Assalamualaikum wbt,
Alhamdulillah!!!
Dapat result exam semalam. I'm the second highest in the class, defeated by 1 or 2 marks extra by this pakcik yg memang tak dinafikan pandai and rajinlaa..dlm kelas selalu tanya ustaz pasal itu and ini yg menyebabkan aku yg mmg tak tau bende ni ternganga2, dahlaa tu, selalu tak dtg kelas pulak (bukan ponteng ek, tak dtg sbb selalu outstation hehe).
One thing pokcik ni biler dia bertanya, takde aa irritating mcm pokcik yg selalu berlagak pandai mcm dalam kelas Mak Teh and Kak Rin kat Level 1 dulu (setiap kali lepas kelas jek derang akan ngumpat pokcik tu, kesian jek dgr, tapi tu aa..saper suh berlagak pandai mcm tau sumer, so bebudak yg baru nak belajar mulalaa tak puas hati.Yg derang tak puas hati tu sbb soalan yg patutnya ustaz yang jawab, ni dia lak berlagak cam ustaz pegi jawabkan sumer soalan yg ditanya dek bebudak kelas, maunya tak bengang org dibuatnya). Syukur syukur dalam kelas aku takde org camtuh, cuma aku selalu compete ngan sorang Dato' ni aa, kat level 2 dulu pernah bertekak ngan dia pasal Arabic ni sbb dia tak nak ustaz ajar kaedah yang susah2 and complete, aku lak nak vice versa.Rugi ah belajar tak complete. Susah pun takpe, tak faham pun takpelah kan, as long as diberikan pendedahan.Takde aa nanti naik level ternganga2 sbb tak pernah belajar. Tapi skang ni aku ngan Dato' ni kira geng gaklaa..sbb kalau Dato' tu borak ngan ustaz, mesti pandang muka aku jer mcm nak minta consent kakakaka. (uish, riak dah ni hehe)
So semalam our last class, kitorang buat pot luck makan sesama reramai. Dato' ni bawa roti Perancis dan kuah kacang ful (cam mana ntah nak spell nama kacang nih, tapi kacang yg mmg glamer di Arab). Sedap giler dia buat, dia masak sendiri tu, siap kitorang minta resepi camner nak buat. Mmg best sampai kitorang semua bantai makan 2 ketul roti each of one. Siap Dato' tu bawak bekas tupperwear plastik siap2 bekalkan kitorang sorang satu kuah kacang tu. Very generous of him, alhamdulillah.
Semalam sumer org pakat2 tak nak pergi majlis penyampaian sijil yang formal sbb kitorang dah enjoy berborak and makan-makan. Buat penyampaian di kelas sendiri jek. Time ni ler mmg sumer org pakat berbual to get know each other very well, and actually sumer org yg rata2 join this course mmg power2, Dato'2 and Datin2, doctors, professors, engineers, aku jek yg profession mcm takde ler bagus sgt. Hei, tapi dah patut bersyukurlah,kan? Allah dah cukup Pemurahlah tu nak bagi kita kerja and peluang mendapatkan nafkah, kalau tak, jangankan nak join kelas ni, nak makan seharian pun belum tentu dapat :)
Waktu nak balik, semua pakat nak sambung and jumpa balik kat kelas Lanjutan 1. Ustaz Rahimi pesan jgn fed up belajar Arabic ni. Susah mcm mana pun jgn fed up. Pastu siap analogikan kelas ni mcm makan nasi. Dia kata, kita belajar ni mcm makan nasi. Walaupun kekadang kita makan lauk tak sedap, tapi kita tetap makan juga hari2. Maksudnya kenalah bersabar dan istiqamah.
Alhamdulillah for the good result that i've got. Actually i belajar 2 hari jer, dan satu hari tu i kurung diri dlm bilik meeting utk study (patutnya i cuti, tapi manager suh dtg gak handle something, so pas habis buat keje i study dlm bilik meeting sengsorang). Teringat waktu jadi SRC dulu, time exam jek melarikan diri kat tempat2 yg susah org nak cari hehe). Actually usaha tak kuat sgt, banyaknya kepada markah belas ehsan ustaz jer rasanya. Dia bagi kitorang markah penuh utk attendance, tu yg byk membantu sebenarnya. I yg selalu tak dtg outstation pun dia bagi markah penuh atttendance. Baik betul ustaz Rahimi ni.
Waktu balik Mak Teh bincang pasal Ustaz Wan Zuki yg ajar i kat Level 2 dulu. Kak Juriah, my ex-classmate cakap yg ustaz Wan Zuki ni ajar laju giler sampai dia tak dpt nak catch up, tapi dia ajar mmg complete.. Cuba bayangkan dalam kelas selama 2 jam tu, dia boleh ajar dialog dan tamarin lengkap takde tinggal soalan satu pun kecuali soalan yg kacang2 sgt tak perlu nak diperbincangkan, tapi jrg sgt kes yg mcm tu. Dan yg paling kitorang faham sgt2, setengah jam terakhir kelas dia akan suh bina ayat dan jawab soalan sorang2. Part ni ler yg tak best tuh, sbb sumer org kena bersedia. For me, i also have to admit yg ustaz ni mmg ajar laju, siap dlm borang penilaian pengajar tu, i've commented that he was teaching like a rocket. Tapi baguslaa cara dia and i mmg puas hati pun, sbb i faham kot yg bagus tu hehe. Yang lain allahualam. Yg tak dpt catch up tu mmg susah sket kot nak faham nahu yg basic2 ni. Tapi ok jek Dato' and 8 9 org yg lain. Kiranya execptionallah case org tak faham Ustaz Wan Zuki ni ajar apa. But he was very concern with this one kakak yg belajar next to me dulu. Mmg i know she can't catch up very well, and ustaz siap bagi dia tambahan notes bagi dia faham. Bagus ah ustaz ni.And tindakan Kak Juriah utk stay kat level 2 sampai dia bebetul faham mmg bagus. Sbb i rasa saper yg tak dpt nak catch up kat level 2, ibarat membunuh diri di Level 3. Sbbnya syllabus 3 ni dah susah dan tersangatlah abstract aku rasa. Ustaz Rahimi pun cakap yg Level 3 ni mmg level yg paling susah sebenarnya dlm byk2 kelas level dan lanjutan Arabic kat UIA.
Mungkin ingat nak sambung ke Lanjutan 1 pulak pasni. Tapi tak berani nak janji sbb takut kelas MBA susah, nanti tak dpt nak catch up dedua. Kena tgk keadaan dulu. Hopefully bleh manage dedua. Doakan k :)
Semalam waktu balik ada sorang datin ni terjatuh kat jalan tar waktu nak turun ke kelas balik waktu habis penyampaian sijil. Habis berdarah dahi and hidung dia. Nasib baik ada doktor, my classmate tolong tgkkan luka dia. Pastu ada org hantar dia kat Assunta Hospital. Yang ngeri tgk tu, jari dia dislocate sebiji mcm jari watak pemanjat gunung wanita dlm Vertical Limit yang dislocate time nak cari adik hero yg terjatuh dlm gaung tu. Allah bagi dugaan kat dia, moga dia redha. Ada rahmat tu insya-Allah (tak kiralah rahmat apa, rahmat untuk rasa bersyukur sbb baru terjatuh kat jalan jer,dan bukannya jatuh dr helikopter ker, kapal terbang ker, so rahmat juga tu and kena bersyukurlah jugak tu,kan? )
Ok, panjang dah catatan hari ni.
Jumpa lagi insya-Allah :)
Wassalam.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Saturday, May 15, 2004
Retorika
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Learnt a lot within this week. Alhamdulillah Allah bukakan jalan untuk belajar pelbagai perspektif kehidupan...sebagai seorang insan.
Subhanallah walhamdulillah.
Melihat cara orang lain berfikir yang ternyata betapa matang dan bersedianya mereka di dalam menangani, menghalusi dan menimbangtara sesuatu keadaan yang terhasil dalam satu-satu keadaan menyebabkan diri ini tertanya " Biler aku boleh jadi seperti mereka?"
Hati menjawab, " semua insan berbeza dari segi pemikiran, perbuatan dan pengamalan, manakan sama setiap orang dalam berbuat dan berfikir sesuatu."
Betul. Tapi aku berharap aku boleh mencapai tahap kematangan fikiran seperti itu.
Mungkin satu hari nanti,biiznillah insya-Allah.
Wassalam.
Learnt a lot within this week. Alhamdulillah Allah bukakan jalan untuk belajar pelbagai perspektif kehidupan...sebagai seorang insan.
Subhanallah walhamdulillah.
Melihat cara orang lain berfikir yang ternyata betapa matang dan bersedianya mereka di dalam menangani, menghalusi dan menimbangtara sesuatu keadaan yang terhasil dalam satu-satu keadaan menyebabkan diri ini tertanya " Biler aku boleh jadi seperti mereka?"
Hati menjawab, " semua insan berbeza dari segi pemikiran, perbuatan dan pengamalan, manakan sama setiap orang dalam berbuat dan berfikir sesuatu."
Betul. Tapi aku berharap aku boleh mencapai tahap kematangan fikiran seperti itu.
Mungkin satu hari nanti,biiznillah insya-Allah.
Wassalam.
Monday, May 10, 2004
Tepu..
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Rite now my brain is tepu, tepu setepunya. I can't pour anything inside anymore.
Why tepu?
Hehe,study for my Arabic final exam. I wanted very badly to take leave for today, but my manager called me at 10 p.m last nite just to ask me to copy down his presentation file to other managers' laptops!! Arrghhh...sometimes people just do not know how to be independent for such small tasks. Ni mulalah nak buat ghibah ni, astaghfirullah.
Luckily this time my manager is going for the presentation in Perak, and i wished him luck since this is his first time doing presentation in front of external customers. I never liked being the presenter for the external customers coz it need your guts to present for about 1 hour in English in front of the big customers, and i dun like the idea of thinking and guessing whether do they understand or not what i'm trying to tell them since our presentation is a little bit technical.But, i have to admit that the chance given to me to become the presenter had brought me to a lot of places, and i did enjoyed my trips especially in Sabah and Sarawak cos my officemates and i managed to travel and did a lot of things together. Really had fun actually.
I now that my current template of blog is dull and quite empty i would say. But i'm not keen to change any part of it, yet. Busy of handling a lot of things and my fingers are fully tied. Sometimes you just feel that you want to dissapear from this Earth for about one week and then come back again to continue your routine life. I wish i can do that, but where i wanna go? To other planets you think? Har har har, you can dream and only dream to have those opportunities.
Hey, why my blog sounds so bad and uurrghh, tense?
Hehe, i do not knowlah what to say. Whether i shall arrange my life in more proper way or i shall stay put into what i'm doing and facing now.
I think the first one is better i guess. I hate when at a time you really and very badly want to have some changes or face new things in life, unpredicted new things come and change all the way whatever you have planned before.
The exact point that i want to scream out is:
WHY LER I HAVE TO REPLACE KAK FIDA TO BECOME A BUSINESS CONTROLLER? MY OWN JOBS NOW PUN ARE OUT OF MY HANDS. AAARRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Full stop.
Rite now my brain is tepu, tepu setepunya. I can't pour anything inside anymore.
Why tepu?
Hehe,study for my Arabic final exam. I wanted very badly to take leave for today, but my manager called me at 10 p.m last nite just to ask me to copy down his presentation file to other managers' laptops!! Arrghhh...sometimes people just do not know how to be independent for such small tasks. Ni mulalah nak buat ghibah ni, astaghfirullah.
Luckily this time my manager is going for the presentation in Perak, and i wished him luck since this is his first time doing presentation in front of external customers. I never liked being the presenter for the external customers coz it need your guts to present for about 1 hour in English in front of the big customers, and i dun like the idea of thinking and guessing whether do they understand or not what i'm trying to tell them since our presentation is a little bit technical.But, i have to admit that the chance given to me to become the presenter had brought me to a lot of places, and i did enjoyed my trips especially in Sabah and Sarawak cos my officemates and i managed to travel and did a lot of things together. Really had fun actually.
I now that my current template of blog is dull and quite empty i would say. But i'm not keen to change any part of it, yet. Busy of handling a lot of things and my fingers are fully tied. Sometimes you just feel that you want to dissapear from this Earth for about one week and then come back again to continue your routine life. I wish i can do that, but where i wanna go? To other planets you think? Har har har, you can dream and only dream to have those opportunities.
Hey, why my blog sounds so bad and uurrghh, tense?
Hehe, i do not knowlah what to say. Whether i shall arrange my life in more proper way or i shall stay put into what i'm doing and facing now.
I think the first one is better i guess. I hate when at a time you really and very badly want to have some changes or face new things in life, unpredicted new things come and change all the way whatever you have planned before.
The exact point that i want to scream out is:
WHY LER I HAVE TO REPLACE KAK FIDA TO BECOME A BUSINESS CONTROLLER? MY OWN JOBS NOW PUN ARE OUT OF MY HANDS. AAARRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Full stop.
