham sendiri jerlah beban tugas yg perlu ditanggung. Mana nak cater for studies, nak cater for kawan2, nak cater for personal life. Semuanya terpaksa dicompressed menjadi satu kehidupan yang agak kurang stabil dirasakan.
Actually i have to thank my real close classmate n groupmates for standing behind me all the time. Seriously, without Zarid, Shelly, Mafus, Halim, Rahimi, Yati pruz and Elly, i think and i am sure that i'll become a dead meat. They were the ones who had helped me a lot in my studies. Backed me up for our projects, our assignment, our final thesis..i am very grateful to have them as my friends, really. Terhutang budi sangat-sangat sampai tak tau mcm mana nak say thank you in words to them. They did understand my conditions when i was performing as an exco, they knew that i didn't have enough time to be spent leisurely and academically, so what they did were very helpful to me. They decided every date that we supposed to meet and have discussion, assign and update everything that i need to know. My goodness, kalaulah ditakdirkan mereka tak dianugerahkan oleh Allah to be my friends, i do not know what to say. Perhaps i'm not someone that you can see today.
Cuma one thing that i stressed to Abg Faris yesterday about being an exco. Kena ikhlas. Tak perlu merungut selalu. Zainal selalu ingatkan yg apa kami buat dulu bukannya tugas, tapi tanggung jawab. Memikirkan tanggungjawab yang perlu dibuat kerana Allah, akan menyebabkan kita rela sacrifice a lot of things, including personal life. Cuma skang ni biler dah kerja, diri terasa menjadi sedikit selfish kerana inginkan masa untuk diri sendiri, sedangkan mmg dah sedia tahu tanggung jawab utk berdakwah itu ada and lies on each of us. Jahat,kan? Selalu rasa nak mengelak kalau diajak utk turun meeting during weekends, sbb rasa nak rest and bermalas-malasan di rumah. Hehe.
Secara konklusinya, (actually tak suka betul guna istilah BM yang diambil drpd istilah English) apa pun yg kita buat, kita niatkan krn Allah (tapi itu jugaklah yg selalu terlupa nak buat). Rugi masa dan effort yg kita buat ini kalau kita tak niatkan kerana utk beramal. Kalau otak rentung pun, kalau dah kita buat kerana Allah, apa pun sanggup diharungi,kan?
So guys, mari kita tanam niat sama-sama mengerjakan segala pekerjaan ini kerana Dia. Rezeki kita pun Dia yang tentukan, jadi apa sangat yang dikejar akan dunia ini. (hasil belajar 1 hadis dlm kelas bahasa Arab). Time ustaz terangkan pasal maksud hadis ni dlm kelas, terasa malu sungguh. Terasa sgt apa yang kita buat sekarang ni mcm umpama mengejar kekayaan dunia, sedangkan kenalah berpada-pada dalam mencari keuntungan di dunia dan banyakkan mencari untuk akhirat. Betul-betul mcm orang tersedar dr tidur biler ustaz bacakan hadis tu. Insaf kejap.
Ok, dah nak bergerak ke kelas Arab. Actually sekarang ni mcm dah lost jugak dgn arabic ni, sebab selalu tak dtg kelas. Ni yang payahnya kalau kena selalu outstation, terpaksa burn kelas. Rugi jer rasanya. Apa pun, kita usahalah mana yang terdaya, selebihnya kita pulangkan pada Allah. :)
Ma'as salamah.
Live without passion, what exactly the outcomes gonna be?
Hehe, feel funny about my heading? You should feel so..becoz really, that's what i feel now..otak terasa seperti mau rentung!!
Giler byk kerja nak kena handle...and at 2.30 p.m tadi Tn Hj panggil masuk bilik..asking about my decision to replace Kak Fida or not! haiyaa..i've got a lot to do skang ni..tu nak kejar..ni nak kejar..nak gantikan tempat Kak Fida pulak for about 3 months..mau terbakar otak dibuatnya. Cuma ada sedikit pelepasan on KPI..Ya Allah, ringanlah beban hambaMu ini..terasa mcm tak cukup masa pulak skang ni. Tahun lepas relax giler, tahun ni rasa mcm tak cukup tgn. Tak tau yg mana satu nak didahulukan dulu. Hehe.
Semalam berbual dgn Abg Faris Rasoulli, exco SRC tahun ni. Byk kerja katanya. Hidup agak tak tentu arah. Hehe, pengalaman biasa menjadi seorang exco. Ika dah pernah rasa, Zainal dah pernah rasa, Cpol pun dah pernah rasa..faham-faham sendiri jerlah beban tugas yg perlu ditanggung. Mana nak cater for studies, nak cater for kawan2, nak cater for personal life. Semuanya terpaksa dicompressed menjadi satu kehidupan yang agak kurang stabil dirasakan.
Actually i have to thank my real close classmate n groupmates for standing behind me all the time. Seriously, without Zarid, Shelly, Mafus, Halim, Rahimi, Yati pruz and Elly, i think and i am sure that i'll become a dead meat. They were the ones who had helped me a lot in my studies. Backed me up for our projects, our assignment, our final thesis..i am very grateful to have them as my friends, really. Terhutang budi sangat-sangat sampai tak tau mcm mana nak say thank you in words to them. They did understand my conditions when i was performing as an exco, they knew that i didn't have enough time to be spent leisurely and academically, so what they did were very helpful to me. They decided every date that we supposed to meet and have discussion, assign and update everything that i need to know. My goodness, kalaulah ditakdirkan mereka tak dianugerahkan oleh Allah to be my friends, i do not know what to say. Perhaps i'm not someone that you can see today.
Cuma one thing that i stressed to Abg Faris yesterday about being an exco. Kena ikhlas. Tak perlu merungut selalu. Zainal selalu ingatkan yg apa kami buat dulu bukannya tugas, tapi tanggung jawab. Memikirkan tanggungjawab yang perlu dibuat kerana Allah, akan menyebabkan kita rela sacrifice a lot of things, including personal life. Cuma skang ni biler dah kerja, diri terasa menjadi sedikit selfish kerana inginkan masa untuk diri sendiri, sedangkan mmg dah sedia tahu tanggung jawab utk berdakwah itu ada and lies on each of us. Jahat,kan? Selalu rasa nak mengelak kalau diajak utk turun meeting during weekends, sbb rasa nak rest and bermalas-malasan di rumah. Hehe.
Secara konklusinya, (actually tak suka betul guna istilah BM yang diambil drpd istilah English) apa pun yg kita buat, kita niatkan krn Allah (tapi itu jugaklah yg selalu terlupa nak buat). Rugi masa dan effort yg kita buat ini kalau kita tak niatkan kerana utk beramal. Kalau otak rentung pun, kalau dah kita buat kerana Allah, apa pun sanggup diharungi,kan?
So guys, mari kita tanam niat sama-sama mengerjakan segala pekerjaan ini kerana Dia. Rezeki kita pun Dia yang tentukan, jadi apa sangat yang dikejar akan dunia ini. (hasil belajar 1 hadis dlm kelas bahasa Arab). Time ustaz terangkan pasal maksud hadis ni dlm kelas, terasa malu sungguh. Terasa sgt apa yang kita buat sekarang ni mcm umpama mengejar kekayaan dunia, sedangkan kenalah berpada-pada dalam mencari keuntungan di dunia dan banyakkan mencari untuk akhirat. Betul-betul mcm orang tersedar dr tidur biler ustaz bacakan hadis tu. Insaf kejap.
Ok, dah nak bergerak ke kelas Arab. Actually sekarang ni mcm dah lost jugak dgn arabic ni, sebab selalu tak dtg kelas. Ni yang payahnya kalau kena selalu outstation, terpaksa burn kelas. Rugi jer rasanya. Apa pun, kita usahalah mana yang terdaya, selebihnya kita pulangkan pada Allah. :)
Ma'as salamah.
Live without passion, what exactly the outcomes gonna be?
Friday, March 05, 2004
Bertemu kembali
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Just came back from Penang. For about 4 days i was there assessing my customers. The experience was so good since i had given opportunity to follow some investigations works done by En. Zul and Zaki. Only 3 of us yg turun Penang as Investigation Officers.
Each time i travel with some of my officemates, we were became closer and closer with each other, which is good actually. We became more open-minded, less misunderstandings for each other, and the most important thing is that we have FUN together! Hehe, actually nope, that is not the most important thing actually. Among all, the knowledge and feeling sharing among us which counts most. Seriously, i've learnt a lot this time from the perspective of adults. We talked about life, career, general knowledge and even politics!! I've grown up!! hehe.
During our journey back to KL, we discussed on the role of parent in forming the best attitude and capabilities of children. I'm not yet married, but i can fixed myself into the conversation by reflecting to my own childhood experiences. I believe that what i become now is the result of the freedom of decision making given by my parent. At any time and at any matter which need decision to be made. Not only me, but to all my siblings except for my 3 youngest sisters coz they are more like spoilt brats to us (the older sisters and bros..hehe). Actually they are not that spoilt, tapi sbb dimanjakan sgt by my mum, tu yg tak reti nak independent tu. Goreng ikan pun nak kena org ajar. but now i think there lots improvement have been made. Dah tau nak goreng sayur, masak gulai. Satu jer yg derang fail, masak nasi..sure berkerak. Tulaa, dulu belajar masak pakai periuk karan, biler dah rosak tak tau nak adjust api nasi biler pakai periuk biasa.Hehe.
