Assalamualaikum wbt,
Last nite i scolded my younger sister, now i feel bad for doing so. She didn't cook at home and i teased her for not cooking, telling her kalau tak nak masak baik tak yah balik umah and duduk jek kat kolej (i know it's seem a lil bit harsh but i purposely joking ok)..suddenly she got sensitive and raised her voice up to me..so apa lagi..mmg kena marahlah by me, lecture sedikit keras..now i feel bad coz i was the one who started the thing, and ended up i scolded her pulak. Dah ler dia ni perempuan melayu terakhir kat rumah tu..sensitif sungguh. Biler dah rasa menyesal ni..teringat ler plak kisah2 waktu i pernah marah2 my 3 lil sisters waktu me masih bebudak and tak matang dulu. Rasa menyesal giler buli derang waktu kecik2 dulu..padahal derangkan budak kecik lagi. Shouldn't done that at the first place. But i know despite that, i'm a good sister to them coz i rarely scold or pukul them..very2 rare coz they all semua actually tak nakal2..kalau degil biasanya i cubit jek..tu pun tak kuat sbb hanya sbg pengajaran. Plus, i always treat them outside and buy them new clothes, that's why they prefer me a lot compared to my sister and my younger sister Eqa hehe. Takpelah..pasni kena minta maaf kat dia.
Yesterday i had meeting with GM and all managers for staff relocation in my dept..ended up dr takde keje langsung tetiba berlambak2 keje nk kena buat. Haiyyooh..this is end of the year, time org sumer bercuti..i've got a handful tasks pulak from my GM. I need to organize a workshop in PD next month for our BP and KPI 2007. And yesterday my GM requested me to prepare a special report for our second big boss..i've done it last nite with lots of details, colourful graphs and elaborations, with assumption that it might give an adequate overview of our achievement for the past 3 months. 3 months ok..sorting out all figures and trends..lastly when i submitted to my GM this morning..he said my report is quite detail and wanted me to reduce my report from 15 pages to 5 pages only. Throw away several graphs and elaborations, and it should be fine for my big boss, he says. Addooii..it was not easy task to interprete so many data in hand, summarize them and present them as clear as possible in one report, suddenly kena throw away analysis. Sayang tau masa yang dah digunakan..tapi takpe..at least i know what is happening to my department at the moment..sebelum ni my staff yg buat report and i vet thru jek..tak sama kita buat sendiri statistics dengan vet thru report sebenarnya. Dulu when i used to make my divisional report..all statistics at my fingers..tanya jeklah apa pun, insya Allah bolehlah jawab dgn penuh confident. Skang ni biler my staff yang buat, baca report 2 kali baru boleh ingat betul2 dlm kepala. Tu pun kekadang terlupa, siap leh minta staff back up dlm meeting. Hehe. Itulah yang membezakan kemahiran dan kepakaran seseorang. Org yg membuat itu lebih pakar dr mereka yang tak membuat langsung.
Actually my hands are tight with 5 assignments, all need to be prepared by this week. I have 1 personal assignment and 1 group project for As-Shariah & Econs, and 2 case study and 1 group project for International Finance. Actually, i dun like Finance and all subjects that deals with calculations eventho my background is Accounting...Kak Win & Kak Yana..tolong!! Takut aa International Finance..everytime Dr Obay suh calculate tukaran wang asing..mulalah rasa nervous sbb mcm tak confident padahal calculation senang jek. Tak nak ambik aa subject audit Finance..ni baru International Finance..belum lagi Derivatives & Portfolio Mgt..camner nk buat nih? Dahlaa assignment mcm susah jek...kena analyse Balance of Payment for Malaysia and 80 pages of case study..ya Allah..membaca artikel 80 pages utk satu presentation for 25 or 30 minutes only..pastu dahlah susah..artikel IMF mengenai Central Bank Autonomy..we have to analyse the relationship between Central Bank Autonomy with other several variables like inflation level and political autonomy. Subject mcm best, tapi mcm susah jugak. Saper2 yg keje bank especially Bank Negara will benefit most from this subject. I'm thinking to join Bank Negara or KLSE kalau tak dpt jadi lecturer..so nampak gayanya kena gak ler belajar Finance. Aduh..kuatkanlah semangatku Ya Allah.
:)
Today is a good day..hari Jumaat..hari yg penuh berkat, i should be very happy for being able to breathe and still alive to seek for forgiveness from Allah and from those who i had mistakenly did something wrong.
Saya minta maaf pada semua ada salah dan silap. Ingin diucapkan Salam Aidiladha kepadas semua semoga kita menghayati apa erti sebuah pengorbanan dr perspektif Islam yg sebenar.
Wish good luck also to Nisa' team for the Nisa' Games..i couldn't extend my hands at the moment due to my studies, insya Allah after habis study, berkesempatanlah insya Allah untuk bergerak kembali bersama secara lebih produktif.
Oklah yer..jumpa lagi insya Allah. Selamat hari Raya :)
Assalamualaikum warah matullahi wabarakatuh wa maghfiratuh.
Friday, December 29, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
Gambar2 mendamaikan
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Subhanallah...cantiknya gambar2 di bawah. Sgt mendamaikan :)
Subhanallah...cantiknya gambar2 di bawah. Sgt mendamaikan :)
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Impian hidup
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Rasa bersalah pulak sbb rasa bengang kat ofismate saya di dalam posting terdahulu..manusia tak pernah lepas dr kesilapan..tapi saya tak nak removekan posting saya tu..biar jadi satu catatan buat diri saya bahawa saya pernah mengalami cabaran di dalam bekerja hehe.
Kita selalu fikir bahawa masalah kita yang paling besar dalam dunia ni, sedangkan sebenarnya banyak isu di dunia ni yg lebih memerlukan perhatian.
Entah, mungkin kerana terlalu sibuk dengan kerja dan belajar...saya sudah lupa untuk melihat dunia ini dari sudut dan angle yang biasa saya buat dulu. Menghargai keindahan dan kegembiraan yang wujud di dalam pelbagai dimensi kehidupan..tidak kiralah dr sudut rohani dan sebagainya. Saya yang dulu terasa seperti ingin berlari menghadap dunia..ingin mencari makna kehidupan dengan cara saya sendiri..yang saya gambarkan umpama pencarian erti hidup yang diselangi dengan kegembiraan dan keseronokan kerana mendapat pengalaman dan pelajaran hidup.
Kini, terasa diri sedikit penat dan tidak berupaya untuk lari seperti dahulu. Tapi sungguh, saya tidak mahu semangat itu hilang dr diri saya. Saya masih ingin belajar mengenai kehidupan ini sebanyak-banyaknya, tanpa melupakan destinasi abadi saya di dunia sana. Menikmati kehidupan ini sepuas-puasnya..dan demi itu saya harus kukuh dengan apa yang saya sematkan dalam hati..yang sudah terbayang dan ingin saya tuju satu hari nanti.
Saya ingin bebas dari segala ikatan yang mengikat diri saya untuk membuat sesuatu yang saya inginkan dalam hidup.
:)
:)
Rasa bersalah pulak sbb rasa bengang kat ofismate saya di dalam posting terdahulu..manusia tak pernah lepas dr kesilapan..tapi saya tak nak removekan posting saya tu..biar jadi satu catatan buat diri saya bahawa saya pernah mengalami cabaran di dalam bekerja hehe.
Kita selalu fikir bahawa masalah kita yang paling besar dalam dunia ni, sedangkan sebenarnya banyak isu di dunia ni yg lebih memerlukan perhatian.
Entah, mungkin kerana terlalu sibuk dengan kerja dan belajar...saya sudah lupa untuk melihat dunia ini dari sudut dan angle yang biasa saya buat dulu. Menghargai keindahan dan kegembiraan yang wujud di dalam pelbagai dimensi kehidupan..tidak kiralah dr sudut rohani dan sebagainya. Saya yang dulu terasa seperti ingin berlari menghadap dunia..ingin mencari makna kehidupan dengan cara saya sendiri..yang saya gambarkan umpama pencarian erti hidup yang diselangi dengan kegembiraan dan keseronokan kerana mendapat pengalaman dan pelajaran hidup.
Kini, terasa diri sedikit penat dan tidak berupaya untuk lari seperti dahulu. Tapi sungguh, saya tidak mahu semangat itu hilang dr diri saya. Saya masih ingin belajar mengenai kehidupan ini sebanyak-banyaknya, tanpa melupakan destinasi abadi saya di dunia sana. Menikmati kehidupan ini sepuas-puasnya..dan demi itu saya harus kukuh dengan apa yang saya sematkan dalam hati..yang sudah terbayang dan ingin saya tuju satu hari nanti.
Saya ingin bebas dari segala ikatan yang mengikat diri saya untuk membuat sesuatu yang saya inginkan dalam hidup.
:)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Erti seorang kawan
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Saya baru kembali dr teambuilding FMD, alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dgn baik,kecuali ketika di sesi closing of the ceremony due to my own weakness sbb first time jadi organizer program kat FMD ni, being a someone yg perfectionist, sedikit terkilan sbb ada sedikit kecacatan di dalam program yang saya organize ini..tetapi saya juga patut menerima hakikat bahawa manusia itu tidak sempurna..kena menerima bahawa kita ini ada kekurangan dan kelebihan tersendiri. The best way ialah menerima kelemahan diri dan kemnudian memperbaiki diri di masa hadapan.
Di program tersebut saya ternangis di depan semua staff FMD, kerana menerima satu nota drpd groupmate, seorang kawan yang pernah rapat dgn saya dahulu, dan kini tidak lagi…saya sendiri tidak tahu kenapa dia menjauhkan diri dr saya. Saya menangis bukan kerana nota itu sendiri, tetapi kerana sender of that message himself. Kami satu kumpulan di teambuilding, tapi tidak berbicara seperti yang sepatutnya. Masing2 senyap kalau tiada perbincangan yang perlu membuat kami berbicara.
Telah lama saya sedar sikap beliau yg menjauhkan diri, malah sebelum kami ke Sabah & Sarawak pada bulan 6 yg lepas. Saya menghantar SMS, kad dan e mail memohon maaf pada beliau sekiranya ada kesilapan di pihak saya, tetapi tiada jawapan diterima. Beliau melihat saya tanpa senyum walaupun melalui hadapan bilik saya setiap hari untuk keluar masuk pejabat.
Pening kepala saya memikirkan apa masalah yg berlaku di antara kami berdua..mungkin saya tersilap bicara, tapi saya sudah meminta maaf walaupun saya tak pasti apa masalahnya.
Hari ini saya makan tgh hari dengan seorang ofismate yang sempat berbicara dgn beliau minggu lepas, and jangkaan rakan saya ini mengenai masalah di antara saya dan rakan saya seorang ini adalah disebabkan jawatan yang saya pegang sekarang ini.