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Humiliation
Assalamualaikum wbt again,
Yeah i know i know, it's like a decade that i have not touch this blog. Not becoz i dun have idea to write upon, tapi mcm malas nak mengarang and update apa yg perlu ;)
Last Monday went to Rahimi's wedding ceremony, giler lama pengantin bertakhta kat singgahsana makan beradab. Jenuh menunggu bilerlaa pengantin ni nak turun-turun, last2 turun juga, siap meredah semak samun nak jumpa kitorang. Memang terharulah raja sehari meredah semak samun nak berjumpa dengan rakyat jelata. Hehe.
Yesterday went to MARA accompanying my sister buat education loan, punyerlah lama siap i have the chance utk interview org2 counter lagi tanya ttg pre-requisite utk apply loan. Pastu jumpa bebudak yg nak apply loan juga, n actually most of the students tgh apply nak pegi oversea i think. Bertuahnya mereka dpt pergi, one of my dreams is to further studies in UK. Tunggu Phd lah kot baru leh pergi. Skang ni grab apa yg dapat dulu. UIA pun best juga,kan? ;)
Arabic class went well. This becoming Monday will be our final exam after abt 5 months learning the subject. Actually i'm not that confident since banyak kelas that i had to let go due to my outstation occasions. Yet, my ustaz was very kind to discuss with us what are the questions that gonna be out (actually what he did was asking us abt several type of questions whether they are ok or not, if not ok then he won't take them as exam questions). Of course we would response based on our preference on easy questions.Giler best ustaz ni. Kalau tak pening mau mengingatkan in which condition the fi'il is mabni and i'rab, which conditions it turns to be mansub, majrur and majhul. Aiyaa..i dun even have the guts to open and review the book. So many things to catch up actually. Tapi nasib baik ustaz dah pinpoint soalan. Senang sket ler :)
My family? Actually my 3 youngest sisters were enjoying their holidays heavenly when my parent took them to Langkawi and did bla bla bla. Everyday called and update us on what they did for the 4 days they were there. Nice for them and nice for us yang dah besar2 ni coz we had enough freedom to do whatever we wanna do. It's not that with the appearance of my parent that i can't do anything that i want, but this time it was really giving my siblings and me a big break to spend our time and our money lavishly!!Har har har.
Ok, enough of telling my personal life.
Let's go to a more serious topic which i think is more worthy to talk about.
This morning i received an e mail, highlighting the real situations currently faced by our muslim brothers and sisters in most so-called Islamic countries. Suppression, killings and humiliations to them are something that we should think and ponder upon rite now. Personally i was so angry of what had happened to our Iraqis brothers. DAMN and hell to the kaafirun,(pardon me for my sick and vulgar wordings here), but really i am so angry with the Britons and American soldiers. Semoga Allah melaknati mereka! They are so-sick minded. What the heck of their thinking by humiliating people by making them do something so uncivilised with the intention to tear down their pride and honor! OURS actually, as muslims!!
And we, as the people admitting and declaring ourselves as muslim, what did we do to help them and ourselves?
I know at this point of time, we are lack of facilities to help the Palestinians, Iraqis and the rest, however we are still in the capacity of contributing something. Du'a and pray. Yes, we can help them by making du'a hoping all these suppressions end with victory at our side.
Satu titik darah muslimin takkan kita halalkan sampai bila-bila! Forever and ever! Until the end of our breath and until the time has come for us to meet our Khaliq. And i'm waiting for that time to claim for whatever destruction that they have caused us! Geram and marah sangat dengan mereka. Mmg digalakkan untuk berdoa supaya mereka turn to Islam, tapi derang jahat sangat that i'm hoping that they will be thrown into An-naar immediately without any judgement pun.
Astaghfirullah, emotionalnya catatan for today. But can we just sit down quitely seeing our muslim brothers were humiliated like animals? Of course you dun expect me to do that isn't it?
Praying much for our brothers and sister around the globe. May Allah save our aqeedah and lives till the end of our breath.
Wassalam.
Yeah i know i know, it's like a decade that i have not touch this blog. Not becoz i dun have idea to write upon, tapi mcm malas nak mengarang and update apa yg perlu ;)
Last Monday went to Rahimi's wedding ceremony, giler lama pengantin bertakhta kat singgahsana makan beradab. Jenuh menunggu bilerlaa pengantin ni nak turun-turun, last2 turun juga, siap meredah semak samun nak jumpa kitorang. Memang terharulah raja sehari meredah semak samun nak berjumpa dengan rakyat jelata. Hehe.
Yesterday went to MARA accompanying my sister buat education loan, punyerlah lama siap i have the chance utk interview org2 counter lagi tanya ttg pre-requisite utk apply loan. Pastu jumpa bebudak yg nak apply loan juga, n actually most of the students tgh apply nak pegi oversea i think. Bertuahnya mereka dpt pergi, one of my dreams is to further studies in UK. Tunggu Phd lah kot baru leh pergi. Skang ni grab apa yg dapat dulu. UIA pun best juga,kan? ;)
Arabic class went well. This becoming Monday will be our final exam after abt 5 months learning the subject. Actually i'm not that confident since banyak kelas that i had to let go due to my outstation occasions. Yet, my ustaz was very kind to discuss with us what are the questions that gonna be out (actually what he did was asking us abt several type of questions whether they are ok or not, if not ok then he won't take them as exam questions). Of course we would response based on our preference on easy questions.Giler best ustaz ni. Kalau tak pening mau mengingatkan in which condition the fi'il is mabni and i'rab, which conditions it turns to be mansub, majrur and majhul. Aiyaa..i dun even have the guts to open and review the book. So many things to catch up actually. Tapi nasib baik ustaz dah pinpoint soalan. Senang sket ler :)
My family? Actually my 3 youngest sisters were enjoying their holidays heavenly when my parent took them to Langkawi and did bla bla bla. Everyday called and update us on what they did for the 4 days they were there. Nice for them and nice for us yang dah besar2 ni coz we had enough freedom to do whatever we wanna do. It's not that with the appearance of my parent that i can't do anything that i want, but this time it was really giving my siblings and me a big break to spend our time and our money lavishly!!Har har har.
Ok, enough of telling my personal life.
Let's go to a more serious topic which i think is more worthy to talk about.
This morning i received an e mail, highlighting the real situations currently faced by our muslim brothers and sisters in most so-called Islamic countries. Suppression, killings and humiliations to them are something that we should think and ponder upon rite now. Personally i was so angry of what had happened to our Iraqis brothers. DAMN and hell to the kaafirun,(pardon me for my sick and vulgar wordings here), but really i am so angry with the Britons and American soldiers. Semoga Allah melaknati mereka! They are so-sick minded. What the heck of their thinking by humiliating people by making them do something so uncivilised with the intention to tear down their pride and honor! OURS actually, as muslims!!
And we, as the people admitting and declaring ourselves as muslim, what did we do to help them and ourselves?
I know at this point of time, we are lack of facilities to help the Palestinians, Iraqis and the rest, however we are still in the capacity of contributing something. Du'a and pray. Yes, we can help them by making du'a hoping all these suppressions end with victory at our side.
Satu titik darah muslimin takkan kita halalkan sampai bila-bila! Forever and ever! Until the end of our breath and until the time has come for us to meet our Khaliq. And i'm waiting for that time to claim for whatever destruction that they have caused us! Geram and marah sangat dengan mereka. Mmg digalakkan untuk berdoa supaya mereka turn to Islam, tapi derang jahat sangat that i'm hoping that they will be thrown into An-naar immediately without any judgement pun.
Astaghfirullah, emotionalnya catatan for today. But can we just sit down quitely seeing our muslim brothers were humiliated like animals? Of course you dun expect me to do that isn't it?
Praying much for our brothers and sister around the globe. May Allah save our aqeedah and lives till the end of our breath.
Wassalam.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Zaman dulu-dulu
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hi everyone! Happy to see me again? Hehe.
Rite now next to me En. Zulhabri and Midun are playing some old romantic songs which i favour much hehe. Mengembalikan kenangan lama when Yaya and i used to listen to these songs together back our time in Pre-U dulu :)
I have one happy news for you all. I managed to join MBA program in UIA, will be starting in this becoming July insya-Allah.
Currently bz handling reunion for my school batch on this becoming 1 May. I used not to contact my frens during my study time dulu. And now i did, and only then i realized how much i missed them, how much i appreciate and treasure them, in my deepest heart. They were the one who backed me up in everything. Still remember despite of my position as Head Girl and Penolong Ketua Aspuri, my dormmates and i pernah kena denda tidur kat luar koridor for twice sbb buat bising..1 sbb excited nak balik umah, and the other sbb celebrate birthday saper ntah. Dahlah time tu tgh demam, warden tahan tak bagi masuk bilik sampai pukul 1 ker pukul 2 pagi. Pastu dia suh masuk bilik. Hehe.
During kena denda pasal celebrate birthday tu, our warden was very, very SAIKO. Coz she tortured us by giving lecture like this: (i still remember becoz i found it so funny, yet saiko jugak hehe)
Warden : Kenapa tak light off lagi? Dah pukul berapa dah ni?
Kami : Senyap (tak berani nak menjawab)
Warden : Ooo, kamu tak tahu nak light off pukul berapa yer? Nak cikgu terangkan?
Baik, kamu kenal apa itu jam?
Jam adalah sesuatu benda yang menunjukkan masa. Tak tau nak tgk masa light off? Light off pukul 11.15
mlm,kan?
Kami : Senyap lagi
Warden : Tak tahu nak tgk jam ker masing-masing? Mari sini cikgu terangkan yer (dgn nada berapi-api melecture kitorang)
Kamu kenal tak apa itu jarum panjang? Jarum panjang adalah jarum yang menunjuk kepada angka jam.
Apabila pukul 11.15 mlm, jarum panjang akan menunjuk kepada nombor 11.
Kami : Senyap lagi, but me dah start nak gelak sbb mcm rasa kelakar.
Warden : Tahu apa itu jarum pendek? Jarum pendek adalah jarum yang menunjuk angka minit. Kalau masa light off,
jarum pendek akan menunjuk kepada angka 3. Faham?!!
Kami : Senyap lagi. Semua menikus.
Warden : Angkat tangan masing-masing, saya nak ketuk tangan.
Kami : Serentak angkat tangan dan kenalah ketuk tgn dgn pembaris kayu.
Luckily i was the first person yg kena, so taklah sakit sgt. Yg lain, ada yang hampir nak berdarah. Agaknya warden ngamuk kot sbb masing-masing buat reaksi senyap, dia ingat tak sakit kot. Tu yang makin kuat dia ketuk tangan tu, nasib, nasib. Hehe. Sebelum dia bagi kami masuk tidur dlm dorm, dia kata esok nama kami kena panggil sorang2 kat depan perhimpunan.
Esoknya, i hide myself from others. Dah takut giler kalau kena panggil kat depan. Yerlah, pengawas buat perangai, maunya tak malu nanti kalau kena panggil. Alhamdulillah lepas, warden tak panggil pun. Tapi Ketua Aspuri (my geng juga tapi lain dorm) pandang lain macam jek. Yerlah, dah diamanah utk bantu dia jaga disiplin asrama, dgn penolong2 dia sekali kena denda dgn warden sbb buat perangai. Nasib ler dapat penolong like me.
Yg second case tu, semua kena tidur dlm stor next to our dorm. Giler maut punyer hukuman. Hehe.
Apa pun, semuanya menjadi kenangan manis (kenangan pahit pun jadi manis jugak hehe) di sekolah dulu. Nice nice.
And insya-Allah in next 2 weeks, i'll be seeing all of them. Some has established themselves in career and family, and some are still pursuing their studies. Apa pun, it will nice to see them after abt 7 yrs being separated from each other. How Allah has shown me that i am still lucky of having these people as my friends by giving me opportunity to contact and handle the reunion. Alhamdulillah wa subhanallah di atas segalanya :)
Utk Hany, i know it's been quite long we have not met each other. Terserempak dgn Ika and Farah pun during lunch tadi kat kantin. Rasa mcm nak peluk jer Ika tapi segan ler pulak depan org. And tadi dengan beraninya sentuh perut Farah yang semakin membesar hehe. Semoga Farah and kandungannya sejahtera selalu.
Ok, panjang pulak dah citer ni. Later k.
Wassalam. :)
ps: Utk someone yg merasakan tekanan kerjanya di tahap volcano nak meletus, sabarlah. Perbanyakkan sabar, insya-Allah everything will be fine. The time will come where all problem will fade. Just be strong k :)
Hi everyone! Happy to see me again? Hehe.
Rite now next to me En. Zulhabri and Midun are playing some old romantic songs which i favour much hehe. Mengembalikan kenangan lama when Yaya and i used to listen to these songs together back our time in Pre-U dulu :)
I have one happy news for you all. I managed to join MBA program in UIA, will be starting in this becoming July insya-Allah.