I've learn something about life today. Looking at the world with some perception which i used to look at during i was in Matriculation dulu. Sometimes i felt that it would be nice, very very nice to go back to the fine old times, where i won't have to face the bitterness of experience at certain episodes of my life. Happy living as a student without not so much to worry about life. I have to admit that my best experience as a student was in my matriculation, back in malacca in 1999. I'm glad to study in MMU eventhough at the first place UM is my first choice. I got the UM offer, but my father didn't let me go and study there. In MMU i ended up became an Accounting grad. Lots of interesting stories there. Not enuf space if i have to tell ya all the stories.
This evening kak Fida said that perhaps i'll be replacing her place for about 2 months. She's expecting a child in May. Of course i'm happy to have the chance to practice my accounting skills since Kak Fida's works are dealing with budgeting. But on the other hand, i'm scared for i have LOTS of LOTS things to do. Seriously, sometimes i feel that i should pasang 2 pasang tangan palsu lagi untuk buat keje. Skang ni tgh hectic ngan keje sampai tak tau mana satu nak buat.
Kak Fida kata mungkin ada sorang exec yg akan diserapkan di bawah unit dia, and the best candidate for that post is me, coz of my accounting background. Rite now i'm not that keen to be happy with that news eventhough that was my dream dulu ketika baru2 masuk FMD. I want to practice my accounting, what the heck of being an accounting grad and yet you can't perform what you have learnt in university before? Quite a waste isn't it? 4 years was not a short period to learn all the creepy theoritical and practical concepts of accounting. But i managed to settle all down. Big applause for myself!! Hehe.
Alrite, later k. Need to move on.
Life isn't easy, but the power to change it lies with us, so make up your mind! Grow up and make the best of you :)
Wassalam.
Just came back from Penang. For about 4 days i was there assessing my customers. The experience was so good since i had given opportunity to follow some investigations works done by En. Zul and Zaki. Only 3 of us yg turun Penang as Investigation Officers.
Each time i travel with some of my officemates, we were became closer and closer with each other, which is good actually. We became more open-minded, less misunderstandings for each other, and the most important thing is that we have FUN together! Hehe, actually nope, that is not the most important thing actually. Among all, the knowledge and feeling sharing among us which counts most. Seriously, i've learnt a lot this time from the perspective of adults. We talked about life, career, general knowledge and even politics!! I've grown up!! hehe.
During our journey back to KL, we discussed on the role of parent in forming the best attitude and capabilities of children. I'm not yet married, but i can fixed myself into the conversation by reflecting to my own childhood experiences. I believe that what i become now is the result of the freedom of decision making given by my parent. At any time and at any matter which need decision to be made. Not only me, but to all my siblings except for my 3 youngest sisters coz they are more like spoilt brats to us (the older sisters and bros..hehe). Actually they are not that spoilt, tapi sbb dimanjakan sgt by my mum, tu yg tak reti nak independent tu. Goreng ikan pun nak kena org ajar. but now i think there lots improvement have been made. Dah tau nak goreng sayur, masak gulai. Satu jer yg derang fail, masak nasi..sure berkerak. Tulaa, dulu belajar masak pakai periuk karan, biler dah rosak tak tau nak adjust api nasi biler pakai periuk biasa.Hehe.
I've learn something about life today. Looking at the world with some perception which i used to look at during i was in Matriculation dulu. Sometimes i felt that it would be nice, very very nice to go back to the fine old times, where i won't have to face the bitterness of experience at certain episodes of my life. Happy living as a student without not so much to worry about life. I have to admit that my best experience as a student was in my matriculation, back in malacca in 1999. I'm glad to study in MMU eventhough at the first place UM is my first choice. I got the UM offer, but my father didn't let me go and study there. In MMU i ended up became an Accounting grad. Lots of interesting stories there. Not enuf space if i have to tell ya all the stories.
This evening kak Fida said that perhaps i'll be replacing her place for about 2 months. She's expecting a child in May. Of course i'm happy to have the chance to practice my accounting skills since Kak Fida's works are dealing with budgeting. But on the other hand, i'm scared for i have LOTS of LOTS things to do. Seriously, sometimes i feel that i should pasang 2 pasang tangan palsu lagi untuk buat keje. Skang ni tgh hectic ngan keje sampai tak tau mana satu nak buat.
Kak Fida kata mungkin ada sorang exec yg akan diserapkan di bawah unit dia, and the best candidate for that post is me, coz of my accounting background. Rite now i'm not that keen to be happy with that news eventhough that was my dream dulu ketika baru2 masuk FMD. I want to practice my accounting, what the heck of being an accounting grad and yet you can't perform what you have learnt in university before? Quite a waste isn't it? 4 years was not a short period to learn all the creepy theoritical and practical concepts of accounting. But i managed to settle all down. Big applause for myself!! Hehe.
Alrite, later k. Need to move on.
Life isn't easy, but the power to change it lies with us, so make up your mind! Grow up and make the best of you :)
Wassalam.
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Bertemu lagi
Assalamualaikum wbt,
It's been quite a long time i have not update this blog..too much commitments to be prioritized before this blog :)
Di sepanjang past 1 week, i was so miserable....not due to my hectic schedule solely, but with my emotional and inner self as well. I had became someone strange even to myself. But alhamdulillah at this very moment, i gain back my real self. And become stronger...
This afternoon, my sis invited me too swim near at my house. Yeah rite, i have to wear swimming suit kalau nak terjun kolam. Seriously, swimming is one of my favourites to do if i have chance to do so. Kalau tak fikirkan iman, mmg setuju ajer ikut my sis. Tapi takkan nak buat,kan? Melepaskan pakaian dan membuka aurat di depan org ramai? Hish..tak mampu nak buat skang ni. Dulu waktu kecil2 bolehlah nak selamba jer kot hehe.
I've got a lot to say, tapi byk sgt and tak mampu nak diluahkan dgn kata-kata. Tgklah kalau rajin, i'll post. Skang ni mcm terasa malas nak blog coz i'm someone yg cepat rasa bosan dgn sesuatu benda. Tak pernah nak stay lama. So tgklah sampai biler blog ni boleh bertahan k ;)
Next week nak ke Penang about 1 week. So my blog akan berehat selama 1 week jugaklah..later guys..need to complete my tasks first.
Wassalam.
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah masa silam
pasti aku sudah
mengubah haluan hidupku
yang sering tersasar
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah hati
yang lemah
sering terpedaya ini
pasti aku sudah
mengubah ia
menjadi hati
yang lembut menghadap Tuhan
tapi waja menghadap syaitan
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah diri
menjadi insan
cemerlang di dunia sana
akan kucuba
walau perit
menghadap duka
Mampukah?
It's been quite a long time i have not update this blog..too much commitments to be prioritized before this blog :)
Di sepanjang past 1 week, i was so miserable....not due to my hectic schedule solely, but with my emotional and inner self as well. I had became someone strange even to myself. But alhamdulillah at this very moment, i gain back my real self. And become stronger...
This afternoon, my sis invited me too swim near at my house. Yeah rite, i have to wear swimming suit kalau nak terjun kolam. Seriously, swimming is one of my favourites to do if i have chance to do so. Kalau tak fikirkan iman, mmg setuju ajer ikut my sis. Tapi takkan nak buat,kan? Melepaskan pakaian dan membuka aurat di depan org ramai? Hish..tak mampu nak buat skang ni. Dulu waktu kecil2 bolehlah nak selamba jer kot hehe.
I've got a lot to say, tapi byk sgt and tak mampu nak diluahkan dgn kata-kata. Tgklah kalau rajin, i'll post. Skang ni mcm terasa malas nak blog coz i'm someone yg cepat rasa bosan dgn sesuatu benda. Tak pernah nak stay lama. So tgklah sampai biler blog ni boleh bertahan k ;)
Next week nak ke Penang about 1 week. So my blog akan berehat selama 1 week jugaklah..later guys..need to complete my tasks first.
Wassalam.
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah masa silam
pasti aku sudah
mengubah haluan hidupku
yang sering tersasar
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah hati
yang lemah
sering terpedaya ini
pasti aku sudah
mengubah ia
menjadi hati
yang lembut menghadap Tuhan
tapi waja menghadap syaitan
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah diri
menjadi insan
cemerlang di dunia sana
akan kucuba
walau perit
menghadap duka
Mampukah?
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Mengoreksi Diri
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hari ni dimulakan dgn pagi yg sibuk, Tn Hj nakkan pencalonan R&R untuk Exec and Manager terbaik for HR nominations. Pastu analyze bil pelanggan kat Penang thru Brains, pastu update Fraud Account. Aaaaa, byknya keje yg tak settle lagi.
For about 2 days Ika and i were at Siha's house. Lepak sana after went to Kak Sity's wedding hehe. Kat umah Siha kitorang pegi memancing ikan, dpt ler beberapa ekor ikan siakap and lampam. Siha masak lauk ikan yg kitorang tangkap, best best hehe. Balik dr Taiping, boleh pulak bas rosak kat terowong Jelapang, 3 jam stuck kat tol Jelapang. Tiring and i had to let go my Arabic class since we arrived here last nite at 8 something p.m. My class starts at 8 p.m.Mmg tak sempat nak catch. Dahlaa last Wed tak pergi sbb ada program kat Seremban, rugi betul.