Betul, saya akui saya sgt muda untuk memegang jawatan seorang pengurus di bahagian saya ini..tetapi saya hanya menerima tanggungjawab ini setelah insan yang sepatutnya memegang jawatan ini menolak awal2 untuk terus memegang jawatan ini kerana beliau tidak mahu berurusan secara direct dengan GM saya. Pada mulanya saya hampir2 menolak ketika ditawarkan post ini ..tetapi jawatan ini berkaitan dengan kerja2 yg melibatkan financial and strategy..being having accounting background, and I’m taking MBA at the moment berkenaan dengan Strategic Management, of course saya lebih meminati kerja2 ini drpd buat enforcement dan buat policy yang sepatutnya saya buat, tetapisekarang ini dibuat oleh insan yang menolak jawatan saya sekarang ini.Kami switch keje. She’s happy doing my original task, and myself also happy doing the financial and strategy walaupun bebannya sedikit berat dan tiada pertambahan gaji pun…tak kisahlah kan kalau gaji tak naik pun..kerana pertama saya lihat saya dpt belajar byk mengenai pengurusan, dan kedua saya mmg suka buat financial...saya sgt rindukan kerja2 Accounting ketika saya berada di bawah Legal & Account dahulu, and sekarang saya dah dapat, takkan saya nk lepaskan pula. My GM is being considerate to me by giving me an exec to assist me in running my unit, alhamdulillah.
Tapi tak sangka ada insan yang tidak suka saya berada di jawatan ini. Mengatakan it was an unwise decision to do the job and accept the responsibility..and I dun deserve this position becoz i'm too young. I love this job actually. By doing this job, I have the opportunity to learn new things that really interest me rather than doing investigation. Mmg menjawat position ini saya menerima byk kelebihan like having my own room yg besar, dapat pakai laptop yg hanya disediakan untuk manager dan investigator sahaja di bahagian saya ini, dan sering kena panggil berbincang dgn GM and other managers, tapi bukannya saya yg minta this post at the first place. Sekiranya insan yg patut menerima jawatan ini tidak menolak post ini awal2 dahulu, or even kalau dia mahukan jawatan ini dipulangkan kepadanya kembali..saya tiada masalah untuk mengembalikan post ini kepadanya.
Saya juga dapat tahu bahawa ada yg tak puas hati kerana saya dah tak huha lagi mcm dulu. Bagaimana mahu huha kalau kerja direct bawah GM yg biasanya terpaksa membuat kerja2 yang urgent..kemudian ditambah lagi dengan study saya. Kekadang time takde kejelah saya mencari bahan di Internet atau buat assignment, atau baca buku. Tiada masa sgt nk huha2 mcm saya jadi exec di Legal & Account dulu. Agaknya mereka terasa seperti saya ini mengasingkan diri, tapi nk kata saya mengasingkan diri pun tidak juga coz saya berjalan2 juga ke unit lain atau jumpa staff saya. Cuma mmg bukan perangai saya nak buang masa berbual2 time saya tgh ada keje.
Biler saya duduk kat post ni, baru saya kenal siapa kawan sejati sebenarnya. Bukanlah sikap saya suka bergaduh…tapi kalau org dah minta maaf byk kali tapi tak sanggup nk maafkan, saya pun rasa bengang jugak, takkan mahu disembah baru nak maafkan kot.Lagi buat saya bengang sbb saya tak tau apa salah saya. Kalau bergaduh tau punca ok jugaklah kot, ni blur, tak tau apa citer.
Serious, saya tak suka kawan sebegini. Kalau tak suka, bagitau apa masalahnya so that I can clarify or rectify the things..ni menjauhkan diri terus, buat masalah lagi teruk lagi ada. Sekali kawan saya yang lain pernah buat begitu pada saya, saya lecture terus, bagi 5 6 SMS sekaligus. Dahlah time tu saya mmg tak bersalah tapi disalah anggap…mmg panjang berjela ler saya lecture. Tak puas hati cakap..bukannya dapat apa pun kalau pendam2. Cakap terus terang apa salah saya, then saya tahulah apa nk betulkan. Ntah apa2 jek. For me, seorang kawan adalah seorang yg sanggup tegur dan tunjukkan apa salah kita, supaya kita menjadi seorang yg lebih baik. Yg sanggup bertolak ansur walaupun dia tahu dia tidak bersalah dan berada di pihak yang benar. Saya sebenarnya tak pernah ada kawan mcm ni, yg jenis tak reti nk maafkan org. Seingat saya ketika saya di MMU dulu, saya pernah bergaduh dgn 2 org sahaja, iaitu Ika dan Abg Nafis. Gaduh ngan Ika tu, mmg salah saya sendiri, tu pun Ika sanggup buatkan saya breakfast before saya pegi exam padahal time tu kami tgh gaduh, punyerlah baik si Tikot ni. Ngan Abg Nafis..saya rasa saya gak kot yg jadi punca sbb saya over sensitif...kami tak bercakap juga beberapa minggu..tapi time tu saya tahu apa salah saya, and kami tak bercakap pun tak lama..ok balik sebab we were partner biro Usrah dulu.
Sampai sekarang saya berharap agar perhubungan saya dgn ofismate saya ni will get better soon..harap sgt2 actually. Kalau tak jalan juga, apalah yg saya boleh buat after 3 4 kali minta maaf, org buat dek jek. Pada awal2 dulu mmg tertekan saya dibuatnya..sbb saya sayang friendship kami yg pernah terjalin..sanggup minta maaf walaupun tak tau apa masalah sebenarnya. Skang ni..berdoa yg terbaik shjlah. Sudah malas nk layan perasaan, sbb biler layan saya jadi sedih..tu yg ternangis waktu kat teambuilding tu. Kalau dia tak suka saya duduk di post ini, apa yg boleh saya buat. Takkan saya nak minta dilepaskan jawatan pulak. Last resort, buat yg terbaik jerlah sambil berdoa semoga semuanya ok.
Manusia ini penuh dengan pelbagai karenah dan gaya..tapi takpe, at least by having this crisis, make me more mature mengenai pergaulan sesama rakan dan manusia.
Ketika dalam krisis ini juga, saya teringat Jenal pernah beritahu saya bahawa bukan semua benda yang kita buat kita nak cerita kat org (time tu Treasurer SRC kami merajuk ngan dia time buat program College), baru saya faham maksud dia yg sebenarnya. Kita berdiam diri dan senyap, pasti ada sesuatu sebab cthnya keje/study..tetapi takkanlah kita nak heboh2 kat org kita tgh buat apa yang sampai buat kita senyap dan kurang bergaul dgn org.
Oklah yer..jumpa lagi…actually nk citer perkara2 yg best..tapi terkeluar citer yg tak best..biar saya luahkan kat sini sbb lepas ni saya dah malas nak ambil pusing lagi pasal hal ni..you do your own job, and i do mine..saya takdelah kejam sgt..tapi bengang gak ngan org yg berperangai mcm ni..dah ler sy tgh migraine ni. Sabarkanlah hati ini Ya Allah...moga sentiasa sabar dan bersangka baik dengan org. Susah nk berlapang dada ni sebenarnya, especially kalau kita rasa kita betul. Kalaulah tak ingat Islam mengajar supaya tak berdendam atau bergaduh, agaknya lama dah lidah ni jadi cepat laser, kerana sayangkan kawan dan tak mahu gaduh2, sanggup menahan telinga kena perli and sindiran yg tajam. Kalau tak fikirkan bahawa kalau jadi laser akan buat suasana lagi teruk, mmg cepat sahaja terasa mulut ini ingin menjawab. Syukur saya mmg berat mulut kalau part2 nak melaser2 org ni, sbb bukannya best pun main laser2 ni..nanti lagi teruk keadaan. Baik senyap and buat dek jek .
Hoping that my du’a will come true..tak perlu nak pening2 kepala pasal org lagi insya Allah. Ameen.
Saya nk minta diri dulu..kepala saya sudah semakin sakit.
Assalamualaikum wbt.
Saya baru kembali dr teambuilding FMD, alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan dgn baik,kecuali ketika di sesi closing of the ceremony due to my own weakness sbb first time jadi organizer program kat FMD ni, being a someone yg perfectionist, sedikit terkilan sbb ada sedikit kecacatan di dalam program yang saya organize ini..tetapi saya juga patut menerima hakikat bahawa manusia itu tidak sempurna..kena menerima bahawa kita ini ada kekurangan dan kelebihan tersendiri. The best way ialah menerima kelemahan diri dan kemnudian memperbaiki diri di masa hadapan.
Di program tersebut saya ternangis di depan semua staff FMD, kerana menerima satu nota drpd groupmate, seorang kawan yang pernah rapat dgn saya dahulu, dan kini tidak lagi…saya sendiri tidak tahu kenapa dia menjauhkan diri dr saya. Saya menangis bukan kerana nota itu sendiri, tetapi kerana sender of that message himself. Kami satu kumpulan di teambuilding, tapi tidak berbicara seperti yang sepatutnya. Masing2 senyap kalau tiada perbincangan yang perlu membuat kami berbicara.
Telah lama saya sedar sikap beliau yg menjauhkan diri, malah sebelum kami ke Sabah & Sarawak pada bulan 6 yg lepas. Saya menghantar SMS, kad dan e mail memohon maaf pada beliau sekiranya ada kesilapan di pihak saya, tetapi tiada jawapan diterima. Beliau melihat saya tanpa senyum walaupun melalui hadapan bilik saya setiap hari untuk keluar masuk pejabat.
Pening kepala saya memikirkan apa masalah yg berlaku di antara kami berdua..mungkin saya tersilap bicara, tapi saya sudah meminta maaf walaupun saya tak pasti apa masalahnya.
Hari ini saya makan tgh hari dengan seorang ofismate yang sempat berbicara dgn beliau minggu lepas, and jangkaan rakan saya ini mengenai masalah di antara saya dan rakan saya seorang ini adalah disebabkan jawatan yang saya pegang sekarang ini.