Currently bz handling reunion for my school batch on this becoming 1 May. I used not to contact my frens during my study time dulu. And now i did, and only then i realized how much i missed them, how much i appreciate and treasure them, in my deepest heart. They were the one who backed me up in everything. Still remember despite of my position as Head Girl and Penolong Ketua Aspuri, my dormmates and i pernah kena denda tidur kat luar koridor for twice sbb buat bising..1 sbb excited nak balik umah, and the other sbb celebrate birthday saper ntah. Dahlah time tu tgh demam, warden tahan tak bagi masuk bilik sampai pukul 1 ker pukul 2 pagi. Pastu dia suh masuk bilik. Hehe.
During kena denda pasal celebrate birthday tu, our warden was very, very SAIKO. Coz she tortured us by giving lecture like this: (i still remember becoz i found it so funny, yet saiko jugak hehe)
Warden : Kenapa tak light off lagi? Dah pukul berapa dah ni?
Kami : Senyap (tak berani nak menjawab)
Warden : Ooo, kamu tak tahu nak light off pukul berapa yer? Nak cikgu terangkan?
Baik, kamu kenal apa itu jam?
Jam adalah sesuatu benda yang menunjukkan masa. Tak tau nak tgk masa light off? Light off pukul 11.15
mlm,kan?
Kami : Senyap lagi
Warden : Tak tahu nak tgk jam ker masing-masing? Mari sini cikgu terangkan yer (dgn nada berapi-api melecture kitorang)
Kamu kenal tak apa itu jarum panjang? Jarum panjang adalah jarum yang menunjuk kepada angka jam.
Apabila pukul 11.15 mlm, jarum panjang akan menunjuk kepada nombor 11.
Kami : Senyap lagi, but me dah start nak gelak sbb mcm rasa kelakar.
Warden : Tahu apa itu jarum pendek? Jarum pendek adalah jarum yang menunjuk angka minit. Kalau masa light off,
jarum pendek akan menunjuk kepada angka 3. Faham?!!
Kami : Senyap lagi. Semua menikus.
Warden : Angkat tangan masing-masing, saya nak ketuk tangan.
Kami : Serentak angkat tangan dan kenalah ketuk tgn dgn pembaris kayu.
Luckily i was the first person yg kena, so taklah sakit sgt. Yg lain, ada yang hampir nak berdarah. Agaknya warden ngamuk kot sbb masing-masing buat reaksi senyap, dia ingat tak sakit kot. Tu yang makin kuat dia ketuk tangan tu, nasib, nasib. Hehe. Sebelum dia bagi kami masuk tidur dlm dorm, dia kata esok nama kami kena panggil sorang2 kat depan perhimpunan.
Esoknya, i hide myself from others. Dah takut giler kalau kena panggil kat depan. Yerlah, pengawas buat perangai, maunya tak malu nanti kalau kena panggil. Alhamdulillah lepas, warden tak panggil pun. Tapi Ketua Aspuri (my geng juga tapi lain dorm) pandang lain macam jek. Yerlah, dah diamanah utk bantu dia jaga disiplin asrama, dgn penolong2 dia sekali kena denda dgn warden sbb buat perangai. Nasib ler dapat penolong like me.
Yg second case tu, semua kena tidur dlm stor next to our dorm. Giler maut punyer hukuman. Hehe.
Apa pun, semuanya menjadi kenangan manis (kenangan pahit pun jadi manis jugak hehe) di sekolah dulu. Nice nice.
And insya-Allah in next 2 weeks, i'll be seeing all of them. Some has established themselves in career and family, and some are still pursuing their studies. Apa pun, it will nice to see them after abt 7 yrs being separated from each other. How Allah has shown me that i am still lucky of having these people as my friends by giving me opportunity to contact and handle the reunion. Alhamdulillah wa subhanallah di atas segalanya :)
Utk Hany, i know it's been quite long we have not met each other. Terserempak dgn Ika and Farah pun during lunch tadi kat kantin. Rasa mcm nak peluk jer Ika tapi segan ler pulak depan org. And tadi dengan beraninya sentuh perut Farah yang semakin membesar hehe. Semoga Farah and kandungannya sejahtera selalu.
Ok, panjang pulak dah citer ni. Later k.
Wassalam. :)
ps: Utk someone yg merasakan tekanan kerjanya di tahap volcano nak meletus, sabarlah. Perbanyakkan sabar, insya-Allah everything will be fine. The time will come where all problem will fade. Just be strong k :)
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Fraudsters in FMD
Assalamualaikum wbt,
I know you are not going to believe this!! There are fraudsters in FMD!! Seriously!!
Wanna know who?
Keyrul, Suhaini and ME!! I repeat, ME!!
Hehe.
Actually this evening after office hour, i have completed my task and suddenly these 2 persons came to me and invited to have a drink together. And i went. Waktu tgh minum tu, byk bende kitorang cerita, and i never expect that Keyrul at one day will admit something to me, eventhough it was indirectly meant (and i think i was the only one who understand since i knew the whole story). I'm not going to tell ya what was it, but heck, it was something came honest from his heart eventhough it looks like he was pretentious not to look so. Haha, gottcha!
After finishing our drinks and his dinner, we discussed on the SME that we had presented on last Monday. Discussed on the comments given by Tn Hj and the overall results. SME result was out, but with no personal comments to each presentation that we made except those comments given right after our presentation session was done.
We want to know what was in Tn Hj's mind and opinion on our presentation results and skills, one by one. And suddenly Keyrul came up with this idea! Apa kata kita pergi geledah and tgk result SME kat tempat Midun? Takkan dia simpan dlm cabinet kot? I was so surprised hearing that actually, yerlah becoz we never do that kind of stuff before,kan. But not that long i was also become very fonded with that idea and we agreed to be come the fraudsters of FMD, by curi2 tgk comment Tn Hj pasal kitorang personally!!
Crazy! Yes, it was. Bukannya bende tu rahsia sgt pun, sbb Midun mmg invite kitorang utk tk sendiri comment Tn Hj pada kitorang. Masalahnya dia ada kes siasatan kat Penang skang ni, ntah biler nak balik, tu yg tak sabar nak tgk tu.
Balik ofis, the first thing we did was visiting Midun's place and searching for the folder. We couldn't find it. Keyrul didn't want to give up and checked bawah meja pulak. Here were they! And he just grabbed those papers and start looking for Tn Hj's comments on us!
And you want to know what Tn Hj's comment on me?
Alhamdulillah, i was very satisfied on what he did comment on my performance. No need to be stated in here. Every praise is returned back to Allah as He is the One who qualified for those praises. Syukur alhamdulillah :)
Dear readers, I would like to have your favour. Please, and please. Do not tell this thing at anybody, especially someone from FMD. Eventhough the results were not secret actually, tapi kami dah violate hak privacy dan kepercayaan Midun.
The only thing that i can learn from this whole experience is....
MMG SERONOK BUAT DOSA
Sbb tu ramai yg terjerumus sbb dosa itu seronok, mudah manakala nak berjuang ke jalan kebaikan itu, jalannya amat payah, derita, mengorbankan keseronokan diri sendiri dan sebagainya.
Next time i won't do it. What do you feel if someone geledah your things just to have some stupid results that you gonna give it to him anyway? The time is the only barrier.
Biarlah rahsia ini antara kita, aight?
Wassalam.
Iringilah satu-satu kejahatan itu dengan kebaikan, moga dengan kebaikan itu ia akan dapat memadam akan kejahatan tadi (Pemahaman diri sendiri berdasarkan sepotong hadith yang dah tak ingat susunan wording dan sumbernya)
I know you are not going to believe this!! There are fraudsters in FMD!! Seriously!!
Wanna know who?
Keyrul, Suhaini and ME!! I repeat, ME!!
Hehe.
Actually this evening after office hour, i have completed my task and suddenly these 2 persons came to me and invited to have a drink together. And i went. Waktu tgh minum tu, byk bende kitorang cerita, and i never expect that Keyrul at one day will admit something to me, eventhough it was indirectly meant (and i think i was the only one who understand since i knew the whole story). I'm not going to tell ya what was it, but heck, it was something came honest from his heart eventhough it looks like he was pretentious not to look so. Haha, gottcha!
After finishing our drinks and his dinner, we discussed on the SME that we had presented on last Monday. Discussed on the comments given by Tn Hj and the overall results. SME result was out, but with no personal comments to each presentation that we made except those comments given right after our presentation session was done.
We want to know what was in Tn Hj's mind and opinion on our presentation results and skills, one by one. And suddenly Keyrul came up with this idea! Apa kata kita pergi geledah and tgk result SME kat tempat Midun? Takkan dia simpan dlm cabinet kot? I was so surprised hearing that actually, yerlah becoz we never do that kind of stuff before,kan. But not that long i was also become very fonded with that idea and we agreed to be come the fraudsters of FMD, by curi2 tgk comment Tn Hj pasal kitorang personally!!
Crazy! Yes, it was. Bukannya bende tu rahsia sgt pun, sbb Midun mmg invite kitorang utk tk sendiri comment Tn Hj pada kitorang. Masalahnya dia ada kes siasatan kat Penang skang ni, ntah biler nak balik, tu yg tak sabar nak tgk tu.
Balik ofis, the first thing we did was visiting Midun's place and searching for the folder. We couldn't find it. Keyrul didn't want to give up and checked bawah meja pulak. Here were they! And he just grabbed those papers and start looking for Tn Hj's comments on us!
And you want to know what Tn Hj's comment on me?
Alhamdulillah, i was very satisfied on what he did comment on my performance. No need to be stated in here. Every praise is returned back to Allah as He is the One who qualified for those praises. Syukur alhamdulillah :)
Dear readers, I would like to have your favour. Please, and please. Do not tell this thing at anybody, especially someone from FMD. Eventhough the results were not secret actually, tapi kami dah violate hak privacy dan kepercayaan Midun.
The only thing that i can learn from this whole experience is....
MMG SERONOK BUAT DOSA
Sbb tu ramai yg terjerumus sbb dosa itu seronok, mudah manakala nak berjuang ke jalan kebaikan itu, jalannya amat payah, derita, mengorbankan keseronokan diri sendiri dan sebagainya.
Next time i won't do it. What do you feel if someone geledah your things just to have some stupid results that you gonna give it to him anyway? The time is the only barrier.
Biarlah rahsia ini antara kita, aight?
Wassalam.
Iringilah satu-satu kejahatan itu dengan kebaikan, moga dengan kebaikan itu ia akan dapat memadam akan kejahatan tadi (Pemahaman diri sendiri berdasarkan sepotong hadith yang dah tak ingat susunan wording dan sumbernya)
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
:)
Assalamualaikum and wbt,
Semalam i was extremely happy sampai dpt migraine :)
I was very happy due to my successful presentation for Subject Matter Expert, my group was the only group yg terima comment yg paling ringan berbanding group2 yang lain. Tn Hj comment takde comparison dgn entity lain, takut FMD buat procedure syok sendiri jer hehe. Alhamdulillah, i was very contented and happy :)
Semalam Mak Teh tak sihat, so i went to Arabic class by myself alone. This was my second time pergi kelas Arab sorang2. Tapi best jugak, cuma takut jugaklah sbb pegi kelas malam-malam. Kalau ikut rasa, macam tak nak pergi sbb sorang-sorang jer yang nak pegi kelas, tapi bila fikirkan nanti tak dapat ilmu, pergi jugalah. Rugi rasanya tak pergi sbb selama ni pun asyik tak dpt nak attend sbb selalu pergi outstation.
Ustaz Rahimi ajar ttg wazan2, pening kepala sbb ada 10 wazan nak kena hafal and practice. Pasni nak kena study bebetul balik. Tak faham dibuatnya. Next month peksa pulak tu. Aaaaa.
Soalan :Apa buku yang anda sedang baca sekarang ini?
Jawapan : Tiada kecuali buku Arab, tu pun sebab pergi kelas.
Soalan : Susah ker nak buka buku apa pun?
Jawapan : Takde masa sekarang ni, balik kerja jer penat. Rasa nak tidur terus. Tu yang tak buka buku tu.
Soalan : Habis tu biler agaknya boleh buka buku?
Jawapan : Mungkin during weekends kot, tu pun mungkin novel, majalah. Penatlah, nak relax jer during weekends.
Familiar with the dialogue? I believe most of us facing the same problem, susah sangat nak buka buku. Skang ni apa kata kita mulakan kempen " One page for a day". Should be nice,kan? :)
Apa nak baca hari ni ek?
Browse Internet jerlah.....(kat Internet pun kita boleh dpt ilmu,kan? ;)
Wassalam
Semalam i was extremely happy sampai dpt migraine :)
I was very happy due to my successful presentation for Subject Matter Expert, my group was the only group yg terima comment yg paling ringan berbanding group2 yang lain. Tn Hj comment takde comparison dgn entity lain, takut FMD buat procedure syok sendiri jer hehe. Alhamdulillah, i was very contented and happy :)
Semalam Mak Teh tak sihat, so i went to Arabic class by myself alone. This was my second time pergi kelas Arab sorang2. Tapi best jugak, cuma takut jugaklah sbb pegi kelas malam-malam. Kalau ikut rasa, macam tak nak pergi sbb sorang-sorang jer yang nak pegi kelas, tapi bila fikirkan nanti tak dapat ilmu, pergi jugalah. Rugi rasanya tak pergi sbb selama ni pun asyik tak dpt nak attend sbb selalu pergi outstation.