I was so tense thinking about my program kat Penang scheduled on this becoming Wed and Thurs sepanjang stuck kat tol Jelapang tu, last last i SMSed my manager requested for postponement becoz i didn't ready at all nak pegi Penang hari ni. Dgn CNO yg tak konfem contact sana, takkan nak pegi sesuka hati. Dahlah jauh. Tunda buat next week. I've got a lot to be completed within this week. And i can't afford to let them go just becoz i've got to go to Penang today. Just can't.
Hati akan tenang dgn mengingat Allah. I feel that i'm quite far from Him nowadays. Tak pelihara diri dr dosa, tak spend masa nak menjengah Quran, sibuk dgn aktiviti-aktiviti leisure n kerja yg tak berkesudahan. Sampai bila nak jadi camni? Sampai matahari terbit di sebelah Barat, atau sampai nafas terakhir tersangkut di kerongkong?
Think and revise. Berhijrah dan beristiqamah. That's what we should do.
Kerana apa?
Kerana kita tak selamanya menongkat dunia. Di dunia sana Allah menunggu kita menghadapNya. Semoga ada bekalan diri yang tersisa.
"Pelihara kami di dunia dan akhirat Ya Allah, moga kami menjadi di kalangan mereka yang beruntung"
Wassalam.
Hari ni dimulakan dgn pagi yg sibuk, Tn Hj nakkan pencalonan R&R untuk Exec and Manager terbaik for HR nominations. Pastu analyze bil pelanggan kat Penang thru Brains, pastu update Fraud Account. Aaaaa, byknya keje yg tak settle lagi.
For about 2 days Ika and i were at Siha's house. Lepak sana after went to Kak Sity's wedding hehe. Kat umah Siha kitorang pegi memancing ikan, dpt ler beberapa ekor ikan siakap and lampam. Siha masak lauk ikan yg kitorang tangkap, best best hehe. Balik dr Taiping, boleh pulak bas rosak kat terowong Jelapang, 3 jam stuck kat tol Jelapang. Tiring and i had to let go my Arabic class since we arrived here last nite at 8 something p.m. My class starts at 8 p.m.Mmg tak sempat nak catch. Dahlaa last Wed tak pergi sbb ada program kat Seremban, rugi betul.
I was so tense thinking about my program kat Penang scheduled on this becoming Wed and Thurs sepanjang stuck kat tol Jelapang tu, last last i SMSed my manager requested for postponement becoz i didn't ready at all nak pegi Penang hari ni. Dgn CNO yg tak konfem contact sana, takkan nak pegi sesuka hati. Dahlah jauh. Tunda buat next week. I've got a lot to be completed within this week. And i can't afford to let them go just becoz i've got to go to Penang today. Just can't.
Hati akan tenang dgn mengingat Allah. I feel that i'm quite far from Him nowadays. Tak pelihara diri dr dosa, tak spend masa nak menjengah Quran, sibuk dgn aktiviti-aktiviti leisure n kerja yg tak berkesudahan. Sampai bila nak jadi camni? Sampai matahari terbit di sebelah Barat, atau sampai nafas terakhir tersangkut di kerongkong?
Think and revise. Berhijrah dan beristiqamah. That's what we should do.
Kerana apa?
Kerana kita tak selamanya menongkat dunia. Di dunia sana Allah menunggu kita menghadapNya. Semoga ada bekalan diri yang tersisa.
"Pelihara kami di dunia dan akhirat Ya Allah, moga kami menjadi di kalangan mereka yang beruntung"
Wassalam.
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Menunggu ketika
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Now waiting for jeep En. Khalid sampai ofis, so i take the chance to write something in here. Supposedly pukul 2 tadi dah bertolak ke Seremban, tapi tetiba Tn Hj nakkan laptop dia dihantar ke Menara. So kena tunggu jeep sampai sini dulu.
This morning ada talk given by Change Mgmt Office pasal Culture Leadership Initiative, bersekali dgn Farah and Azni. This program is about assisting and assessing TM leaders. I've assigned to CE R&D TM, kat UPM. Balik ofis terus kena panggil by my manager En. Budi. Topik perbincangan kami more on politik di tempat kerja. He claimed that when i join this program, i'll learn the bad culture of TM so he wanted me to get prepared to face the bad side of TM.
Hmm..what to say then? I just keep quiet and went to my place straight away after that. Actually malas nak ambil tahu what are the bad cultures of TM sebenarnya. I think kat mana2 organization pun mmg ada bad side of it, be it political, operational or financial aspects. So be it, and i dun care!! Hahaha, jahat giler statement ni hehe.
We'll seelah nanti camner. I'll just go with the flow i guess. Sekarang ini i'm not that motivated to think and propose any possible changes on existing culture of TM. Perhaps once my assessment starts, i'll think of it.
OK, jeep dah ready utk bergerak ke Seremban.
Berjumpa kembali on this Friday insya-Allah :)
Wassalam.
Now waiting for jeep En. Khalid sampai ofis, so i take the chance to write something in here. Supposedly pukul 2 tadi dah bertolak ke Seremban, tapi tetiba Tn Hj nakkan laptop dia dihantar ke Menara. So kena tunggu jeep sampai sini dulu.
This morning ada talk given by Change Mgmt Office pasal Culture Leadership Initiative, bersekali dgn Farah and Azni. This program is about assisting and assessing TM leaders. I've assigned to CE R&D TM, kat UPM. Balik ofis terus kena panggil by my manager En. Budi. Topik perbincangan kami more on politik di tempat kerja. He claimed that when i join this program, i'll learn the bad culture of TM so he wanted me to get prepared to face the bad side of TM.
Hmm..what to say then? I just keep quiet and went to my place straight away after that. Actually malas nak ambil tahu what are the bad cultures of TM sebenarnya. I think kat mana2 organization pun mmg ada bad side of it, be it political, operational or financial aspects. So be it, and i dun care!! Hahaha, jahat giler statement ni hehe.
We'll seelah nanti camner. I'll just go with the flow i guess. Sekarang ini i'm not that motivated to think and propose any possible changes on existing culture of TM. Perhaps once my assessment starts, i'll think of it.
OK, jeep dah ready utk bergerak ke Seremban.
Berjumpa kembali on this Friday insya-Allah :)
Wassalam.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Presentation
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Skang ni sdg bertelekung di depan pc menunggu solat Maghrib, malam ni kena balik lambat sket sbb dah 2 hari tinggalkan keje utk join workshop JPPF.
Esok nak ke Seremban and stay there for 3 days sbb ada presentation, and next week berkemungkinan besar akan ke Penang sbb ada technical visit. Berserabut kepala biler buat kerja pelbagai cabang ni. System nak kena cater, customer nak kena cater, legal matters pun nak kena cater. Ntah mana satu fokus nak diberikan pun tak tau sebenarnya.
Esok akan ada briefing pasal Culture Transformation Initiative TM organized by Change Management Office kol 9.30 pagi, briefing utk selected young executives utk assist TM leaders. Ok jugak sebenarnya, boleh tgk camner TM leaders buat keje, hopefully dapat leader yg best.
Hari ni best coz my group (Kak Fidah, Keirul, Abg Is and me) presented our analysis on our pattern detection for our system. Kira paling gempak among the others hehe. Yg lain Tn Hj kata dia blur, ngan group kitorang jer dia kata nampaklah bayang2 sket hehe.Best best. Tapi hadiah utk kumpulan terbaik kami kongsi ramai2 sbb hadiah satu jer, which is good sbb nampaklah Tn Hj adil. Hadiah satu jer, so kalau satu kumpulan jer yg dpt, kesian kumpulan2 lain.
Tu jer kot nak cakap. Malam ni nak kena revise presentation sbb malas nak rasa saiko lagi utk buat presentation mcm kat Sabah dulu. 2 malam tak tidur sbb menghafal n takut nak bagi presentation. 2 pagi juga tak lalu nak breakfast kat hotel tu sbb sibuk mengingat fakta. Mengalahkan org nak ambik SPM! Terdaya nak minum fresh orange n satu muffin jer padahal punyerlah byk makanan lain yg best2 kat hotel tu.
First time bagi presentation kat berpuluh2 org internal staff and customers dlm sesi berlainan, maunya tak takut. Dlm English pulak tu for 1 hour! Cuba bayangkan..1 HOUR in English!! Tapi after dah habis presentation kat Sabah, kira mcm dah confident sket nak buat presentation kat Sarawak. Waktu first presentation tu, mmg takut tapi buat2 selamba jer present, tapi yg kelakarnya managers n Midun boleh kata bagus pulak after dah habis present! Alhamdulillah :)
Oklah, nak solat maghrib dulu, wassalam :)
Link best --> http://www.b4death.com/fla/never.swf. Nice song :)
Skang ni sdg bertelekung di depan pc menunggu solat Maghrib, malam ni kena balik lambat sket sbb dah 2 hari tinggalkan keje utk join workshop JPPF.
