Assalamualaikum wbt,
Semuanya memerlukan kekuatan. Ayat pertama yang terlintas di fikiran saya apabila terkenang kembali SMS yang saya hantar kepada seorang rakan semalam, dan membaca e mail Kak Mas mengenai mesyuarat Nisa' esok.
Dari mana kita mahu dapatkan kekuatan untuk buat apa pun? Pastinya dr Allah Taala.
Pernah seorang sahabat saya bertanya ketika saya masih belajar di MMU dahulu..setiap Subuh pergi ke surau ker? Atau solat dalam bilik?
Saya jawab, kadang-kadang pergi surau, biasanya kat bilik sahaja.
Dia ceritakan pula, bahawa dia pergi ke masjid setiap pagi, walaupun termasuk musim sejuk bersalji.
Saya bertanya, tak sejuk ker berjalan ke masjid setiap pagi di musim salji?
Katanya..."kenalah bermujahadah sedikit, berjuang dengan nafsu..".
Hmm..saya really appreciate apa yang dikatakannya.
Untuk bermujahadah, perlukan kekuatan. Banyak kena latihan amali di samping memohon kepada Allah agar ia diberikan pada kita setiap masa.
Semalam saya teringat pada seorang rakan Cina saya yang saya kenali sejak sekolah rendah lagi. Cuma saya tak pasti samada dia berada di dalam kelas yang sama dengan saya ataupun tidak ketika di sekolah dahulu. Sehabis sekolah rendah, kami tidak pernah berjumpa lagi sehinggalah di MMU ketika menjalani latihan taekwondo di MMU Melaka. Saya tegur dia and asked adakah dia bersekolah di sekolah yang sama dgn saya dahulu walaupun saya tahu dia takkan mengingati saya kerana di sekolah rendah dahulu dia bukan di dalam geng-geng rapat Cina saya. Mmg betul, kami satu sekolah rendah.
Nevermind, yang penting saya kenal dia. And kami sama sama join taekwondo sehingga saya berhenti practice atas kesibukan SRC ketika my second year in MMU. Walaupun dah quit, but we still bertegur sapa everytime kami berjumpa.
Saya tak pernah tahu dia minat untuk mendalami Islam, sehingga ada satu program agama yang kami kendalikan bersama (eventhough he is a Chinese and non-Muslim). We worked together dalam program tersebut. Tujuan program tersebut adalah untuk memperkenalkan serta membetulkan tanggapan salah pada Islam berikutan kes 9/11 yang baru berlaku ketika itu. Saya hanya dapat tahu bahawa dia mempelajari Islam dari salah seorang sahabat saya, dan juga daripada senior kami yang turut sama join taekwondo.
Saya sangat-sangat terkesan dengan rakan Cina saya yang seorang ini kerana dia pernah membuat saya berasa malu dengan diri saya kerana mengabaikan tanggungjawab saya dalam memperkenalkan Islam kepada insan-insan yang saya kenal.
I still remember that on one afternoon, ketika saya sedang tekun study untuk final exam di bilik SRC, he came to me directly and sat in front of me while asking,
"Iena, kenapa kau tak pernah explain abt Islam pada aku?" (kitorang mmg selamba jek kalau bercakap, guna aku kau jek sbb dah satu geng taekwondo). You never send any YM pasal Islam to me, ayat-ayat Quran ker..nasihat ker. Why?". (YM ni adalah singkatan message Yahoo Messenger yang mmg menjadi medium interaksi utama di MMU dahulu).
Terkedu rasanya ketika itu. Ketika otak sedang cuba memahami subject dan menghafal nota, tiba-tiba diserang dengan soalan dasyat sebegitu dari seorang yang sangat2 saya tak sangka. Sangat malu rasanya ditanya sedemikian, betapalah saya terasa saya ini tak menunaikan tanggungjawab saya untuk menerangkan Islam kepada orang-orang yg saya kenal walaupun berpeluang.
I asked him back, "Do you want me to send those messages to you? You mmg nak ker?". He replied, "Yes!".
And then he asked, "Do you know what are the differences between pendakwah Islam and Kristian?". And from that we started discussing on the different approaches of these 2 groups before we ended our conversation and i continued with my revision.
Since that, apa sahaja tazkeerah ataupun forward message mengenai Islam, saya akan hantar pada dia.
Semalam, saya SMS dia, bertanya masih lagikah dia berminat dgn Islam. Ini sudah kali ke-3 saya bertanya pada dia. Kali kedua saya secara direct bertanya pada bulan Ramadhan lepas, "Tak interested nak peluk Islam?". Jawabnya, "That's between me and God", and then he advised me to keep contact with one of my Chinese female friends, yg dahulu mmg also show deep interest on Islam. Ketika di MMU dahulu, this my female Chinese friend pernah berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan.
I said to him, i will. And i did. Once, i asked my female Chinese friend whether she still fasting like what she did in MMU dulu. She replied that she has gastric that hindered her from fasting. Since then, i never ask her again. Now i feel guilty for not contacting her for quite some time.
Yesterday, I politely asked my Chinese friend ni whether he still interested in Islam or not. He replied, he will asked me if he need help and thanked me for asking. He even asked me to perform my Maghrib prayer awal coz it was nearly 7.30 p.m during our conversation through SMS.
Before i ended our conversation, i said to him..."I'll pray semoga Allah beri hidayah Islam dan juga kekuatan for you".
I know some of these people who have deep interest and know already about the beauty of Islam, masih teragak-agak ataupun belum punya kekuatan untuk revert to Islam. Isu mengenai family dan sebagainya biasanya menjadi penghalang. Saya berharap sgt2, one day he will become a Muslim, mengikuti langkah salah seorang senior taekwondo kami who is also his close friend.
And i smiled while was looking to my phone screen, reading his message reply.
Appeared on my screen was...
'Amin'.
Ya Allah, bukakanlah jalan dan berikanlah kekuatan kepadanya untuk mengagungkan agamaMu. Hanya Kau yang sahaja yang mampu memberikan hidayah dan petunjuk kepada sesiapa yang Kau mahukan. Ameen.
Wassalam.
Friday, July 14, 2006
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Lovely pics and colours
:)
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Not in good condition lately..i feel weak.
Someone had advised me to eat garam(?? :P), and others had advised me to take red meat, jantung or hati ayam, kerang and bayam.
I took vitamins now...my check up with doc this afternoon had confirmed my low blood pressure has stabilised, alhamdulillah.
Jumpa Abg Fariz Hamdi dlm meeting and Kak Sarahani after meeting kat Wisma ..hehe..best betul jumpa derang dua ni. Sorang was my senior in taekwando, sorang lagi adik beradik DCBA. Sempat ler sembang2 kejap.
Pastu jumpa Has with her husband and kid, sembang2 lagi sebelum bertemu Khomar. Really feel like want to cekik Khomar for not telling us that he got married last month. Khomar was my class monitor during pre-U dulu, and i was his assistant. So kalau nak photostate lecture notes for our class dulu, bersama2lah kami menapak ke Bukit Beruang sbb time tu kat MMU takde kedai photostate. Rasa mcm tak puas hati jek mamat nih tak bagitau nk kahwen hehe. But happy also for him, moga dia berbahagia dunia akhirat. I said to him that he doesn't have to worry if in any case he suddenly get heart attack, his wife can take care of him hoho! His wife is working in IJN, but i'm not sure as what :)
Oklah yer..i'm a lil bit tired nowadays..doakan kesihatan saya yer.
Assalamualaikum.
Not in good condition lately..i feel weak.
Someone had advised me to eat garam(?? :P), and others had advised me to take red meat, jantung or hati ayam, kerang and bayam.
I took vitamins now...my check up with doc this afternoon had confirmed my low blood pressure has stabilised, alhamdulillah.
Jumpa Abg Fariz Hamdi dlm meeting and Kak Sarahani after meeting kat Wisma ..hehe..best betul jumpa derang dua ni. Sorang was my senior in taekwando, sorang lagi adik beradik DCBA. Sempat ler sembang2 kejap.
Pastu jumpa Has with her husband and kid, sembang2 lagi sebelum bertemu Khomar. Really feel like want to cekik Khomar for not telling us that he got married last month. Khomar was my class monitor during pre-U dulu, and i was his assistant. So kalau nak photostate lecture notes for our class dulu, bersama2lah kami menapak ke Bukit Beruang sbb time tu kat MMU takde kedai photostate. Rasa mcm tak puas hati jek mamat nih tak bagitau nk kahwen hehe. But happy also for him, moga dia berbahagia dunia akhirat. I said to him that he doesn't have to worry if in any case he suddenly get heart attack, his wife can take care of him hoho! His wife is working in IJN, but i'm not sure as what :)
Oklah yer..i'm a lil bit tired nowadays..doakan kesihatan saya yer.
Assalamualaikum.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Monday, July 03, 2006
Kembara
Assalamualaikum and greetings,
(1)
Baru balik dr Sabah n Sarawak, spent 1 week di sana.
Urusan kerja, seperti biasa. Yg best mungkin kali ini kami merempuh ombak tinggi dan makan di dalam boat yang teroleng sana sini kerana ribut di tengah laut, tujuan utk snorkeling di Pulau Manukan tidak kesampaian, hanya sempat di Pulau Sapi yang rasanya tidak pun mencecah 30 minit kerana tiba2 ribut dtg melanda. Takpelah, pengalaman..belum pernah lagi merasa ditimpa hujan dan ombak tinggi di lautan..kali ni sudah merasa. Luckily kami sudah menelan pil mabuk laut sebelum bertolak untuk snorkeling, kalau tidak mmg horror jugak rasanya dengan bot yang bergoyang sana sini.
Yang lain, mungkin kenyang makan seafood..sampai dah tak larat nk makan udang..alhamdulillah murah rezeki di sana kerana berkesempatan dinner dgn PDRM Sabah dan Sarawak.
Saya baru dpt result exam hari ni..i think this is the worst result i ever had sepanjang saya buat Master ni..alhamdulillah lepaslah 3 pointer tu..tapi still tak puas hati sbb ada satu subject ni mmg target paling kureng pun A-...ended up dpt lower than that..mmg strict betul ler lecturer yg ajar kami Mgmt Control sem lepas...my carry mark is among the highest in the class..mmg tak expect dpt result mcm tu. Apa ler dosa yg saya dh buat sem lepas ni..astaghfirullah. Tapi mmg dah tau awal2 lecturer sorang ni mmg strict..waktu buat final paper tu mmg confident giler at least boleh score A- kalau pun tak dpt A...takde rezeki..rasa down sket skang ni...next sem nak kena men'chaiyyo'kan diri..nak tak nak kena score at least A- for both subjects so that my CGPA tak jatuh..nk pk pasal thesis lagi...haiyaaaa.
Thesis...tajuk pun tak pk lagi..memula ingat nk buat under this lecturer..tapi rasanya terpaksa kensel sbb rasanya expectation dia tinggi. I'm thinking doing something in Economics..tapi my specialization is in Strategic Mgmt...camner nk kaitkan Econs dgn Strategic Mgmt ni..hmm..think Zurina..think!
Oklah ek..tgh rasa tak best skang ni..buat anyway a lil bit happy for my two fav teams are in the World Cup Semi Finals..France and Germany...i didn't know what happened to Brazil..but i don't favour them much actually. I hope these 2 teams will be in the final round nanti...and I hope France will win, eventho Germany also has equal chance to win..both are strong.
Went to Husna's wedding last week, happy to see her smile..all my geng turun padang except for Paie and Azie..sorang ada urusan so dtg waktu nikah jek..Azie plak kat UK skang ni. Happy sbb dpt jumpa Siha, Ayu and Jie. Aida jumpa di masjid, Aini jumpa time kami dah nak balik. Best sbb dpt jumpa sumer housemates ketika kami di Taman Dahlia, Melaka dahulu :)
Ainul ada prob dgn hempedu dia skang ni..syafallaha...mungkin next 3 or 4 weeks dia kena operate balik. Iznan, dun worry too much, insya Allah Allah pelihara your wife and baby :)
Ingin berundur diri dahulu..jumpa lagi insya Allah.
(2)
Kembara
Kiranya ketentuan itu sudah tiba,
Maka perlukah berpaling dan bertanya
Apakah yang tidak kena?
Renung dalam-dalam
Seisi hati
Bertanya lagi
Apakah sudah cukup kenal diri
Sebelum melangkah setapak lagi
Berpaling
Berpusing
Dek aturan masa
Ada tika
Cahaya kelam
Panduan hilang
Harus
Kata diri
Mencari jalan pulang
Pencarian sinar itu
Pernah terhenti
Perlu disambung kembali
Perlu dijejaki lagi
Moga ada cahaya
Moga ada makna
Untuk si pengembara
Menghabiskan rentasannya
Dalam kembara
menemui
Khaliknya.
Iena.
(1)
Baru balik dr Sabah n Sarawak, spent 1 week di sana.
Urusan kerja, seperti biasa. Yg best mungkin kali ini kami merempuh ombak tinggi dan makan di dalam boat yang teroleng sana sini kerana ribut di tengah laut, tujuan utk snorkeling di Pulau Manukan tidak kesampaian, hanya sempat di Pulau Sapi yang rasanya tidak pun mencecah 30 minit kerana tiba2 ribut dtg melanda. Takpelah, pengalaman..belum pernah lagi merasa ditimpa hujan dan ombak tinggi di lautan..kali ni sudah merasa. Luckily kami sudah menelan pil mabuk laut sebelum bertolak untuk snorkeling, kalau tidak mmg horror jugak rasanya dengan bot yang bergoyang sana sini.
Yang lain, mungkin kenyang makan seafood..sampai dah tak larat nk makan udang..alhamdulillah murah rezeki di sana kerana berkesempatan dinner dgn PDRM Sabah dan Sarawak.
Saya baru dpt result exam hari ni..i think this is the worst result i ever had sepanjang saya buat Master ni..alhamdulillah lepaslah 3 pointer tu..tapi still tak puas hati sbb ada satu subject ni mmg target paling kureng pun A-...ended up dpt lower than that..mmg strict betul ler lecturer yg ajar kami Mgmt Control sem lepas...my carry mark is among the highest in the class..mmg tak expect dpt result mcm tu. Apa ler dosa yg saya dh buat sem lepas ni..astaghfirullah. Tapi mmg dah tau awal2 lecturer sorang ni mmg strict..waktu buat final paper tu mmg confident giler at least boleh score A- kalau pun tak dpt A...takde rezeki..rasa down sket skang ni...next sem nak kena men'chaiyyo'kan diri..nak tak nak kena score at least A- for both subjects so that my CGPA tak jatuh..nk pk pasal thesis lagi...haiyaaaa.