Ustaz Rahimi ajar ttg wazan2, pening kepala sbb ada 10 wazan nak kena hafal and practice. Pasni nak kena study bebetul balik. Tak faham dibuatnya. Next month peksa pulak tu. Aaaaa.
Soalan :Apa buku yang anda sedang baca sekarang ini?
Jawapan : Tiada kecuali buku Arab, tu pun sebab pergi kelas.
Soalan : Susah ker nak buka buku apa pun?
Jawapan : Takde masa sekarang ni, balik kerja jer penat. Rasa nak tidur terus. Tu yang tak buka buku tu.
Soalan : Habis tu biler agaknya boleh buka buku?
Jawapan : Mungkin during weekends kot, tu pun mungkin novel, majalah. Penatlah, nak relax jer during weekends.
Familiar with the dialogue? I believe most of us facing the same problem, susah sangat nak buka buku. Skang ni apa kata kita mulakan kempen " One page for a day". Should be nice,kan? :)
Apa nak baca hari ni ek?
Browse Internet jerlah.....(kat Internet pun kita boleh dpt ilmu,kan? ;)
Wassalam
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Cacamarba
Assalamualaikum and greetings,
What a hectic day for today, serius terasa mcm nak nangis n rasa nak berhenti keje, tak larat nak keje jer rasanya.
Lepas solat Asar tadi, duduk sekejap merenung karenah diri selama 24 tahun ni. Teringat kembali zaman kecil-kecil sampai dah besar ni. Banyak kenangan manis dan pahit yang dicipta, alhamdulillah untuk kesemuanya. Kak iqin tunjuk gambar kami waktu ketika ke pondok kat Kelantan dulu hehe. Nama group kitorang Pondokeers, kelakar pulak rasanya hehe.
That was my first time wearing tudung labuh sejak keluar sekolah menengah dulu. One statement i issued out waktu kat pondok dulu was my reluctance to wear jubah. Rasa mcm diri hipokrit. Alhamdulillah skang ni takde perasaan tu lagi. Keinginan diri yang diperkenankan Allah. Dulu selalu doa kalau dah kuar MMU nanti, tak nak rasa segan pakai jubah kat public. Cuma skang ni tak mampu nak pakai tudung labuh jer kat luar. Sumer tudung labuh dah hilang gi mana ntah. Dulu kat U malas nak pakai sbb malas nak gosok. Besar sgt hehe. Lama-lama hilang dah tudung tu. Ada satu yg warna pink dan warna kuning jek. Yang putih dan hijau ntah gi mana ntah. Hehe. Ntah bilerlaa nak pakai lagi.
Dah 2 hari teringat kat Yaya. She is my best buddy kat Pre-U dulu, my roommate. I was very happy to have her as my roommate. Rajin, pandai dan wacky jugak kekadang. Perangai and ketrampilan kitorang mmg berbeza habis. But we managed to stay and have fun together. Masih ingat lagi panjat bumbung hostel nak tgk meteor rain sampai pukul 4 pagi. Ah, zaman Pre-U mmg best!
Oklah, i couldn't take it anymore. Actually just drop by sbb nak hilang tension bekerja ni. Skang nak balik and have a review on articles abt Customer Handling. Sekarang ni hidup mcm agak cacamarba sket sbb byk keje yg berlainan bidang yg nak dicater. Nak cater customer, cater legal cases, cater fraud account, tak larat sebenarnya.
Sabar iena, sabar. Jangan mengeluh. Banyakkan bersabar krn kerja ini tidak akan habis sehingga anda berumur 55 tahun (sekiranya umur masih panjang dan tiada faktor lain yang mengakibatkan tempoh bekerja menjadi singkat). Hehe.
Ok, assalamualaikum.
What a hectic day for today, serius terasa mcm nak nangis n rasa nak berhenti keje, tak larat nak keje jer rasanya.
Lepas solat Asar tadi, duduk sekejap merenung karenah diri selama 24 tahun ni. Teringat kembali zaman kecil-kecil sampai dah besar ni. Banyak kenangan manis dan pahit yang dicipta, alhamdulillah untuk kesemuanya. Kak iqin tunjuk gambar kami waktu ketika ke pondok kat Kelantan dulu hehe. Nama group kitorang Pondokeers, kelakar pulak rasanya hehe.
That was my first time wearing tudung labuh sejak keluar sekolah menengah dulu. One statement i issued out waktu kat pondok dulu was my reluctance to wear jubah. Rasa mcm diri hipokrit. Alhamdulillah skang ni takde perasaan tu lagi. Keinginan diri yang diperkenankan Allah. Dulu selalu doa kalau dah kuar MMU nanti, tak nak rasa segan pakai jubah kat public. Cuma skang ni tak mampu nak pakai tudung labuh jer kat luar. Sumer tudung labuh dah hilang gi mana ntah. Dulu kat U malas nak pakai sbb malas nak gosok. Besar sgt hehe. Lama-lama hilang dah tudung tu. Ada satu yg warna pink dan warna kuning jek. Yang putih dan hijau ntah gi mana ntah. Hehe. Ntah bilerlaa nak pakai lagi.
Dah 2 hari teringat kat Yaya. She is my best buddy kat Pre-U dulu, my roommate. I was very happy to have her as my roommate. Rajin, pandai dan wacky jugak kekadang. Perangai and ketrampilan kitorang mmg berbeza habis. But we managed to stay and have fun together. Masih ingat lagi panjat bumbung hostel nak tgk meteor rain sampai pukul 4 pagi. Ah, zaman Pre-U mmg best!
Oklah, i couldn't take it anymore. Actually just drop by sbb nak hilang tension bekerja ni. Skang nak balik and have a review on articles abt Customer Handling. Sekarang ni hidup mcm agak cacamarba sket sbb byk keje yg berlainan bidang yg nak dicater. Nak cater customer, cater legal cases, cater fraud account, tak larat sebenarnya.
Sabar iena, sabar. Jangan mengeluh. Banyakkan bersabar krn kerja ini tidak akan habis sehingga anda berumur 55 tahun (sekiranya umur masih panjang dan tiada faktor lain yang mengakibatkan tempoh bekerja menjadi singkat). Hehe.
Ok, assalamualaikum.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Tgh makan kuew tiow
Assalamualaikum and bwt,
Hehe, tajuk sebelum ni Lapar, tajuk skang ni Tgh makan kuew tiow. Actually tgh hari tadi tak makan sbb concentrate ngan keje, tu yg lapar tahap naga, kuar kol 4.50 tadi cari makanan kat kantin.
Nak bagitau skang ni my hard disk kat MMU dulu dah ada kat umah, skang ni asyik dgr lagu best2 jerlaa..rindu giler ngan lagu2 tu sumer, mmg bestlaa..lagu Melayu ada, English, Cina, nasyid, Quran...aaa..best best!Rindulaa dgn suasana kat MMu dulu. Biler dah keje ni, rasa jadi student lagi best dr jadi org bekerja ni.
Semalam gih interview MBA kat UIA..boleh tahan jugak susah soalan2 dia..nasib baik interviewers pompuan, kalau lelaki lagi terbelit2 lidah nak menjawab. Ada satu soalan ni berbunyi" What do you think you are going to be within next 10 to 15 yrs? Giler maut soalan, mmglah pernah terfikir tapi takdelah rasa nak dilisankan kat mulut, so i answered dgn hentam keromonya i nak jadi someone yg duduk di position high management. Pastu soalan ni pulak keluar " necessarily in Telekom during that 10-15 yrs? I said no, if i think i have better opportunity outside, then i'll go". Dia tanya lagi, if you go, what sector are you interested in? Addduhh..tak pernah2 kufikir ini soalan, but i answered jugaklah that i'm in interested in Banking. Why Banking? I said becoz it deals with money. Why do you interested in money? Saiko tak rasa..apalaa yg nak kujawab dgn soalan itu..uwaaaaa!!!!
One of the interviewer said i have fairly high chance due to my academic track record, but they have to prioritize other applicants with 10-15 working experience first, if the competition is not stiff, highly chance i could join the session lah. Ntah ler, kalau ada rezeki, adalah kot. Doakan ek :)
Yang bestnya, derang suh bawa scroll yg original dlm sesi tu, so i brought ler MMU Online Scroll, kita mana ada scroll paper kan. Pastu they were so excited lah tgk. Bangga kejap jadi budak MMU. Hehe.
Oklah ek, nak habiskan makan. Pastu nak solat and pegi kelas Arab.
Ma'as salamah.
Hehe, tajuk sebelum ni Lapar, tajuk skang ni Tgh makan kuew tiow. Actually tgh hari tadi tak makan sbb concentrate ngan keje, tu yg lapar tahap naga, kuar kol 4.50 tadi cari makanan kat kantin.
Nak bagitau skang ni my hard disk kat MMU dulu dah ada kat umah, skang ni asyik dgr lagu best2 jerlaa..rindu giler ngan lagu2 tu sumer, mmg bestlaa..lagu Melayu ada, English, Cina, nasyid, Quran...aaa..best best!Rindulaa dgn suasana kat MMu dulu. Biler dah keje ni, rasa jadi student lagi best dr jadi org bekerja ni.
Semalam gih interview MBA kat UIA..boleh tahan jugak susah soalan2 dia..nasib baik interviewers pompuan, kalau lelaki lagi terbelit2 lidah nak menjawab. Ada satu soalan ni berbunyi" What do you think you are going to be within next 10 to 15 yrs? Giler maut soalan, mmglah pernah terfikir tapi takdelah rasa nak dilisankan kat mulut, so i answered dgn hentam keromonya i nak jadi someone yg duduk di position high management. Pastu soalan ni pulak keluar " necessarily in Telekom during that 10-15 yrs? I said no, if i think i have better opportunity outside, then i'll go". Dia tanya lagi, if you go, what sector are you interested in? Addduhh..tak pernah2 kufikir ini soalan, but i answered jugaklah that i'm in interested in Banking. Why Banking? I said becoz it deals with money. Why do you interested in money? Saiko tak rasa..apalaa yg nak kujawab dgn soalan itu..uwaaaaa!!!!
One of the interviewer said i have fairly high chance due to my academic track record, but they have to prioritize other applicants with 10-15 working experience first, if the competition is not stiff, highly chance i could join the session lah. Ntah ler, kalau ada rezeki, adalah kot. Doakan ek :)
Yang bestnya, derang suh bawa scroll yg original dlm sesi tu, so i brought ler MMU Online Scroll, kita mana ada scroll paper kan. Pastu they were so excited lah tgk. Bangga kejap jadi budak MMU. Hehe.
Oklah ek, nak habiskan makan. Pastu nak solat and pegi kelas Arab.
Ma'as salamah.
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Lapar
Assalamualaikum wbt and greetings,
Hmm.. quite for a long time this blog has not being updated isn' it? Hehe, as what i asked you before in my last blog, just assume that i was not around in the office, and yes i wasn't in the office since last Tuesday, due to:
1. My great grandmother had passed away on Tuesday..inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un
2. I have training course for 3 days starting on Wed.
So what i'm gonna tell ya for today?
About my arwah great grandmother? Hmm..best jugak nak citer. She was someone that we (my siblings and I) were very afraid of dulu, waktu zaman kecik2. She was someone who used to 'berteriak'(takdelaa garang..tapi takutlah jugak) at us kalau kitorang nak pegi kedai waktu kat kampung dulu. Kalau nak pegi kedaikan, my grandmum's house and her house were next to each other..so kecik2 dulu if we were want to go to kedai, at the border line of these 2 houses, we were like spies searching for her glance kat depan pintu or serambi umah, kalau takde, baru berani jalan lalu depan umah arwah (and usually arwah mesti akan jerit tanya kitorang nak pegi mana n kitorang akan lari mcm tak cukup tanah), and kalau ada pulak..i'll be the head yg akan direct my sibling to ready to run as fast as we could so that arwah takkan perasan kitorang (tapi biasanya arwah akan perasan jugak, n seperti biasa kena jerit jugaklah hehe).