Betul, saya akui saya sgt muda untuk memegang jawatan seorang pengurus di bahagian saya ini..tetapi saya hanya menerima tanggungjawab ini setelah insan yang sepatutnya memegang jawatan ini menolak awal2 untuk terus memegang jawatan ini kerana beliau tidak mahu berurusan secara direct dengan GM saya. Pada mulanya saya hampir2 menolak ketika ditawarkan post ini ..tetapi jawatan ini berkaitan dengan kerja2 yg melibatkan financial and strategy..being having accounting background, and I’m taking MBA at the moment berkenaan dengan Strategic Management, of course saya lebih meminati kerja2 ini drpd buat enforcement dan buat policy yang sepatutnya saya buat, tetapisekarang ini dibuat oleh insan yang menolak jawatan saya sekarang ini.Kami switch keje. She’s happy doing my original task, and myself also happy doing the financial and strategy walaupun bebannya sedikit berat dan tiada pertambahan gaji pun…tak kisahlah kan kalau gaji tak naik pun..kerana pertama saya lihat saya dpt belajar byk mengenai pengurusan, dan kedua saya mmg suka buat financial...saya sgt rindukan kerja2 Accounting ketika saya berada di bawah Legal & Account dahulu, and sekarang saya dah dapat, takkan saya nk lepaskan pula. My GM is being considerate to me by giving me an exec to assist me in running my unit, alhamdulillah.
Tapi tak sangka ada insan yang tidak suka saya berada di jawatan ini. Mengatakan it was an unwise decision to do the job and accept the responsibility..and I dun deserve this position becoz i'm too young. I love this job actually. By doing this job, I have the opportunity to learn new things that really interest me rather than doing investigation. Mmg menjawat position ini saya menerima byk kelebihan like having my own room yg besar, dapat pakai laptop yg hanya disediakan untuk manager dan investigator sahaja di bahagian saya ini, dan sering kena panggil berbincang dgn GM and other managers, tapi bukannya saya yg minta this post at the first place. Sekiranya insan yg patut menerima jawatan ini tidak menolak post ini awal2 dahulu, or even kalau dia mahukan jawatan ini dipulangkan kepadanya kembali..saya tiada masalah untuk mengembalikan post ini kepadanya.
Saya juga dapat tahu bahawa ada yg tak puas hati kerana saya dah tak huha lagi mcm dulu. Bagaimana mahu huha kalau kerja direct bawah GM yg biasanya terpaksa membuat kerja2 yang urgent..kemudian ditambah lagi dengan study saya. Kekadang time takde kejelah saya mencari bahan di Internet atau buat assignment, atau baca buku. Tiada masa sgt nk huha2 mcm saya jadi exec di Legal & Account dulu. Agaknya mereka terasa seperti saya ini mengasingkan diri, tapi nk kata saya mengasingkan diri pun tidak juga coz saya berjalan2 juga ke unit lain atau jumpa staff saya. Cuma mmg bukan perangai saya nak buang masa berbual2 time saya tgh ada keje.
Biler saya duduk kat post ni, baru saya kenal siapa kawan sejati sebenarnya. Bukanlah sikap saya suka bergaduh…tapi kalau org dah minta maaf byk kali tapi tak sanggup nk maafkan, saya pun rasa bengang jugak, takkan mahu disembah baru nak maafkan kot.Lagi buat saya bengang sbb saya tak tau apa salah saya. Kalau bergaduh tau punca ok jugaklah kot, ni blur, tak tau apa citer.
Serious, saya tak suka kawan sebegini. Kalau tak suka, bagitau apa masalahnya so that I can clarify or rectify the things..ni menjauhkan diri terus, buat masalah lagi teruk lagi ada. Sekali kawan saya yang lain pernah buat begitu pada saya, saya lecture terus, bagi 5 6 SMS sekaligus. Dahlah time tu saya mmg tak bersalah tapi disalah anggap…mmg panjang berjela ler saya lecture. Tak puas hati cakap..bukannya dapat apa pun kalau pendam2. Cakap terus terang apa salah saya, then saya tahulah apa nk betulkan. Ntah apa2 jek. For me, seorang kawan adalah seorang yg sanggup tegur dan tunjukkan apa salah kita, supaya kita menjadi seorang yg lebih baik. Yg sanggup bertolak ansur walaupun dia tahu dia tidak bersalah dan berada di pihak yang benar. Saya sebenarnya tak pernah ada kawan mcm ni, yg jenis tak reti nk maafkan org. Seingat saya ketika saya di MMU dulu, saya pernah bergaduh dgn 2 org sahaja, iaitu Ika dan Abg Nafis. Gaduh ngan Ika tu, mmg salah saya sendiri, tu pun Ika sanggup buatkan saya breakfast before saya pegi exam padahal time tu kami tgh gaduh, punyerlah baik si Tikot ni. Ngan Abg Nafis..saya rasa saya gak kot yg jadi punca sbb saya over sensitif...kami tak bercakap juga beberapa minggu..tapi time tu saya tahu apa salah saya, and kami tak bercakap pun tak lama..ok balik sebab we were partner biro Usrah dulu.
Sampai sekarang saya berharap agar perhubungan saya dgn ofismate saya ni will get better soon..harap sgt2 actually. Kalau tak jalan juga, apalah yg saya boleh buat after 3 4 kali minta maaf, org buat dek jek. Pada awal2 dulu mmg tertekan saya dibuatnya..sbb saya sayang friendship kami yg pernah terjalin..sanggup minta maaf walaupun tak tau apa masalah sebenarnya. Skang ni..berdoa yg terbaik shjlah. Sudah malas nk layan perasaan, sbb biler layan saya jadi sedih..tu yg ternangis waktu kat teambuilding tu. Kalau dia tak suka saya duduk di post ini, apa yg boleh saya buat. Takkan saya nak minta dilepaskan jawatan pulak. Last resort, buat yg terbaik jerlah sambil berdoa semoga semuanya ok.
Manusia ini penuh dengan pelbagai karenah dan gaya..tapi takpe, at least by having this crisis, make me more mature mengenai pergaulan sesama rakan dan manusia.
Ketika dalam krisis ini juga, saya teringat Jenal pernah beritahu saya bahawa bukan semua benda yang kita buat kita nak cerita kat org (time tu Treasurer SRC kami merajuk ngan dia time buat program College), baru saya faham maksud dia yg sebenarnya. Kita berdiam diri dan senyap, pasti ada sesuatu sebab cthnya keje/study..tetapi takkanlah kita nak heboh2 kat org kita tgh buat apa yang sampai buat kita senyap dan kurang bergaul dgn org.
Oklah yer..jumpa lagi…actually nk citer perkara2 yg best..tapi terkeluar citer yg tak best..biar saya luahkan kat sini sbb lepas ni saya dah malas nak ambil pusing lagi pasal hal ni..you do your own job, and i do mine..saya takdelah kejam sgt..tapi bengang gak ngan org yg berperangai mcm ni..dah ler sy tgh migraine ni. Sabarkanlah hati ini Ya Allah...moga sentiasa sabar dan bersangka baik dengan org. Susah nk berlapang dada ni sebenarnya, especially kalau kita rasa kita betul. Kalaulah tak ingat Islam mengajar supaya tak berdendam atau bergaduh, agaknya lama dah lidah ni jadi cepat laser, kerana sayangkan kawan dan tak mahu gaduh2, sanggup menahan telinga kena perli and sindiran yg tajam. Kalau tak fikirkan bahawa kalau jadi laser akan buat suasana lagi teruk, mmg cepat sahaja terasa mulut ini ingin menjawab. Syukur saya mmg berat mulut kalau part2 nak melaser2 org ni, sbb bukannya best pun main laser2 ni..nanti lagi teruk keadaan. Baik senyap and buat dek jek .
Hoping that my du’a will come true..tak perlu nak pening2 kepala pasal org lagi insya Allah. Ameen.
Saya nk minta diri dulu..kepala saya sudah semakin sakit.
Assalamualaikum wbt.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Seoul
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Semalam join Scorecard Challenge Meeting for Group Finance, with GCFO as the Chairman checked and challenge one by one scorecard all divisions in Group Finance.My second big boss takde krn attend SmartOrange, so my GM and I had to attend the meeting to back up Group Business Assurance (GBA) Scorecard.
Petang tu had a discussion with Pn Hasiah on the BSC, and after that buat keje di ofis Siha sementara menunggu dinner di Seoul di Plaza Pantai.
Aniza joined us despite of sudden invitation...ajak juga Sam tapi dia tgh bz ngan keje..heran betul ofis Aniza and Sam ni..memalam pun masih aktif lagi..we went to Seoul with adik Siha...and there we had our dinner.
Best..yummy..and yg paling best sbb dpt jumpa Aniza..minah ni adalah satu2nya geng yang boleh usik and kenakan me all the time, we are close especially waktu kat Pre-U dulu..pastu i sambung degree di cyber, dia di melaka.
Semalam selepas dah lama tak cekik tengkuk orang..Aniza yg kena hehe,best best.
Next time Niza kalau nk kena cekik lagi dgn me..blehlaa kita kuar makan lagi hehe.
Alrite, nk pen off dulu..assalamualaikum :)
:)
Semalam join Scorecard Challenge Meeting for Group Finance, with GCFO as the Chairman checked and challenge one by one scorecard all divisions in Group Finance.My second big boss takde krn attend SmartOrange, so my GM and I had to attend the meeting to back up Group Business Assurance (GBA) Scorecard.
Petang tu had a discussion with Pn Hasiah on the BSC, and after that buat keje di ofis Siha sementara menunggu dinner di Seoul di Plaza Pantai.
Aniza joined us despite of sudden invitation...ajak juga Sam tapi dia tgh bz ngan keje..heran betul ofis Aniza and Sam ni..memalam pun masih aktif lagi..we went to Seoul with adik Siha...and there we had our dinner.
Best..yummy..and yg paling best sbb dpt jumpa Aniza..minah ni adalah satu2nya geng yang boleh usik and kenakan me all the time, we are close especially waktu kat Pre-U dulu..pastu i sambung degree di cyber, dia di melaka.
Semalam selepas dah lama tak cekik tengkuk orang..Aniza yg kena hehe,best best.
Next time Niza kalau nk kena cekik lagi dgn me..blehlaa kita kuar makan lagi hehe.
Alrite, nk pen off dulu..assalamualaikum :)
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
A Story To Read
Assalamualaikum wbt,
A story to learn about...(taken from Kak Sity's blog)
I took this story from Ayu... she got it from her good fren mayee... it is a sad story.. so caution to those with weak hearts :P ehhehehe
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay,physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to thesecond-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter,having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
Ternangis baca citer ni..ya Allah, Kau kurniakanlah kemudahan kepada semua ibu bapa yg mempunyai anak yang kurang upaya.