Thesis...tajuk pun tak pk lagi..memula ingat nk buat under this lecturer..tapi rasanya terpaksa kensel sbb rasanya expectation dia tinggi. I'm thinking doing something in Economics..tapi my specialization is in Strategic Mgmt...camner nk kaitkan Econs dgn Strategic Mgmt ni..hmm..think Zurina..think!
Oklah ek..tgh rasa tak best skang ni..buat anyway a lil bit happy for my two fav teams are in the World Cup Semi Finals..France and Germany...i didn't know what happened to Brazil..but i don't favour them much actually. I hope these 2 teams will be in the final round nanti...and I hope France will win, eventho Germany also has equal chance to win..both are strong.
Went to Husna's wedding last week, happy to see her smile..all my geng turun padang except for Paie and Azie..sorang ada urusan so dtg waktu nikah jek..Azie plak kat UK skang ni. Happy sbb dpt jumpa Siha, Ayu and Jie. Aida jumpa di masjid, Aini jumpa time kami dah nak balik. Best sbb dpt jumpa sumer housemates ketika kami di Taman Dahlia, Melaka dahulu :)
Ainul ada prob dgn hempedu dia skang ni..syafallaha...mungkin next 3 or 4 weeks dia kena operate balik. Iznan, dun worry too much, insya Allah Allah pelihara your wife and baby :)
Ingin berundur diri dahulu..jumpa lagi insya Allah.
(2)
Kembara
Kiranya ketentuan itu sudah tiba,
Maka perlukah berpaling dan bertanya
Apakah yang tidak kena?
Renung dalam-dalam
Seisi hati
Bertanya lagi
Apakah sudah cukup kenal diri
Sebelum melangkah setapak lagi
Berpaling
Berpusing
Dek aturan masa
Ada tika
Cahaya kelam
Panduan hilang
Harus
Kata diri
Mencari jalan pulang
Pencarian sinar itu
Pernah terhenti
Perlu disambung kembali
Perlu dijejaki lagi
Moga ada cahaya
Moga ada makna
Untuk si pengembara
Menghabiskan rentasannya
Dalam kembara
menemui
Khaliknya.
Iena.
Friday, June 23, 2006
An update before missing in action again :D
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Rindukan saya? Hehe.
Asifah for keeping you all waiting for my update, seriously, my hands were tight within these 2 weeks :)
I'll be going to Sabah and Sarawak for one week starting from next Monday, hence there are so many things to be prepared for myself and also GM. Mcm biasa kena prepare his slide presentation and also mine as i will be promoting my call centre to the respective parties in Sabah and Sarawak nanti.
For past one week also, we were busy preparing for ISO...hampir nk throw up buat documentation, forms and process flow. Nasib baik i become the process owner for 3 processes jek, kalau tak lagi berserabut dibuatnya :)
Apa nk citer ek?
Oh ya, congrats to my adik2, Mudin and Walida, same goes to Ainul and Iznan for their newly born babies. Baby Ainul tak sempat nak visit, sempat visit ummi dan abinya shj (agak2 saper ek yg makan orange yg dibawa waktu lawat Ainul tu ek Iznan? Hehe :P). Mudin dan Walida pun tak berkesempatan lagi nk ziarah. Biler ler nk pergi melawat ni..hmm, ada rezeki nanti akak lawat you guys yer (Ika..nak tak?)
Husna, one of my close friends akan berkahwin Ahad ni..happy for her :) Dramatik betul kisah Husna ni, tapi tak perlu diceritakan di sini, wish her happy dunia dan akhirat :)
Last Monday after ISO Documentation workshop at MMC, dengan kepala migraine went to meet Ika...hoho..jumpa Ika mcm umpama rahmat...rasa mcm lama giler tak jumpa my bestfriend sorang ni. Biasanya kalau jumpa Ika, dia yg byk bercerita, me suka mendengar jek. Tgk Ika bercerita dgn penuh semangat and ceria, terus hilang migraine. Best sgt dpt jumpa dia..terasa mcm berkurun tak jumpa. Kitorang siap tgk match World Cup lagi kat KL Sentral hehe..nasib baik Ika nk kejar bas, kalau tak lagi lama kami lepak tgk World Cup.
Aida and Hany pun sama, nama jek kami keje satu building, tp nk berjumpa mmg ler boleh diumpamakan as impossible sekarang ni. Tadi jumpa Hany, meanwhile jumpa Aida waktu dia deliver kad kahwin Husna. Kesian betul dgn diri skang ni, geng2 sendiri pun tak sempat nk jumpa and chit chat. Jie, Ayu and Farah lagi ler, kat Menara..takpe..i know you guys baca my blog..miss you all actually. Sihaaaaa...daku rindu padamu..mehlaa turun KL plak..rindu aa :D
Aini? Ok kot...sbbnya kekadang terserempak ngan dia kat UIA..latest jumpa dia waktu me tgh menghafal nota before masuk exam 3 minggu lepas. Aini kata dia dah khatamkan buku and dah rasa nk muntah baca buku..huh..power tuh..me takde ler plak pernah baca buku sampai rasa nk muntah. Pasni kalau ko dapat 4 flat Aini, open table keh :P
World Cup skang ni...hmm..kekadang me ikut jugak walaupun bukan hantu bola. My favourite team? I like France actually sbb ada Zidane and Thierry Henry..tapi France tak kuat plak skang ni. Second team..German walaupun tak kenal sesaper dlm team tu. Tapi rasanya Brazil yg menang World Cup..ntah aa..tak kisah pun saper yg menang actually, bukannya kita yg dpt trophy tu pun nanti hehe.
My favourite player?
Guess who?
Steven Gerrard from England!!
Dia cute hehehe. Lagi cute dr Owen and Beckham..tgk match England vs Sweden..mmg jatuh chenta ngan Steven sbb dia berjaya menggagalkan satu cubaan gol Sweden, pastu dia sendiri jaringkan gol after that. Best best hehe :D
Dah dah, Zurina dah melalut ke World Cup plak..takpe ek..sesekali :)
Oklah yer..nak siapkan slide presentation FCRC plak..ada sket lagi nk siapkan..kita jumpa on 3rd July insya Allah after me balik dr Sabah n Sarawak :)
Do miss me k ;)
Love ya all, wassalam.
:)
Rindukan saya? Hehe.
Asifah for keeping you all waiting for my update, seriously, my hands were tight within these 2 weeks :)
I'll be going to Sabah and Sarawak for one week starting from next Monday, hence there are so many things to be prepared for myself and also GM. Mcm biasa kena prepare his slide presentation and also mine as i will be promoting my call centre to the respective parties in Sabah and Sarawak nanti.
For past one week also, we were busy preparing for ISO...hampir nk throw up buat documentation, forms and process flow. Nasib baik i become the process owner for 3 processes jek, kalau tak lagi berserabut dibuatnya :)
Apa nk citer ek?
Oh ya, congrats to my adik2, Mudin and Walida, same goes to Ainul and Iznan for their newly born babies. Baby Ainul tak sempat nak visit, sempat visit ummi dan abinya shj (agak2 saper ek yg makan orange yg dibawa waktu lawat Ainul tu ek Iznan? Hehe :P). Mudin dan Walida pun tak berkesempatan lagi nk ziarah. Biler ler nk pergi melawat ni..hmm, ada rezeki nanti akak lawat you guys yer (Ika..nak tak?)
Husna, one of my close friends akan berkahwin Ahad ni..happy for her :) Dramatik betul kisah Husna ni, tapi tak perlu diceritakan di sini, wish her happy dunia dan akhirat :)
Last Monday after ISO Documentation workshop at MMC, dengan kepala migraine went to meet Ika...hoho..jumpa Ika mcm umpama rahmat...rasa mcm lama giler tak jumpa my bestfriend sorang ni. Biasanya kalau jumpa Ika, dia yg byk bercerita, me suka mendengar jek. Tgk Ika bercerita dgn penuh semangat and ceria, terus hilang migraine. Best sgt dpt jumpa dia..terasa mcm berkurun tak jumpa. Kitorang siap tgk match World Cup lagi kat KL Sentral hehe..nasib baik Ika nk kejar bas, kalau tak lagi lama kami lepak tgk World Cup.
Aida and Hany pun sama, nama jek kami keje satu building, tp nk berjumpa mmg ler boleh diumpamakan as impossible sekarang ni. Tadi jumpa Hany, meanwhile jumpa Aida waktu dia deliver kad kahwin Husna. Kesian betul dgn diri skang ni, geng2 sendiri pun tak sempat nk jumpa and chit chat. Jie, Ayu and Farah lagi ler, kat Menara..takpe..i know you guys baca my blog..miss you all actually. Sihaaaaa...daku rindu padamu..mehlaa turun KL plak..rindu aa :D
Aini? Ok kot...sbbnya kekadang terserempak ngan dia kat UIA..latest jumpa dia waktu me tgh menghafal nota before masuk exam 3 minggu lepas. Aini kata dia dah khatamkan buku and dah rasa nk muntah baca buku..huh..power tuh..me takde ler plak pernah baca buku sampai rasa nk muntah. Pasni kalau ko dapat 4 flat Aini, open table keh :P
World Cup skang ni...hmm..kekadang me ikut jugak walaupun bukan hantu bola. My favourite team? I like France actually sbb ada Zidane and Thierry Henry..tapi France tak kuat plak skang ni. Second team..German walaupun tak kenal sesaper dlm team tu. Tapi rasanya Brazil yg menang World Cup..ntah aa..tak kisah pun saper yg menang actually, bukannya kita yg dpt trophy tu pun nanti hehe.
My favourite player?
Guess who?
Steven Gerrard from England!!
Dia cute hehehe. Lagi cute dr Owen and Beckham..tgk match England vs Sweden..mmg jatuh chenta ngan Steven sbb dia berjaya menggagalkan satu cubaan gol Sweden, pastu dia sendiri jaringkan gol after that. Best best hehe :D
Dah dah, Zurina dah melalut ke World Cup plak..takpe ek..sesekali :)
Oklah yer..nak siapkan slide presentation FCRC plak..ada sket lagi nk siapkan..kita jumpa on 3rd July insya Allah after me balik dr Sabah n Sarawak :)
Do miss me k ;)
Love ya all, wassalam.
:)
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Pertemuan yang semakin hampir pada 06.06.06
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, saya masih mampu menghirup udara pagi hari ini, masih mampu sujud dan berdoa dengan penuh aman, dan masih mampu menikmati hidangan yang enak dan lazat. Seribu syukur di atas nikmat Allah yang dikurniakan.
Pada hari ini saya merenung di sebalik keunikan 06.06.06 yang menjadi satu lagi milestone dalam hidup saya. Peningkatan usia yang turut membawa maksud bahawa pertemuan saya dengan Dia sudah hampir.
Bersediakah saya?
Sesungguhnya sungguh banyak nikmat yang telah Allah limpahkan ke atas diri saya, dan pada antum semua. Saya pernah terfikir, sekiranya saya dilahirkan sebagai Non-Muslim, tidak ketahuan akan dikurniakan hidayah Islam atau tidak nanti. Sekiranya saya dilahirkan bukan di bumi Malaysia tetapi di bumi Afrika yang kering kontang, kekurangan makanan dan pendidikan, bagaimanakah nasib saya nanti.
Sesungguhnya..tak terkira nikmat Allah pada kita. Dari sekecil2 zarah sehingga infinity (syurga itu kekal).. we really really have to be grateful and submit ourselves totally to Him, dun we? :)
Doakan saya berjaya dan berbahagia dunia akhirat, sentiasa dilindungi Allah sentiasa.
Terima kasih pada sahabat2 yang mengirim greeting card dan ucapan selamat. Barakallahu fiikum :)
Wassalam.
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, saya masih mampu menghirup udara pagi hari ini, masih mampu sujud dan berdoa dengan penuh aman, dan masih mampu menikmati hidangan yang enak dan lazat. Seribu syukur di atas nikmat Allah yang dikurniakan.
Pada hari ini saya merenung di sebalik keunikan 06.06.06 yang menjadi satu lagi milestone dalam hidup saya. Peningkatan usia yang turut membawa maksud bahawa pertemuan saya dengan Dia sudah hampir.
Bersediakah saya?
Sesungguhnya sungguh banyak nikmat yang telah Allah limpahkan ke atas diri saya, dan pada antum semua. Saya pernah terfikir, sekiranya saya dilahirkan sebagai Non-Muslim, tidak ketahuan akan dikurniakan hidayah Islam atau tidak nanti. Sekiranya saya dilahirkan bukan di bumi Malaysia tetapi di bumi Afrika yang kering kontang, kekurangan makanan dan pendidikan, bagaimanakah nasib saya nanti.
Sesungguhnya..tak terkira nikmat Allah pada kita. Dari sekecil2 zarah sehingga infinity (syurga itu kekal).. we really really have to be grateful and submit ourselves totally to Him, dun we? :)
Doakan saya berjaya dan berbahagia dunia akhirat, sentiasa dilindungi Allah sentiasa.
Terima kasih pada sahabat2 yang mengirim greeting card dan ucapan selamat. Barakallahu fiikum :)
Wassalam.
Monday, June 05, 2006
Exam and birthday
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, already sat my Advance Strategic Mgmt paper on last Saturday. Remember that i've mentioned that i will be on 2 days leave to study in UIA, yeah, it did not happened as it supposed to.
I supposed to take leave on last Thursday and Friday, tapi lain pulak yg jadi. I came to office on Thursday with intention to finalize the budget review for second quarter and HR structure to be submitted to Group Finance on Thursday afternoon before bergerak ke UIA. I managed to submit them, but suddenly GM requested me to prepare his presentation slide for customer awareness program this week in Terengganu and Kelantan, which initially was assigned to one of managers but he could not deliver the way my GM was expecting, last last terpaksalah buat sbb GM nk review on Friday. Allah, nk buat slide presentation bukannya boleh buat main hentam keromo jek, nk kena review performance for Terengganu and Kelantan, lepas tu analyse issue, pastu nk kena buat graph...aiyyaa..byk kejenya. Jumaat pagi dtg ke ofis and submit slide presentation to GM, and discuss a lil bit pasal CAPEX review dgn project manager. Pkl 3.30 ptg baru dpt mengadap buku dgn tenangnya.