Esok nak ke Seremban and stay there for 3 days sbb ada presentation, and next week berkemungkinan besar akan ke Penang sbb ada technical visit. Berserabut kepala biler buat kerja pelbagai cabang ni. System nak kena cater, customer nak kena cater, legal matters pun nak kena cater. Ntah mana satu fokus nak diberikan pun tak tau sebenarnya.
Esok akan ada briefing pasal Culture Transformation Initiative TM organized by Change Management Office kol 9.30 pagi, briefing utk selected young executives utk assist TM leaders. Ok jugak sebenarnya, boleh tgk camner TM leaders buat keje, hopefully dapat leader yg best.
Hari ni best coz my group (Kak Fidah, Keirul, Abg Is and me) presented our analysis on our pattern detection for our system. Kira paling gempak among the others hehe. Yg lain Tn Hj kata dia blur, ngan group kitorang jer dia kata nampaklah bayang2 sket hehe.Best best. Tapi hadiah utk kumpulan terbaik kami kongsi ramai2 sbb hadiah satu jer, which is good sbb nampaklah Tn Hj adil. Hadiah satu jer, so kalau satu kumpulan jer yg dpt, kesian kumpulan2 lain.
Tu jer kot nak cakap. Malam ni nak kena revise presentation sbb malas nak rasa saiko lagi utk buat presentation mcm kat Sabah dulu. 2 malam tak tidur sbb menghafal n takut nak bagi presentation. 2 pagi juga tak lalu nak breakfast kat hotel tu sbb sibuk mengingat fakta. Mengalahkan org nak ambik SPM! Terdaya nak minum fresh orange n satu muffin jer padahal punyerlah byk makanan lain yg best2 kat hotel tu.
First time bagi presentation kat berpuluh2 org internal staff and customers dlm sesi berlainan, maunya tak takut. Dlm English pulak tu for 1 hour! Cuba bayangkan..1 HOUR in English!! Tapi after dah habis presentation kat Sabah, kira mcm dah confident sket nak buat presentation kat Sarawak. Waktu first presentation tu, mmg takut tapi buat2 selamba jer present, tapi yg kelakarnya managers n Midun boleh kata bagus pulak after dah habis present! Alhamdulillah :)
Oklah, nak solat maghrib dulu, wassalam :)
Link best --> http://www.b4death.com/fla/never.swf. Nice song :)
Monday, February 16, 2004
Hati tersenyum riang
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hehe..hari ni daku menjadi sedikit jahat ;)
For today and tomorrow, i'll have special bengkel for JPPF. We'll be provided breakfast, lunch and minum petang. Today, i didn't get my portion of lunch becoz sibuk main dam dgn Midun kat MSN. Tulah, padan muka..saper suh main. Org pegi makan, dia pegi main. Terpaksalaa beli food kat canteen.
Actually skang ni tgh happy, di dalam kebosanan dan ke'monotonous'an hidup ini, alhamdulillah masih ada perkara yg menggirangkan hati, alhamdulillah :)
Malam ni ada Arabic, satu page pun tak bukak lagi. Khamis ni ada presentation di Seremban and next week ada technical visit di Penang. Aaaa...kehidupanku yg makin sibuk dan perlukan perancangan yg rapi di awal-awal tahun ini *sigh*
Kerja banyak dr dulu, tapi i'm happy coz takdelah terasa makan gaji buta sgt. Last year mmg serius terasa kerja takde makna sbb takde direction. Ntah haper2 jer rasanya. Alhamdulillah i have better manager now, need to work smart and learn as much as possible *smile*
ok..nak solat Zuhur dulu.
Before i go, i want to say sorry for someone that i know she'll understand whom i referring to..sorry for being so stern and left you behind for my program on Saturday. I didn't mean to left, tapi dlm kelam kabut nak mengejar masa utk makan and solat, terus pergi tanpa inform. Pastu terlupa terus sampai petang. I know you were hurt becoz i didn't call you back, and turned down your request to meet after the game (becoz i was in my auntie's car heading home during that call being made). I'm so sorry if you get hurt by me. Really didn't mean it at all.
Guess why i don't talk directly to her and request for an apology? Coz...i'm not someone who can praise or request forgiveness directly in front of someone's face..i just can't. And she knew it that i can't. Hopefully she'll understand why i say sorry in here rather than talking directly to her.
Get to go, wassalam.
~Sahabat adalah salah satu harta yang bernilai dlm kehidupan~.
Hehe..hari ni daku menjadi sedikit jahat ;)
For today and tomorrow, i'll have special bengkel for JPPF. We'll be provided breakfast, lunch and minum petang. Today, i didn't get my portion of lunch becoz sibuk main dam dgn Midun kat MSN. Tulah, padan muka..saper suh main. Org pegi makan, dia pegi main. Terpaksalaa beli food kat canteen.
Actually skang ni tgh happy, di dalam kebosanan dan ke'monotonous'an hidup ini, alhamdulillah masih ada perkara yg menggirangkan hati, alhamdulillah :)
Malam ni ada Arabic, satu page pun tak bukak lagi. Khamis ni ada presentation di Seremban and next week ada technical visit di Penang. Aaaa...kehidupanku yg makin sibuk dan perlukan perancangan yg rapi di awal-awal tahun ini *sigh*
Kerja banyak dr dulu, tapi i'm happy coz takdelah terasa makan gaji buta sgt. Last year mmg serius terasa kerja takde makna sbb takde direction. Ntah haper2 jer rasanya. Alhamdulillah i have better manager now, need to work smart and learn as much as possible *smile*
ok..nak solat Zuhur dulu.
Before i go, i want to say sorry for someone that i know she'll understand whom i referring to..sorry for being so stern and left you behind for my program on Saturday. I didn't mean to left, tapi dlm kelam kabut nak mengejar masa utk makan and solat, terus pergi tanpa inform. Pastu terlupa terus sampai petang. I know you were hurt becoz i didn't call you back, and turned down your request to meet after the game (becoz i was in my auntie's car heading home during that call being made). I'm so sorry if you get hurt by me. Really didn't mean it at all.
Guess why i don't talk directly to her and request for an apology? Coz...i'm not someone who can praise or request forgiveness directly in front of someone's face..i just can't. And she knew it that i can't. Hopefully she'll understand why i say sorry in here rather than talking directly to her.
Get to go, wassalam.
~Sahabat adalah salah satu harta yang bernilai dlm kehidupan~.
Friday, February 13, 2004
Dugaan
Petang ini dikisahkan di dalam berita,
seorang budak perempuan berketurunan Tajik
Dibunuh beramai-ramai
menggunakan pisau tajam dan belantan
Apakah salahnya?
Hanya kerana dia bergelar Islam?
Kubaca lagi
Paderi Israel mengalu-alukan paderi kristian
untuk memurtadkan saudara-saudara Islam
dari masjid ke masjid.
Isu tudung mengenai Singapura dan Tantawi
Integrasi dan perkauman dijadikan alasan
Ya Allah
Banyaknya dugaan
Semoga kuat hati hamba-hambaMu ini
dalam meniti kehidupan
yang akan mendatang
Sabarlah saudara-saudaraku
yang sedang menahan derita
mahupun yang sedang berjuang
kiranya dunia ini
umpama penjara bagi org2 mukmin
maka berbahagialah kamu
yang sedang diuji
tanda kasih sayangNya
yang masih terlempar
ke atas diri
Diriku bagaimana?
Tidak diuji dengan begitu payah
namun masih menangis
umpama dunia ini
hampir kiamat lakunya
tidak segankah?
seorang budak perempuan berketurunan Tajik
Dibunuh beramai-ramai
menggunakan pisau tajam dan belantan
Apakah salahnya?
Hanya kerana dia bergelar Islam?
Kubaca lagi
Paderi Israel mengalu-alukan paderi kristian
untuk memurtadkan saudara-saudara Islam
dari masjid ke masjid.
Isu tudung mengenai Singapura dan Tantawi
Integrasi dan perkauman dijadikan alasan
Ya Allah
Banyaknya dugaan
Semoga kuat hati hamba-hambaMu ini
dalam meniti kehidupan
yang akan mendatang
Sabarlah saudara-saudaraku
yang sedang menahan derita
mahupun yang sedang berjuang
kiranya dunia ini
umpama penjara bagi org2 mukmin
maka berbahagialah kamu
yang sedang diuji
tanda kasih sayangNya
yang masih terlempar
ke atas diri
Diriku bagaimana?
Tidak diuji dengan begitu payah
namun masih menangis
umpama dunia ini
hampir kiamat lakunya
tidak segankah?