(2) Saya sdg organize teambuilding 2006 FMD for my division for this becoming 12-14 Dec 2006 at Ulu Pangsun..hehe..i had arranged exciting outdoor activities with consultant like war games, flying fox and rakit challenge..could not wait for this event..but i bet balik event ni..sure badan jadi mcm robot coz we have all outdoor activities in Ulu Pangsun. 1 kelas jek indoor, tu pun sbb nak time dh nk balik KL balik. Tn Hj suh arrange solat dlm hutan, tak kiralah time tu tgh basah kuyup baru lepas redah sungai atau tidak..huh..ganas betul my GM nih...siap kena kira markah plak tu..saper tak solat kena tolak markah, tak solat jemaah pun kena tolak markah..bagus bagus..time ni ler nak expose those yg tak pernah solat dlm hutan mcm mana nak solat kalau dlm keadaan darurat ngee ngee :D
(3) Saya baru habis mid term As Shariah..had a heavy flu time menjawab paper exam..dr mula menulis sampailah ke huruf terakhir..astaghfirullah..mmg rasanya ada among my classmates yg tergelak kot dgr saya bersin tak henti2...the exam was ok..nk kata senang pun ok jugak sbb sebelum hari exam tu, kami buat discussion on past year papers. Ketika solat Maghrib di masjid KLCC selepas balik discussion di UIA, mmg terkejut biler tetiba Ika and Siha tegur rite after me bagi salam, tak sangka lak terjumpa kat masjid tu...pastu kitorang round KLCC kejap sebelum heading to Big Plate,Taman Melawati for dinner. Tell you what, that was my first time berhuha sebelum nk exam, sebelum ni jgn harap ler nk sajer2 buang masa kalau time nk exam. Tapi maybe sbb dh buat discussion..ok kot. Malam sebelum exam tu pun i went to sleep early, woke up to revise my notes at 5.30 a.m. Siha tergelak biler dpt tau yg kami buat discussion hanya untuk mid term yg bernilai 20% jer dr seluruh assessment. Tapi percayalah, mid term nilaa yg membezakan kita akan dapat A ker tak..dahlaa UIA ni ada quota nk bagi A. Hopefully result ok, insya Allah. Habis exam Ika masak lunch kat umah dia, sebelum makan ambil ubat, lepas makan terus tumbang.
Petang tu ikut Siha pegi PIKOM kat KLCC, ingat nak usha camera, tapi disebabkan time mengusha tu pun less than 1 hour exhibition tu nk close, tak jadilah..usha lain kali. Tapi mmg habislaa sumer org counter camera tu diinterview sbb nak tau spec paling bagus. My camera skang ni nama jek my camera, tapi my younger sisters yg guna, bawak pegi sekolahlaa..asramalaa, kolejlaa..mementang kakak dia sorang ni jenis mmg tak ambil gambar selalu. Pasni kalau beli lagi sekali..saper2 nk pinjam kena bayar sewa..best gak,kan? Hehe :D
Oklah ek, esok nak pi join BSC Scorecard Challenge Meeting kat Menara..nk tgk
mcm mana sesi ni dijalankan..and time ni ler nk kenal all the big boss kat Group Finance ni.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)
A story to learn about...(taken from Kak Sity's blog)
I took this story from Ayu... she got it from her good fren mayee... it is a sad story.. so caution to those with weak hearts :P ehhehehe
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay,physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told the following story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to thesecond-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter,having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
Ternangis baca citer ni..ya Allah, Kau kurniakanlah kemudahan kepada semua ibu bapa yg mempunyai anak yang kurang upaya.
(2) Saya sdg organize teambuilding 2006 FMD for my division for this becoming 12-14 Dec 2006 at Ulu Pangsun..hehe..i had arranged exciting outdoor activities with consultant like war games, flying fox and rakit challenge..could not wait for this event..but i bet balik event ni..sure badan jadi mcm robot coz we have all outdoor activities in Ulu Pangsun. 1 kelas jek indoor, tu pun sbb nak time dh nk balik KL balik. Tn Hj suh arrange solat dlm hutan, tak kiralah time tu tgh basah kuyup baru lepas redah sungai atau tidak..huh..ganas betul my GM nih...siap kena kira markah plak tu..saper tak solat kena tolak markah, tak solat jemaah pun kena tolak markah..bagus bagus..time ni ler nak expose those yg tak pernah solat dlm hutan mcm mana nak solat kalau dlm keadaan darurat ngee ngee :D
(3) Saya baru habis mid term As Shariah..had a heavy flu time menjawab paper exam..dr mula menulis sampailah ke huruf terakhir..astaghfirullah..mmg rasanya ada among my classmates yg tergelak kot dgr saya bersin tak henti2...the exam was ok..nk kata senang pun ok jugak sbb sebelum hari exam tu, kami buat discussion on past year papers. Ketika solat Maghrib di masjid KLCC selepas balik discussion di UIA, mmg terkejut biler tetiba Ika and Siha tegur rite after me bagi salam, tak sangka lak terjumpa kat masjid tu...pastu kitorang round KLCC kejap sebelum heading to Big Plate,Taman Melawati for dinner. Tell you what, that was my first time berhuha sebelum nk exam, sebelum ni jgn harap ler nk sajer2 buang masa kalau time nk exam. Tapi maybe sbb dh buat discussion..ok kot. Malam sebelum exam tu pun i went to sleep early, woke up to revise my notes at 5.30 a.m. Siha tergelak biler dpt tau yg kami buat discussion hanya untuk mid term yg bernilai 20% jer dr seluruh assessment. Tapi percayalah, mid term nilaa yg membezakan kita akan dapat A ker tak..dahlaa UIA ni ada quota nk bagi A. Hopefully result ok, insya Allah. Habis exam Ika masak lunch kat umah dia, sebelum makan ambil ubat, lepas makan terus tumbang.
Petang tu ikut Siha pegi PIKOM kat KLCC, ingat nak usha camera, tapi disebabkan time mengusha tu pun less than 1 hour exhibition tu nk close, tak jadilah..usha lain kali. Tapi mmg habislaa sumer org counter camera tu diinterview sbb nak tau spec paling bagus. My camera skang ni nama jek my camera, tapi my younger sisters yg guna, bawak pegi sekolahlaa..asramalaa, kolejlaa..mementang kakak dia sorang ni jenis mmg tak ambil gambar selalu. Pasni kalau beli lagi sekali..saper2 nk pinjam kena bayar sewa..best gak,kan? Hehe :D
Oklah ek, esok nak pi join BSC Scorecard Challenge Meeting kat Menara..nk tgk
mcm mana sesi ni dijalankan..and time ni ler nk kenal all the big boss kat Group Finance ni.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)
Thursday, November 30, 2006
BAKIT HELWA
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
I met Dr Faridah yesterday, rite after Scorecard meeting for HOD in Group Finance, i had to represent my GM coz he could not make it for the meeting. Meeting with all Head of Division made me so nervous during the meeting. They were discussing the rite measurements for divisional and Group Finance scorecards..all sorts of financial targets and ratios came out during the meeting, showing how expert all these HOD in accounting principles and Financial Reporting Standard (FRS). I was a lil bit excited to listen their arguments and discussion coz it was all related to accounting. I do miss all those accounting terms actually.
Alrite then, let's go back to Dr Faridah k.
I asked her honest opinion,should i go for lecturing. Dr Faridah was a lecturer in UTM before she joined TM to gain corporate experience.
It was nice to have a chat session with her. It was like a long long time ago, that i had a chance to talk like what i had went thru with her.
She asked me, what actually that i want to achieve in life?
:)
A nice question but a tough one :) We chatted and she shared some of her experiences becoming a working mother with 6 children, and pursued her doctorate part time while she was working in TM Net a few years back. Nice talking to her actually :)
During towards the end of our discussion, she raised her concern to get the young executives to join BAKIT HELWA TM. I encourage you all (those working in TM) to join BAKIT, they really need youngsters like us. Let's lend our hands to them, for the sake of Islam :)
I had made a promise to her to inform my usrah friends about this. So to muslimah TM out there, do join BAKIT HELWA ya. For guys, you can always join BAKIT.
I need to stop here, i need to read my As Shariah book since i'll be having a mid term exam on this becoming Sunday. I haven't read even a single page, praying to Allah to help me to get thru this exam with excel.
Pray for my success k, ilal liqa' wassalamualaikum wbt.
:)
:)
I met Dr Faridah yesterday, rite after Scorecard meeting for HOD in Group Finance, i had to represent my GM coz he could not make it for the meeting. Meeting with all Head of Division made me so nervous during the meeting. They were discussing the rite measurements for divisional and Group Finance scorecards..all sorts of financial targets and ratios came out during the meeting, showing how expert all these HOD in accounting principles and Financial Reporting Standard (FRS). I was a lil bit excited to listen their arguments and discussion coz it was all related to accounting. I do miss all those accounting terms actually.
Alrite then, let's go back to Dr Faridah k.
I asked her honest opinion,should i go for lecturing. Dr Faridah was a lecturer in UTM before she joined TM to gain corporate experience.
It was nice to have a chat session with her. It was like a long long time ago, that i had a chance to talk like what i had went thru with her.
She asked me, what actually that i want to achieve in life?
:)
A nice question but a tough one :) We chatted and she shared some of her experiences becoming a working mother with 6 children, and pursued her doctorate part time while she was working in TM Net a few years back. Nice talking to her actually :)
During towards the end of our discussion, she raised her concern to get the young executives to join BAKIT HELWA TM. I encourage you all (those working in TM) to join BAKIT, they really need youngsters like us. Let's lend our hands to them, for the sake of Islam :)
I had made a promise to her to inform my usrah friends about this. So to muslimah TM out there, do join BAKIT HELWA ya. For guys, you can always join BAKIT.
I need to stop here, i need to read my As Shariah book since i'll be having a mid term exam on this becoming Sunday. I haven't read even a single page, praying to Allah to help me to get thru this exam with excel.
Pray for my success k, ilal liqa' wassalamualaikum wbt.
:)
Sunday, November 19, 2006
:)
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Yesterday i went to Shafizan and Zarp's wedding with Halim, Sam, Ika and Hainey. Rasa seronok actually jumpa dengan Sam and Halim, sbb kami dah lama sgt tak jumpa eventho keje satu company. Mafus jek skang ni yg mmg tak tak jumpa2 langsung.
The wedding reception was nice, alhamdulillah berkesempatan berjumpa dengan adik2 pengantin dan adik2 junior yg lain. Zarp and Sha..kedua-duanya junior usrah saya dulu..kedua-duanya lahir dlm bulan Jun seperti saya..dulu kami selalu celebrate birthday exco..ditakdirkan untuk bulan 6, ramai pulak exco yang berkongsi bulan..other than me is Zarp, Sha and Abg Faris, tak sure ada yg lain ker tidak.
Sha was very beautiful with Zarp standing next to her yesterday..moga2 kedua2nya menjadi pasangan yang berbahagia dunia dan akhirat serta melahirkan zuriat yang soleh dan solehah :)
Sempat juga berjumpa dengan Mailal, Najwa, Shima, Diyana dan Mar. Lama betul tak jumpa dengan mereka :)
Hari ini ketika keluar dr kelas As-Shari'ah..saya merenung UIA. Dan saya tahu saya akan merindui kampus ini, seperti mana saya merindui kampus UIA di PJ di mana saya menghabiskan setahun lebih untuk kelas Bahasa Arab saya di sana.