We used to try her 'rokok daun' without the gambir or pinang, solely rokok daun jer. Arwah mmg bagi kitorang hisap rokok daun tu coz mmg takde paper dlm dia..pastu belajar makan sireh jugaklah sometimes. Tak sedap pun sirehnya, pedas jer rasanya. Tu jerlah kot kenangan kami dengan dia. The rest tu seperti biasa kalau raya pergilah melawat, and usually arwah akan cakap " dah bosar pun, dulu kocik yo" (slang Negeri 9) and akan selalu tanya "sapo eh ni?" to me kalau salam raya, sebab arwah tak ingat rupa cicit dia yang dah besar2 ni.. hehe. One thing that i am sure, arwah mmg seorang isteri yang baik. Really took care my moyang lelaki, kalau makan akan bagi pinggan special, jaga makan minum and pakaian, akan dulukan moyang lelaki dlm sumer perkara (my auntie yang citer)..:)
Am i sad? I dunno what to say, but i was not crying at all. Mungkin sbb jauh kot hubungan kami, kalau my real grandma or grandpa yang passed away, i'll be crying like nobody businesslah kot. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur ahli keluargaku. Atuk and uwan kat Pilah pun mcm dah tak kuat jer dah tu, ingat nak selalu jenguk, tapi kekadang tak berkesempatan. Kerja banyaklah, itulah, inilah.
This is human, always take for granted for everything. Once something or someone has gone away, then at that real time only we mourn the lost that we have to bear for the rest of our lives.
Apa pun, biler dah cakap camni, i feel like i want to get back and have a good time with my family members. Both of my younger bros skang ni kat umah sbb IPT cuti 3 bulan. Yang the youngest 3 jer takde sbb derang kat sekolah. Mcm terbalik pulak, dulu waktu kami yg besar2 ni kat asrama and university, tinggal 3 budak kecik ni jer temankan ibu kat umah. Skang ni biler kitorang dah bekerja and balik universiti, 3 org ni pulak yg takde. Hehe.
Actually malas giler nak stay back buat keje. Tapi kang keje berlambak tertangguh. Perut dah lapar giler dah ni. Nak stay nak ker tak nak? Nak? Tak nak?
Rasa mcm malas, balik jum.
But before that, i am happy to give my comment on our latest election result last week. I dunno what had happened back there at SPR side, but i am more to think that they were not transparent as what they were claiming. The defeat of Terengganu and at most of the places was so unbelievable, yet that was what Allah decided for us. Ada hikmahnya insya-Allah. Mungkin perlunya kita atur barisan dan gerak kerja baru. I was not that sad to face the defeat, coz i am sure that kita akan bangkit kembali, dgn gerak kerja yang lebih baik, insya-Allah. Kemenangan mutlak tak akan berada di tangan mereka selamanya, tapi buat kita yang berazam untuk berjuang menegakkan Islam di muka bumi ini, kemenangan mutlak akan kita capai di negeri akhirat sana, insya-Allah sekiranya disertakan dengan usaha. Pray for our success fi dun'yaa wa akhirah.
Hari ni dpt e mail dr Pres Alumni YTR, ada AGM on this becoming 18 April 2004. Sesiapa yang nak bertanding menjadi exco dialu-alukan. Erk, kena bertanding jugak ker? Hehe, takpelah. Bagilah post pada sesiapa yang berminat, yang rasa-rasanya berkemampuan nak laksanakan amanah as an exco tu. For me, payah sket sbb skang ni dah tahap naga tahap ke'bz'annya. Tak mampulah nak handle bebende ni lagi. I am sure the tasks will be more or less akan byk merangka aktiviti n planning utk meramaikan ahli alumni. Tak kisahlah, cuma i was appointed as one of the Auditors for YTR Fund untuk sesi 2002/2003 on last AGM. Nak kena minta laporan kewangan ni, nanti kang tak laksanakan amanah pulak. Hehe.
Al-Fatihah for Allahyarham Sheikh Yassin (Palestin) n my great grandma. Moga Allah menempatkan mereka di kalangan mereka yang Dia redhai. Ameen.
Wassalam.
Hmm.. quite for a long time this blog has not being updated isn' it? Hehe, as what i asked you before in my last blog, just assume that i was not around in the office, and yes i wasn't in the office since last Tuesday, due to:
1. My great grandmother had passed away on Tuesday..inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un
2. I have training course for 3 days starting on Wed.
So what i'm gonna tell ya for today?
About my arwah great grandmother? Hmm..best jugak nak citer. She was someone that we (my siblings and I) were very afraid of dulu, waktu zaman kecik2. She was someone who used to 'berteriak'(takdelaa garang..tapi takutlah jugak) at us kalau kitorang nak pegi kedai waktu kat kampung dulu. Kalau nak pegi kedaikan, my grandmum's house and her house were next to each other..so kecik2 dulu if we were want to go to kedai, at the border line of these 2 houses, we were like spies searching for her glance kat depan pintu or serambi umah, kalau takde, baru berani jalan lalu depan umah arwah (and usually arwah mesti akan jerit tanya kitorang nak pegi mana n kitorang akan lari mcm tak cukup tanah), and kalau ada pulak..i'll be the head yg akan direct my sibling to ready to run as fast as we could so that arwah takkan perasan kitorang (tapi biasanya arwah akan perasan jugak, n seperti biasa kena jerit jugaklah hehe).
We used to try her 'rokok daun' without the gambir or pinang, solely rokok daun jer. Arwah mmg bagi kitorang hisap rokok daun tu coz mmg takde paper dlm dia..pastu belajar makan sireh jugaklah sometimes. Tak sedap pun sirehnya, pedas jer rasanya. Tu jerlah kot kenangan kami dengan dia. The rest tu seperti biasa kalau raya pergilah melawat, and usually arwah akan cakap " dah bosar pun, dulu kocik yo" (slang Negeri 9) and akan selalu tanya "sapo eh ni?" to me kalau salam raya, sebab arwah tak ingat rupa cicit dia yang dah besar2 ni.. hehe. One thing that i am sure, arwah mmg seorang isteri yang baik. Really took care my moyang lelaki, kalau makan akan bagi pinggan special, jaga makan minum and pakaian, akan dulukan moyang lelaki dlm sumer perkara (my auntie yang citer)..:)
Am i sad? I dunno what to say, but i was not crying at all. Mungkin sbb jauh kot hubungan kami, kalau my real grandma or grandpa yang passed away, i'll be crying like nobody businesslah kot. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur ahli keluargaku. Atuk and uwan kat Pilah pun mcm dah tak kuat jer dah tu, ingat nak selalu jenguk, tapi kekadang tak berkesempatan. Kerja banyaklah, itulah, inilah.
This is human, always take for granted for everything. Once something or someone has gone away, then at that real time only we mourn the lost that we have to bear for the rest of our lives.
Apa pun, biler dah cakap camni, i feel like i want to get back and have a good time with my family members. Both of my younger bros skang ni kat umah sbb IPT cuti 3 bulan. Yang the youngest 3 jer takde sbb derang kat sekolah. Mcm terbalik pulak, dulu waktu kami yg besar2 ni kat asrama and university, tinggal 3 budak kecik ni jer temankan ibu kat umah. Skang ni biler kitorang dah bekerja and balik universiti, 3 org ni pulak yg takde. Hehe.
Actually malas giler nak stay back buat keje. Tapi kang keje berlambak tertangguh. Perut dah lapar giler dah ni. Nak stay nak ker tak nak? Nak? Tak nak?
Rasa mcm malas, balik jum.
But before that, i am happy to give my comment on our latest election result last week. I dunno what had happened back there at SPR side, but i am more to think that they were not transparent as what they were claiming. The defeat of Terengganu and at most of the places was so unbelievable, yet that was what Allah decided for us. Ada hikmahnya insya-Allah. Mungkin perlunya kita atur barisan dan gerak kerja baru. I was not that sad to face the defeat, coz i am sure that kita akan bangkit kembali, dgn gerak kerja yang lebih baik, insya-Allah. Kemenangan mutlak tak akan berada di tangan mereka selamanya, tapi buat kita yang berazam untuk berjuang menegakkan Islam di muka bumi ini, kemenangan mutlak akan kita capai di negeri akhirat sana, insya-Allah sekiranya disertakan dengan usaha. Pray for our success fi dun'yaa wa akhirah.
Hari ni dpt e mail dr Pres Alumni YTR, ada AGM on this becoming 18 April 2004. Sesiapa yang nak bertanding menjadi exco dialu-alukan. Erk, kena bertanding jugak ker? Hehe, takpelah. Bagilah post pada sesiapa yang berminat, yang rasa-rasanya berkemampuan nak laksanakan amanah as an exco tu. For me, payah sket sbb skang ni dah tahap naga tahap ke'bz'annya. Tak mampulah nak handle bebende ni lagi. I am sure the tasks will be more or less akan byk merangka aktiviti n planning utk meramaikan ahli alumni. Tak kisahlah, cuma i was appointed as one of the Auditors for YTR Fund untuk sesi 2002/2003 on last AGM. Nak kena minta laporan kewangan ni, nanti kang tak laksanakan amanah pulak. Hehe.
Al-Fatihah for Allahyarham Sheikh Yassin (Palestin) n my great grandma. Moga Allah menempatkan mereka di kalangan mereka yang Dia redhai. Ameen.
Wassalam.
Friday, March 19, 2004
Baru balik dr outstation
Assalamualaikum wbt,
This morning i was not in a good mood. With piles of work on my table, with my scheduled meeting with CE R&D TM and Fleet Management today, with the expected presentation slides to be completed today to be sent to CMO..my head is spinning like gasing.
Just came back from Malacca actually. This time, Customer Awareness Program was held in Malacca for 3 days. I have to do the same presentation as before. Alhamdulillah i was given opportunity to jalan2 satu Malaysia ni, tapi biler balik dr outstation, kerja yg berlambak nak kena catch up tu yg tak tahan tu..aaaaaa!!!
Hehe, kalau agak2 my blog ni isn't updated for a very long time, just make a guess that i'm not around. Sure outstation ler tu. Yesterday i took urgent leave, couldn't spare my energy for work. Flat seflatnya pagi semalam. Today i have to come coz i've got to complete my slide presentation for CMO thingy. Yeah rite, semalam eventho i took my urgent leave, at 12 a.m i had received a SMS from CE R&D requesting me to see him at UPM to finalize our findings. Aiyaaa..tgh2 cuti pun kena pergi menghadap, tense tense. But i went jugaklah coz his one-to one meeting with Dato' CE is scheduled on 23 March, so everything shall be completed before that date. Project ni was meant for TM Leaders, tapi kekadang rasa mcm kita pulak yg kena buat assignment ni. Anyway CE R&D ok, tapi mungkin sbb we both are bz sgt sampai kitorang buat meeting and tindakan mengikut flow and keadaan, not that structured that i used to do in FMD. In FMD, everything you have to list down, must have action plan and target date. Giler detail.
Ok..dah pukul 9.30 pagi, kena rush utk siapkan presentation pulak, satu bende pun tak siap lagi.
This morning i opened TV3 at 6.30 in the morning. Ustazah Bahiyah tgh bagi penerangan mengenai beberapa amalan yang menyelamatkan kita daripada siksaan di akhirat. Ada banyak kisah yang diceritakan, tapi several points that i could catch :
1. Sentiasa menjaga silaturrahim
2. Sentiasa berbaik sangka dengan Allah
3. Sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah
4. Sentiasa takut akan Allah di dalam keadaan terang mahupun gelap dan sunyi
Tu jer yg tgh terlintas di kepala sekarang ini. Ok, wassalam.
This morning i was not in a good mood. With piles of work on my table, with my scheduled meeting with CE R&D TM and Fleet Management today, with the expected presentation slides to be completed today to be sent to CMO..my head is spinning like gasing.
Just came back from Malacca actually. This time, Customer Awareness Program was held in Malacca for 3 days. I have to do the same presentation as before. Alhamdulillah i was given opportunity to jalan2 satu Malaysia ni, tapi biler balik dr outstation, kerja yg berlambak nak kena catch up tu yg tak tahan tu..aaaaaa!!!
Hehe, kalau agak2 my blog ni isn't updated for a very long time, just make a guess that i'm not around. Sure outstation ler tu. Yesterday i took urgent leave, couldn't spare my energy for work. Flat seflatnya pagi semalam. Today i have to come coz i've got to complete my slide presentation for CMO thingy. Yeah rite, semalam eventho i took my urgent leave, at 12 a.m i had received a SMS from CE R&D requesting me to see him at UPM to finalize our findings. Aiyaaa..tgh2 cuti pun kena pergi menghadap, tense tense. But i went jugaklah coz his one-to one meeting with Dato' CE is scheduled on 23 March, so everything shall be completed before that date. Project ni was meant for TM Leaders, tapi kekadang rasa mcm kita pulak yg kena buat assignment ni. Anyway CE R&D ok, tapi mungkin sbb we both are bz sgt sampai kitorang buat meeting and tindakan mengikut flow and keadaan, not that structured that i used to do in FMD. In FMD, everything you have to list down, must have action plan and target date. Giler detail.
Ok..dah pukul 9.30 pagi, kena rush utk siapkan presentation pulak, satu bende pun tak siap lagi.