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Mengemis Kasih
Tuhan
Dulu pernah
aku menagih simpati
kepada manusia
yang alpa jua buta
lalu terheretlah
aku di lorong gelisah
luka hati yang berdarah
kini jadi kian parah
semalam sudah sampai
ke penghujungnya
kisah seribu duka
kuharap sudah berlalu
tak ingin lagi
kuulangi kembali
jerat dosa yang menghiris hati
(1)
Tuhan
dosaku menggunung tinggi
tapi rahmatMu melangit luas
harga selautan syukurku
hanyalah setitis
nikmatMu di bumi
Tuhan
walau taubat sering kumungkir
tapi pengampunanMu
tak pernah bertepi
bila selangkah
kurapat padaMu
seribu langkah
Kau rapat padaku
Ulang (1)
Allah 2x
Mengemis kasih by Raihan
Dulu pernah
aku menagih simpati
kepada manusia
yang alpa jua buta
lalu terheretlah
aku di lorong gelisah
luka hati yang berdarah
kini jadi kian parah
semalam sudah sampai
ke penghujungnya
kisah seribu duka
kuharap sudah berlalu
tak ingin lagi
kuulangi kembali
jerat dosa yang menghiris hati
(1)
Tuhan
dosaku menggunung tinggi
tapi rahmatMu melangit luas
harga selautan syukurku
hanyalah setitis
nikmatMu di bumi
Tuhan
walau taubat sering kumungkir
tapi pengampunanMu
tak pernah bertepi
bila selangkah
kurapat padaMu
seribu langkah
Kau rapat padaku
Ulang (1)
Allah 2x
Mengemis kasih by Raihan
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Gratitude
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Pagi ini dimulakan dengan senyuman, walaupun di hati sedikit terkesan dengan catatan Ika and Mudin semalam. Come on Ika, you are strong enough to face all the challenges, aren't you? :) And Mudin, verily berjemaah di dalam membuat sesuatu itu penting. I'm highly agree for what you have raised in your blog. We need to be together in unity in order to achieve our matlamat regardless in what field and for what purpose.
Last nite Ika, Mizie and I had a great dinner at Mc D, enjoying our Prosperity Burger and Vanilla Coke. Brought Mizie for a tour at our office, and went back together after that. Myself mmg langkah kanan betul biler Mizie datang hehe. Hanya kami bertiga sajer yg tau kenapa (can't reveal to anyone becoz have been asked to keep my mouth shut by Ika hehe).
Today i would like to touch on the matter of gratitude.
Why gratitude? Why not other things? Perhaps we could analyze ourselves, have we grateful enough for whatever happened and received by us in our lives? Have we performed as what required and requested by Allah in showing our gratitude for whatever He had given to us? I believe all of us have great circles of family and friends, good education, decent life to be enjoyed, enough dough to buy and serve meals, and everything is in good shape i believe insya-Allah. Does Allah deserve to get our respect and thankfulness for whatever He had provide us? Of course yes, eventhough He does not need it becoz He does not rely on His creations in any aspect, without us He is still The Almighty. We are individually nothing to be compared to this huge world of His creations, especially if we don't act and behave as mukminun, becoming worse than animals as a matter of facts in Quran!Na'uzubillahi min zalik.
For whatever sadness or complaints, face it with sabar. It's true that SABAR itu susah ( as depicted from my friend's blog), tapi payah itu juga satu nikmat yang perlu kita syukuri, isn' it? Be thankful for what we have and what we don't have, for it become a proof that we redha on Allah and with that we hope that Allah juga akan redha pada kita.
Again, mari berjemaah di dalam menegakkan Islam di dalam diri, dan juga masyarakat umumnya. Moga diberikan kelapangan di dalam mencapai matlamat abadi di dunia sana.
Wassalam.
**********************************************************************************************
What is Thankfulness?
In Islamic terminology, Thankfulness is the acknowledgment of the fact that Allâh is the only Grantor of graces, and full submission to Allâh in a way that assures that acknowledgment. The graces (favors) of Allâh are endless and countless. Allâh says in His Book:
"And if you were to count the blessings of Allâh, you will never be able to count them." {Sûrah Ibraîim (14): 34}
He, the All Mighty also says:
"And whatever blessings and good you have, it is from Allâh .." {Sûrah an-Nahl, (16): 53}
How can a servant (Abd) thank Allâh?
{The word ‘slaves’ represents mankind, for all of mankind are expected to totally submit to the will of Allâh}The servant can thank Allâh in many ways. These include:
Prostrating to Allâh, when the servant receives a blessing from Allâh or when Allâh saves him from a disaster. The Messenger of Allâh (salAllâhu alaihi wasallam) used to prostrate to Allâh whenever he received a pleasant thing or was told good news. This prostration is conducted for the sole purpose of giving thanks to Allâh, the Granter of the grace and benefit that the servant received. [see Fiqh as-Sunnah by Sayyid Sabiq (English trans.) vol.2, p.45]
Abdur-Rahmân ibn 'Auf relates that the Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) went out once and he followed him until he entered a grove of palm trees and prostrated. His prostration was so long that 'Abdur-Rahmân feared that Allâh had taken his soul. 'Abdur-Rahmân came to look at him and he raised his head and said: "What is wrong, Abdur-Rahmân'?" Abdur Rahmân mentioned what had happened, and he (sallAllâhu alaihi wa-sallam) said: "Gibra'el came to me and said: 'Shall I not give you glad tidings'? Allâh says to you, Whoever prays upon you, I pray upon him. Whoever salutes you, I salute him.' Therefore, I prostrated to Allâh in thanks." {This is related by Ahmad and by Al-Hâkim who says: "It is sahih according to the criterion of al-Bukhâri and Muslim}
Thanking Allâh in words: The majority of the scholars agreed that if the servant does not thank Allâh for the grace he has, then that grace will go away and may never come back. Allâh's Messenger (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said: "It is a fine thing when a believer praises and thanks Allâh if good comes to him, and praises Allâh and shows endurance if smitten by affliction. The believer is rewarded for everything, even for the morsel he raises to his wife's mouth." {Bayhaqi transmitted it in Shu'ab al-Iman. Sunan at-Tirmidhî no.1733 See also Sahîh Muslim (7138)}
Talking about the benefits Allâh has granted him. This is because concealing the benefits of Allâh is ungrateful. Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "Do they believe in the false deities and deny the favor of Allâh." {Sûrah an-Nahl (16):72} Ibn Kathîr commented that denying the favors of Allâh means hiding his grants and/or relating them to others than Allâh.
Narrated by Zaid bin Khâlid Al Juhani : The Prophet led us in the Fajr prayer at Hudaibiya after a rainy night. On completion of the prayer, he faced the people and said, "Do you know what your Lord has said (revealed)?" The people replied, "Allâh and His Apostle know better." He said, "Allâh has said, 'In this morning some of my slaves remained as true believers and some became non-believers; whoever said that the rain was due to the Blessings and the Mercy of Allâh had belief in Me and he disbelieves in the stars, and whoever said that it rained because of a particular star had no belief in Me but believes in that star." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri (1:807)}
Helping people in need. It was mentioned in a Hadîth of Prophet Muhammad (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) that: "As the grants from Allâh to a servant increase, so will the people's needs of that blessed servant's services. If the servant ignores their needs, it will cause those grants to be removed" (lbn Hibban) The Prophet (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "If anyone strokes an orphan's head, doing so only for Allâh's sake, he will have blessings for every hair over which his hand passes; and if anyone treats well an orphan girl or boy under his care, he and I shall be like these two in Paradise," putting two of his fingers together." {Sunan at-Tirmidhî no.4974}
Why does the servant not thank Allâh?
The servant may not thank Allâh for several reasons:
The servant may be unaware of the general grants that were bestowed by Allâh on the creatures. Many people wrongly think that money is the only thing to be considered and ignore the other general grants such as hearing, vision, sanity and health. The Prophet (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "There are two blessings which many people lose: (They are) health and free time for doing good." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol 8: 421}
آishah, the Prophet's wife said: " Whenever a servant drinks a drop of water which gets into his body and leaves it with no harm, then a thanks is due."
A man came to a good Muslim and complained that Allâh made him very poor. The good man said: "Would you like to have ten thousand dinars and be insane?" The Complainer answered: "No." The good man said: "Would you like to have ten thousand dinars but have your legs chopped off" The complainer answered: "No." The good man then said: "Aren't you ashamed of yourself complaining about your Lord while all of these grants which are His; have been bestowed on you?"
The servant may not give thanks to his Lord because he is unaware of the people who have less bounties than him. . This is mentioned in a Hadîth in Sahîh Muslim, that: Allâh's Messenger (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Look at those people who have less than you and never look at those who have more grants than you, this will ensure that you will not depreciate Allâh's grants." {Sahîh Muslim no.1530}
At times of hardship, one should turn his eyes towards a person who owns less worldly things than him. He will then be calmed and his ungratefulness will disappear. One will then thank his Lord and say: "Thanks to Allâh who has guarded me against the harm which He has afflicted others, and who has chosen not to afflict me" {Sunan at-Tirmidhî }
The servant may not give thanks to his Lord because he is unaware of Allâh's names, attributes and laws. The real ignorant person is the one who gets deceived by the amount of money he has or by his position or his power. He forgets the fact that as Allâh has granted, He may also take the blessings away. Allâh says in His Book, "Say, O Allâh! Lord of Power (and Rule) You give Power to whom You will and You take away power from whom You will, and you endue with honor whom you will, and humiliate who you will. In Your Hand is the good. Verily, You are Able to do all things." {Sûrah al-Imrân (3):26}
When does Allâh take His grants away from His servants?