Ini adalah semester terakhir saya, sekiranya saya tidak mahu menyambung 2 subjek audit semester depan. I'll miss my classmates, the close bond that we are having all these while..laughter and joy..i'll miss them totally.
In As' Shari'ah, Economics and Society class today, we were taught on the differences between Islamic and existing economics principles.
Both systems have different worldviews, hence the implementation of the systems are also differs.
We had discussed about Islamic worldviews vs existing economics system in the class, now i know how meaningful the 'deen' definition is..and i felt so grateful for being exposed to several islamic concepts that alhamdulillah, had deepen my understanding about Islam.
There are still lots to learn. Ilmu ni tak pernah habis. Kita yang perlu rajin mencari.
During my class break, i had a chat with one of my classmates, Kak Maz. We discussed on how to balance our role as a woman, parent and employee. What are the lines between them and how to act according to who we want to be at the first place. That made me think who i want to be next 5 years, whether i want to be a good mother to my future kids, or i want to climb up corporate ladder at the expense of my family interest. Of course, the second option will not be my choice, or to anyone even i believe. If i have the chance to be among those high profile person in my company, let's pray that it won't cost my family at the end of the day.
Ok guys, maybe you won't have the chance to read my posting for the next 3 days coz i have a big event in Multimedia College, my division is organizing Malaysia Telecommunication Fraud Group Forum-2, in which we will have all big shots from major telcos and local authorities in Malaysia to attend the opening ceremony and join our forum. Again like last year, i have to be the emcee for the event, with Midun and En. Budi alternately. Hope this event will be as interesting as last year :)
OK guys, see ya on Thursday insya Allah..assalamualaikum.
:)
Yesterday i went to Shafizan and Zarp's wedding with Halim, Sam, Ika and Hainey. Rasa seronok actually jumpa dengan Sam and Halim, sbb kami dah lama sgt tak jumpa eventho keje satu company. Mafus jek skang ni yg mmg tak tak jumpa2 langsung.
The wedding reception was nice, alhamdulillah berkesempatan berjumpa dengan adik2 pengantin dan adik2 junior yg lain. Zarp and Sha..kedua-duanya junior usrah saya dulu..kedua-duanya lahir dlm bulan Jun seperti saya..dulu kami selalu celebrate birthday exco..ditakdirkan untuk bulan 6, ramai pulak exco yang berkongsi bulan..other than me is Zarp, Sha and Abg Faris, tak sure ada yg lain ker tidak.
Sha was very beautiful with Zarp standing next to her yesterday..moga2 kedua2nya menjadi pasangan yang berbahagia dunia dan akhirat serta melahirkan zuriat yang soleh dan solehah :)
Sempat juga berjumpa dengan Mailal, Najwa, Shima, Diyana dan Mar. Lama betul tak jumpa dengan mereka :)
Hari ini ketika keluar dr kelas As-Shari'ah..saya merenung UIA. Dan saya tahu saya akan merindui kampus ini, seperti mana saya merindui kampus UIA di PJ di mana saya menghabiskan setahun lebih untuk kelas Bahasa Arab saya di sana.
Ini adalah semester terakhir saya, sekiranya saya tidak mahu menyambung 2 subjek audit semester depan. I'll miss my classmates, the close bond that we are having all these while..laughter and joy..i'll miss them totally.
In As' Shari'ah, Economics and Society class today, we were taught on the differences between Islamic and existing economics principles.
Both systems have different worldviews, hence the implementation of the systems are also differs.
We had discussed about Islamic worldviews vs existing economics system in the class, now i know how meaningful the 'deen' definition is..and i felt so grateful for being exposed to several islamic concepts that alhamdulillah, had deepen my understanding about Islam.
There are still lots to learn. Ilmu ni tak pernah habis. Kita yang perlu rajin mencari.
During my class break, i had a chat with one of my classmates, Kak Maz. We discussed on how to balance our role as a woman, parent and employee. What are the lines between them and how to act according to who we want to be at the first place. That made me think who i want to be next 5 years, whether i want to be a good mother to my future kids, or i want to climb up corporate ladder at the expense of my family interest. Of course, the second option will not be my choice, or to anyone even i believe. If i have the chance to be among those high profile person in my company, let's pray that it won't cost my family at the end of the day.
Ok guys, maybe you won't have the chance to read my posting for the next 3 days coz i have a big event in Multimedia College, my division is organizing Malaysia Telecommunication Fraud Group Forum-2, in which we will have all big shots from major telcos and local authorities in Malaysia to attend the opening ceremony and join our forum. Again like last year, i have to be the emcee for the event, with Midun and En. Budi alternately. Hope this event will be as interesting as last year :)
OK guys, see ya on Thursday insya Allah..assalamualaikum.
Friday, November 10, 2006
Best :D
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Minta maaf di atas kehilangan saya kebelakangan ini, tiada mood menulis.
Minggu ini saya mengalami mood swing, org buat perangai sedikit sahaja dengan saya, saya cepat jadi senyap dan tunjuk muka tak puas hati, padahal takde benda pun.
Satu malam tu saya teringin sgt nak makan Tom Yam Kung di Secret Recipe sbb pernah merasa Siha makan waktu Jie belanja kami dahulu. Pergi Secret Recipe di Central Market, ditakdirkan malam tu Tom Yam Kung tiada, saya terus tarik muka tak puas hati.
Saya jadi senyap sesenyapnya..sampai waiter pun takut nak tegur, menyorok balik tiang tgk wajah saya yg hampeh. Kawan yang menemani saya makan pun serba salah nak makan tgk saya tarik muka. Lepas tu saya order Chicken Chop atau Lamb Chop, tak ingat dah sbb takde makanan yg saya suka tu. Saya tak suka makan sauce yg manis2, saya suka yg pedas. Saya tanya pada waiter sauce BBQ yang saya nak try makan manis ker pedas, dia kata tak manis.
Sekali sampai, tasted the sauce, MANIS!! Huh..time tu mmg ler dlm hati ni bergolak2, rasa nk marah pun ada..cuma saya kalau jenis bengang mmg tak kuar suara..tapi kalau tgk muka mmg tau muka tahap tak puas hati tahap gaban aaa. Bengang giler..dahlah tak dpt makan kita nak, pastu salah info pasal sauce plak tu..huish..sambil makan tu siap pujuk hati..sabar sabar..tak bersyukur betul..Allah dah bagi makan mewah mcm ni pun nak ada rasa tak puas hati lagi (Secret Recipe bukannya murah..kalau bayar mahal tapi utk makanan yg kita suka takpelah,kan..ni ntah haper2 jek).Kawan saya siap offer tukar makanan ngan dia sbb dia tgk saya muncung giler. Mmg ler makanan dia best, tapi takkan saya nk exchange kot, kesian lak dia. Makan jer ler makanan manis saya tu.
Setengah makan makanan saya baru hati saya reda and buat lawak dgn kawan saya tu, baru ok. Dek kerana bengang, saya pegi order lagi satu dish hohoho, tak puas hati punyer pasal.
Tapi semalam saya dpt makan Tom Yam Kung, alhamdulillah..very satisfying..tapi tak leh aa makan selalu..RM 20 per dish is expensive ler kan hehe.
Kalau ada geng2 saya yg terasa saya macam layan tak layan waktu kat tepon..maaf lah yer..mood swing (but this shouldn't be a reasonlah,kan...camner2 pun kita kena layan geng kita bebaik hehe).
Actually banyak yg ingin diceritakan weekend lepas..tp sbb saya takde mood nk menulis..saya senyapkan jek. So now let me story apa yg best:
1. Pegi kelas pertama untuk International Finance
My lecturer Dr. Obay is a fantastic lecturer. This is my first lecture where the lecturer did not using presentation slide at all. He taught us by lecturing in front of us like a story recitation session. Power giler lecturer ni..tapi kena get prepared nk masuk kelas..sbb dia tak suka student dia tak tanya soalan...and dia tak suka student dia ponteng kelas, atau tanya soalan2 bodoh. Nanti tak pasal2 kena marah sbb tanya nonsense.
2. Pegi kelas pertama untuk Economics, Al-Shariah and Society
Kelas ni pun mcm kelas International Finance, sgt best. Kenapa saya kata dedua subject best?
Sebab kedua2 subject membincangkan persoalan ekonomi antarabangsa, international trading and economics welfare...membuka minda kita untuk melihat perspektif dunia dengan lebih luas. Saya suka subject Economics actually, dulu waktu degree hampir2 pilih kursus Economics, tapi lekat di Accounting pulak. Tapi saya tak menyesal pun ambil Accounting sbb saya pun suka Accounting :)
First class untuk subject ni, we were exposed on how today's economics get influenced by capitalism and sosialism doctrines.
And now the world has recognised that there is a need for Islamic Economics, proven by adoption of Islamic Banking and Finance according to Shariah principles by major international banks like Citibank, OCBC etc.
2. Gi beraya umah Jie
Hoho..Fahim dah potong rambut. Kitorang lepak umah Jie sampai kol 11 malam (mmg kacau tuan rumah bebetul nih)..takpe aa Jie hehe..next time mamsak lagi utk kitorang ek hehehe.
3. Gi beraya umah Abg Faizal and Kak Ja
Fist time jumpa roti wholemeal yg Kak Ja buat, makan tak berhenti sbb first time jumpa. Best. Thanks Abg Faizal and kak Ja atas jemputan hari tu, next time ajak ler lagi hohoho :D
3. Gi beraya umah Farah Wahidah
Dek kerana tak cukup tidur sbb buat keje and temankan Siha buat assignment sampai kol 3 pagi pada pagi Ahad, maka sampai umah Farah after balik dr umah Abg Faizal, saya pengsan kat kerusi panjang umah Farah. Ngantuk giler..rasa weng. Tak taulaa Siha buat mcm mana sampai dia leh tahan ngantuk..dah aa dia drive ke sana ke mari bawak me and Ika beraya ke Kajang dan Bangi.
Pastu Farah masakkan kitorang dinner, makan sekali ngan Muaz, anak Farah. Siha and Ika ambil buah mempelam kat umah Farah banyak giler. Derang ni hantu buah pelam hehe.
4. Beraya umah kawan Ika.
Ni lagi kelakar..awal2 duduk kat meja makan kat umah kawan Ika ni pun kitorang dah tergelak2 tak leh stop waktu tuan rumah bagi satu statement yg sangat jujur. Kesian kawan ika tu tak paham naper kitorang gelak tak leh stop. Kitorang gelak bukan sbb apa..cuma mcm kelakar ngan statement dia hehe.Sgt honest.