Actually i was requested to join customer awareness program kat Terengganu and Kelantan as well, but managed to escape and pass the task to Kak Marina to back me up coz i have exams. Bukannya tak boleh nk pergi, tapi pengalaman demam teruk kat Penang waktu buat program 2 tahun lepas sbb stress nk prepare for presentation and exam pada masa yang sama menyebabkan kena pk 20 kali before decide nk pergi ker tak nak. Waktu kat Penang dulu terpaksa pergi program sbb i was the only presenter from FMD yang akan berhadapan dgn corporate customers, and at the same time kena present about legal implications as replacement to En. Budi sbb dia accident time tu, in addition kena jadi koordinator and MC program jugak kat sana. And during that weekend ada mid term and project submission pulak. Bygkan terpaksa mengangkut buku teks ke Penang sbb nk prepare exam, pastu tetengah malam bangun buat project paper. Siang buat presentation, malam ada discussion dgn PDRM, so terpaksalah bgn malam siapkan project paper. Belum campur nk study lagi. Mmg stress kat sana sampai demam teruk. Last last hantar project paper lewat seminggu and tak sit mid term pun sbb demam tak sembuh. Tepon Prof kata tak leh sit exam sbb demam and kepala pening tak leh nk study walaupun balik KL 2 hari before exam. Mana taknya, makan ubat jer terus tidur, bgn utk solat and makan ubat jek. Nasib baik score A for that paper walaupun tak sit for mid term hehe..berkat kesabaran kot during that time, project paper pun dpt among the highest, alhamdulillah.
This time, tak nak menghadapi the same situation,especially aktiviti program kali ni lebih mencabar. Belah pagi and petang akan ada presentation session and bengkel, belah malam ada dinner dgn PDRM, the next day akan buat enforcement..so bila pk2 balik biler masanya nak study? Takkan Jumaat ni baru nak start study kot, mmg tak larat ler mcm tu. So i passed the task to Kak Marina. I'll be joining the next program which is scheduled at end of this month for Sabah and Sarawak. Ok jugaklah sbb masih dlm semester break. One of managers beriyer2 ajak daki Gunung Kinabalu before balik KL, tak tau ler jadi ker tak.
Ok, get back to my early story, supposed i was on leave on Thursday and Friday, tapi disebabkan ada ad hoc request by GM, makanya i have to come to work for both days padahal exam on Saturday. Mmg minggu lepas hectic sepanjang minggu sbb ada management meeting on Wednesday in which Kak Marina and I had to prepare monthly report and presentation slide, lepas tu kena buat budget and HR structure review and ditambah dgn presentation slide for GM pulak. Bukak buku untuk study 10 chapters pada pukul 3.30 petang sampai pkl 9.30 malam, lepas tu dah tak larat dah. Tidur and woke up on Saturday morning at 5 a.m. sambung study sampai pkl 12 tgh hari. Pkl 2 bertolak ke UIA, pkl 3 exam. Alhamdulillah soalan ok, manageable jugaklah nk jawab walaupun ada satu soalan 4 markah tak sure jawapan betul ker tak. Alhamdulillah walaupun last minute study, tapi ok jugaklah kot rasanya paper tu, mungkin sbb every week kena buat presentation menyebabkan some of the chapters mmg dah ada dlm kepala, so kena tackle chapters yg tak pernah buat presentation jek lagi.
This weekend akan ada lagi satu paper. Yg bestnya this week, my GM and some of the executives have gone to Terengganu and Kelantan sampai end of this week, therefore i'll have my own time to study kalau dah habis keje ofis. Hehe...relax sket ler kot this time sbb takde gangguan sgt.
Oklah yer, esok hari bersejarah for me in relation to tarikh dot dot yang Ainul tanya..naper Ainul, your baby lahir on the same date ker? Hehe, takpe takpe, kalau sama pun takpe, nanti your baby leh celebrate birthday yg sama dgn auntie dia ni hehe.
Waiting for
Date: 6 June
Hour: 6 a.m
Minute : 6 minute
Second : 6 second
Only once in a thousand years : 06/06/06 at 6 a.m, 6 minutes and 6 seconds.
06/06/06:06:06:06
Hehe :D
Saya terima 2 birthday presents from officemates and a birthday card and wish from GM in advance.
Birthday Wish from my GM through e mail on last Friday sbb dia tak akn dtg office today:
Assalamualaikum
Saya dan seluruh warga FMD ingin merakamkan ucapan tahniah kepada anda bersempena ulangtahun kelahiran anda ke 26 pada 6 June 2006( Selasa) ini.
Semoga kehidupan anda dan keluarga akan lebih cemerlang pada hari hari yang mendatang dan sentiasa di dalam keredhan Allah swt .
Semoga berjaya dalam peperiksaan .
Selamat Maju Jaya
HAPPY BIRTHDAY .
Dari Tajul Ariffin dan Keluarga
FMD.
A birthday card was placed under my door this morning and i know it's from him sbb he chopped his name on the card. Tapi bukak esok ler, tak best bukak in advance ni hehe. I replied his e mail saying thanks for the wish and tanda ingatan. Sayang jugak GM kat anak buah dia hehe.
Oklah ek, need to proceed with my job, jumpa lagi esok insya Allah :)
Wassalam.
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, already sat my Advance Strategic Mgmt paper on last Saturday. Remember that i've mentioned that i will be on 2 days leave to study in UIA, yeah, it did not happened as it supposed to.
I supposed to take leave on last Thursday and Friday, tapi lain pulak yg jadi. I came to office on Thursday with intention to finalize the budget review for second quarter and HR structure to be submitted to Group Finance on Thursday afternoon before bergerak ke UIA. I managed to submit them, but suddenly GM requested me to prepare his presentation slide for customer awareness program this week in Terengganu and Kelantan, which initially was assigned to one of managers but he could not deliver the way my GM was expecting, last last terpaksalah buat sbb GM nk review on Friday. Allah, nk buat slide presentation bukannya boleh buat main hentam keromo jek, nk kena review performance for Terengganu and Kelantan, lepas tu analyse issue, pastu nk kena buat graph...aiyyaa..byk kejenya. Jumaat pagi dtg ke ofis and submit slide presentation to GM, and discuss a lil bit pasal CAPEX review dgn project manager. Pkl 3.30 ptg baru dpt mengadap buku dgn tenangnya.
Actually i was requested to join customer awareness program kat Terengganu and Kelantan as well, but managed to escape and pass the task to Kak Marina to back me up coz i have exams. Bukannya tak boleh nk pergi, tapi pengalaman demam teruk kat Penang waktu buat program 2 tahun lepas sbb stress nk prepare for presentation and exam pada masa yang sama menyebabkan kena pk 20 kali before decide nk pergi ker tak nak. Waktu kat Penang dulu terpaksa pergi program sbb i was the only presenter from FMD yang akan berhadapan dgn corporate customers, and at the same time kena present about legal implications as replacement to En. Budi sbb dia accident time tu, in addition kena jadi koordinator and MC program jugak kat sana. And during that weekend ada mid term and project submission pulak. Bygkan terpaksa mengangkut buku teks ke Penang sbb nk prepare exam, pastu tetengah malam bangun buat project paper. Siang buat presentation, malam ada discussion dgn PDRM, so terpaksalah bgn malam siapkan project paper. Belum campur nk study lagi. Mmg stress kat sana sampai demam teruk. Last last hantar project paper lewat seminggu and tak sit mid term pun sbb demam tak sembuh. Tepon Prof kata tak leh sit exam sbb demam and kepala pening tak leh nk study walaupun balik KL 2 hari before exam. Mana taknya, makan ubat jer terus tidur, bgn utk solat and makan ubat jek. Nasib baik score A for that paper walaupun tak sit for mid term hehe..berkat kesabaran kot during that time, project paper pun dpt among the highest, alhamdulillah.
This time, tak nak menghadapi the same situation,especially aktiviti program kali ni lebih mencabar. Belah pagi and petang akan ada presentation session and bengkel, belah malam ada dinner dgn PDRM, the next day akan buat enforcement..so bila pk2 balik biler masanya nak study? Takkan Jumaat ni baru nak start study kot, mmg tak larat ler mcm tu. So i passed the task to Kak Marina. I'll be joining the next program which is scheduled at end of this month for Sabah and Sarawak. Ok jugaklah sbb masih dlm semester break. One of managers beriyer2 ajak daki Gunung Kinabalu before balik KL, tak tau ler jadi ker tak.
Ok, get back to my early story, supposed i was on leave on Thursday and Friday, tapi disebabkan ada ad hoc request by GM, makanya i have to come to work for both days padahal exam on Saturday. Mmg minggu lepas hectic sepanjang minggu sbb ada management meeting on Wednesday in which Kak Marina and I had to prepare monthly report and presentation slide, lepas tu kena buat budget and HR structure review and ditambah dgn presentation slide for GM pulak. Bukak buku untuk study 10 chapters pada pukul 3.30 petang sampai pkl 9.30 malam, lepas tu dah tak larat dah. Tidur and woke up on Saturday morning at 5 a.m. sambung study sampai pkl 12 tgh hari. Pkl 2 bertolak ke UIA, pkl 3 exam. Alhamdulillah soalan ok, manageable jugaklah nk jawab walaupun ada satu soalan 4 markah tak sure jawapan betul ker tak. Alhamdulillah walaupun last minute study, tapi ok jugaklah kot rasanya paper tu, mungkin sbb every week kena buat presentation menyebabkan some of the chapters mmg dah ada dlm kepala, so kena tackle chapters yg tak pernah buat presentation jek lagi.
This weekend akan ada lagi satu paper. Yg bestnya this week, my GM and some of the executives have gone to Terengganu and Kelantan sampai end of this week, therefore i'll have my own time to study kalau dah habis keje ofis. Hehe...relax sket ler kot this time sbb takde gangguan sgt.
Oklah yer, esok hari bersejarah for me in relation to tarikh dot dot yang Ainul tanya..naper Ainul, your baby lahir on the same date ker? Hehe, takpe takpe, kalau sama pun takpe, nanti your baby leh celebrate birthday yg sama dgn auntie dia ni hehe.
Waiting for
Date: 6 June
Hour: 6 a.m
Minute : 6 minute
Second : 6 second
Only once in a thousand years : 06/06/06 at 6 a.m, 6 minutes and 6 seconds.
06/06/06:06:06:06
Hehe :D
Saya terima 2 birthday presents from officemates and a birthday card and wish from GM in advance.
Birthday Wish from my GM through e mail on last Friday sbb dia tak akn dtg office today:
Assalamualaikum
Saya dan seluruh warga FMD ingin merakamkan ucapan tahniah kepada anda bersempena ulangtahun kelahiran anda ke 26 pada 6 June 2006( Selasa) ini.
Semoga kehidupan anda dan keluarga akan lebih cemerlang pada hari hari yang mendatang dan sentiasa di dalam keredhan Allah swt .
Semoga berjaya dalam peperiksaan .
Selamat Maju Jaya
HAPPY BIRTHDAY .
Dari Tajul Ariffin dan Keluarga
FMD.
A birthday card was placed under my door this morning and i know it's from him sbb he chopped his name on the card. Tapi bukak esok ler, tak best bukak in advance ni hehe. I replied his e mail saying thanks for the wish and tanda ingatan. Sayang jugak GM kat anak buah dia hehe.
Oklah ek, need to proceed with my job, jumpa lagi esok insya Allah :)
Wassalam.
Monday, May 29, 2006
A stressful week..with lots to come
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Last week..was a miserable one.
I had terrible migraine on Monday and Tuesday, and on the next day my datuk sedara that were close to my family passed away. Went back to kampung for a ziarah with 1 project paper to be submitted and 2 presentations to be prepared for weekend classes.
The next day i came to office with so many people asking what had happened for i took 2 urgent leave consecutively, and they were mistakenly thought that my datuk yg passed away. Kat kampung i met my junior that i was barely remember standing next to my auntie, and suddenly she called my name. I was so surprised and my head was working very hard try to remember who is this person. My younger sister Eqa was also surprised when someone that she had not familiar with had called my name, especially at my late datuk sedara's house. We had went there only once or twice, we usually went to his new house in Serting. So how come someone that we barely know could recognized me there? Rupa-rupanya she was my junior at STTJ, and she's the one yg get married to my cousin. Luper dah..i did not manage to attend their marriage last year as i had classes.
After ziarah jenazah di Serting, straight away heading to my grandmother' s house at Batu Kikir, spent about 3 hours there having lunch and took some rest. I brought my notes along with some hope that i get some geeze of the content for me to complete my project paper. Then we visited my auntie becoz my grandma got worried as she did not visited her for quite sometime.
The next day, came to work and tasks kept pouring in and landed on my table. GM's secretary kept coming to my room telling me GM wanted this and that. My head dah berserabut dgn kje and project paper yang perlu disiapkan. Last last petang tu i cried, dah tak tahan pressure. GM's secretary dah terkejut sbb tetiba i menangis. Mmg bebetul tak tahan dah time tu..tense.
The next day, walking to office dgn hati keep telling..'dun give up Zurina..dun give up..mmg keje byk..mmg tgh pressure..but dun give up". Bercakap dgn hati sepanjang perjalanan nak ke office. Last Saturday, managed to complete the project paper and buat presentation. On Sunday, buat presentation for management control pulak. One of my groupmates told me that she cried due to pressure on Saturday morning. She is worse, she got another 2 project papers that not yet completed and must be submitted on her exam days. Mana nak siapkan project paper, nak study for exams lagi. My examination will be on this becoming Saturday and next week on Sunday. I took leave for 2 days this week and next week to study with classmates kat UIA.
Sepanjang minggu lepas...migraine kept coming.Hope it won't happen this week. I'm tired actually...very tired! Rasa mcm nk berhenti keje skang ni. Uwaaaa....tahanlaa Zurina..sabar..dun give up k. Dun give up.
Wassalam.
Last week..was a miserable one.
I had terrible migraine on Monday and Tuesday, and on the next day my datuk sedara that were close to my family passed away. Went back to kampung for a ziarah with 1 project paper to be submitted and 2 presentations to be prepared for weekend classes.