When one commits sins: The Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "The servant will be deprived a provision because he committed a sin" (Musnad Ahmed)
On the other hand, fearing Allâh causes His provisions to come forth, Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "And whoever fears Allâh and keeps his duty to Him, Allâh will make way for him out of every difficulty, And He will provide for him from sources he never imagined" {Sûrah at-Talaq (65):2-3}
When the servant relates the grants to himself and does not acknowledge that Allâh is their Grantor as Qaroon (a tyrannical king mentioned in the Qur'aan al-Qasas (28): 78 ) said: "This has been given to me only because of knowledge I possess." Consequently. his punishment was, "So We caused the earth to swallow him and his dwelling place. Then he had no group or party to help him against Allâh." {Sûrah al-Qasas (28): 81}
When the servant does not give Zakaat. The Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Indeed Allâh the Most High said, 'We have sent down the wealth for the prayer to be established and that Zakât be given; and if the son of آdam had a valley, he would love to have a second; if he had two valleys, he would love to have a third, and nothing will fill the belly of the son of آdam except dust …" {Musnad Ahmed & at-Tabarânî. Sahîh al-Jâmi, no.1777}
So the money is actually Allâh's money, and we have been entrusted with it. And he (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Do not shut your money bag; otherwise Allâh too will withhold His blessings from you. Spend (in Allâh's cause) as much as you can afford. " {Sahîh al-Bukhâri 2/515}
The Prophet of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) also said, "Do not withhold your money by counting it (i.e. hoarding it), (for if you did so), Allâh would also withhold His blessings from you." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol.2: 514}
When the servant of Allâh becomes arrogant due to the large amount of money he has. If the person feels superior to other people, and his wealth becomes his only business, if he talks about it and only about it wherever he goes, and forgets to remember Allâh and praise Him; if he starts evaluating people based on their wealth, then Allâh will remove his grants. Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "Woe to every slanderer and back biter. Who has gathered wealth and counted it. He thinks that his wealth will make last forever. Nay! Verily, he will be thrown into the crushing fire." {Sûrah al-Humazah (104):1-4}
And finally there is no better example for us than the Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) who used to offer night prayers till his feet became swollen. Somebody said to him, "Allâh has forgiven you, your faults of the past and those to follow." On that, he said, "Shouldn't I be a thankful slave (of Allâh)?" {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol.6: 360}
Source : Islamic Networks
Pagi ini dimulakan dengan senyuman, walaupun di hati sedikit terkesan dengan catatan Ika and Mudin semalam. Come on Ika, you are strong enough to face all the challenges, aren't you? :) And Mudin, verily berjemaah di dalam membuat sesuatu itu penting. I'm highly agree for what you have raised in your blog. We need to be together in unity in order to achieve our matlamat regardless in what field and for what purpose.
Last nite Ika, Mizie and I had a great dinner at Mc D, enjoying our Prosperity Burger and Vanilla Coke. Brought Mizie for a tour at our office, and went back together after that. Myself mmg langkah kanan betul biler Mizie datang hehe. Hanya kami bertiga sajer yg tau kenapa (can't reveal to anyone becoz have been asked to keep my mouth shut by Ika hehe).
Today i would like to touch on the matter of gratitude.
Why gratitude? Why not other things? Perhaps we could analyze ourselves, have we grateful enough for whatever happened and received by us in our lives? Have we performed as what required and requested by Allah in showing our gratitude for whatever He had given to us? I believe all of us have great circles of family and friends, good education, decent life to be enjoyed, enough dough to buy and serve meals, and everything is in good shape i believe insya-Allah. Does Allah deserve to get our respect and thankfulness for whatever He had provide us? Of course yes, eventhough He does not need it becoz He does not rely on His creations in any aspect, without us He is still The Almighty. We are individually nothing to be compared to this huge world of His creations, especially if we don't act and behave as mukminun, becoming worse than animals as a matter of facts in Quran!Na'uzubillahi min zalik.
For whatever sadness or complaints, face it with sabar. It's true that SABAR itu susah ( as depicted from my friend's blog), tapi payah itu juga satu nikmat yang perlu kita syukuri, isn' it? Be thankful for what we have and what we don't have, for it become a proof that we redha on Allah and with that we hope that Allah juga akan redha pada kita.
Again, mari berjemaah di dalam menegakkan Islam di dalam diri, dan juga masyarakat umumnya. Moga diberikan kelapangan di dalam mencapai matlamat abadi di dunia sana.
Wassalam.
**********************************************************************************************
What is Thankfulness?
In Islamic terminology, Thankfulness is the acknowledgment of the fact that Allâh is the only Grantor of graces, and full submission to Allâh in a way that assures that acknowledgment. The graces (favors) of Allâh are endless and countless. Allâh says in His Book:
"And if you were to count the blessings of Allâh, you will never be able to count them." {Sûrah Ibraîim (14): 34}
He, the All Mighty also says:
"And whatever blessings and good you have, it is from Allâh .." {Sûrah an-Nahl, (16): 53}
How can a servant (Abd) thank Allâh?
{The word ‘slaves’ represents mankind, for all of mankind are expected to totally submit to the will of Allâh}The servant can thank Allâh in many ways. These include:
Prostrating to Allâh, when the servant receives a blessing from Allâh or when Allâh saves him from a disaster. The Messenger of Allâh (salAllâhu alaihi wasallam) used to prostrate to Allâh whenever he received a pleasant thing or was told good news. This prostration is conducted for the sole purpose of giving thanks to Allâh, the Granter of the grace and benefit that the servant received. [see Fiqh as-Sunnah by Sayyid Sabiq (English trans.) vol.2, p.45]
Abdur-Rahmân ibn 'Auf relates that the Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) went out once and he followed him until he entered a grove of palm trees and prostrated. His prostration was so long that 'Abdur-Rahmân feared that Allâh had taken his soul. 'Abdur-Rahmân came to look at him and he raised his head and said: "What is wrong, Abdur-Rahmân'?" Abdur Rahmân mentioned what had happened, and he (sallAllâhu alaihi wa-sallam) said: "Gibra'el came to me and said: 'Shall I not give you glad tidings'? Allâh says to you, Whoever prays upon you, I pray upon him. Whoever salutes you, I salute him.' Therefore, I prostrated to Allâh in thanks." {This is related by Ahmad and by Al-Hâkim who says: "It is sahih according to the criterion of al-Bukhâri and Muslim}
Thanking Allâh in words: The majority of the scholars agreed that if the servant does not thank Allâh for the grace he has, then that grace will go away and may never come back. Allâh's Messenger (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said: "It is a fine thing when a believer praises and thanks Allâh if good comes to him, and praises Allâh and shows endurance if smitten by affliction. The believer is rewarded for everything, even for the morsel he raises to his wife's mouth." {Bayhaqi transmitted it in Shu'ab al-Iman. Sunan at-Tirmidhî no.1733 See also Sahîh Muslim (7138)}
Talking about the benefits Allâh has granted him. This is because concealing the benefits of Allâh is ungrateful. Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "Do they believe in the false deities and deny the favor of Allâh." {Sûrah an-Nahl (16):72} Ibn Kathîr commented that denying the favors of Allâh means hiding his grants and/or relating them to others than Allâh.
Narrated by Zaid bin Khâlid Al Juhani : The Prophet led us in the Fajr prayer at Hudaibiya after a rainy night. On completion of the prayer, he faced the people and said, "Do you know what your Lord has said (revealed)?" The people replied, "Allâh and His Apostle know better." He said, "Allâh has said, 'In this morning some of my slaves remained as true believers and some became non-believers; whoever said that the rain was due to the Blessings and the Mercy of Allâh had belief in Me and he disbelieves in the stars, and whoever said that it rained because of a particular star had no belief in Me but believes in that star." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri (1:807)}
Helping people in need. It was mentioned in a Hadîth of Prophet Muhammad (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) that: "As the grants from Allâh to a servant increase, so will the people's needs of that blessed servant's services. If the servant ignores their needs, it will cause those grants to be removed" (lbn Hibban) The Prophet (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "If anyone strokes an orphan's head, doing so only for Allâh's sake, he will have blessings for every hair over which his hand passes; and if anyone treats well an orphan girl or boy under his care, he and I shall be like these two in Paradise," putting two of his fingers together." {Sunan at-Tirmidhî no.4974}
Why does the servant not thank Allâh?
The servant may not thank Allâh for several reasons:
The servant may be unaware of the general grants that were bestowed by Allâh on the creatures. Many people wrongly think that money is the only thing to be considered and ignore the other general grants such as hearing, vision, sanity and health. The Prophet (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "There are two blessings which many people lose: (They are) health and free time for doing good." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol 8: 421}
آishah, the Prophet's wife said: " Whenever a servant drinks a drop of water which gets into his body and leaves it with no harm, then a thanks is due."
A man came to a good Muslim and complained that Allâh made him very poor. The good man said: "Would you like to have ten thousand dinars and be insane?" The Complainer answered: "No." The good man said: "Would you like to have ten thousand dinars but have your legs chopped off" The complainer answered: "No." The good man then said: "Aren't you ashamed of yourself complaining about your Lord while all of these grants which are His; have been bestowed on you?"