Pastu sembang2 kejap, pastu parent kawan Ika ni turun and sembang ngan kitorang. Huh, ni lagi best. Selaku org besar dlm badan kerajaan, ayah kawan ika ni suka discuss subject2 serious tapi disampaikan melalui approach yang kadang2 lucu, first time pergi beraya sambil mendengar lecture yang sgt2 bermanfaat + kelakar tahap heavan. Serius best parent kawan Ika ni, mmg best ah. Derang bagi nasihat pasal persediaan diri, perlu ada vision, mission, objective, kalau boleh kena ada Balance Scorecard and KPI sekali dlm hidup.
Persediaan tu mencakupi semua. Yang paling terkena sekali kat saya ialah biler ayah kawan Ika ni komen pasal keikhlasan dalam bekerja. Dush..rasa macam tertampar jugaklaa biler dia kata ramai yg tak ikhlas dlm bekerja, padahal bekerja itu sendiri umpama ibadah dan investment di hari Akhirat sana. Saya gelak2 jek hehe..nk buat camner..kekadang ada masa hati kita tak ikhlas bekerja, especially time kita tak puas hati dgnn boss/ opismate etc hehe.
Adalah istilah2 baru yang keluar malam tu, macam Katak Dalam Spa dan Mencari Pagar. Katak dalam Spa tu maksudnya katak yang dijerang secara perlahan2..kalau dimasukkan dalam air panas, katak akan keluar melompat, tapi kalau air dipanaskan secara perlahan2..lama2 katak akan mati direbus dlm air tu.
Istilah Mencari Pagar tu..actually referring to mencari pasangan. Part ni saya tak nak ulas panjang, ulasan Ika lebih baik kot hehe. Tapi mmg kelakar giler time ayah kawan Ika buat kiasan..tergelak2 dibuatnya.
Sedar tak sedar, kami bersembang selama 3 jam kat umah kawan Ika tu..dari kol 8.30 sampai kol 11.30 mlm. Tapi mmg sgt bermanfaat perbualan kami tu sbb ada beberapa perkara yang saya tak pernah terfikir pun selama ni :)
Tikot, sampaikan terima kasih pada ayah kawan ko tu ek :)
5. Hari Motivasi dan Sambutan Raya Fraud Management
Hehe...kalau dah namanya sambutan raya..mmg ler best. Banyak makanan. And yg tambah best biler kami celebrate genap 10 tahun FMD ditubuhkan. Kami potong kek and had yummy dishes, and kami sumer kena pakai baju Raya. Lelaki kena pakai baju Melayu, wajib hehe.
Saya berundur diri dahulu..jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)
:)
Minta maaf di atas kehilangan saya kebelakangan ini, tiada mood menulis.
Minggu ini saya mengalami mood swing, org buat perangai sedikit sahaja dengan saya, saya cepat jadi senyap dan tunjuk muka tak puas hati, padahal takde benda pun.
Satu malam tu saya teringin sgt nak makan Tom Yam Kung di Secret Recipe sbb pernah merasa Siha makan waktu Jie belanja kami dahulu. Pergi Secret Recipe di Central Market, ditakdirkan malam tu Tom Yam Kung tiada, saya terus tarik muka tak puas hati.
Saya jadi senyap sesenyapnya..sampai waiter pun takut nak tegur, menyorok balik tiang tgk wajah saya yg hampeh. Kawan yang menemani saya makan pun serba salah nak makan tgk saya tarik muka. Lepas tu saya order Chicken Chop atau Lamb Chop, tak ingat dah sbb takde makanan yg saya suka tu. Saya tak suka makan sauce yg manis2, saya suka yg pedas. Saya tanya pada waiter sauce BBQ yang saya nak try makan manis ker pedas, dia kata tak manis.
Sekali sampai, tasted the sauce, MANIS!! Huh..time tu mmg ler dlm hati ni bergolak2, rasa nk marah pun ada..cuma saya kalau jenis bengang mmg tak kuar suara..tapi kalau tgk muka mmg tau muka tahap tak puas hati tahap gaban aaa. Bengang giler..dahlah tak dpt makan kita nak, pastu salah info pasal sauce plak tu..huish..sambil makan tu siap pujuk hati..sabar sabar..tak bersyukur betul..Allah dah bagi makan mewah mcm ni pun nak ada rasa tak puas hati lagi (Secret Recipe bukannya murah..kalau bayar mahal tapi utk makanan yg kita suka takpelah,kan..ni ntah haper2 jek).Kawan saya siap offer tukar makanan ngan dia sbb dia tgk saya muncung giler. Mmg ler makanan dia best, tapi takkan saya nk exchange kot, kesian lak dia. Makan jer ler makanan manis saya tu.
Setengah makan makanan saya baru hati saya reda and buat lawak dgn kawan saya tu, baru ok. Dek kerana bengang, saya pegi order lagi satu dish hohoho, tak puas hati punyer pasal.
Tapi semalam saya dpt makan Tom Yam Kung, alhamdulillah..very satisfying..tapi tak leh aa makan selalu..RM 20 per dish is expensive ler kan hehe.
Kalau ada geng2 saya yg terasa saya macam layan tak layan waktu kat tepon..maaf lah yer..mood swing (but this shouldn't be a reasonlah,kan...camner2 pun kita kena layan geng kita bebaik hehe).
Actually banyak yg ingin diceritakan weekend lepas..tp sbb saya takde mood nk menulis..saya senyapkan jek. So now let me story apa yg best:
1. Pegi kelas pertama untuk International Finance
My lecturer Dr. Obay is a fantastic lecturer. This is my first lecture where the lecturer did not using presentation slide at all. He taught us by lecturing in front of us like a story recitation session. Power giler lecturer ni..tapi kena get prepared nk masuk kelas..sbb dia tak suka student dia tak tanya soalan...and dia tak suka student dia ponteng kelas, atau tanya soalan2 bodoh. Nanti tak pasal2 kena marah sbb tanya nonsense.
2. Pegi kelas pertama untuk Economics, Al-Shariah and Society
Kelas ni pun mcm kelas International Finance, sgt best. Kenapa saya kata dedua subject best?
Sebab kedua2 subject membincangkan persoalan ekonomi antarabangsa, international trading and economics welfare...membuka minda kita untuk melihat perspektif dunia dengan lebih luas. Saya suka subject Economics actually, dulu waktu degree hampir2 pilih kursus Economics, tapi lekat di Accounting pulak. Tapi saya tak menyesal pun ambil Accounting sbb saya pun suka Accounting :)
First class untuk subject ni, we were exposed on how today's economics get influenced by capitalism and sosialism doctrines.
And now the world has recognised that there is a need for Islamic Economics, proven by adoption of Islamic Banking and Finance according to Shariah principles by major international banks like Citibank, OCBC etc.
2. Gi beraya umah Jie
Hoho..Fahim dah potong rambut. Kitorang lepak umah Jie sampai kol 11 malam (mmg kacau tuan rumah bebetul nih)..takpe aa Jie hehe..next time mamsak lagi utk kitorang ek hehehe.
3. Gi beraya umah Abg Faizal and Kak Ja
Fist time jumpa roti wholemeal yg Kak Ja buat, makan tak berhenti sbb first time jumpa. Best. Thanks Abg Faizal and kak Ja atas jemputan hari tu, next time ajak ler lagi hohoho :D
3. Gi beraya umah Farah Wahidah
Dek kerana tak cukup tidur sbb buat keje and temankan Siha buat assignment sampai kol 3 pagi pada pagi Ahad, maka sampai umah Farah after balik dr umah Abg Faizal, saya pengsan kat kerusi panjang umah Farah. Ngantuk giler..rasa weng. Tak taulaa Siha buat mcm mana sampai dia leh tahan ngantuk..dah aa dia drive ke sana ke mari bawak me and Ika beraya ke Kajang dan Bangi.
Pastu Farah masakkan kitorang dinner, makan sekali ngan Muaz, anak Farah. Siha and Ika ambil buah mempelam kat umah Farah banyak giler. Derang ni hantu buah pelam hehe.
4. Beraya umah kawan Ika.
Ni lagi kelakar..awal2 duduk kat meja makan kat umah kawan Ika ni pun kitorang dah tergelak2 tak leh stop waktu tuan rumah bagi satu statement yg sangat jujur. Kesian kawan ika tu tak paham naper kitorang gelak tak leh stop. Kitorang gelak bukan sbb apa..cuma mcm kelakar ngan statement dia hehe.Sgt honest.
Pastu sembang2 kejap, pastu parent kawan Ika ni turun and sembang ngan kitorang. Huh, ni lagi best. Selaku org besar dlm badan kerajaan, ayah kawan ika ni suka discuss subject2 serious tapi disampaikan melalui approach yang kadang2 lucu, first time pergi beraya sambil mendengar lecture yang sgt2 bermanfaat + kelakar tahap heavan. Serius best parent kawan Ika ni, mmg best ah. Derang bagi nasihat pasal persediaan diri, perlu ada vision, mission, objective, kalau boleh kena ada Balance Scorecard and KPI sekali dlm hidup.
Persediaan tu mencakupi semua. Yang paling terkena sekali kat saya ialah biler ayah kawan Ika ni komen pasal keikhlasan dalam bekerja. Dush..rasa macam tertampar jugaklaa biler dia kata ramai yg tak ikhlas dlm bekerja, padahal bekerja itu sendiri umpama ibadah dan investment di hari Akhirat sana. Saya gelak2 jek hehe..nk buat camner..kekadang ada masa hati kita tak ikhlas bekerja, especially time kita tak puas hati dgnn boss/ opismate etc hehe.
Adalah istilah2 baru yang keluar malam tu, macam Katak Dalam Spa dan Mencari Pagar. Katak dalam Spa tu maksudnya katak yang dijerang secara perlahan2..kalau dimasukkan dalam air panas, katak akan keluar melompat, tapi kalau air dipanaskan secara perlahan2..lama2 katak akan mati direbus dlm air tu.
Istilah Mencari Pagar tu..actually referring to mencari pasangan. Part ni saya tak nak ulas panjang, ulasan Ika lebih baik kot hehe. Tapi mmg kelakar giler time ayah kawan Ika buat kiasan..tergelak2 dibuatnya.
Sedar tak sedar, kami bersembang selama 3 jam kat umah kawan Ika tu..dari kol 8.30 sampai kol 11.30 mlm. Tapi mmg sgt bermanfaat perbualan kami tu sbb ada beberapa perkara yang saya tak pernah terfikir pun selama ni :)
Tikot, sampaikan terima kasih pada ayah kawan ko tu ek :)
5. Hari Motivasi dan Sambutan Raya Fraud Management
Hehe...kalau dah namanya sambutan raya..mmg ler best. Banyak makanan. And yg tambah best biler kami celebrate genap 10 tahun FMD ditubuhkan. Kami potong kek and had yummy dishes, and kami sumer kena pakai baju Raya. Lelaki kena pakai baju Melayu, wajib hehe.