The next day i came to office with so many people asking what had happened for i took 2 urgent leave consecutively, and they were mistakenly thought that my datuk yg passed away. Kat kampung i met my junior that i was barely remember standing next to my auntie, and suddenly she called my name. I was so surprised and my head was working very hard try to remember who is this person. My younger sister Eqa was also surprised when someone that she had not familiar with had called my name, especially at my late datuk sedara's house. We had went there only once or twice, we usually went to his new house in Serting. So how come someone that we barely know could recognized me there? Rupa-rupanya she was my junior at STTJ, and she's the one yg get married to my cousin. Luper dah..i did not manage to attend their marriage last year as i had classes.
After ziarah jenazah di Serting, straight away heading to my grandmother' s house at Batu Kikir, spent about 3 hours there having lunch and took some rest. I brought my notes along with some hope that i get some geeze of the content for me to complete my project paper. Then we visited my auntie becoz my grandma got worried as she did not visited her for quite sometime.
The next day, came to work and tasks kept pouring in and landed on my table. GM's secretary kept coming to my room telling me GM wanted this and that. My head dah berserabut dgn kje and project paper yang perlu disiapkan. Last last petang tu i cried, dah tak tahan pressure. GM's secretary dah terkejut sbb tetiba i menangis. Mmg bebetul tak tahan dah time tu..tense.
The next day, walking to office dgn hati keep telling..'dun give up Zurina..dun give up..mmg keje byk..mmg tgh pressure..but dun give up". Bercakap dgn hati sepanjang perjalanan nak ke office. Last Saturday, managed to complete the project paper and buat presentation. On Sunday, buat presentation for management control pulak. One of my groupmates told me that she cried due to pressure on Saturday morning. She is worse, she got another 2 project papers that not yet completed and must be submitted on her exam days. Mana nak siapkan project paper, nak study for exams lagi. My examination will be on this becoming Saturday and next week on Sunday. I took leave for 2 days this week and next week to study with classmates kat UIA.
Sepanjang minggu lepas...migraine kept coming.Hope it won't happen this week. I'm tired actually...very tired! Rasa mcm nk berhenti keje skang ni. Uwaaaa....tahanlaa Zurina..sabar..dun give up k. Dun give up.
Wassalam.
Monday, May 22, 2006
The Da Vinci Code
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Kepala sdg mengalami migraine rite now, mmg tak intend utk menulis panjang. Tersentuh hati Fathiah tanya biler nk update..ni akak update utk fathiah :)
Not so much to talk about except last Saturday i did not have my sleep for altering my group assignment...the next verily morning i was sneezing non-stop. Kalau tidur lambat atau tak tidur jek mesti kena..tak tau ler naper.
The best part yesterday eventho tak tidur the previous night was i went to watch Da Vinci Code with Ika and Halim after went to a friend to my friend's wedding. Halim awal2 dah warning kata some of our friends bagi review mengatakan citer ni is a disappointing kind of thing becoz we could not expect whatever we have read from the book will be displayed as it should in the film.
So we went and watched the movie. Rite after we went out, Ika and Halim discussed whatever things that they feel were not right and lacking in the movie. Halim said to Ika and me that Mafus had commented the film as lack of emotion and character.
My opinion?
Kinda admit that Mafus's comment is true, perhaps becoz we had felt so much exciteness and emotion during the reading, and when it comes to the film, it seems dry i would say, but it still manage to display all important plots as according to the book. I dunno what to comment, i usually get excited to display my expression when i feel satisfied with a film, for instance A Memoirs Of Geisha..i really like that film. It touches my heart and emotion..but for Da Vinci..i think it's just ok..yet, i won't give this film a bad review becoz some people will have different judgement. Tapi beristighfar jugalah ketika tgk citer tu becoz it touches about Holy Grail and Jesus..meraban2 jek citernya dia ni kalau pk pasal akidah...tapi nk jugak tgk becoz i've read the book, so do my close friends..the book for me is really exciting except part2 akidah tu...the story line is superb ler for me.
This week kena submit project paper and also kena buat presentation pasal Proton..apa pun tak buat lagi ni..next weekend my first final paper..and on 11 ada lagi satu paper...apa pun tak study lagi ni uwaaa.
Fraud MCM baru jek dibuat last Friday..GCFO minta submit minute meeting and report to GCEO and all CEO subsidiary yang terlibat..ni mmg kena scrunitize every word dlm minute meeting ni nanti..my last minute of meeting had to be ammended becoz GCFO suh betulkan spelling Payphone yang i've written as Payphones..mana ler tau spelling Payphone takde 's' sbb biler check directory CEO Payphone during buat minute tu..dia tulis 's' kat belakang...pastu check ngan secretary dia pun kata mmg ada 's'...geram jek biler dpt balik minute meeting dr GCFO sb ingatkan GCFO yg salah..pastu tanya balik secretary CEO Payphone which one yg betul sbb previously dia kata ada 's'...pastu dia tepon balik kata mmg betul Payphone takde 's'...sabar jerlaa dibuatnya..spelling company sendiri pun tak sure ker..memacam perangai org kat dunia ni heheh. Tapi yg paling kelakar during that meeting biler SVP CSM gave comment during Head Security tunjuk gambar cable theft seluruh Malaysia..SVP ni boleh ckp.."bersepah2 yer org jahat kat Malaysia ni..kalau duduk satu tempat jek kan senang"..tergelak2 satu bilik meeting tu dibuatnya. Pastu GCFO suh buat collaboration dgn JAKIM untuk beri awareness supaya jgn mencuri harta org lain..SVP ni comment lagi..'yang pegi solat Jumaat tu biasanya org baik2..yg jahat2 ni biasanya tak pegi solat"...ya Allah..time tu mmg gamat ler bilik meeting tu..memasing mood baik kot sbb buat meeting pagi Jumaat hehe.
Oklah oklah..really kepala saya sgt sakit time ni..need to pen off dulu...assalamualaikum.
Kepala sdg mengalami migraine rite now, mmg tak intend utk menulis panjang. Tersentuh hati Fathiah tanya biler nk update..ni akak update utk fathiah :)
Not so much to talk about except last Saturday i did not have my sleep for altering my group assignment...the next verily morning i was sneezing non-stop. Kalau tidur lambat atau tak tidur jek mesti kena..tak tau ler naper.
The best part yesterday eventho tak tidur the previous night was i went to watch Da Vinci Code with Ika and Halim after went to a friend to my friend's wedding. Halim awal2 dah warning kata some of our friends bagi review mengatakan citer ni is a disappointing kind of thing becoz we could not expect whatever we have read from the book will be displayed as it should in the film.
So we went and watched the movie. Rite after we went out, Ika and Halim discussed whatever things that they feel were not right and lacking in the movie. Halim said to Ika and me that Mafus had commented the film as lack of emotion and character.
My opinion?
Kinda admit that Mafus's comment is true, perhaps becoz we had felt so much exciteness and emotion during the reading, and when it comes to the film, it seems dry i would say, but it still manage to display all important plots as according to the book. I dunno what to comment, i usually get excited to display my expression when i feel satisfied with a film, for instance A Memoirs Of Geisha..i really like that film. It touches my heart and emotion..but for Da Vinci..i think it's just ok..yet, i won't give this film a bad review becoz some people will have different judgement. Tapi beristighfar jugalah ketika tgk citer tu becoz it touches about Holy Grail and Jesus..meraban2 jek citernya dia ni kalau pk pasal akidah...tapi nk jugak tgk becoz i've read the book, so do my close friends..the book for me is really exciting except part2 akidah tu...the story line is superb ler for me.
This week kena submit project paper and also kena buat presentation pasal Proton..apa pun tak buat lagi ni..next weekend my first final paper..and on 11 ada lagi satu paper...apa pun tak study lagi ni uwaaa.
Fraud MCM baru jek dibuat last Friday..GCFO minta submit minute meeting and report to GCEO and all CEO subsidiary yang terlibat..ni mmg kena scrunitize every word dlm minute meeting ni nanti..my last minute of meeting had to be ammended becoz GCFO suh betulkan spelling Payphone yang i've written as Payphones..mana ler tau spelling Payphone takde 's' sbb biler check directory CEO Payphone during buat minute tu..dia tulis 's' kat belakang...pastu check ngan secretary dia pun kata mmg ada 's'...geram jek biler dpt balik minute meeting dr GCFO sb ingatkan GCFO yg salah..pastu tanya balik secretary CEO Payphone which one yg betul sbb previously dia kata ada 's'...pastu dia tepon balik kata mmg betul Payphone takde 's'...sabar jerlaa dibuatnya..spelling company sendiri pun tak sure ker..memacam perangai org kat dunia ni heheh. Tapi yg paling kelakar during that meeting biler SVP CSM gave comment during Head Security tunjuk gambar cable theft seluruh Malaysia..SVP ni boleh ckp.."bersepah2 yer org jahat kat Malaysia ni..kalau duduk satu tempat jek kan senang"..tergelak2 satu bilik meeting tu dibuatnya. Pastu GCFO suh buat collaboration dgn JAKIM untuk beri awareness supaya jgn mencuri harta org lain..SVP ni comment lagi..'yang pegi solat Jumaat tu biasanya org baik2..yg jahat2 ni biasanya tak pegi solat"...ya Allah..time tu mmg gamat ler bilik meeting tu..memasing mood baik kot sbb buat meeting pagi Jumaat hehe.
Oklah oklah..really kepala saya sgt sakit time ni..need to pen off dulu...assalamualaikum.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Racun tikus
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Entah kenapa petang ini terasa seperti diri tetiba ingin mengganas..mengganas mcm diri saya ketika remaja umur 14 15 tahun dahulu..yang ketika itu kalau bercakap mmg guna style bahasa "weyy..ko buat per aaa....blah aaa.." tak taulah naper tetiba terasa nk ckp ngan someone guna bahasa mcm tu hehe. Emotional instability dah dtg kembali after quite sometime tak timbul2 sbb bz sgt sampai takde masa nk rasa emotional instability tu hehe.
Skang ni bukannya tak bz..tapi badan dah tak larat..stretched out sampai dah pk "biar aa keje ni..malas nak sambung...lantak aa boss nk cakap per...aku dah tak larat" hoho.
Tadi kesian sorang manager dtg mengadu kata dia dah rasa tak larat sbb byk sgt keje..byk sgt bende nk buat kat division ni..keje rutin mmg dah sah2 byk, tambah pulak ngan keje quality yg pelbagai..ISO, QCC, Specialist program, Subject Matter Expert (SME)..apa ingat kitorang ni robot ker sumer bende nk kena buat?!
Huh..Zurina dah mengamuk..tapi betul aa..tak larat giler..my GM ni sumer bende dia nak suh kitorang buat..bukanlaa semuanya tu tak berguna..mmg beneficial pun..tapi man man aa..satu2..ni sumer nk kena buat sekaligus..mmg maut aa kitorang. Yg mengadu tu bukannya calang2 manager, yg mengadu tu manager kesayangan GM and ada 6 assistant manager bawah dia..tu pun dah mengeluh tak tahan..inikan pulak me yg mmg dah sah2 kena execute keje and dah rasa mcm tak cukup tgn ni...aduh..mmg kalau Kak Marina takde..mmg tergolek doklaa kat sini. Manager mengadu tak cukup tidur and tidur kol 3 4 pagi sbb nk siapkan report..huh..lebih kurang jek kitorang ni.
I proposed to this manager kita kena ckp ngan GM suh kurangkan workload..tapi mcm dah agak jek apa dia GM nk kata.."Semua org ada 24 jam yg sama"...ha ah..24 jam dia ngan 24 jam kitorang mana sama..mmg aa dia ok jek..bukannya dia yg execute keje, nk buat report etc..isk isk. Cuba kalau dia buat sekali...jamin dia faham betapa penatnya kami kat sini.
At last, i said to this manager..kalau agak2 saya apply cuti tanpa gaji utk further study...faham2 jerlah yer saya mmg dah tak mampu nak bertahan..and i'll go and do something that i feel more beneficial to me..gaji sikit pun sikitlah..asalkan happy.
Tgklah..rasa mcm nk slow talk ngan GM suh kurangkan keje quality tu..dah rasa mcm tak larat dah ni actually. Dia terima tak terima, suka hati..yg penting kita dah bagitau.
Conclusion of the story: Mmg perit aa keje bawah GM. Hany, Ika and Aina sure setuju 1000% hehe. Tapi rasanya Aina lagi kesian..ko bawak bersabar ek Aina..kalau ko dah tak tahan sgt..ko bagi jek minum racun tikus kekeke..astaghfirullah..apa aku mengarut ni..nilaa..actually i think kat my division ni ada tikus, so i asked my staff carikan racun tikus tadi..tu yg tertimbul kisah racun tikus ni..Aina, ko jgn buat plak..aku tak tanggung jawab aa.
Oklah..nak balik rumah..nak rehat and do something fun tonite. Hopefully esok semangat dah naik balik..skang ni otak dah set nak relax.
Wassalam.
Entah kenapa petang ini terasa seperti diri tetiba ingin mengganas..mengganas mcm diri saya ketika remaja umur 14 15 tahun dahulu..yang ketika itu kalau bercakap mmg guna style bahasa "weyy..ko buat per aaa....blah aaa.." tak taulah naper tetiba terasa nk ckp ngan someone guna bahasa mcm tu hehe. Emotional instability dah dtg kembali after quite sometime tak timbul2 sbb bz sgt sampai takde masa nk rasa emotional instability tu hehe.
Skang ni bukannya tak bz..tapi badan dah tak larat..stretched out sampai dah pk "biar aa keje ni..malas nak sambung...lantak aa boss nk cakap per...aku dah tak larat" hoho.
Tadi kesian sorang manager dtg mengadu kata dia dah rasa tak larat sbb byk sgt keje..byk sgt bende nk buat kat division ni..keje rutin mmg dah sah2 byk, tambah pulak ngan keje quality yg pelbagai..ISO, QCC, Specialist program, Subject Matter Expert (SME)..apa ingat kitorang ni robot ker sumer bende nk kena buat?!
Huh..Zurina dah mengamuk..tapi betul aa..tak larat giler..my GM ni sumer bende dia nak suh kitorang buat..bukanlaa semuanya tu tak berguna..mmg beneficial pun..tapi man man aa..satu2..ni sumer nk kena buat sekaligus..mmg maut aa kitorang. Yg mengadu tu bukannya calang2 manager, yg mengadu tu manager kesayangan GM and ada 6 assistant manager bawah dia..tu pun dah mengeluh tak tahan..inikan pulak me yg mmg dah sah2 kena execute keje and dah rasa mcm tak cukup tgn ni...aduh..mmg kalau Kak Marina takde..mmg tergolek doklaa kat sini. Manager mengadu tak cukup tidur and tidur kol 3 4 pagi sbb nk siapkan report..huh..lebih kurang jek kitorang ni.