The servant may not give thanks to his Lord because he is unaware of the people who have less bounties than him. . This is mentioned in a Hadîth in Sahîh Muslim, that: Allâh's Messenger (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Look at those people who have less than you and never look at those who have more grants than you, this will ensure that you will not depreciate Allâh's grants." {Sahîh Muslim no.1530}
At times of hardship, one should turn his eyes towards a person who owns less worldly things than him. He will then be calmed and his ungratefulness will disappear. One will then thank his Lord and say: "Thanks to Allâh who has guarded me against the harm which He has afflicted others, and who has chosen not to afflict me" {Sunan at-Tirmidhî }
The servant may not give thanks to his Lord because he is unaware of Allâh's names, attributes and laws. The real ignorant person is the one who gets deceived by the amount of money he has or by his position or his power. He forgets the fact that as Allâh has granted, He may also take the blessings away. Allâh says in His Book, "Say, O Allâh! Lord of Power (and Rule) You give Power to whom You will and You take away power from whom You will, and you endue with honor whom you will, and humiliate who you will. In Your Hand is the good. Verily, You are Able to do all things." {Sûrah al-Imrân (3):26}
When does Allâh take His grants away from His servants?
When one commits sins: The Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "The servant will be deprived a provision because he committed a sin" (Musnad Ahmed)
On the other hand, fearing Allâh causes His provisions to come forth, Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "And whoever fears Allâh and keeps his duty to Him, Allâh will make way for him out of every difficulty, And He will provide for him from sources he never imagined" {Sûrah at-Talaq (65):2-3}
When the servant relates the grants to himself and does not acknowledge that Allâh is their Grantor as Qaroon (a tyrannical king mentioned in the Qur'aan al-Qasas (28): 78 ) said: "This has been given to me only because of knowledge I possess." Consequently. his punishment was, "So We caused the earth to swallow him and his dwelling place. Then he had no group or party to help him against Allâh." {Sûrah al-Qasas (28): 81}
When the servant does not give Zakaat. The Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Indeed Allâh the Most High said, 'We have sent down the wealth for the prayer to be established and that Zakât be given; and if the son of آdam had a valley, he would love to have a second; if he had two valleys, he would love to have a third, and nothing will fill the belly of the son of آdam except dust …" {Musnad Ahmed & at-Tabarânî. Sahîh al-Jâmi, no.1777}
So the money is actually Allâh's money, and we have been entrusted with it. And he (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) said, "Do not shut your money bag; otherwise Allâh too will withhold His blessings from you. Spend (in Allâh's cause) as much as you can afford. " {Sahîh al-Bukhâri 2/515}
The Prophet of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) also said, "Do not withhold your money by counting it (i.e. hoarding it), (for if you did so), Allâh would also withhold His blessings from you." {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol.2: 514}
When the servant of Allâh becomes arrogant due to the large amount of money he has. If the person feels superior to other people, and his wealth becomes his only business, if he talks about it and only about it wherever he goes, and forgets to remember Allâh and praise Him; if he starts evaluating people based on their wealth, then Allâh will remove his grants. Allâh says in the Qur’ân: "Woe to every slanderer and back biter. Who has gathered wealth and counted it. He thinks that his wealth will make last forever. Nay! Verily, he will be thrown into the crushing fire." {Sûrah al-Humazah (104):1-4}
And finally there is no better example for us than the Messenger of Allâh (sAllâhu alayhi wasallam) who used to offer night prayers till his feet became swollen. Somebody said to him, "Allâh has forgiven you, your faults of the past and those to follow." On that, he said, "Shouldn't I be a thankful slave (of Allâh)?" {Sahîh al-Bukhâri vol.6: 360}
Source : Islamic Networks
Friday, February 06, 2004
Think Seriously
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Yesterday i didn't update my blog due to my hectic schedule of handling 2 meetings, one with Credit Management Division and one with Legal Division. Ended up i had slight pening di kepala hehe. Bayangkan an Accounting grad kena belajar legal terms and stuff, kena tau Act tu and Act ini, kena membezakan Civil and Criminal case, maunya tak pening :)
Today i had lunch with Hany and Ika, and we talked about pursuing studies. Ika left then for she wanted to buy ikan peliharaan as her pet, leaving Hany and me chatting about our plans.
As the discussion goes, i'm talking to myself...what i want to be in life actually? Just becoz i am stuck in Fraud Management Division and do not performing accounting works, that doesn't mean that i shall lost control of my life to be whoever i want to be. But seriously, i do not know what i wanna be, it seems blur to me becoz i know my chance to be an accountant is quite low. My AGM is someone who is very very strict on the issue of letting any one of FMD staff transfers to other departments. He won't approve, and the only ideal time to leave is when your service period in this department reaches 4-5 years. Can i still make it to be an accountant after 5 years performing in non-accounting division? Absolutely not.
So, what should i do and go from here? Let my life directions and fate merely controlled by situations? Of course not. I really hate that concept, and rite now i think the wisest thing to do instead of grumbling or whatsoever is accept whatever you have now, and start to plan for your own future and betterment. And that is what i'm doing now by sitting MBA insya-Allah in this June. It's just that i do not know where am i heading to..to be what? who? when? how? and will be continued by other questions endlessly i would say.
It's time for me to take my life seriously now, for today and for future. No more become a young hopeless wavering person in life. Need to be independent in whatever i do, with help from Allah of course. Hmm..just pray for my success k, my dreams are not that much, and i'm not seeking much either. I just want to be a simple, decent person who has a meaningful and beautiful life. That's all i want, for now and in the Hereafter, insya-Allah.
Just want to say thank you very much to someone who had supported me yesterday when i was down. Really appreciate your effort to calm me down. May Allah bless you for whatever you have done :)
Alrite, need to go. Till fingers meet keyboard again k.
Wassalam.
Yesterday i didn't update my blog due to my hectic schedule of handling 2 meetings, one with Credit Management Division and one with Legal Division. Ended up i had slight pening di kepala hehe. Bayangkan an Accounting grad kena belajar legal terms and stuff, kena tau Act tu and Act ini, kena membezakan Civil and Criminal case, maunya tak pening :)
Today i had lunch with Hany and Ika, and we talked about pursuing studies. Ika left then for she wanted to buy ikan peliharaan as her pet, leaving Hany and me chatting about our plans.
As the discussion goes, i'm talking to myself...what i want to be in life actually? Just becoz i am stuck in Fraud Management Division and do not performing accounting works, that doesn't mean that i shall lost control of my life to be whoever i want to be. But seriously, i do not know what i wanna be, it seems blur to me becoz i know my chance to be an accountant is quite low. My AGM is someone who is very very strict on the issue of letting any one of FMD staff transfers to other departments. He won't approve, and the only ideal time to leave is when your service period in this department reaches 4-5 years. Can i still make it to be an accountant after 5 years performing in non-accounting division? Absolutely not.
So, what should i do and go from here? Let my life directions and fate merely controlled by situations? Of course not. I really hate that concept, and rite now i think the wisest thing to do instead of grumbling or whatsoever is accept whatever you have now, and start to plan for your own future and betterment. And that is what i'm doing now by sitting MBA insya-Allah in this June. It's just that i do not know where am i heading to..to be what? who? when? how? and will be continued by other questions endlessly i would say.
It's time for me to take my life seriously now, for today and for future. No more become a young hopeless wavering person in life. Need to be independent in whatever i do, with help from Allah of course. Hmm..just pray for my success k, my dreams are not that much, and i'm not seeking much either. I just want to be a simple, decent person who has a meaningful and beautiful life. That's all i want, for now and in the Hereafter, insya-Allah.
Just want to say thank you very much to someone who had supported me yesterday when i was down. Really appreciate your effort to calm me down. May Allah bless you for whatever you have done :)
Alrite, need to go. Till fingers meet keyboard again k.
Wassalam.
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Theatre
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Byk perkara yang mahu diceritakan, mahu ditangiskan, mahu diketawakan, mahu disenyumkan..tapi kebanyakannya hanya mampu terzahir di hati sahaja. I believe tak semua perkara perlu diceritakan, we should reserve some to ourselves, don't you think so?
Last Friday. What was so interesting about last Friday? Actually on last Friday, Halim did invite Ika and me to watch a theatre entitled Opera Ayu Cendana, supported by my younger sister Eqa (kena tukar nama sbb ramai org dah get confused between Ika my friend and Ika my younger sis) yg kata teater tu best sbb dia pernah attend kat USM dulu, so Ika and i went together with Halim, his younger bro, his sister and her sister's friends.
Eventhough my head was spinning like gasing due to tidur yg tak cukup sbb kena prepare 2 business plan utk 2 malam berturut2, dek kerana kasihankan Halim, pergilah jugak. Lagipun this was my first time watching theatre after dah grad, waktu kat U dulu selalu jugak tgk teater PLM. So might as well take the opportunity nak tgk apa yg bestnya teater ni. So we went.
The theatre was under Fauziah Nawi's group, namely as Steffani (tak taulaa naper nama dia Western sgt), the story was ok i would say, astonished jugak tgk Fauziah Nawi menyanyi sbb tak sangka dia terer nyanyi, and the actors and actresses also were impressive to me.