Saya berundur diri dahulu..jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)
Monday, November 06, 2006
Katak dalam Spa
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hehe.
Tajuk posting kali ni mesti menarik perhatian orang, betul tak?
Apa yg ada dengan katak dalam spa?
Tunggulah yer..sgt menarik perbincangan kali ini, tapi saya tak berkesempatan nak menulis panjang kali ini.
Mungkin Ika boleh elaborate di blog dia kalau saya belum berkesempatan lagi, betul Ika?
Hehe.
P.S: 'Mencari pagar'...hoho..i'm sure Ika and Siha akan tergelak2 baca istilah ni hehe.
Wassalam
Hehe.
Tajuk posting kali ni mesti menarik perhatian orang, betul tak?
Apa yg ada dengan katak dalam spa?
Tunggulah yer..sgt menarik perbincangan kali ini, tapi saya tak berkesempatan nak menulis panjang kali ini.
Mungkin Ika boleh elaborate di blog dia kalau saya belum berkesempatan lagi, betul Ika?
Hehe.
P.S: 'Mencari pagar'...hoho..i'm sure Ika and Siha akan tergelak2 baca istilah ni hehe.
Wassalam
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Tenang
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Sejuk dan tenang hati rasanya sekarang ini, alhamdulillah :)
Bersyukur sbb bukan selalu boleh rasa perasaan ini kecuali kalau sedang bermunajat kepada Allah yang tersangatlah jarangnya, itu pun biasanya tak rasa sejuk..rasa takut sbb selalu buat dosa adalah hehe. So biler perasaan damai ni hadir dlm hati, sgt2 appreciate dan bersyukur.
Alhamdulillah Aidilfitri dilalui dengan suasana gembira bersama keluarga di kampung. Rasa sgt heaven bertemu dgn sanak saudara yang tersangatlah jarang berkumpul sekali atas kesibukan masing-masing. Balik ke Pedas, Rembau pada hari raya pertama, balik ke Batu Kikir, Jempol pada hari raya kedua, dan pada hari raya ketiga kembali semula ke Pedas sehingga Sabtu lepas. Mmg keluarga saya suka spend Raya di kampung lama2..dr dulu lagi. Kalau ada 2 minggu cuti, 2 minggulah di kampung. Seronok! :)
Kelas akan bermula pada Sabtu ini, result exam akan keluar esok. Saya berdoa agar lecturer baik hati bagi markah bagus dlm bulan puasa yg lepas hehe.
Saya bermimpikan seseorang yang telah lama pergi, moga tenteram arwah di dunia sana, insya Allah.
Purse saya hilang ketika membeli belah di Jalan TAR 2 hari sebelum Raya. Fortunately saya baru sahaja memasukkan duit ke bank sebelum beg tangan saya ditoreh. I bet pencuri tu mesti bengang sbb dpt purse saya yg takde duit kecuali duit syiling yang agaknya mungkin tak sampai seringgit sbb saya mmg tak suka bawa duit syiling bebanyak dlm purse.
Geram jek ngan pencuri2 hampeh ni..saya rahsiakan from my parent sbb tak nak kena bebel sbb careless etc. Malas. Terpaksa ler buat IC and document baru Isnin lepas. Nasib baik jumpa Inspektor cute kat Balai Polis Dang Wangi (tak taulaa dia Malay ker Chinese sbb tak tgk tag nama, tp cutelah dia hoho), dahlaa beg yg kena toreh tu beg kesayangan walaupun saya dh pakai hampir 2 tahun. Sabar jeklaaa.
During beg kena toreh tu, ada 3 purse (my purse, my sister and my younger's) and 2 handphone dlm beg tangan tu, nasib baik dia ambil my purse yg takde duit shj, kalau ler dia ambil my hp and other purses..mmg nangis kot hehe. Terpaksalaa beli baju raya pinjam duit adik and kakak time tu and berjalan mcm org pelarian sbb takde IC.
Next time kalau nk pi jalan TAR, mmg takkan bawa beg tangan. I'll bring a credit card and duit jek masuk dlm poket, tu pun pegang jek all the time hoho.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah, assalamualaikum :)
:)
Sejuk dan tenang hati rasanya sekarang ini, alhamdulillah :)
Bersyukur sbb bukan selalu boleh rasa perasaan ini kecuali kalau sedang bermunajat kepada Allah yang tersangatlah jarangnya, itu pun biasanya tak rasa sejuk..rasa takut sbb selalu buat dosa adalah hehe. So biler perasaan damai ni hadir dlm hati, sgt2 appreciate dan bersyukur.
Alhamdulillah Aidilfitri dilalui dengan suasana gembira bersama keluarga di kampung. Rasa sgt heaven bertemu dgn sanak saudara yang tersangatlah jarang berkumpul sekali atas kesibukan masing-masing. Balik ke Pedas, Rembau pada hari raya pertama, balik ke Batu Kikir, Jempol pada hari raya kedua, dan pada hari raya ketiga kembali semula ke Pedas sehingga Sabtu lepas. Mmg keluarga saya suka spend Raya di kampung lama2..dr dulu lagi. Kalau ada 2 minggu cuti, 2 minggulah di kampung. Seronok! :)
Kelas akan bermula pada Sabtu ini, result exam akan keluar esok. Saya berdoa agar lecturer baik hati bagi markah bagus dlm bulan puasa yg lepas hehe.
Saya bermimpikan seseorang yang telah lama pergi, moga tenteram arwah di dunia sana, insya Allah.
Purse saya hilang ketika membeli belah di Jalan TAR 2 hari sebelum Raya. Fortunately saya baru sahaja memasukkan duit ke bank sebelum beg tangan saya ditoreh. I bet pencuri tu mesti bengang sbb dpt purse saya yg takde duit kecuali duit syiling yang agaknya mungkin tak sampai seringgit sbb saya mmg tak suka bawa duit syiling bebanyak dlm purse.
Geram jek ngan pencuri2 hampeh ni..saya rahsiakan from my parent sbb tak nak kena bebel sbb careless etc. Malas. Terpaksa ler buat IC and document baru Isnin lepas. Nasib baik jumpa Inspektor cute kat Balai Polis Dang Wangi (tak taulaa dia Malay ker Chinese sbb tak tgk tag nama, tp cutelah dia hoho), dahlaa beg yg kena toreh tu beg kesayangan walaupun saya dh pakai hampir 2 tahun. Sabar jeklaaa.
During beg kena toreh tu, ada 3 purse (my purse, my sister and my younger's) and 2 handphone dlm beg tangan tu, nasib baik dia ambil my purse yg takde duit shj, kalau ler dia ambil my hp and other purses..mmg nangis kot hehe. Terpaksalaa beli baju raya pinjam duit adik and kakak time tu and berjalan mcm org pelarian sbb takde IC.
Next time kalau nk pi jalan TAR, mmg takkan bawa beg tangan. I'll bring a credit card and duit jek masuk dlm poket, tu pun pegang jek all the time hoho.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah, assalamualaikum :)
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Salam Aidilfitri :D
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Semalam saya dapat duit Raya from one of my staff..banyak pulak tu..isk, segan pulak sbb dpt duit Raya dr staff..tapi takpelah,kan..belum kahwin lagi kira oklah jugak nk dpt duit Raya hehehe. Hari ni dpt agar2 best pulak...alhamdulillah..murah rezeki di bulan Ramadhan ni.
Ramadhan sudah hampir ke penghujung, saya pun tidak tahu pengisian Ramadhan saya kali ini lebih bagus dr tahun2 sebelum ini atau..mengharapkan tanda ketaatan dan permohonan keampunan dikabulkan.
Saya sebenarnya tidak pasti saya akan sempat menulis blog ini atau tidak esok kerana dijangka saya akan berada di bilik meeting seharian suntuk.
Untuk itu, saya ingin mengucapkan Salam Aidilfitri pada semua, dengan doa dan harapan agar segala amal ibadah kita pada bulan yang mulia ini diterima Allah.
Betapalah, betapalah kalau boleh Ramadhan ini dipanjangkan.
Saya pinta kemaafan pada semua yg menziarah blog ini sekiranya ada silap dan salah dalam tutur kata dan perilaku. Manusia itu lemah dan sering lupa, sesuai dgn kata akarnya di dalam Bahasa Arab iaitu "nasiya=lupa".
Maafkan saya sejak hari pertama kita kenal antara satu sama lain, sehinggalah satu saat nanti kita berpisah dalam kembara insan menuju Khalik.
Saya akan pulang ke kampung selama seminggu. 2 hari Raya pertama di Batu Kikir, Jempol, dan bakinya akan berada di Pedas, Rembau di Negeri Sembilan.
Wah, tak sabarnya nk beraya, tapi seperti tak mahu melepaskan Ramadhan juga rasanya.
Pada yang akan travel, semoga selamat pergi dan balik. Kalau ada yang ingin menyinggah ke rumah atau ke kampung, hubungi saya k.
Doakan semuanya selamat dan berada dalam suasana bahagia hendaknya.
Ya Allah, ampunkanlah segala kesalahan kami samada yang sudah lepas, sedang atau yang akan datang. Pelihara kami daripada api nerakaMu, dan masukkanlah kami ke dalam syurgaMu.
Ameen.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! :D
Tahniah juga pada bakal2 pengantin dalam musim Raya ni (Sarah Mamat n Shafizan)
Assalamualaikum :)
Friday, October 13, 2006
Birthday Wishes to Ika
Semalam jatuh hari lahir seorang insan yang saya kenali sudah 8 tahun, sejak 1998.
Belajar bersama, bekerja sebagai exco SRC sama, dan pada tahun akhir duduk di bilik hostel yang sama, banyak yg saya pelajari dr beliau.
Belajar dalam kenakalan, ada keseriusan
Belajar dalam gelak ketawa, ada kesedihan yang kadang2 tidak perlu ditunjukkan
Belajar dalam pelbagai rencah kehidupan, perlu ada prinsip dan matlamat hidup.
Saya juga turut belajar:
1. Masak penkek
2. Masak bubur and goreng cucur kodok dalam rice cooker
3. Buat bunga ros dari clay utk dihadiahkan pada senior for convo hehe
Ika suka buat diri saya jadi bukan diri saya yg sebenar..diri saya yg sebenarnya adalah suka bersendirian, senyap, layan fikiran sendiri dan jarang huha huha.
Tapi kalau dah dgn cik adik sorang ni...siaplah..mmg takde control ayu dahlaa..selamba badak jek huha huha..and i like that. Whenever we are together, i feel happy becoz i know that someone who could understand the way i think, i react and behave is standing next to me,continously giving me support, advice and take care of me whenever i need any.