I proposed to this manager kita kena ckp ngan GM suh kurangkan workload..tapi mcm dah agak jek apa dia GM nk kata.."Semua org ada 24 jam yg sama"...ha ah..24 jam dia ngan 24 jam kitorang mana sama..mmg aa dia ok jek..bukannya dia yg execute keje, nk buat report etc..isk isk. Cuba kalau dia buat sekali...jamin dia faham betapa penatnya kami kat sini.
At last, i said to this manager..kalau agak2 saya apply cuti tanpa gaji utk further study...faham2 jerlah yer saya mmg dah tak mampu nak bertahan..and i'll go and do something that i feel more beneficial to me..gaji sikit pun sikitlah..asalkan happy.
Tgklah..rasa mcm nk slow talk ngan GM suh kurangkan keje quality tu..dah rasa mcm tak larat dah ni actually. Dia terima tak terima, suka hati..yg penting kita dah bagitau.
Conclusion of the story: Mmg perit aa keje bawah GM. Hany, Ika and Aina sure setuju 1000% hehe. Tapi rasanya Aina lagi kesian..ko bawak bersabar ek Aina..kalau ko dah tak tahan sgt..ko bagi jek minum racun tikus kekeke..astaghfirullah..apa aku mengarut ni..nilaa..actually i think kat my division ni ada tikus, so i asked my staff carikan racun tikus tadi..tu yg tertimbul kisah racun tikus ni..Aina, ko jgn buat plak..aku tak tanggung jawab aa.
Oklah..nak balik rumah..nak rehat and do something fun tonite. Hopefully esok semangat dah naik balik..skang ni otak dah set nak relax.
Wassalam.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Sleepy+tired
Assalamualaikum wbt,
I'm tired, like nobody business. Why?
Last week, there were 2 nights i slept at 3 a.m to finish out something which i can't remember what was it. I believe it was MCM Fraud Meeting slide presentation rasanya.
Yesterday and one day before yesterday, i slept at 4 and 5 a.m in the morning, had short naps before woke up back to perform Subuh prayer, to complete 2 presentations that i should be presenting today as required by my GM apart from presenting the division performance to facilitate ISO management review meeting.
And then when i started doing the presentations, my GM was actually had forgotten at all that he had instructed me to present the two presentations during today meeting. Ya Allah, kalau ler tau awal2 dia nak lupa, mmg awal2 lagi takkan sanggup nak stay up sampai pkl 5 pagi utk 2 hari. Nasib baik tak weng sgt.
Ingatkan after dah habis present the 2 items tadi dlm meeting, bolehlah nak qadha' tidur malam ni, tetiba GM request ad hoc slide presentation sbb SVP HR pulak nk jumpa, and i need to submit the slide presentation by tomorrow. Sabar jer ler nampak gayanya...ada chance tidur lewat lagi mlm ni.
I have 2 class presentations during this weekend, and i've not touch anything on those cases that Azwan and I need to present for our class assignment. Nasib baik this week present case for my mgmt class sbb dah present reading last 2 weeks. Kalau tak mmg takut jugaklah dibuatnya.
Oklah ek, badan dah sakit2 dah ni, need to have my resting time very badly. Jumpa lagi insya Allah, assalamualaikum :)
I'm tired, like nobody business. Why?
Last week, there were 2 nights i slept at 3 a.m to finish out something which i can't remember what was it. I believe it was MCM Fraud Meeting slide presentation rasanya.
Yesterday and one day before yesterday, i slept at 4 and 5 a.m in the morning, had short naps before woke up back to perform Subuh prayer, to complete 2 presentations that i should be presenting today as required by my GM apart from presenting the division performance to facilitate ISO management review meeting.
And then when i started doing the presentations, my GM was actually had forgotten at all that he had instructed me to present the two presentations during today meeting. Ya Allah, kalau ler tau awal2 dia nak lupa, mmg awal2 lagi takkan sanggup nak stay up sampai pkl 5 pagi utk 2 hari. Nasib baik tak weng sgt.
Ingatkan after dah habis present the 2 items tadi dlm meeting, bolehlah nak qadha' tidur malam ni, tetiba GM request ad hoc slide presentation sbb SVP HR pulak nk jumpa, and i need to submit the slide presentation by tomorrow. Sabar jer ler nampak gayanya...ada chance tidur lewat lagi mlm ni.
I have 2 class presentations during this weekend, and i've not touch anything on those cases that Azwan and I need to present for our class assignment. Nasib baik this week present case for my mgmt class sbb dah present reading last 2 weeks. Kalau tak mmg takut jugaklah dibuatnya.
Oklah ek, badan dah sakit2 dah ni, need to have my resting time very badly. Jumpa lagi insya Allah, assalamualaikum :)
Friday, April 28, 2006
Usrah
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Not so much to update, cuma perjalanan usrah Nisa' semalam sgt best untuk diceritakan. Rasa sgt best sbb dipermudahkan Allah utk join usrah kali ini.
Semalam Nisa' menjemput Abu Urwah(Bro Saari Sungib) dan Ummu Urwah (Kak Aliza) untuk memberi pengisian dan pandangan mengenai perjalanan Nisa', especially dgn pengalaman Abu Urwah yang luas di dalam membentuk JIM sebagai satu badan dakwah yang berorientasikan pendekatan berbentuk kemasyarakatan instead of politics.
He briefed us on the history of penubuhan JIM dan sebagainya, manakala Ummu Urwah menceritakan pengalaman beliau di dalam mengharungi kehidupan sebagai isteri kepada seorang tahanan ISA. Very interesting, tetapi minda saya sudah letih disebabkan sudah 3 hari tidak cukup tidur menyiapkan tugasan, makanya daripada 100% yang diperbincangkan, saya cuma tangkap the geeze, mungkin 30% jer kot. Ditambah pula di depan saya ketika itu terdapat satu buku hasil karangan Abu Urwah mengenai pembabitan beliau dengan JIM dan juga wakil kepada calon KEADILAN (tak sure ler tahun berapa sbb saya mmg tak check details), maka saya mula membelek2 buku, and last2 satu buku tu saya khatam baca sambil mendengar sket2 apa yg Abu Urwah and Ummu Urwah ceritakan kan depan (hehe..sorry ler Kak Mas..saya khusyuk baca buku Abu Urwah..tu yg tak pk soalan apa nk tanya..tapi takpe..Kak Yder, Kak Faza and Dijah dah power tanya soalan apart from Kak Mas as the sifu :D)
Pergi usrah ngan Kak Adinura..memula masuk keta mcm takut jek sbbnya muka dia cam serius..tapi agak dlm hati dia tgh penat kot, so tak berani nk tanya apa2. Sempat jumpa Umi Kak Adinura, pastu baru kitorang aktif bercakap. Mmg salutelah Kak Adinura bawak keta, giler ganas! Hehe..cekap sgt2. Bolehlaa kot racing F1 after this ek akak*wink* :D . Saya sgt2 menghargai biler mana ketika kami bercakap mengenai opportunity utk membuka business, and saya menyatakan kekhuatiran mengenai risiko membuka business sbb takut rugi. Kak Adinura reply " Kitakan ada Allah, kalau Allah boleh beri rezeki kepada Non Muslim disebabkan mereka berusaha, apatah lagi kita. Kita ini lebih drpd mereka sbb kita punya senjata yg lebih kuat sbb kita ada doa". Fuh, terkunci mulut time tu sambil merenung apa yg Kak Adinura cakap sambil berjalan menuju tempat usrah. Mcm ni, nak resume baliklah my plan nak buka kilang gula kekeke. Kak Adinura ckp, try jer, we will learn along the process, pastu ckp pasal ada org Melayu yg dpt duit ratus2 ribu dlm seminggu sbb supply brg pd Petronas. Banyak kemudahan sebenarnya utk org Melayu ni buat business, tp tak nak digunakan. Nantilah kalau bebetul tekad nak buka business, org pertama yg akan dicari adalah Kak Adinura hehe.
Kat usrah tu jumpa ramai ler insan2 yg aktif dlm Nisa' yg sebelum ni pernah jumpa sekali jer during last iftar Ramadhan, ramai sungguh semalam..happy jugaklah dpt jumpa insan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa. Erza dgn perangai nakal dia,tergelak2 panggil my name as Kak Zurin (yeah i know i know, mcm kelakar...tapi nama tu dah digunapakai sejak zaman Dr Lo' Lo' lagi..memula mcm tak biasa sbb org biasa panggil either Siti or Iena, tp dah derang sumer panggil Zurin..hentam jerlah, at least better ler kot dr sorang manager kat FMD ni panggil as Rina...eeeuuwww..sungguh feminin nama itu, tak padan dgn orgnya yg ganas tahap naga hehe). Best juga semalam sbb dpt jumpa Zahirah, bakal isteri Faiz yg sekali turut bersama dlm usrah. This is the second time we met after several years has passed, since our first met was at UIA during a program conducted by Fazrul in 2001, i think. Dapat kad jemputan kahwin mereka rite after the usrah, but told her that if i could not be at their wedding in this becoming May due to my classes during weekends, i'll pray for their happiness dunya wa akhirah :) Tak dpt nak berjanji utk hadir becoz this semester, i have to prepare biweekly presentation in the class, in which i need to do some preparations prior to the presentation. Tu yg payahnya tu biler nk buat presentation..dah sah2 kena baca reading, simplify and present. Lecturer pulak tak nak yg koman2 punyer presentation, kalau presentation tak menarik (x de grafik, takde animation or presentation delivery tak bagus), markah akan dpt sikit. Pressure betul sem ni, setiap alternate Saturday kena buat presentation, setiap hari Ahad kena get ready ngan case presentation...mencabar betul. Cuma tak sakit sgt this sem sbb kami takde mid term sbb kami dah pergi advance course...kalaulah ader..mau menangis dibuatnya.
Hari ni best sbb dpt buat discussion ngan my staff pertaining to work process..cuba bayangkan selepas 4 bulan i take over this new post and manage them, baru sekarang ada masa nk review process and buat segregation of duties. Tapi takpe, Tn Hj tak leh marah ler kalau my unit tak efficient during this 4 months, sbbnya Kak Marina and I mmg baru handle keje ni, tak aci aa kalau nk marah. Dahlah post manager, yg buat keje exec...mmg tak cukup tanganlaa..mmg kehadiran Kak Marina dlm FMD ni umpama seribu rahmatlah dr Allah for me, ringan sket tugas. If not, you can see that my blog entries will consistently mention abt pressure, tension, nk nangis or perkara2 yg tak best hehe. Alhamdulillah ok..alhamdulillah sgt2 sbb ada org bantu.
Isu terhangat skang ni ialah komen MP PAS Rantau Panjang mengenai divorcee wanita yg dianggap gatal. Geleng kepala jek dgr...but i think better kita tumpukan kepada masalah yg lebih berat, iaitu nasib saudara2 kita di Iraq dan Palestin. Semua org buat kesilapan dlm kehidupan,kan? Apa pun, sepatutnya sebarang kenyataan perlu diperhalusi terlebih dahulu dengan mengambil kira apakah impak yg akan berlaku. People tend to come out with their own interpretations, and kita tak boleh nak salahkan public untuk membuat assumption and interpretation sendiri kalau terjadi kes2 seperti ini. Harap boleh diperbaiki in future. Dalam Islam wanita sudah diangkat tinggi martabatnya, tidak boleh main pukul rata. Mungkin ada segelintir kes wanita gatal, tapi secara quantitativenya, bukankah kebanyakan kes perceraian dtgnya berpunca drpd lelaki? Tak beri nafkah, suka pukul isteri, no fair treatment to wife and children etc. Not fair for anyone to come out with a statement like that, isn't it? Bersikap chauvinistkah? Tidak buat proper researchkah? As i have said, people tend to make their own assumptions.
Wanita ini kasihnya 200%, tapi sekali terluka, seumur hidup akan dibawa (saya baca quotation tak ingat kat mana). Tapi mmg betul, wanita kalau dah sayang and kasih..cintanya setinggi langit,kasihnya sedalam jurang Mariana (jurang lautan yg terdalam di dunia)..tetapi kalau dah benci..minta maaflah...mungkin sampai ke mati (ni kes extreme ler, dlm Islam disuruh saling memaafkan).
Oklah yer..mahu undur diri dahulu, kita jumpa lagi k..assalamualaikum :)
P/S: Kak Yumni & Kak Wiyah, iena rindu kat akak2 berdua :).
:)
Not so much to update, cuma perjalanan usrah Nisa' semalam sgt best untuk diceritakan. Rasa sgt best sbb dipermudahkan Allah utk join usrah kali ini.
Semalam Nisa' menjemput Abu Urwah(Bro Saari Sungib) dan Ummu Urwah (Kak Aliza) untuk memberi pengisian dan pandangan mengenai perjalanan Nisa', especially dgn pengalaman Abu Urwah yang luas di dalam membentuk JIM sebagai satu badan dakwah yang berorientasikan pendekatan berbentuk kemasyarakatan instead of politics.