This morning i opened TV3 at 6.30 in the morning. Ustazah Bahiyah tgh bagi penerangan mengenai beberapa amalan yang menyelamatkan kita daripada siksaan di akhirat. Ada banyak kisah yang diceritakan, tapi several points that i could catch :
1. Sentiasa menjaga silaturrahim
2. Sentiasa berbaik sangka dengan Allah
3. Sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah
4. Sentiasa takut akan Allah di dalam keadaan terang mahupun gelap dan sunyi
Tu jer yg tgh terlintas di kepala sekarang ini. Ok, wassalam.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Otak terasa seperti mau rentung
Assalamualaikum and wbt,
Hehe, feel funny about my heading? You should feel so..becoz really, that's what i feel now..otak terasa seperti mau rentung!!
Giler byk kerja nak kena handle...and at 2.30 p.m tadi Tn Hj panggil masuk bilik..asking about my decision to replace Kak Fida or not! haiyaa..i've got a lot to do skang ni..tu nak kejar..ni nak kejar..nak gantikan tempat Kak Fida pulak for about 3 months..mau terbakar otak dibuatnya. Cuma ada sedikit pelepasan on KPI..Ya Allah, ringanlah beban hambaMu ini..terasa mcm tak cukup masa pulak skang ni. Tahun lepas relax giler, tahun ni rasa mcm tak cukup tgn. Tak tau yg mana satu nak didahulukan dulu. Hehe.
Semalam berbual dgn Abg Faris Rasoulli, exco SRC tahun ni. Byk kerja katanya. Hidup agak tak tentu arah. Hehe, pengalaman biasa menjadi seorang exco. Ika dah pernah rasa, Zainal dah pernah rasa, Cpol pun dah pernah rasa..faham-faham sendiri jerlah beban tugas yg perlu ditanggung. Mana nak cater for studies, nak cater for kawan2, nak cater for personal life. Semuanya terpaksa dicompressed menjadi satu kehidupan yang agak kurang stabil dirasakan.
Actually i have to thank my real close classmate n groupmates for standing behind me all the time. Seriously, without Zarid, Shelly, Mafus, Halim, Rahimi, Yati pruz and Elly, i think and i am sure that i'll become a dead meat. They were the ones who had helped me a lot in my studies. Backed me up for our projects, our assignment, our final thesis..i am very grateful to have them as my friends, really. Terhutang budi sangat-sangat sampai tak tau mcm mana nak say thank you in words to them. They did understand my conditions when i was performing as an exco, they knew that i didn't have enough time to be spent leisurely and academically, so what they did were very helpful to me. They decided every date that we supposed to meet and have discussion, assign and update everything that i need to know. My goodness, kalaulah ditakdirkan mereka tak dianugerahkan oleh Allah to be my friends, i do not know what to say. Perhaps i'm not someone that you can see today.
Cuma one thing that i stressed to Abg Faris yesterday about being an exco. Kena ikhlas. Tak perlu merungut selalu. Zainal selalu ingatkan yg apa kami buat dulu bukannya tugas, tapi tanggung jawab. Memikirkan tanggungjawab yang perlu dibuat kerana Allah, akan menyebabkan kita rela sacrifice a lot of things, including personal life. Cuma skang ni biler dah kerja, diri terasa menjadi sedikit selfish kerana inginkan masa untuk diri sendiri, sedangkan mmg dah sedia tahu tanggung jawab utk berdakwah itu ada and lies on each of us. Jahat,kan? Selalu rasa nak mengelak kalau diajak utk turun meeting during weekends, sbb rasa nak rest and bermalas-malasan di rumah. Hehe.
Secara konklusinya, (actually tak suka betul guna istilah BM yang diambil drpd istilah English) apa pun yg kita buat, kita niatkan krn Allah (tapi itu jugaklah yg selalu terlupa nak buat). Rugi masa dan effort yg kita buat ini kalau kita tak niatkan kerana utk beramal. Kalau otak rentung pun, kalau dah kita buat kerana Allah, apa pun sanggup diharungi,kan?
So guys, mari kita tanam niat sama-sama mengerjakan segala pekerjaan ini kerana Dia. Rezeki kita pun Dia yang tentukan, jadi apa sangat yang dikejar akan dunia ini. (hasil belajar 1 hadis dlm kelas bahasa Arab). Time ustaz terangkan pasal maksud hadis ni dlm kelas, terasa malu sungguh. Terasa sgt apa yang kita buat sekarang ni mcm umpama mengejar kekayaan dunia, sedangkan kenalah berpada-pada dalam mencari keuntungan di dunia dan banyakkan mencari untuk akhirat. Betul-betul mcm orang tersedar dr tidur biler ustaz bacakan hadis tu. Insaf kejap.
Ok, dah nak bergerak ke kelas Arab. Actually sekarang ni mcm dah lost jugak dgn arabic ni, sebab selalu tak dtg kelas. Ni yang payahnya kalau kena selalu outstation, terpaksa burn kelas. Rugi jer rasanya. Apa pun, kita usahalah mana yang terdaya, selebihnya kita pulangkan pada Allah. :)
Ma'as salamah.
Live without passion, what exactly the outcomes gonna be?
Hehe, feel funny about my heading? You should feel so..becoz really, that's what i feel now..otak terasa seperti mau rentung!!
Giler byk kerja nak kena handle...and at 2.30 p.m tadi Tn Hj panggil masuk bilik..asking about my decision to replace Kak Fida or not! haiyaa..i've got a lot to do skang ni..tu nak kejar..ni nak kejar..nak gantikan tempat Kak Fida pulak for about 3 months..mau terbakar otak dibuatnya. Cuma ada sedikit pelepasan on KPI..Ya Allah, ringanlah beban hambaMu ini..terasa mcm tak cukup masa pulak skang ni. Tahun lepas relax giler, tahun ni rasa mcm tak cukup tgn. Tak tau yg mana satu nak didahulukan dulu. Hehe.
Semalam berbual dgn Abg Faris Rasoulli, exco SRC tahun ni. Byk kerja katanya. Hidup agak tak tentu arah. Hehe, pengalaman biasa menjadi seorang exco. Ika dah pernah rasa, Zainal dah pernah rasa, Cpol pun dah pernah rasa..faham-faham sendiri jerlah beban tugas yg perlu ditanggung. Mana nak cater for studies, nak cater for kawan2, nak cater for personal life. Semuanya terpaksa dicompressed menjadi satu kehidupan yang agak kurang stabil dirasakan.
Actually i have to thank my real close classmate n groupmates for standing behind me all the time. Seriously, without Zarid, Shelly, Mafus, Halim, Rahimi, Yati pruz and Elly, i think and i am sure that i'll become a dead meat. They were the ones who had helped me a lot in my studies. Backed me up for our projects, our assignment, our final thesis..i am very grateful to have them as my friends, really. Terhutang budi sangat-sangat sampai tak tau mcm mana nak say thank you in words to them. They did understand my conditions when i was performing as an exco, they knew that i didn't have enough time to be spent leisurely and academically, so what they did were very helpful to me. They decided every date that we supposed to meet and have discussion, assign and update everything that i need to know. My goodness, kalaulah ditakdirkan mereka tak dianugerahkan oleh Allah to be my friends, i do not know what to say. Perhaps i'm not someone that you can see today.
Cuma one thing that i stressed to Abg Faris yesterday about being an exco. Kena ikhlas. Tak perlu merungut selalu. Zainal selalu ingatkan yg apa kami buat dulu bukannya tugas, tapi tanggung jawab. Memikirkan tanggungjawab yang perlu dibuat kerana Allah, akan menyebabkan kita rela sacrifice a lot of things, including personal life. Cuma skang ni biler dah kerja, diri terasa menjadi sedikit selfish kerana inginkan masa untuk diri sendiri, sedangkan mmg dah sedia tahu tanggung jawab utk berdakwah itu ada and lies on each of us. Jahat,kan? Selalu rasa nak mengelak kalau diajak utk turun meeting during weekends, sbb rasa nak rest and bermalas-malasan di rumah. Hehe.
Secara konklusinya, (actually tak suka betul guna istilah BM yang diambil drpd istilah English) apa pun yg kita buat, kita niatkan krn Allah (tapi itu jugaklah yg selalu terlupa nak buat). Rugi masa dan effort yg kita buat ini kalau kita tak niatkan kerana utk beramal. Kalau otak rentung pun, kalau dah kita buat kerana Allah, apa pun sanggup diharungi,kan?
So guys, mari kita tanam niat sama-sama mengerjakan segala pekerjaan ini kerana Dia. Rezeki kita pun Dia yang tentukan, jadi apa sangat yang dikejar akan dunia ini. (hasil belajar 1 hadis dlm kelas bahasa Arab). Time ustaz terangkan pasal maksud hadis ni dlm kelas, terasa malu sungguh. Terasa sgt apa yang kita buat sekarang ni mcm umpama mengejar kekayaan dunia, sedangkan kenalah berpada-pada dalam mencari keuntungan di dunia dan banyakkan mencari untuk akhirat. Betul-betul mcm orang tersedar dr tidur biler ustaz bacakan hadis tu. Insaf kejap.
Ok, dah nak bergerak ke kelas Arab. Actually sekarang ni mcm dah lost jugak dgn arabic ni, sebab selalu tak dtg kelas. Ni yang payahnya kalau kena selalu outstation, terpaksa burn kelas. Rugi jer rasanya. Apa pun, kita usahalah mana yang terdaya, selebihnya kita pulangkan pada Allah. :)
Ma'as salamah.
Live without passion, what exactly the outcomes gonna be?
Friday, March 05, 2004
Bertemu kembali
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Just came back from Penang. For about 4 days i was there assessing my customers. The experience was so good since i had given opportunity to follow some investigations works done by En. Zul and Zaki. Only 3 of us yg turun Penang as Investigation Officers.
Each time i travel with some of my officemates, we were became closer and closer with each other, which is good actually. We became more open-minded, less misunderstandings for each other, and the most important thing is that we have FUN together! Hehe, actually nope, that is not the most important thing actually. Among all, the knowledge and feeling sharing among us which counts most. Seriously, i've learnt a lot this time from the perspective of adults. We talked about life, career, general knowledge and even politics!! I've grown up!! hehe.
During our journey back to KL, we discussed on the role of parent in forming the best attitude and capabilities of children. I'm not yet married, but i can fixed myself into the conversation by reflecting to my own childhood experiences. I believe that what i become now is the result of the freedom of decision making given by my parent. At any time and at any matter which need decision to be made. Not only me, but to all my siblings except for my 3 youngest sisters coz they are more like spoilt brats to us (the older sisters and bros..hehe). Actually they are not that spoilt, tapi sbb dimanjakan sgt by my mum, tu yg tak reti nak independent tu. Goreng ikan pun nak kena org ajar. but now i think there lots improvement have been made. Dah tau nak goreng sayur, masak gulai. Satu jer yg derang fail, masak nasi..sure berkerak. Tulaa, dulu belajar masak pakai periuk karan, biler dah rosak tak tau nak adjust api nasi biler pakai periuk biasa.Hehe.
I've learn something about life today. Looking at the world with some perception which i used to look at during i was in Matriculation dulu. Sometimes i felt that it would be nice, very very nice to go back to the fine old times, where i won't have to face the bitterness of experience at certain episodes of my life. Happy living as a student without not so much to worry about life. I have to admit that my best experience as a student was in my matriculation, back in malacca in 1999. I'm glad to study in MMU eventhough at the first place UM is my first choice. I got the UM offer, but my father didn't let me go and study there. In MMU i ended up became an Accounting grad. Lots of interesting stories there. Not enuf space if i have to tell ya all the stories.
This evening kak Fida said that perhaps i'll be replacing her place for about 2 months. She's expecting a child in May. Of course i'm happy to have the chance to practice my accounting skills since Kak Fida's works are dealing with budgeting. But on the other hand, i'm scared for i have LOTS of LOTS things to do. Seriously, sometimes i feel that i should pasang 2 pasang tangan palsu lagi untuk buat keje. Skang ni tgh hectic ngan keje sampai tak tau mana satu nak buat.
Kak Fida kata mungkin ada sorang exec yg akan diserapkan di bawah unit dia, and the best candidate for that post is me, coz of my accounting background. Rite now i'm not that keen to be happy with that news eventhough that was my dream dulu ketika baru2 masuk FMD. I want to practice my accounting, what the heck of being an accounting grad and yet you can't perform what you have learnt in university before? Quite a waste isn't it? 4 years was not a short period to learn all the creepy theoritical and practical concepts of accounting. But i managed to settle all down. Big applause for myself!! Hehe.
Alrite, later k. Need to move on.
Life isn't easy, but the power to change it lies with us, so make up your mind! Grow up and make the best of you :)
Wassalam.
Just came back from Penang. For about 4 days i was there assessing my customers. The experience was so good since i had given opportunity to follow some investigations works done by En. Zul and Zaki. Only 3 of us yg turun Penang as Investigation Officers.
Each time i travel with some of my officemates, we were became closer and closer with each other, which is good actually. We became more open-minded, less misunderstandings for each other, and the most important thing is that we have FUN together! Hehe, actually nope, that is not the most important thing actually. Among all, the knowledge and feeling sharing among us which counts most. Seriously, i've learnt a lot this time from the perspective of adults. We talked about life, career, general knowledge and even politics!! I've grown up!! hehe.