The only thing yg i tak berkenan was cara teater ni dilakonkan. Bersentuh-sentuhan antara hero and heroin. Isk, tak geli agaknya derang ni. Naik bulu roma tgk derang ni berlakon. I'm not blaming org2 teater ni bluntly, kadang-kadang org yg berilmu di kalangan kita kurang gemar utk participate this type of activities, tak banyak teguran yg diberikan. Therefore most of these type of activities/performances end up like that. Tapi, kalau dah Quran kata : Jangan kamu hampiri zina...tak kiralah apa caranya, maka tak bolehlah buat. Rasanya peringatan dah ada, berumur lebih 1400 tahun lak lagi, kalau tak digunapakai dek tuan punya badan, takkan nak salahkan org yg tak memberi nasihat pulak,kan?
Dlm dewan teater tu, otak berfikir..agak-agak kalau diajak tgk teater lagi..nak tgk lagi tak ek? Kalau fikir-fikir, mcm terasa duit yg kita bayar utk teater tu seperti menyokong pulak perbuatan yg derang buat tu. Tapi fikir dalam lagi, kalau bukan kita yang nak melihat dan menegur, siapa lagi nak tegur? Kalau semua org alim berfikiran mcm tu( please bear in mind that i'm not addressing myself as org alim and org teater tu jahat k coz i know i'm not alim and who knows ibadah mereka lebih baik dr kita), jadi mereka-mereka ini akan terus terpinggir dari skop dakwah kita. Pendakwah seharusnya tidak harus memilih bulu dalam mengerjakan dakwah,kan?
What can i conclude here is...kita bantulah mana yg terdaya. And what i did was, i put comment berbunyi " kalau boleh elakkan sentuhan fizikal antara lelaki dan perempuan, hopefully ada improvement in future" kat borang survey yg diserahkan pada kami sebelum teater bermula hehe. terasa mcm nak letak jugak pasal tutup aurat, tapi tak tertulis sbb memikirkan yg derang sure-sure gelakkan comment camtu. Tapi sepatutnya kita kena cakap jugak sbb perkara tu wajib diberitahu. Isk, berdosa rasanya sbb tak cakap. Nanti kalau ada teater lain, i will spell it out insya-Allah.
Mencari sinar
terperosok diri di satu sudut
mencari sinar yang telah lama hilang
dari dalam hati
sekian lama
basah sudah tabir mata
mengingatkan dosa yg bersepah
mengira betapa tingginya noda
mengejek diri
betapa kotornya lumpur dosa
yg memalit diri
akan diterimakah amalan selama ini
yg dipersembahkan kian hari
entah mana kusyu'nya
entah mana ikhlasnya
jadi
apa saja
yang dibawa ke akhirat sana?
Ya Allah
Jangan Kau palingkan wajahMu
di saat ku menghadap
membentang amalan
Janganlah Kau murka
atas kelalaian diri yang sememangnya daif
moga ada
belas ihsanMu
dalam menunjuk jalan nur
untuk hamba berdosa ini...
Sentiasalah kita memohon keampunan dariNya.
~Kita tidak selamanya menongkat dunia~
Byk perkara yang mahu diceritakan, mahu ditangiskan, mahu diketawakan, mahu disenyumkan..tapi kebanyakannya hanya mampu terzahir di hati sahaja. I believe tak semua perkara perlu diceritakan, we should reserve some to ourselves, don't you think so?
Last Friday. What was so interesting about last Friday? Actually on last Friday, Halim did invite Ika and me to watch a theatre entitled Opera Ayu Cendana, supported by my younger sister Eqa (kena tukar nama sbb ramai org dah get confused between Ika my friend and Ika my younger sis) yg kata teater tu best sbb dia pernah attend kat USM dulu, so Ika and i went together with Halim, his younger bro, his sister and her sister's friends.
Eventhough my head was spinning like gasing due to tidur yg tak cukup sbb kena prepare 2 business plan utk 2 malam berturut2, dek kerana kasihankan Halim, pergilah jugak. Lagipun this was my first time watching theatre after dah grad, waktu kat U dulu selalu jugak tgk teater PLM. So might as well take the opportunity nak tgk apa yg bestnya teater ni. So we went.
The theatre was under Fauziah Nawi's group, namely as Steffani (tak taulaa naper nama dia Western sgt), the story was ok i would say, astonished jugak tgk Fauziah Nawi menyanyi sbb tak sangka dia terer nyanyi, and the actors and actresses also were impressive to me.
The only thing yg i tak berkenan was cara teater ni dilakonkan. Bersentuh-sentuhan antara hero and heroin. Isk, tak geli agaknya derang ni. Naik bulu roma tgk derang ni berlakon. I'm not blaming org2 teater ni bluntly, kadang-kadang org yg berilmu di kalangan kita kurang gemar utk participate this type of activities, tak banyak teguran yg diberikan. Therefore most of these type of activities/performances end up like that. Tapi, kalau dah Quran kata : Jangan kamu hampiri zina...tak kiralah apa caranya, maka tak bolehlah buat. Rasanya peringatan dah ada, berumur lebih 1400 tahun lak lagi, kalau tak digunapakai dek tuan punya badan, takkan nak salahkan org yg tak memberi nasihat pulak,kan?
Dlm dewan teater tu, otak berfikir..agak-agak kalau diajak tgk teater lagi..nak tgk lagi tak ek? Kalau fikir-fikir, mcm terasa duit yg kita bayar utk teater tu seperti menyokong pulak perbuatan yg derang buat tu. Tapi fikir dalam lagi, kalau bukan kita yang nak melihat dan menegur, siapa lagi nak tegur? Kalau semua org alim berfikiran mcm tu( please bear in mind that i'm not addressing myself as org alim and org teater tu jahat k coz i know i'm not alim and who knows ibadah mereka lebih baik dr kita), jadi mereka-mereka ini akan terus terpinggir dari skop dakwah kita. Pendakwah seharusnya tidak harus memilih bulu dalam mengerjakan dakwah,kan?
What can i conclude here is...kita bantulah mana yg terdaya. And what i did was, i put comment berbunyi " kalau boleh elakkan sentuhan fizikal antara lelaki dan perempuan, hopefully ada improvement in future" kat borang survey yg diserahkan pada kami sebelum teater bermula hehe. terasa mcm nak letak jugak pasal tutup aurat, tapi tak tertulis sbb memikirkan yg derang sure-sure gelakkan comment camtu. Tapi sepatutnya kita kena cakap jugak sbb perkara tu wajib diberitahu. Isk, berdosa rasanya sbb tak cakap. Nanti kalau ada teater lain, i will spell it out insya-Allah.
Mencari sinar
terperosok diri di satu sudut
mencari sinar yang telah lama hilang
dari dalam hati
sekian lama
basah sudah tabir mata
mengingatkan dosa yg bersepah
mengira betapa tingginya noda
mengejek diri
betapa kotornya lumpur dosa
yg memalit diri
akan diterimakah amalan selama ini
yg dipersembahkan kian hari
entah mana kusyu'nya
entah mana ikhlasnya
jadi
apa saja
yang dibawa ke akhirat sana?
Ya Allah
Jangan Kau palingkan wajahMu
di saat ku menghadap
membentang amalan
Janganlah Kau murka
atas kelalaian diri yang sememangnya daif
moga ada
belas ihsanMu
dalam menunjuk jalan nur
untuk hamba berdosa ini...
Sentiasalah kita memohon keampunan dariNya.
~Kita tidak selamanya menongkat dunia~
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Pesona Dunia
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Pesona Dunia
Pesona hati membara *Chorus
Di ruang kamar hatiku
Betapa indahnya dunia
mempersona di jiwa
terasa bagai di syurga
gembira tiada terkira
tanpa kukenali
diriku siapa
Bulan dipagari bintang
mentari sinari siang
persada indahnya alam
mempersona di jiwa
dunia hanya pinjaman
buat sementara cuma
memujuk alam
kekal selamanya
insan hanyut dalam kegelapan*
tanpa arah dan haluan
dikaburi nikmat dunia
sandiwara dan tipu daya
insan lena dalam kepalsuan
dialun mimpi memperdaya
tanpa mengenal dosa pahala
hanya memburu nikmat dunia
islam pedoman sepanjang jalan
memancar cahaya
ke serata alam
Chorus *
suara islam terus bergema
menusuk jiwa membelai sukma
memadam dosa dan noda
suci diri hidup bahagia
menerangi hidup manusia
nan gelap
karatnya dosa
Chorus *
~ Hanya cintaMu kuharap sungguh, dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh~
Pesona Dunia
Pesona hati membara *Chorus
Di ruang kamar hatiku
Betapa indahnya dunia
mempersona di jiwa
terasa bagai di syurga
gembira tiada terkira
tanpa kukenali
diriku siapa
Bulan dipagari bintang
mentari sinari siang
persada indahnya alam
mempersona di jiwa
dunia hanya pinjaman
buat sementara cuma
memujuk alam
kekal selamanya
insan hanyut dalam kegelapan*
tanpa arah dan haluan
dikaburi nikmat dunia
sandiwara dan tipu daya
insan lena dalam kepalsuan
dialun mimpi memperdaya
tanpa mengenal dosa pahala
hanya memburu nikmat dunia
islam pedoman sepanjang jalan
memancar cahaya
ke serata alam
Chorus *
suara islam terus bergema
menusuk jiwa membelai sukma
memadam dosa dan noda
suci diri hidup bahagia
menerangi hidup manusia
nan gelap
karatnya dosa
Chorus *
~ Hanya cintaMu kuharap sungguh, dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh~
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