He briefed us on the history of penubuhan JIM dan sebagainya, manakala Ummu Urwah menceritakan pengalaman beliau di dalam mengharungi kehidupan sebagai isteri kepada seorang tahanan ISA. Very interesting, tetapi minda saya sudah letih disebabkan sudah 3 hari tidak cukup tidur menyiapkan tugasan, makanya daripada 100% yang diperbincangkan, saya cuma tangkap the geeze, mungkin 30% jer kot. Ditambah pula di depan saya ketika itu terdapat satu buku hasil karangan Abu Urwah mengenai pembabitan beliau dengan JIM dan juga wakil kepada calon KEADILAN (tak sure ler tahun berapa sbb saya mmg tak check details), maka saya mula membelek2 buku, and last2 satu buku tu saya khatam baca sambil mendengar sket2 apa yg Abu Urwah and Ummu Urwah ceritakan kan depan (hehe..sorry ler Kak Mas..saya khusyuk baca buku Abu Urwah..tu yg tak pk soalan apa nk tanya..tapi takpe..Kak Yder, Kak Faza and Dijah dah power tanya soalan apart from Kak Mas as the sifu :D)
Pergi usrah ngan Kak Adinura..memula masuk keta mcm takut jek sbbnya muka dia cam serius..tapi agak dlm hati dia tgh penat kot, so tak berani nk tanya apa2. Sempat jumpa Umi Kak Adinura, pastu baru kitorang aktif bercakap. Mmg salutelah Kak Adinura bawak keta, giler ganas! Hehe..cekap sgt2. Bolehlaa kot racing F1 after this ek akak*wink* :D . Saya sgt2 menghargai biler mana ketika kami bercakap mengenai opportunity utk membuka business, and saya menyatakan kekhuatiran mengenai risiko membuka business sbb takut rugi. Kak Adinura reply " Kitakan ada Allah, kalau Allah boleh beri rezeki kepada Non Muslim disebabkan mereka berusaha, apatah lagi kita. Kita ini lebih drpd mereka sbb kita punya senjata yg lebih kuat sbb kita ada doa". Fuh, terkunci mulut time tu sambil merenung apa yg Kak Adinura cakap sambil berjalan menuju tempat usrah. Mcm ni, nak resume baliklah my plan nak buka kilang gula kekeke. Kak Adinura ckp, try jer, we will learn along the process, pastu ckp pasal ada org Melayu yg dpt duit ratus2 ribu dlm seminggu sbb supply brg pd Petronas. Banyak kemudahan sebenarnya utk org Melayu ni buat business, tp tak nak digunakan. Nantilah kalau bebetul tekad nak buka business, org pertama yg akan dicari adalah Kak Adinura hehe.
Kat usrah tu jumpa ramai ler insan2 yg aktif dlm Nisa' yg sebelum ni pernah jumpa sekali jer during last iftar Ramadhan, ramai sungguh semalam..happy jugaklah dpt jumpa insan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa. Erza dgn perangai nakal dia,tergelak2 panggil my name as Kak Zurin (yeah i know i know, mcm kelakar...tapi nama tu dah digunapakai sejak zaman Dr Lo' Lo' lagi..memula mcm tak biasa sbb org biasa panggil either Siti or Iena, tp dah derang sumer panggil Zurin..hentam jerlah, at least better ler kot dr sorang manager kat FMD ni panggil as Rina...eeeuuwww..sungguh feminin nama itu, tak padan dgn orgnya yg ganas tahap naga hehe). Best juga semalam sbb dpt jumpa Zahirah, bakal isteri Faiz yg sekali turut bersama dlm usrah. This is the second time we met after several years has passed, since our first met was at UIA during a program conducted by Fazrul in 2001, i think. Dapat kad jemputan kahwin mereka rite after the usrah, but told her that if i could not be at their wedding in this becoming May due to my classes during weekends, i'll pray for their happiness dunya wa akhirah :) Tak dpt nak berjanji utk hadir becoz this semester, i have to prepare biweekly presentation in the class, in which i need to do some preparations prior to the presentation. Tu yg payahnya tu biler nk buat presentation..dah sah2 kena baca reading, simplify and present. Lecturer pulak tak nak yg koman2 punyer presentation, kalau presentation tak menarik (x de grafik, takde animation or presentation delivery tak bagus), markah akan dpt sikit. Pressure betul sem ni, setiap alternate Saturday kena buat presentation, setiap hari Ahad kena get ready ngan case presentation...mencabar betul. Cuma tak sakit sgt this sem sbb kami takde mid term sbb kami dah pergi advance course...kalaulah ader..mau menangis dibuatnya.
Hari ni best sbb dpt buat discussion ngan my staff pertaining to work process..cuba bayangkan selepas 4 bulan i take over this new post and manage them, baru sekarang ada masa nk review process and buat segregation of duties. Tapi takpe, Tn Hj tak leh marah ler kalau my unit tak efficient during this 4 months, sbbnya Kak Marina and I mmg baru handle keje ni, tak aci aa kalau nk marah. Dahlah post manager, yg buat keje exec...mmg tak cukup tanganlaa..mmg kehadiran Kak Marina dlm FMD ni umpama seribu rahmatlah dr Allah for me, ringan sket tugas. If not, you can see that my blog entries will consistently mention abt pressure, tension, nk nangis or perkara2 yg tak best hehe. Alhamdulillah ok..alhamdulillah sgt2 sbb ada org bantu.
Isu terhangat skang ni ialah komen MP PAS Rantau Panjang mengenai divorcee wanita yg dianggap gatal. Geleng kepala jek dgr...but i think better kita tumpukan kepada masalah yg lebih berat, iaitu nasib saudara2 kita di Iraq dan Palestin. Semua org buat kesilapan dlm kehidupan,kan? Apa pun, sepatutnya sebarang kenyataan perlu diperhalusi terlebih dahulu dengan mengambil kira apakah impak yg akan berlaku. People tend to come out with their own interpretations, and kita tak boleh nak salahkan public untuk membuat assumption and interpretation sendiri kalau terjadi kes2 seperti ini. Harap boleh diperbaiki in future. Dalam Islam wanita sudah diangkat tinggi martabatnya, tidak boleh main pukul rata. Mungkin ada segelintir kes wanita gatal, tapi secara quantitativenya, bukankah kebanyakan kes perceraian dtgnya berpunca drpd lelaki? Tak beri nafkah, suka pukul isteri, no fair treatment to wife and children etc. Not fair for anyone to come out with a statement like that, isn't it? Bersikap chauvinistkah? Tidak buat proper researchkah? As i have said, people tend to make their own assumptions.
Wanita ini kasihnya 200%, tapi sekali terluka, seumur hidup akan dibawa (saya baca quotation tak ingat kat mana). Tapi mmg betul, wanita kalau dah sayang and kasih..cintanya setinggi langit,kasihnya sedalam jurang Mariana (jurang lautan yg terdalam di dunia)..tetapi kalau dah benci..minta maaflah...mungkin sampai ke mati (ni kes extreme ler, dlm Islam disuruh saling memaafkan).
Oklah yer..mahu undur diri dahulu, kita jumpa lagi k..assalamualaikum :)
P/S: Kak Yumni & Kak Wiyah, iena rindu kat akak2 berdua :).
Monday, April 24, 2006
Futur
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, masih lagi kita berpeluang untuk menghirup nafas pada pagi yg mulia ini.
Tersenyum saya pagi-pagi ini, mengingatkan beberapa peristiwa pada minggu lepas.
1. Berdiri di hadapan seorang lelaki yang sedang membaca surah (tak sure surah apa, mungkin suratul Kahfi) pada pagi Jumaat sambil mendengar iPod dlm train. Tenang sahaja dia membaca tanpa ambil kisah ttg org lain.
2. Bermimpi bermain dengan baby Ainul di dalam kereta (tak sure baby lelaki ke perempuan sbb kecil sgt and tak tanya Ainul waktu dlm mimpi tu). Skang ni Ainul tgh pregnant, insya Allah deliver bulan 6 ni. Moga semuanya selamat :)
3. Buat project presentation pada hari Sabtu dgn pakai abaya (padahal kalau pegi UIA sometimes pakai baju kurung or seluar jek), malam tu dpt Best Female Dress during AF Nite. Hoho, segan sungguh dibuatnya. Tapi Pokcik Mizie kiter dpt award pasangan paling menyerlah, apa taknya..dari jauh mata dah silau sbb Mizie and Ida pakai baju melayu and baju kurung warna kuning yang memancar2 keke, sorry aa Mizie, gurau jek hihi. Pergi ke AF Nite dgn Aida and Abg Mufis yg picked me up dr UIA, syukran jazeelan ek Aida n Abg Mufis, moga murah rezeki insya Allah :) Jumpa all my bestfriends malam tu, Ika, Jie, Farah, Ayu n Aida. Aini and Siha jek takde. Siha takde sbb kat Penang. Oo Siha, main2 tukar citer Korea ngan Jie ek? Nak join bleh? Ekeke...Jie rasanya merupakan ibu paling sibuk mengejar anak dlm majlis tu, sbbnya Fahim begitu aktif mengusha Sirah(or Seerah) anak Abg Jas hehe. Takpe Jie, ada rezeki ko leh jadi besan ngan Abg Jas hehe. Fawwaz luka sedikit kat dahi sebab terjatuh waktu main ngan Amni, tapi lepas tu derang ok. Hany and Zainal pakai baju sama kaler, warna hijau, cuma Nufayl jek pakai baju Cina warna kuning emas. Everything went well that nite, i'm happy since lama tak jumpa Mizie and Ida, seronok sembang2. Best gak dpt peluk and cekik Jie, lama dah tak buat mcm tu kat dia hehe. Aida pun lama gak tak jumpa walaupun kami satu building, sbb lunch tak sama. Puas jugaklah jumpa hari tu sbb dpt sembang dlm keta ngan Aida n Abg Mufis. Cuma terkilan tak dpt join gathering DCBA kat rumah Kak Sarah, sbb kena prepare slide presentation utk project presentation pada hari yg sama. Next timelah ek kalau ada rezeki :)
Puas dpt jumpa insan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa mcm Mudin n Walida (warna sedondon biru laut lagi pasangan ni malam tu hehe), Lina Yusof,Kak Nisa', Laili, Shima, Fathiah, Momay, Ise and Ehsan :) Sempat juga sembang dgn Kak Ja, wife Abg Faizal pasal kakinya yg sakit, moga cepat sembuh insya Allah :)
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Alhamdulillah last 2 weeks berjaya menghadirkan diri ke usrah muslimat, topik yang dibawa dlm usrah adalah mengenai Futur, iaitu berhenti selepas memulakan perjalanan ataupun langkah (ni definisi secara literal).
Ustazah import from Gombak beri pengisian mengenai masalah futur di dalam perjuangan dakwah. Pengisian itu sendiri sudah menjadi satu nikmat, berjumpa dengan para sahabiah itu pun satu nikmat, malangnya nikmat2 ini yang telah lama saya tidak kecapi sejak sekian lama kerana kesibukan kerja dan study. Betullah ungkapan yang sering saya dengar dan baca di buku-buku dahulu, bahawa cabaran kita yang ingin mengabadikan diri pada tujuan dakwah pada hari ini makin sukar, dengan kesibukan yang tak henti-henti, dan cabaran mad'u yang semakin lama sudah semakin jauh dengan Islam hasil asakan hiburan dan kenikmatan duniawi. Mungkin sudah sampai masanya kita bertanya, di manakah priority kita di dalam menjalani kehidupan yang singkat ini? Soalan yang berbunyi mudah, namun nak menjawabnya, mungkin tidak semudah yg disangka.
Ketika ustazah beri pengisian, hati sendiri sudah tertanya-tanya, sudah futurkah aku? Dah berapa lama tak join usrah, dah berapa lama tak bersusah-susah untuk buat program amar makruf nahi munkar? Dah berapa inci tebalnya hati kita keras untuk merasa kasihan ataupun geram melihat penderitaan saudara-saudara seakidah di negara lain, Palestin contohnya? Tertunduk sekejap hati menghitung sudah berapa lama dibiarkan hati tidak merasa nikmat ilmu dan tazkeerah di sepanjang usrah malam itu. Alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan jalan untuk join usrah pada malam Jumaat tersebut memandangkan tiada presentation yang perlu saya bentangkan di dalam kelas untuk keesokan harinya, makanya mudah sungguh lidah ini mengatakan persetujuan untuk hadir. Betul-betul bersyukur Allah bukakan jalan dan peluang untuk bersama mendengar pengisian yang jarang2 saya boleh ikuti.
Teringat pengisian dr Ustaz Anuar Ridhwan during AF Nite, katanya hidup kita ini perlu bersepadu instead of seimbang, kalau kita kerja, perlu seiringkan amal dan keluarga, begitu juga dengan amal dan family, perlu kita sepadukan ketiga-tiga unsur ini.
Oklah yer, beransur diri dahulu. Next week banyak pembentangan yang perlu saya buat, banyak perkara yang perlu dianalisa dsb. Insya Allah kita berjumpa lagi nanti, assalamu'alaikum :)
:)
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, masih lagi kita berpeluang untuk menghirup nafas pada pagi yg mulia ini.
Tersenyum saya pagi-pagi ini, mengingatkan beberapa peristiwa pada minggu lepas.
1. Berdiri di hadapan seorang lelaki yang sedang membaca surah (tak sure surah apa, mungkin suratul Kahfi) pada pagi Jumaat sambil mendengar iPod dlm train. Tenang sahaja dia membaca tanpa ambil kisah ttg org lain.
2. Bermimpi bermain dengan baby Ainul di dalam kereta (tak sure baby lelaki ke perempuan sbb kecil sgt and tak tanya Ainul waktu dlm mimpi tu). Skang ni Ainul tgh pregnant, insya Allah deliver bulan 6 ni. Moga semuanya selamat :)
3. Buat project presentation pada hari Sabtu dgn pakai abaya (padahal kalau pegi UIA sometimes pakai baju kurung or seluar jek), malam tu dpt Best Female Dress during AF Nite. Hoho, segan sungguh dibuatnya. Tapi Pokcik Mizie kiter dpt award pasangan paling menyerlah, apa taknya..dari jauh mata dah silau sbb Mizie and Ida pakai baju melayu and baju kurung warna kuning yang memancar2 keke, sorry aa Mizie, gurau jek hihi. Pergi ke AF Nite dgn Aida and Abg Mufis yg picked me up dr UIA, syukran jazeelan ek Aida n Abg Mufis, moga murah rezeki insya Allah :) Jumpa all my bestfriends malam tu, Ika, Jie, Farah, Ayu n Aida. Aini and Siha jek takde. Siha takde sbb kat Penang. Oo Siha, main2 tukar citer Korea ngan Jie ek? Nak join bleh? Ekeke...Jie rasanya merupakan ibu paling sibuk mengejar anak dlm majlis tu, sbbnya Fahim begitu aktif mengusha Sirah(or Seerah) anak Abg Jas hehe. Takpe Jie, ada rezeki ko leh jadi besan ngan Abg Jas hehe. Fawwaz luka sedikit kat dahi sebab terjatuh waktu main ngan Amni, tapi lepas tu derang ok. Hany and Zainal pakai baju sama kaler, warna hijau, cuma Nufayl jek pakai baju Cina warna kuning emas. Everything went well that nite, i'm happy since lama tak jumpa Mizie and Ida, seronok sembang2. Best gak dpt peluk and cekik Jie, lama dah tak buat mcm tu kat dia hehe. Aida pun lama gak tak jumpa walaupun kami satu building, sbb lunch tak sama. Puas jugaklah jumpa hari tu sbb dpt sembang dlm keta ngan Aida n Abg Mufis. Cuma terkilan tak dpt join gathering DCBA kat rumah Kak Sarah, sbb kena prepare slide presentation utk project presentation pada hari yg sama. Next timelah ek kalau ada rezeki :)
Puas dpt jumpa insan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa mcm Mudin n Walida (warna sedondon biru laut lagi pasangan ni malam tu hehe), Lina Yusof,Kak Nisa', Laili, Shima, Fathiah, Momay, Ise and Ehsan :) Sempat juga sembang dgn Kak Ja, wife Abg Faizal pasal kakinya yg sakit, moga cepat sembuh insya Allah :)
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Alhamdulillah last 2 weeks berjaya menghadirkan diri ke usrah muslimat, topik yang dibawa dlm usrah adalah mengenai Futur, iaitu berhenti selepas memulakan perjalanan ataupun langkah (ni definisi secara literal).