During our journey back to KL, we discussed on the role of parent in forming the best attitude and capabilities of children. I'm not yet married, but i can fixed myself into the conversation by reflecting to my own childhood experiences. I believe that what i become now is the result of the freedom of decision making given by my parent. At any time and at any matter which need decision to be made. Not only me, but to all my siblings except for my 3 youngest sisters coz they are more like spoilt brats to us (the older sisters and bros..hehe). Actually they are not that spoilt, tapi sbb dimanjakan sgt by my mum, tu yg tak reti nak independent tu. Goreng ikan pun nak kena org ajar. but now i think there lots improvement have been made. Dah tau nak goreng sayur, masak gulai. Satu jer yg derang fail, masak nasi..sure berkerak. Tulaa, dulu belajar masak pakai periuk karan, biler dah rosak tak tau nak adjust api nasi biler pakai periuk biasa.Hehe.
I've learn something about life today. Looking at the world with some perception which i used to look at during i was in Matriculation dulu. Sometimes i felt that it would be nice, very very nice to go back to the fine old times, where i won't have to face the bitterness of experience at certain episodes of my life. Happy living as a student without not so much to worry about life. I have to admit that my best experience as a student was in my matriculation, back in malacca in 1999. I'm glad to study in MMU eventhough at the first place UM is my first choice. I got the UM offer, but my father didn't let me go and study there. In MMU i ended up became an Accounting grad. Lots of interesting stories there. Not enuf space if i have to tell ya all the stories.
This evening kak Fida said that perhaps i'll be replacing her place for about 2 months. She's expecting a child in May. Of course i'm happy to have the chance to practice my accounting skills since Kak Fida's works are dealing with budgeting. But on the other hand, i'm scared for i have LOTS of LOTS things to do. Seriously, sometimes i feel that i should pasang 2 pasang tangan palsu lagi untuk buat keje. Skang ni tgh hectic ngan keje sampai tak tau mana satu nak buat.
Kak Fida kata mungkin ada sorang exec yg akan diserapkan di bawah unit dia, and the best candidate for that post is me, coz of my accounting background. Rite now i'm not that keen to be happy with that news eventhough that was my dream dulu ketika baru2 masuk FMD. I want to practice my accounting, what the heck of being an accounting grad and yet you can't perform what you have learnt in university before? Quite a waste isn't it? 4 years was not a short period to learn all the creepy theoritical and practical concepts of accounting. But i managed to settle all down. Big applause for myself!! Hehe.
Alrite, later k. Need to move on.
Life isn't easy, but the power to change it lies with us, so make up your mind! Grow up and make the best of you :)
Wassalam.
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Bertemu lagi
Assalamualaikum wbt,
It's been quite a long time i have not update this blog..too much commitments to be prioritized before this blog :)
Di sepanjang past 1 week, i was so miserable....not due to my hectic schedule solely, but with my emotional and inner self as well. I had became someone strange even to myself. But alhamdulillah at this very moment, i gain back my real self. And become stronger...
This afternoon, my sis invited me too swim near at my house. Yeah rite, i have to wear swimming suit kalau nak terjun kolam. Seriously, swimming is one of my favourites to do if i have chance to do so. Kalau tak fikirkan iman, mmg setuju ajer ikut my sis. Tapi takkan nak buat,kan? Melepaskan pakaian dan membuka aurat di depan org ramai? Hish..tak mampu nak buat skang ni. Dulu waktu kecil2 bolehlah nak selamba jer kot hehe.
I've got a lot to say, tapi byk sgt and tak mampu nak diluahkan dgn kata-kata. Tgklah kalau rajin, i'll post. Skang ni mcm terasa malas nak blog coz i'm someone yg cepat rasa bosan dgn sesuatu benda. Tak pernah nak stay lama. So tgklah sampai biler blog ni boleh bertahan k ;)
Next week nak ke Penang about 1 week. So my blog akan berehat selama 1 week jugaklah..later guys..need to complete my tasks first.
Wassalam.
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah masa silam
pasti aku sudah
mengubah haluan hidupku
yang sering tersasar
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah hati
yang lemah
sering terpedaya ini
pasti aku sudah
mengubah ia
menjadi hati
yang lembut menghadap Tuhan
tapi waja menghadap syaitan
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah diri
menjadi insan
cemerlang di dunia sana
akan kucuba
walau perit
menghadap duka
Mampukah?
It's been quite a long time i have not update this blog..too much commitments to be prioritized before this blog :)
Di sepanjang past 1 week, i was so miserable....not due to my hectic schedule solely, but with my emotional and inner self as well. I had became someone strange even to myself. But alhamdulillah at this very moment, i gain back my real self. And become stronger...
This afternoon, my sis invited me too swim near at my house. Yeah rite, i have to wear swimming suit kalau nak terjun kolam. Seriously, swimming is one of my favourites to do if i have chance to do so. Kalau tak fikirkan iman, mmg setuju ajer ikut my sis. Tapi takkan nak buat,kan? Melepaskan pakaian dan membuka aurat di depan org ramai? Hish..tak mampu nak buat skang ni. Dulu waktu kecil2 bolehlah nak selamba jer kot hehe.
I've got a lot to say, tapi byk sgt and tak mampu nak diluahkan dgn kata-kata. Tgklah kalau rajin, i'll post. Skang ni mcm terasa malas nak blog coz i'm someone yg cepat rasa bosan dgn sesuatu benda. Tak pernah nak stay lama. So tgklah sampai biler blog ni boleh bertahan k ;)
Next week nak ke Penang about 1 week. So my blog akan berehat selama 1 week jugaklah..later guys..need to complete my tasks first.
Wassalam.
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah masa silam
pasti aku sudah
mengubah haluan hidupku
yang sering tersasar
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah hati
yang lemah
sering terpedaya ini
pasti aku sudah
mengubah ia
menjadi hati
yang lembut menghadap Tuhan
tapi waja menghadap syaitan
Kiranya aku ini
mampu mengubah diri
menjadi insan
cemerlang di dunia sana
akan kucuba
walau perit
menghadap duka
Mampukah?
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Mengoreksi Diri
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hari ni dimulakan dgn pagi yg sibuk, Tn Hj nakkan pencalonan R&R untuk Exec and Manager terbaik for HR nominations. Pastu analyze bil pelanggan kat Penang thru Brains, pastu update Fraud Account. Aaaaa, byknya keje yg tak settle lagi.
For about 2 days Ika and i were at Siha's house. Lepak sana after went to Kak Sity's wedding hehe. Kat umah Siha kitorang pegi memancing ikan, dpt ler beberapa ekor ikan siakap and lampam. Siha masak lauk ikan yg kitorang tangkap, best best hehe. Balik dr Taiping, boleh pulak bas rosak kat terowong Jelapang, 3 jam stuck kat tol Jelapang. Tiring and i had to let go my Arabic class since we arrived here last nite at 8 something p.m. My class starts at 8 p.m.Mmg tak sempat nak catch. Dahlaa last Wed tak pergi sbb ada program kat Seremban, rugi betul.
I was so tense thinking about my program kat Penang scheduled on this becoming Wed and Thurs sepanjang stuck kat tol Jelapang tu, last last i SMSed my manager requested for postponement becoz i didn't ready at all nak pegi Penang hari ni. Dgn CNO yg tak konfem contact sana, takkan nak pegi sesuka hati. Dahlah jauh. Tunda buat next week. I've got a lot to be completed within this week. And i can't afford to let them go just becoz i've got to go to Penang today. Just can't.
Hati akan tenang dgn mengingat Allah. I feel that i'm quite far from Him nowadays. Tak pelihara diri dr dosa, tak spend masa nak menjengah Quran, sibuk dgn aktiviti-aktiviti leisure n kerja yg tak berkesudahan. Sampai bila nak jadi camni? Sampai matahari terbit di sebelah Barat, atau sampai nafas terakhir tersangkut di kerongkong?
Think and revise. Berhijrah dan beristiqamah. That's what we should do.
Kerana apa?
Kerana kita tak selamanya menongkat dunia. Di dunia sana Allah menunggu kita menghadapNya. Semoga ada bekalan diri yang tersisa.
"Pelihara kami di dunia dan akhirat Ya Allah, moga kami menjadi di kalangan mereka yang beruntung"
Wassalam.
Hari ni dimulakan dgn pagi yg sibuk, Tn Hj nakkan pencalonan R&R untuk Exec and Manager terbaik for HR nominations. Pastu analyze bil pelanggan kat Penang thru Brains, pastu update Fraud Account. Aaaaa, byknya keje yg tak settle lagi.
For about 2 days Ika and i were at Siha's house. Lepak sana after went to Kak Sity's wedding hehe. Kat umah Siha kitorang pegi memancing ikan, dpt ler beberapa ekor ikan siakap and lampam. Siha masak lauk ikan yg kitorang tangkap, best best hehe. Balik dr Taiping, boleh pulak bas rosak kat terowong Jelapang, 3 jam stuck kat tol Jelapang. Tiring and i had to let go my Arabic class since we arrived here last nite at 8 something p.m. My class starts at 8 p.m.Mmg tak sempat nak catch. Dahlaa last Wed tak pergi sbb ada program kat Seremban, rugi betul.
I was so tense thinking about my program kat Penang scheduled on this becoming Wed and Thurs sepanjang stuck kat tol Jelapang tu, last last i SMSed my manager requested for postponement becoz i didn't ready at all nak pegi Penang hari ni. Dgn CNO yg tak konfem contact sana, takkan nak pegi sesuka hati. Dahlah jauh. Tunda buat next week. I've got a lot to be completed within this week. And i can't afford to let them go just becoz i've got to go to Penang today. Just can't.
Hati akan tenang dgn mengingat Allah. I feel that i'm quite far from Him nowadays. Tak pelihara diri dr dosa, tak spend masa nak menjengah Quran, sibuk dgn aktiviti-aktiviti leisure n kerja yg tak berkesudahan. Sampai bila nak jadi camni? Sampai matahari terbit di sebelah Barat, atau sampai nafas terakhir tersangkut di kerongkong?
Think and revise. Berhijrah dan beristiqamah. That's what we should do.
Kerana apa?
Kerana kita tak selamanya menongkat dunia. Di dunia sana Allah menunggu kita menghadapNya. Semoga ada bekalan diri yang tersisa.
"Pelihara kami di dunia dan akhirat Ya Allah, moga kami menjadi di kalangan mereka yang beruntung"
Wassalam.
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Menunggu ketika
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Now waiting for jeep En. Khalid sampai ofis, so i take the chance to write something in here. Supposedly pukul 2 tadi dah bertolak ke Seremban, tapi tetiba Tn Hj nakkan laptop dia dihantar ke Menara. So kena tunggu jeep sampai sini dulu.
This morning ada talk given by Change Mgmt Office pasal Culture Leadership Initiative, bersekali dgn Farah and Azni. This program is about assisting and assessing TM leaders. I've assigned to CE R&D TM, kat UPM. Balik ofis terus kena panggil by my manager En. Budi. Topik perbincangan kami more on politik di tempat kerja. He claimed that when i join this program, i'll learn the bad culture of TM so he wanted me to get prepared to face the bad side of TM.
Hmm..what to say then? I just keep quiet and went to my place straight away after that. Actually malas nak ambil tahu what are the bad cultures of TM sebenarnya. I think kat mana2 organization pun mmg ada bad side of it, be it political, operational or financial aspects. So be it, and i dun care!! Hahaha, jahat giler statement ni hehe.
We'll seelah nanti camner. I'll just go with the flow i guess. Sekarang ini i'm not that motivated to think and propose any possible changes on existing culture of TM. Perhaps once my assessment starts, i'll think of it.
OK, jeep dah ready utk bergerak ke Seremban.
Berjumpa kembali on this Friday insya-Allah :)
Wassalam.
Now waiting for jeep En. Khalid sampai ofis, so i take the chance to write something in here. Supposedly pukul 2 tadi dah bertolak ke Seremban, tapi tetiba Tn Hj nakkan laptop dia dihantar ke Menara. So kena tunggu jeep sampai sini dulu.
This morning ada talk given by Change Mgmt Office pasal Culture Leadership Initiative, bersekali dgn Farah and Azni. This program is about assisting and assessing TM leaders. I've assigned to CE R&D TM, kat UPM. Balik ofis terus kena panggil by my manager En. Budi. Topik perbincangan kami more on politik di tempat kerja. He claimed that when i join this program, i'll learn the bad culture of TM so he wanted me to get prepared to face the bad side of TM.
Hmm..what to say then? I just keep quiet and went to my place straight away after that. Actually malas nak ambil tahu what are the bad cultures of TM sebenarnya. I think kat mana2 organization pun mmg ada bad side of it, be it political, operational or financial aspects. So be it, and i dun care!! Hahaha, jahat giler statement ni hehe.
We'll seelah nanti camner. I'll just go with the flow i guess. Sekarang ini i'm not that motivated to think and propose any possible changes on existing culture of TM. Perhaps once my assessment starts, i'll think of it.