Ustazah import from Gombak beri pengisian mengenai masalah futur di dalam perjuangan dakwah. Pengisian itu sendiri sudah menjadi satu nikmat, berjumpa dengan para sahabiah itu pun satu nikmat, malangnya nikmat2 ini yang telah lama saya tidak kecapi sejak sekian lama kerana kesibukan kerja dan study. Betullah ungkapan yang sering saya dengar dan baca di buku-buku dahulu, bahawa cabaran kita yang ingin mengabadikan diri pada tujuan dakwah pada hari ini makin sukar, dengan kesibukan yang tak henti-henti, dan cabaran mad'u yang semakin lama sudah semakin jauh dengan Islam hasil asakan hiburan dan kenikmatan duniawi. Mungkin sudah sampai masanya kita bertanya, di manakah priority kita di dalam menjalani kehidupan yang singkat ini? Soalan yang berbunyi mudah, namun nak menjawabnya, mungkin tidak semudah yg disangka.
Ketika ustazah beri pengisian, hati sendiri sudah tertanya-tanya, sudah futurkah aku? Dah berapa lama tak join usrah, dah berapa lama tak bersusah-susah untuk buat program amar makruf nahi munkar? Dah berapa inci tebalnya hati kita keras untuk merasa kasihan ataupun geram melihat penderitaan saudara-saudara seakidah di negara lain, Palestin contohnya? Tertunduk sekejap hati menghitung sudah berapa lama dibiarkan hati tidak merasa nikmat ilmu dan tazkeerah di sepanjang usrah malam itu. Alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan jalan untuk join usrah pada malam Jumaat tersebut memandangkan tiada presentation yang perlu saya bentangkan di dalam kelas untuk keesokan harinya, makanya mudah sungguh lidah ini mengatakan persetujuan untuk hadir. Betul-betul bersyukur Allah bukakan jalan dan peluang untuk bersama mendengar pengisian yang jarang2 saya boleh ikuti.
Teringat pengisian dr Ustaz Anuar Ridhwan during AF Nite, katanya hidup kita ini perlu bersepadu instead of seimbang, kalau kita kerja, perlu seiringkan amal dan keluarga, begitu juga dengan amal dan family, perlu kita sepadukan ketiga-tiga unsur ini.
Oklah yer, beransur diri dahulu. Next week banyak pembentangan yang perlu saya buat, banyak perkara yang perlu dianalisa dsb. Insya Allah kita berjumpa lagi nanti, assalamu'alaikum :)
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
:)
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Actually tgh penat, tp tak baik mengeluh penat selalu, sbb org lain pun penat juga,kan? Mengeluh sibuk, orang lain pun sibuk juga,kan? :)
Believe or not, for two days i've been sleeping at 3 a.m and 4 a.m in the morning. Starting from this week up to the first week of May, it wil become the highest peak of workloads for me, becoz we'll be having MCM Fraud+MRM Meeting in which in these meetings i have to make presentations at least 3 times. Nak buat presentation of course kena buat analisis, pastu present kat management. Ya Allah, bersyukur sgt2 ada Kak Marina skang ni assisting me doing this and that, kalau tak memang jgn harap blog ini ber'update'. Ini pun update sementara menunggu solat Maghrib di ofis before me and Kak Imah bergerak balik untuk mencari Birthday card for our GM sbb esok birthday dia. Tgk trend sekarang ni, blog Ika and Hany dah senyap memanjang, blog Mudin kekadang ber'update', blog Ummu Amiir, Aida n Aini mmg selalu update, my blog? Hehe..sama kes macam Hany and Ika, kalau ada peluang jek baru leh update, sbbnya tuntutan masa yang tidak mengizinkan. Kalau lama senyap tu especially for the next becoming 3 weeks ni, harap faham2 jerlah yer, mmg jangkanya time tu akan hectic sgt2. Tak campur dgn my studies lagi yang every week jenis nk kena prepare presentation. Sabar iena sabar, kejap jek lagi..kuatkan semangat. Sampai akhir tahun ni jek..pastu dah boleh release sket insya Allah.
My younger sister yg dpt offer ke Denmark has turned down the offer sbb Denmark tak ready nak terima student PhD, so they advise her to take double Master. She did not agree, so recently she opted for USM which has offer the same chance to further study in PhD. Alhamdulillah USM called informing her that she's qualified for the application and will be sent to Penn State Univ, US immediately, unfortunately my sis belum dpt keputusan Senat for her Master thesis. USM asked her whether she's willing to scrap off her current Master project and make a new Master project under USM, which means she'll be turning down all her hardworks within these 2 years. She asked for a defer for the offer and had discussed the matter with me and Ayah. Straight away we adviced her to request for a defer to that offer and continue her current Master in which insya Allah will be fully completed in this becoming August. Huish, takde keje ler for me nak buang projek yang dah berjalan 2 tahun semata2 nak pi US, surprisingly my younger sis kata ada colleuege dia di UM yg buang project Master yg dah separuh jalan. I said to her, dun scrap off her project after all these while dia penat2 buat sampling, kaji itu ini, bawak bersabar for another 4 months, and then she can proceed with her PhD. Dah ler nak buat project dia skang ni, ada org IWK mati accident jatuh dlm kolam waktu nak ambil sample air for her, kang sia2 jer org tu mati hehe. Kalau scrap off, it means she will be wasting her time to re-do the Master project, plus the topic will be determined by USM, not by her, nanti tajuk ntah apa2 nanti, susah jek. Kesian jek nanti kat her current supervisor skang ni yg she claimed is a very very nice person. Lagipun USM has promised to KIV her place as they need badly someone who will undertake any biology project as what my younger is doing now, they are willing to reserve her place indeed. So i asked her to wait patiently, kalau ada rezeki utk study abroad, akan terbang jugak dia nanti. Kalau takde, insya Allah Allah ada perancangan lain. But i'm very happy ler for her, eventho we has promised to each other to continue PhD together in UK after completing our Master.
I still remember when i was preparing myself to go for an interview to further study for master in UK last 2 years, dengan suara sebaknya she asked me to postpone my intention to further study in UK. It is uncommon to listen she speaks like the way she did on that time, she's like swallowing her own sadness while talking to me. She made a promise that she will be going with me to UK once we has complete our Master together. As a sister, especially tak pernah dgr suara dia begitu sebak minta postpone, mmg tak sampai hati nk pentingkan diri sendiri. I cried ler actually after that becoz terpaksa let go impian nak pergi and continue Master in UIA. Time tu belum hantar application pun lagi ke UIA sbb mmg hati giler2 nk pergi UK time tu. Even my mum pun support for me to further study in UK during that time, tapi takpelah, belum sampai rezeki lagi kot :). Kalau Allah izinkan, insya Allah akan sampai juga, betul tak? :)
Oklah ek, nak pegi solat dulu pastu nak cari kad birthday GM. Kalau this year tak dpt MAPS 5, siap aa GM kekeke (cheaa..lain dah niat beli kad ni hehe)
Alrite, assalamualaikum.
:)
Actually tgh penat, tp tak baik mengeluh penat selalu, sbb org lain pun penat juga,kan? Mengeluh sibuk, orang lain pun sibuk juga,kan? :)
Believe or not, for two days i've been sleeping at 3 a.m and 4 a.m in the morning. Starting from this week up to the first week of May, it wil become the highest peak of workloads for me, becoz we'll be having MCM Fraud+MRM Meeting in which in these meetings i have to make presentations at least 3 times. Nak buat presentation of course kena buat analisis, pastu present kat management. Ya Allah, bersyukur sgt2 ada Kak Marina skang ni assisting me doing this and that, kalau tak memang jgn harap blog ini ber'update'. Ini pun update sementara menunggu solat Maghrib di ofis before me and Kak Imah bergerak balik untuk mencari Birthday card for our GM sbb esok birthday dia. Tgk trend sekarang ni, blog Ika and Hany dah senyap memanjang, blog Mudin kekadang ber'update', blog Ummu Amiir, Aida n Aini mmg selalu update, my blog? Hehe..sama kes macam Hany and Ika, kalau ada peluang jek baru leh update, sbbnya tuntutan masa yang tidak mengizinkan. Kalau lama senyap tu especially for the next becoming 3 weeks ni, harap faham2 jerlah yer, mmg jangkanya time tu akan hectic sgt2. Tak campur dgn my studies lagi yang every week jenis nk kena prepare presentation. Sabar iena sabar, kejap jek lagi..kuatkan semangat. Sampai akhir tahun ni jek..pastu dah boleh release sket insya Allah.
My younger sister yg dpt offer ke Denmark has turned down the offer sbb Denmark tak ready nak terima student PhD, so they advise her to take double Master. She did not agree, so recently she opted for USM which has offer the same chance to further study in PhD. Alhamdulillah USM called informing her that she's qualified for the application and will be sent to Penn State Univ, US immediately, unfortunately my sis belum dpt keputusan Senat for her Master thesis. USM asked her whether she's willing to scrap off her current Master project and make a new Master project under USM, which means she'll be turning down all her hardworks within these 2 years. She asked for a defer for the offer and had discussed the matter with me and Ayah. Straight away we adviced her to request for a defer to that offer and continue her current Master in which insya Allah will be fully completed in this becoming August. Huish, takde keje ler for me nak buang projek yang dah berjalan 2 tahun semata2 nak pi US, surprisingly my younger sis kata ada colleuege dia di UM yg buang project Master yg dah separuh jalan. I said to her, dun scrap off her project after all these while dia penat2 buat sampling, kaji itu ini, bawak bersabar for another 4 months, and then she can proceed with her PhD. Dah ler nak buat project dia skang ni, ada org IWK mati accident jatuh dlm kolam waktu nak ambil sample air for her, kang sia2 jer org tu mati hehe. Kalau scrap off, it means she will be wasting her time to re-do the Master project, plus the topic will be determined by USM, not by her, nanti tajuk ntah apa2 nanti, susah jek. Kesian jek nanti kat her current supervisor skang ni yg she claimed is a very very nice person. Lagipun USM has promised to KIV her place as they need badly someone who will undertake any biology project as what my younger is doing now, they are willing to reserve her place indeed. So i asked her to wait patiently, kalau ada rezeki utk study abroad, akan terbang jugak dia nanti. Kalau takde, insya Allah Allah ada perancangan lain. But i'm very happy ler for her, eventho we has promised to each other to continue PhD together in UK after completing our Master.
I still remember when i was preparing myself to go for an interview to further study for master in UK last 2 years, dengan suara sebaknya she asked me to postpone my intention to further study in UK. It is uncommon to listen she speaks like the way she did on that time, she's like swallowing her own sadness while talking to me. She made a promise that she will be going with me to UK once we has complete our Master together. As a sister, especially tak pernah dgr suara dia begitu sebak minta postpone, mmg tak sampai hati nk pentingkan diri sendiri. I cried ler actually after that becoz terpaksa let go impian nak pergi and continue Master in UIA. Time tu belum hantar application pun lagi ke UIA sbb mmg hati giler2 nk pergi UK time tu. Even my mum pun support for me to further study in UK during that time, tapi takpelah, belum sampai rezeki lagi kot :). Kalau Allah izinkan, insya Allah akan sampai juga, betul tak? :)
Oklah ek, nak pegi solat dulu pastu nak cari kad birthday GM. Kalau this year tak dpt MAPS 5, siap aa GM kekeke (cheaa..lain dah niat beli kad ni hehe)
Alrite, assalamualaikum.
Friday, April 14, 2006
Cerita ganas
Assalamualaikum wbt,
I'm not feeling well since last 3 days, having fever and cold. My sore throat did not allow me to eat anything other than porridge and bread. Have no appetite also. Lying on the bed for two days without do anything since i took pills that made me felt sleepy for the whole 2 days.
Last week i had crisis with one of my staff, becoz he did something that was totally unacceptable to me, as her supervisor and also as a friend. I got very angry for that thing he had done to me, and avoided his calls asking for apologies since last 4 days, becoz i was not feeling well and i was so bengang that i felt so jahat not to return his calls whatsoever.
I am someone people used to regard as a friendly person, BUT when someone did something unappropriate to me, there you go, i'll become nasty to that person. I got angry becoz i had highlighted once that i did not like the things that he had initiated that had made me felt so uncomfortable. And he repeated again and that had crossed the line to me.
Yesterday morning he met me asking for forgiveness and i just could not see his face, straight away i said i did not like what he did to me. He said sorry and i just kept quite. I did not felt guilty at all, geram punya pasal. Nasib baik ler my staff ni dah tua, masih ada rasa hormat, kalau tak agaknya mmg mulut ni akan laser sket kot. Huish, jahatnya ler daku. Tapi marahlah sebenarnya, giler2 punyer marah, tak pernah2 saya marah pada anyone mcm tu sepanjang saya kerja kat TM ni. Cuma saya marah jenis tak keluar suara jer, tegur kat SMS pastu senyap mendiamkan diri and buat dek jek kat org tu. Agaknya kalau saya keluar suara, ntah apalah yg akan keluar dr mulut saya time tu. Nasib baik tak pegi return call and marah2 kat my staff ni.
Tapi semalam ada discussion ngan dia, dgn professionalnya buat selamba discuss and tolong dia apa yg patut. Kenalah professionalkan, hal keje n peribadi tak leh campur adukkan (cheaaa..kekadang campur gak hehe). My style kalau ada something yg buat me marah, tak payahlah nak discuss balik bende tu dgn saya sbb saya tak suka discuss bende yg saya tak suka. Once saya dah marah atau say something about it, kiranya habis dahlah, saya anggap bende tu dah lepas. Saya tak suka pendam2 sbb selagi saya pendam, saya tak puas hati, mesti kena lepaskan tak kiralah mcm mana pun. So semalam and hari ni ok kot, insya Allah. Terasa jugak i treated him harshly, tapi saper suh buat me marah, kan dah kena. Dah lama dah naga saya ni berehat dr mengeluarkan apinya, sekali dah keluar mmg rentunglah org tu hohoh. Jahat betul Zurina pepagi Jumaat ni, astaghfirullah.
Oklah yer, nak sambung kerja..jumpa lagi..assalamualaikum wbt :)
P/S: Terasa diri sendiri dah buat satu deviation yg ganas tahap naga hoho. Takpe2, insaf balik after this hehe.
I'm not feeling well since last 3 days, having fever and cold. My sore throat did not allow me to eat anything other than porridge and bread. Have no appetite also. Lying on the bed for two days without do anything since i took pills that made me felt sleepy for the whole 2 days.
Last week i had crisis with one of my staff, becoz he did something that was totally unacceptable to me, as her supervisor and also as a friend. I got very angry for that thing he had done to me, and avoided his calls asking for apologies since last 4 days, becoz i was not feeling well and i was so bengang that i felt so jahat not to return his calls whatsoever.
I am someone people used to regard as a friendly person, BUT when someone did something unappropriate to me, there you go, i'll become nasty to that person. I got angry becoz i had highlighted once that i did not like the things that he had initiated that had made me felt so uncomfortable. And he repeated again and that had crossed the line to me.
Yesterday morning he met me asking for forgiveness and i just could not see his face, straight away i said i did not like what he did to me. He said sorry and i just kept quite. I did not felt guilty at all, geram punya pasal. Nasib baik ler my staff ni dah tua, masih ada rasa hormat, kalau tak agaknya mmg mulut ni akan laser sket kot. Huish, jahatnya ler daku. Tapi marahlah sebenarnya, giler2 punyer marah, tak pernah2 saya marah pada anyone mcm tu sepanjang saya kerja kat TM ni. Cuma saya marah jenis tak keluar suara jer, tegur kat SMS pastu senyap mendiamkan diri and buat dek jek kat org tu. Agaknya kalau saya keluar suara, ntah apalah yg akan keluar dr mulut saya time tu. Nasib baik tak pegi return call and marah2 kat my staff ni.
Tapi semalam ada discussion ngan dia, dgn professionalnya buat selamba discuss and tolong dia apa yg patut. Kenalah professionalkan, hal keje n peribadi tak leh campur adukkan (cheaaa..kekadang campur gak hehe). My style kalau ada something yg buat me marah, tak payahlah nak discuss balik bende tu dgn saya sbb saya tak suka discuss bende yg saya tak suka. Once saya dah marah atau say something about it, kiranya habis dahlah, saya anggap bende tu dah lepas. Saya tak suka pendam2 sbb selagi saya pendam, saya tak puas hati, mesti kena lepaskan tak kiralah mcm mana pun. So semalam and hari ni ok kot, insya Allah. Terasa jugak i treated him harshly, tapi saper suh buat me marah, kan dah kena. Dah lama dah naga saya ni berehat dr mengeluarkan apinya, sekali dah keluar mmg rentunglah org tu hohoh. Jahat betul Zurina pepagi Jumaat ni, astaghfirullah.
Oklah yer, nak sambung kerja..jumpa lagi..assalamualaikum wbt :)
P/S: Terasa diri sendiri dah buat satu deviation yg ganas tahap naga hoho. Takpe2, insaf balik after this hehe.
Monday, April 10, 2006
Deviation
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Been thinking about this matter from last week, and only manage to write about it today.
You can measure deviation in any statistical course, use it to calculate how far the actual result have move away from the expected result, or the difference between 2 figures.
The word deviation means an act of deviating, or the amount by which something has deviated, or the (real or metaphorical) route followed by a deviation (source: Wikipedia)
Now, let's ponder about our deviation , if any in our daily life. We can say that whatever things that has misled us from doing what we are supposed to do is deviation. If you don't come to work when actually you are required to do so, is a deviation. Make lies to someone else in which you shouldn't at the first place, is a deviation.
Let's calculate and measure our own deviations towards what Allah has set to us but we did not comply, towards those responsibilities that we should perform but we did not, towards all kinds of things that we should take care of but we failed.
Hopefully, the deviations are not too big. And if it is, let's improve ourselves so that it will become smaller, and hopefully the line in our life graph will become a straight line accordingly towards whatever we are measuring to, especially to Allah.
Wassalam.
Been thinking about this matter from last week, and only manage to write about it today.
You can measure deviation in any statistical course, use it to calculate how far the actual result have move away from the expected result, or the difference between 2 figures.
The word deviation means an act of deviating, or the amount by which something has deviated, or the (real or metaphorical) route followed by a deviation (source: Wikipedia)
Now, let's ponder about our deviation , if any in our daily life. We can say that whatever things that has misled us from doing what we are supposed to do is deviation. If you don't come to work when actually you are required to do so, is a deviation. Make lies to someone else in which you shouldn't at the first place, is a deviation.
Let's calculate and measure our own deviations towards what Allah has set to us but we did not comply, towards those responsibilities that we should perform but we did not, towards all kinds of things that we should take care of but we failed.
Hopefully, the deviations are not too big. And if it is, let's improve ourselves so that it will become smaller, and hopefully the line in our life graph will become a straight line accordingly towards whatever we are measuring to, especially to Allah.
Wassalam.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
IF
IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,A
nd yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!
By Rudyard Kipling (1865-1936).
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
:)
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Saya tgh penat + fed up baca report org yg saya sendiri tak tau nk interprete. Awat ler buat report yg susah org nk faham..rasa mcm nak jer kubakar report yg satu ni...huish..garangnya daku hehe.Takdelaa..takdelah sampai nk buat mcm tu hehe.
Series..tgh fed up..so utk mengembalikan semangat berkobar2 nk buat minit meeting ni, terpaksa rest kejap menghilangkan rasa tak best ni..urrgghh.
Skang ni sebenarnya saya buat keje manager, makanya sbb itu saya tak cukup masa nak update blog sbb sememangnya saya tak cukup tangan. Fortunately saya punya sorang assistant who is the new exec yg Tn Hj import masuk dr Unit IT kepada unit saya sekarang bg membantu keje2 saya. Alhamdulillah Kak Marina (her name) ni mmg boleh buat report, but i still have to vet thru her report before submission to Tn Hj. My GM ni particular sket, kang salah kang naya jek. Lagipun the same report will go to our GCFO, another person yg also particular pasal grammar and content. Maut ler saya kalau Kak Marina ni takde..mmg tak mampu nak buat keje yg saya buat skang ni. Giler diversified cabang kerja yg saya kena handle. Berat2 lak tuh..aiyyaa. Mana nk kejar report every month, nk jaga fraud complaint centre, nak jaga financial, HR, admin, tu tak kira Fraud MCM and strategy lagi. Since 3 bulan buat keje manager ni, saya pun dah tak mampu nk baca magazine teknologi utk come out with strategy mcm tahun lepas. Serius tak sempat.
And the best part abt Kak Marina ni, dia actually bestfriend Kak Rudiah kat MMU, mcm mana perangai Kak Rudi, mcm tulah perangai Kak Marina ni, giler2 sket dia ni. Kiranya otai exec pompuan ler kat FMD ni sbb bebudak IO tak berani kacau dia sbb the way dia ckp mmg serius jek kalau ngan lelaki, sbb tu ler tak kena buli. Tapi this thing tak penting untuk diceritakan di sini, the most important thing abt Kak Marina ni ialah dia selalu bagi kata2 peransang for me to go on and take the challenge being in my current post rite now. Yang bebetul made my heart tersentuh when i raised out my tiredness and rasa mcm tak larat doing the manager's job ni during our lunch, she said,
"Allah tak beri dugaan or cabaran yang melampaui pada hambaNya sekiranya hambaNya itu tidak mampu. Allah gives you this task and responsibility becos He knows that you are capable to handle it".
Tersenyum saya sbb dpt peringatan yg bermakna untuk mengingatkan diri supaya jd insan yg bersyukur. I've been given the chance to learn new things at the moment, so why not take the challenge isn't it? Mungkin ada org akan kata, bat apa susah2 buat keje manager sedangkan gaji yg diterima hanya sekadar gaji exec jek? Hmm..terpulang pada interpretation masing-masing. For me, this is an opportunity for me to learn new things, to move forward and see my own potential, and to also see how far i can stretch my capability in manage things. Some people put salary as their priorities, well it's up to them. Kebanyakan org yg berjaya pada hari ini adalah mereka yang bergerak sejauh yg mereka mampu and do extraordinary things beyond their common practices. Why not give a try isn't it? If nanti i really cannot tahan with my job, i can always go back to my GM and say to him that i'm not in position to manage the task efficiently, and he is free to find someone else to replace me then :)
Tapi mmg penat, series penat. Ni belum sampai masanya my semester exam sampai ni, kalau my exam tiba pd bulan 5 ni..mungkin tahap pressure akan menggunung naik time tu. Hopefully Allah permudahkan segalanya, doakan k.
Ok ok, tulis lelama nanti keje pulak tak siap. Later k, assalamualaikum :)
Saya tgh penat + fed up baca report org yg saya sendiri tak tau nk interprete. Awat ler buat report yg susah org nk faham..rasa mcm nak jer kubakar report yg satu ni...huish..garangnya daku hehe.Takdelaa..takdelah sampai nk buat mcm tu hehe.
Series..tgh fed up..so utk mengembalikan semangat berkobar2 nk buat minit meeting ni, terpaksa rest kejap menghilangkan rasa tak best ni..urrgghh.
Skang ni sebenarnya saya buat keje manager, makanya sbb itu saya tak cukup masa nak update blog sbb sememangnya saya tak cukup tangan. Fortunately saya punya sorang assistant who is the new exec yg Tn Hj import masuk dr Unit IT kepada unit saya sekarang bg membantu keje2 saya. Alhamdulillah Kak Marina (her name) ni mmg boleh buat report, but i still have to vet thru her report before submission to Tn Hj. My GM ni particular sket, kang salah kang naya jek. Lagipun the same report will go to our GCFO, another person yg also particular pasal grammar and content. Maut ler saya kalau Kak Marina ni takde..mmg tak mampu nak buat keje yg saya buat skang ni. Giler diversified cabang kerja yg saya kena handle. Berat2 lak tuh..aiyyaa. Mana nk kejar report every month, nk jaga fraud complaint centre, nak jaga financial, HR, admin, tu tak kira Fraud MCM and strategy lagi. Since 3 bulan buat keje manager ni, saya pun dah tak mampu nk baca magazine teknologi utk come out with strategy mcm tahun lepas. Serius tak sempat.
And the best part abt Kak Marina ni, dia actually bestfriend Kak Rudiah kat MMU, mcm mana perangai Kak Rudi, mcm tulah perangai Kak Marina ni, giler2 sket dia ni. Kiranya otai exec pompuan ler kat FMD ni sbb bebudak IO tak berani kacau dia sbb the way dia ckp mmg serius jek kalau ngan lelaki, sbb tu ler tak kena buli. Tapi this thing tak penting untuk diceritakan di sini, the most important thing abt Kak Marina ni ialah dia selalu bagi kata2 peransang for me to go on and take the challenge being in my current post rite now. Yang bebetul made my heart tersentuh when i raised out my tiredness and rasa mcm tak larat doing the manager's job ni during our lunch, she said,
"Allah tak beri dugaan or cabaran yang melampaui pada hambaNya sekiranya hambaNya itu tidak mampu. Allah gives you this task and responsibility becos He knows that you are capable to handle it".
Tersenyum saya sbb dpt peringatan yg bermakna untuk mengingatkan diri supaya jd insan yg bersyukur. I've been given the chance to learn new things at the moment, so why not take the challenge isn't it? Mungkin ada org akan kata, bat apa susah2 buat keje manager sedangkan gaji yg diterima hanya sekadar gaji exec jek? Hmm..terpulang pada interpretation masing-masing. For me, this is an opportunity for me to learn new things, to move forward and see my own potential, and to also see how far i can stretch my capability in manage things. Some people put salary as their priorities, well it's up to them. Kebanyakan org yg berjaya pada hari ini adalah mereka yang bergerak sejauh yg mereka mampu and do extraordinary things beyond their common practices. Why not give a try isn't it? If nanti i really cannot tahan with my job, i can always go back to my GM and say to him that i'm not in position to manage the task efficiently, and he is free to find someone else to replace me then :)
Tapi mmg penat, series penat. Ni belum sampai masanya my semester exam sampai ni, kalau my exam tiba pd bulan 5 ni..mungkin tahap pressure akan menggunung naik time tu. Hopefully Allah permudahkan segalanya, doakan k.
Ok ok, tulis lelama nanti keje pulak tak siap. Later k, assalamualaikum :)
Thursday, March 30, 2006
His name is Muhammad
His name is Muhammad - Kamal Uddin
There is no man more dear to me
Throughout the whole of history
Than the one who was sent as a guide
Leading people from darkness to light
His message was simple and clear
That there is one God whom we must all fear
Inviting people towards Allah
His name is Muhammad Mustafa
Refrain :Balagal ula bikamalihi
Kashafat duja bijamalihi
Hasunat jami’u khisalihi
Sallu alaihi wa alihi
He is the greatest man of all time
He came to teach the whole of mankind
That we must worship only one Lord
Besides Him there is no other God
Islam is what he came to teach
To every corner of the world did he preach
That we can all come together and pray
To the one who provides every day
Refrain
He was a shelter for the orphans and the poor
He is my only ticket for the heaven door
He confirmed all that was sent before
Than the whole world do I love Him more
I swear if I only had a chance
To go back in time for one glance
At the face of Muhammad Al Ameen
I would wonder whether I had a dream
Refrain
1er Paragraphe
Refrain x 2
Syukran to zmz for providing the link to the lyrics, really appreciate it :)
May Allah always be with us :) Always sedeqahkan selawat pada Rasul junjungan kita k :).
Wassalam
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