OK, jeep dah ready utk bergerak ke Seremban.
Berjumpa kembali on this Friday insya-Allah :)
Wassalam.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
Presentation
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Skang ni sdg bertelekung di depan pc menunggu solat Maghrib, malam ni kena balik lambat sket sbb dah 2 hari tinggalkan keje utk join workshop JPPF.
Esok nak ke Seremban and stay there for 3 days sbb ada presentation, and next week berkemungkinan besar akan ke Penang sbb ada technical visit. Berserabut kepala biler buat kerja pelbagai cabang ni. System nak kena cater, customer nak kena cater, legal matters pun nak kena cater. Ntah mana satu fokus nak diberikan pun tak tau sebenarnya.
Esok akan ada briefing pasal Culture Transformation Initiative TM organized by Change Management Office kol 9.30 pagi, briefing utk selected young executives utk assist TM leaders. Ok jugak sebenarnya, boleh tgk camner TM leaders buat keje, hopefully dapat leader yg best.
Hari ni best coz my group (Kak Fidah, Keirul, Abg Is and me) presented our analysis on our pattern detection for our system. Kira paling gempak among the others hehe. Yg lain Tn Hj kata dia blur, ngan group kitorang jer dia kata nampaklah bayang2 sket hehe.Best best. Tapi hadiah utk kumpulan terbaik kami kongsi ramai2 sbb hadiah satu jer, which is good sbb nampaklah Tn Hj adil. Hadiah satu jer, so kalau satu kumpulan jer yg dpt, kesian kumpulan2 lain.
Tu jer kot nak cakap. Malam ni nak kena revise presentation sbb malas nak rasa saiko lagi utk buat presentation mcm kat Sabah dulu. 2 malam tak tidur sbb menghafal n takut nak bagi presentation. 2 pagi juga tak lalu nak breakfast kat hotel tu sbb sibuk mengingat fakta. Mengalahkan org nak ambik SPM! Terdaya nak minum fresh orange n satu muffin jer padahal punyerlah byk makanan lain yg best2 kat hotel tu.
First time bagi presentation kat berpuluh2 org internal staff and customers dlm sesi berlainan, maunya tak takut. Dlm English pulak tu for 1 hour! Cuba bayangkan..1 HOUR in English!! Tapi after dah habis presentation kat Sabah, kira mcm dah confident sket nak buat presentation kat Sarawak. Waktu first presentation tu, mmg takut tapi buat2 selamba jer present, tapi yg kelakarnya managers n Midun boleh kata bagus pulak after dah habis present! Alhamdulillah :)
Oklah, nak solat maghrib dulu, wassalam :)
Link best --> http://www.b4death.com/fla/never.swf. Nice song :)
Skang ni sdg bertelekung di depan pc menunggu solat Maghrib, malam ni kena balik lambat sket sbb dah 2 hari tinggalkan keje utk join workshop JPPF.
Esok nak ke Seremban and stay there for 3 days sbb ada presentation, and next week berkemungkinan besar akan ke Penang sbb ada technical visit. Berserabut kepala biler buat kerja pelbagai cabang ni. System nak kena cater, customer nak kena cater, legal matters pun nak kena cater. Ntah mana satu fokus nak diberikan pun tak tau sebenarnya.
Esok akan ada briefing pasal Culture Transformation Initiative TM organized by Change Management Office kol 9.30 pagi, briefing utk selected young executives utk assist TM leaders. Ok jugak sebenarnya, boleh tgk camner TM leaders buat keje, hopefully dapat leader yg best.
Hari ni best coz my group (Kak Fidah, Keirul, Abg Is and me) presented our analysis on our pattern detection for our system. Kira paling gempak among the others hehe. Yg lain Tn Hj kata dia blur, ngan group kitorang jer dia kata nampaklah bayang2 sket hehe.Best best. Tapi hadiah utk kumpulan terbaik kami kongsi ramai2 sbb hadiah satu jer, which is good sbb nampaklah Tn Hj adil. Hadiah satu jer, so kalau satu kumpulan jer yg dpt, kesian kumpulan2 lain.
Tu jer kot nak cakap. Malam ni nak kena revise presentation sbb malas nak rasa saiko lagi utk buat presentation mcm kat Sabah dulu. 2 malam tak tidur sbb menghafal n takut nak bagi presentation. 2 pagi juga tak lalu nak breakfast kat hotel tu sbb sibuk mengingat fakta. Mengalahkan org nak ambik SPM! Terdaya nak minum fresh orange n satu muffin jer padahal punyerlah byk makanan lain yg best2 kat hotel tu.
First time bagi presentation kat berpuluh2 org internal staff and customers dlm sesi berlainan, maunya tak takut. Dlm English pulak tu for 1 hour! Cuba bayangkan..1 HOUR in English!! Tapi after dah habis presentation kat Sabah, kira mcm dah confident sket nak buat presentation kat Sarawak. Waktu first presentation tu, mmg takut tapi buat2 selamba jer present, tapi yg kelakarnya managers n Midun boleh kata bagus pulak after dah habis present! Alhamdulillah :)
Oklah, nak solat maghrib dulu, wassalam :)
Link best --> http://www.b4death.com/fla/never.swf. Nice song :)
Monday, February 16, 2004
Hati tersenyum riang
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hehe..hari ni daku menjadi sedikit jahat ;)
For today and tomorrow, i'll have special bengkel for JPPF. We'll be provided breakfast, lunch and minum petang. Today, i didn't get my portion of lunch becoz sibuk main dam dgn Midun kat MSN. Tulah, padan muka..saper suh main. Org pegi makan, dia pegi main. Terpaksalaa beli food kat canteen.
Actually skang ni tgh happy, di dalam kebosanan dan ke'monotonous'an hidup ini, alhamdulillah masih ada perkara yg menggirangkan hati, alhamdulillah :)
Malam ni ada Arabic, satu page pun tak bukak lagi. Khamis ni ada presentation di Seremban and next week ada technical visit di Penang. Aaaa...kehidupanku yg makin sibuk dan perlukan perancangan yg rapi di awal-awal tahun ini *sigh*
Kerja banyak dr dulu, tapi i'm happy coz takdelah terasa makan gaji buta sgt. Last year mmg serius terasa kerja takde makna sbb takde direction. Ntah haper2 jer rasanya. Alhamdulillah i have better manager now, need to work smart and learn as much as possible *smile*
ok..nak solat Zuhur dulu.
Before i go, i want to say sorry for someone that i know she'll understand whom i referring to..sorry for being so stern and left you behind for my program on Saturday. I didn't mean to left, tapi dlm kelam kabut nak mengejar masa utk makan and solat, terus pergi tanpa inform. Pastu terlupa terus sampai petang. I know you were hurt becoz i didn't call you back, and turned down your request to meet after the game (becoz i was in my auntie's car heading home during that call being made). I'm so sorry if you get hurt by me. Really didn't mean it at all.
Guess why i don't talk directly to her and request for an apology? Coz...i'm not someone who can praise or request forgiveness directly in front of someone's face..i just can't. And she knew it that i can't. Hopefully she'll understand why i say sorry in here rather than talking directly to her.
Get to go, wassalam.
~Sahabat adalah salah satu harta yang bernilai dlm kehidupan~.
Hehe..hari ni daku menjadi sedikit jahat ;)
For today and tomorrow, i'll have special bengkel for JPPF. We'll be provided breakfast, lunch and minum petang. Today, i didn't get my portion of lunch becoz sibuk main dam dgn Midun kat MSN. Tulah, padan muka..saper suh main. Org pegi makan, dia pegi main. Terpaksalaa beli food kat canteen.
Actually skang ni tgh happy, di dalam kebosanan dan ke'monotonous'an hidup ini, alhamdulillah masih ada perkara yg menggirangkan hati, alhamdulillah :)
Malam ni ada Arabic, satu page pun tak bukak lagi. Khamis ni ada presentation di Seremban and next week ada technical visit di Penang. Aaaa...kehidupanku yg makin sibuk dan perlukan perancangan yg rapi di awal-awal tahun ini *sigh*
Kerja banyak dr dulu, tapi i'm happy coz takdelah terasa makan gaji buta sgt. Last year mmg serius terasa kerja takde makna sbb takde direction. Ntah haper2 jer rasanya. Alhamdulillah i have better manager now, need to work smart and learn as much as possible *smile*
ok..nak solat Zuhur dulu.
Before i go, i want to say sorry for someone that i know she'll understand whom i referring to..sorry for being so stern and left you behind for my program on Saturday. I didn't mean to left, tapi dlm kelam kabut nak mengejar masa utk makan and solat, terus pergi tanpa inform. Pastu terlupa terus sampai petang. I know you were hurt becoz i didn't call you back, and turned down your request to meet after the game (becoz i was in my auntie's car heading home during that call being made). I'm so sorry if you get hurt by me. Really didn't mean it at all.
Guess why i don't talk directly to her and request for an apology? Coz...i'm not someone who can praise or request forgiveness directly in front of someone's face..i just can't. And she knew it that i can't. Hopefully she'll understand why i say sorry in here rather than talking directly to her.
Get to go, wassalam.
~Sahabat adalah salah satu harta yang bernilai dlm kehidupan~.
Friday, February 13, 2004
Dugaan
Petang ini dikisahkan di dalam berita,
seorang budak perempuan berketurunan Tajik
Dibunuh beramai-ramai
menggunakan pisau tajam dan belantan
Apakah salahnya?
Hanya kerana dia bergelar Islam?
Kubaca lagi
Paderi Israel mengalu-alukan paderi kristian
untuk memurtadkan saudara-saudara Islam
dari masjid ke masjid.
Isu tudung mengenai Singapura dan Tantawi
Integrasi dan perkauman dijadikan alasan
Ya Allah
Banyaknya dugaan
Semoga kuat hati hamba-hambaMu ini
dalam meniti kehidupan
yang akan mendatang
Sabarlah saudara-saudaraku
yang sedang menahan derita
mahupun yang sedang berjuang
kiranya dunia ini
umpama penjara bagi org2 mukmin
maka berbahagialah kamu
yang sedang diuji
tanda kasih sayangNya
yang masih terlempar
ke atas diri
Diriku bagaimana?
Tidak diuji dengan begitu payah
namun masih menangis
umpama dunia ini
hampir kiamat lakunya
tidak segankah?
seorang budak perempuan berketurunan Tajik
Dibunuh beramai-ramai
menggunakan pisau tajam dan belantan
Apakah salahnya?
Hanya kerana dia bergelar Islam?
Kubaca lagi
Paderi Israel mengalu-alukan paderi kristian
untuk memurtadkan saudara-saudara Islam
dari masjid ke masjid.
Isu tudung mengenai Singapura dan Tantawi
Integrasi dan perkauman dijadikan alasan
Ya Allah
Banyaknya dugaan
Semoga kuat hati hamba-hambaMu ini
dalam meniti kehidupan
yang akan mendatang
Sabarlah saudara-saudaraku
yang sedang menahan derita
mahupun yang sedang berjuang
kiranya dunia ini
umpama penjara bagi org2 mukmin
maka berbahagialah kamu
yang sedang diuji
tanda kasih sayangNya
yang masih terlempar
ke atas diri
Diriku bagaimana?
Tidak diuji dengan begitu payah
namun masih menangis
umpama dunia ini
hampir kiamat lakunya
tidak segankah?
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Mengemis Kasih
Tuhan
Dulu pernah
aku menagih simpati
kepada manusia
yang alpa jua buta
lalu terheretlah
aku di lorong gelisah
luka hati yang berdarah
kini jadi kian parah
semalam sudah sampai
ke penghujungnya
kisah seribu duka
kuharap sudah berlalu
tak ingin lagi
kuulangi kembali
jerat dosa yang menghiris hati
(1)
Tuhan
dosaku menggunung tinggi
tapi rahmatMu melangit luas
harga selautan syukurku
hanyalah setitis
nikmatMu di bumi
Tuhan
walau taubat sering kumungkir
tapi pengampunanMu
tak pernah bertepi
bila selangkah
kurapat padaMu
seribu langkah
Kau rapat padaku
Ulang (1)
Allah 2x
Mengemis kasih by Raihan
Dulu pernah
aku menagih simpati
kepada manusia
yang alpa jua buta
lalu terheretlah
aku di lorong gelisah
luka hati yang berdarah
kini jadi kian parah
semalam sudah sampai
ke penghujungnya
kisah seribu duka
kuharap sudah berlalu
tak ingin lagi
kuulangi kembali
jerat dosa yang menghiris hati
(1)
Tuhan
dosaku menggunung tinggi
tapi rahmatMu melangit luas
harga selautan syukurku
hanyalah setitis
nikmatMu di bumi
Tuhan
walau taubat sering kumungkir
tapi pengampunanMu
tak pernah bertepi
bila selangkah
kurapat padaMu
seribu langkah
Kau rapat padaku
Ulang (1)
Allah 2x
Mengemis kasih by Raihan
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