I treasure her as one of my bestest friends in life..and i am so grateful for having such good friends like her all around me all these while :)
Not to be forgotten, also to Zarid as Ika and Zarid celebrate birthday on the same date.
Happy Birthday to both of you..moga Allah pelihara diri antuma dr sebarang kejahatan, dikurniakan rezeki yang murah, diberikan kejayaan, rahmat dan maghfirah dariNya dunia dan akhirat.
Smile always! :D
Wassalamm
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Realiti kehidupan
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hari ini sudah hari yang ke-18 Ramadhan, alhamdulillah :)
Saya sudah habis exam pada Sabtu yang lepas, alhamdulillah juga, walaupun tidak dpt nak dipastikan saya boleh score atau tidak utk kedua2 paper iaitu Ethics dan Organizational Change & Development, terlalu byk yang perlu dihafal, segala ethical principles dan change interventions perlu diingat. Masuk exam hall, mmg tawakkal 'alallah shj dan menjawab sekadar mampu. Hopefully result utk sem ni tidak seperti sem lepas, doakan saya :)
Berkesempatan berifthar dgn alumni usrah MMU selepas exam OCD, berkesempatan jumpa dengan insan2 yg lama dah tak jumpa..biasanya dlm program2 mcm ni ler kami berkesempatan nk jumpa and bertanya khabar, kalau tak mmg payah sket. Thanks to Siha and Ika sbb sanggup tunggu me habis exam di UIA before bertolak ke UM.Jie, Zainal and Hany tak dpt hadir sbb Jie ada program lain, meanwhile Zainal balik kampung jemput Hany. Pada hari yg sama dpt tahu Kak Nisa and Abg Nazrol dpt second baby, alhamdulillah :)
Berkesempatan bawa Amni and Fawwaz, anak Aida pergi jalan2 tgk taman, keluar taman ada 2 bintik merah hasil gigitan nyamuk kat dahi derang..hehe..minta maaf yer Aida, taman tu gelap, tak nampak nyamuknya hehe.
Habis ifthar tumpang tidur di rumah Ika dgn Siha, the next day berifthar di Al Marjan, KLCC. Ika punya selera boleh tahan, berbuka nk makan makanan Arab. Habislah semua makanan kat situ kitorang rasa, sekadar nk tahu apa rasanya. Not bad actually, after makan nasi (tak tau apa nama dia, tapi nasi makanan Arab ler), try rasa roti Lebanese, cicah tahina and segala lauk lain. Sejak merasa buah zaitun jeruk di Jordan dan tahina di Mesir dulu, mmg serik ler nk makan buah zaitun and tahina lagi after that..tapi alhamdulillah yg kat Al-Marjan ni rasa tahina and buah zaitun dia takdelah seteruk rasa kat Jordan and Mesir dulu. Ingat lagi waktu memula kami makan jeruk zaitun kat Queen Alia Airport, rasa nk melompat pun ada disebabkan ke'tidakbest'annya..tak tau nk describe apa rasanya..kelat pun ada, masam pun ada, masin pun ada..yang takde cuma rasa manis jek.Tak best langsung. Tahina pun mcm tu..tapi rasanya persepsi tu dah berubah sbb dedua rasa ok and boleh diterima tekak waktu berbuka hari tu. Ika beriyer2 mengajak berbuka kat situ..Siha and me ikut ajer, tapi makanan kat situ ok..cuma of course ler pricing dia agak mahal. Mengusik Ika waktu dia memula ajak berbuka kat situ...reply e mail dia and kata 'pekata kita berbuka kat masjid, duit nak berbuka kat Al Marjan tu kalau sedeqah kat fakir miskin byk pahala tu" hehe..kerana kawan..kuturutkan juga hehe. Takpelah, yang penting adalah pengalaman, tak regret pun berbuka kat situ :)
Sempat menonton program Ziarah (hosted by Wan Kamaruddin dan Dang Suria), program yang berbentuk dokumentari ziarah ke negara2 Islam yang tertindas. Siri yang saya tonton ini adalah ketika siri lawatan mereka ke Lubnan, di mana Dang Suria mewawancara seorang budak kecil dan ibunya yang sedikit fasih berbahasa Inggeris.
Kagum tatkala melihat kejituan semangat seorang ibu yang mengharapkan anak2nya menjadi berani apabila besar nanti, dan tidak gentarkan apa2 selain Allah ketika diwawancara oleh Dang Suria. Mengujarkan kata2 tersebut dengan wajah yang tenang dan yakin membuat saya tertanya2, sekiranya saya berada di tempat beliau yang sedang dihimpit kesukaran kehidupan akibat peperangan, masih utuhkan rasa iman dalam jiwa ini, masih mampukah menunjukkan wajah setenang salju dek mata yang melihat, dan mengekalkan kekentalan jiwa yang sukar digugat? Saya sendiri tak pasti, tapi harap2nya sekiranya keadaan itu datang, saya berdoa moga diperkukuhkan langkah di landasan iman ini. Kita sepatutnya bersyukur, sgt2 bersyukur bahawa kita hidup di dalam kedamaian yang memungkinkan kita berjalan bebas sini sana, membuat ibadat tanpa ketakutan dan sebagainya.
Budak kecil itu, sgt fasih dan lancar berbicara, walaupun umur mungkin 8 tahun, semangat dirinya sudah besar. Api perjuangan untuk membela agama dan negara sudah marak. Realiti kehidupan mengajar kita bahawa apa yang dimulai dengan keganasan, pasti akan menimbulkan keganasan jua pengakhirannya. Celakalah bagi mereka yang memulakan perang tanpa sbb yg kukuh lagi rasional (maaf, perkataan yang digunakan agak sedikit kasar ,tapi kalau utk kafiruun..i dun give it a damn). Korea Utara yang sudah melancarkan ujian peluru berpandunya lambat pulak nak diambil tindakan sekatan, Iran yang belum apa2 pulak sudah diambil tindakan sekatan ekonomi. Mmg nk kena lempang jawatankuasa PBB yang meluluskan sekatan ekonomi pada Iran ni actually.
Oklah..cukup sekadar di sini. Pengisian Ramadhan saya kali ini, rasanya perlu diperbaiki lagi. Banyak lompang sana sini..nak kena tampal cepat2. Chaiyyo Zurina chaiyyo, kena grab this opportunity supaya tak terlepas.
Oklah yer..perlu menyambung kerja. Jumpa lagi insya Allah..selamat menjalani ibadah puasa pada hari ini dan hari2 dlm bulan Ramadhan Kareem yang masih bersisa.
Assalamualaikum :)
Hari ini sudah hari yang ke-18 Ramadhan, alhamdulillah :)
Saya sudah habis exam pada Sabtu yang lepas, alhamdulillah juga, walaupun tidak dpt nak dipastikan saya boleh score atau tidak utk kedua2 paper iaitu Ethics dan Organizational Change & Development, terlalu byk yang perlu dihafal, segala ethical principles dan change interventions perlu diingat. Masuk exam hall, mmg tawakkal 'alallah shj dan menjawab sekadar mampu. Hopefully result utk sem ni tidak seperti sem lepas, doakan saya :)
Berkesempatan berifthar dgn alumni usrah MMU selepas exam OCD, berkesempatan jumpa dengan insan2 yg lama dah tak jumpa..biasanya dlm program2 mcm ni ler kami berkesempatan nk jumpa and bertanya khabar, kalau tak mmg payah sket. Thanks to Siha and Ika sbb sanggup tunggu me habis exam di UIA before bertolak ke UM.Jie, Zainal and Hany tak dpt hadir sbb Jie ada program lain, meanwhile Zainal balik kampung jemput Hany. Pada hari yg sama dpt tahu Kak Nisa and Abg Nazrol dpt second baby, alhamdulillah :)
Berkesempatan bawa Amni and Fawwaz, anak Aida pergi jalan2 tgk taman, keluar taman ada 2 bintik merah hasil gigitan nyamuk kat dahi derang..hehe..minta maaf yer Aida, taman tu gelap, tak nampak nyamuknya hehe.
Habis ifthar tumpang tidur di rumah Ika dgn Siha, the next day berifthar di Al Marjan, KLCC. Ika punya selera boleh tahan, berbuka nk makan makanan Arab. Habislah semua makanan kat situ kitorang rasa, sekadar nk tahu apa rasanya. Not bad actually, after makan nasi (tak tau apa nama dia, tapi nasi makanan Arab ler), try rasa roti Lebanese, cicah tahina and segala lauk lain. Sejak merasa buah zaitun jeruk di Jordan dan tahina di Mesir dulu, mmg serik ler nk makan buah zaitun and tahina lagi after that..tapi alhamdulillah yg kat Al-Marjan ni rasa tahina and buah zaitun dia takdelah seteruk rasa kat Jordan and Mesir dulu. Ingat lagi waktu memula kami makan jeruk zaitun kat Queen Alia Airport, rasa nk melompat pun ada disebabkan ke'tidakbest'annya..tak tau nk describe apa rasanya..kelat pun ada, masam pun ada, masin pun ada..yang takde cuma rasa manis jek.Tak best langsung. Tahina pun mcm tu..tapi rasanya persepsi tu dah berubah sbb dedua rasa ok and boleh diterima tekak waktu berbuka hari tu. Ika beriyer2 mengajak berbuka kat situ..Siha and me ikut ajer, tapi makanan kat situ ok..cuma of course ler pricing dia agak mahal. Mengusik Ika waktu dia memula ajak berbuka kat situ...reply e mail dia and kata 'pekata kita berbuka kat masjid, duit nak berbuka kat Al Marjan tu kalau sedeqah kat fakir miskin byk pahala tu" hehe..kerana kawan..kuturutkan juga hehe. Takpelah, yang penting adalah pengalaman, tak regret pun berbuka kat situ :)
Sempat menonton program Ziarah (hosted by Wan Kamaruddin dan Dang Suria), program yang berbentuk dokumentari ziarah ke negara2 Islam yang tertindas. Siri yang saya tonton ini adalah ketika siri lawatan mereka ke Lubnan, di mana Dang Suria mewawancara seorang budak kecil dan ibunya yang sedikit fasih berbahasa Inggeris.
Kagum tatkala melihat kejituan semangat seorang ibu yang mengharapkan anak2nya menjadi berani apabila besar nanti, dan tidak gentarkan apa2 selain Allah ketika diwawancara oleh Dang Suria. Mengujarkan kata2 tersebut dengan wajah yang tenang dan yakin membuat saya tertanya2, sekiranya saya berada di tempat beliau yang sedang dihimpit kesukaran kehidupan akibat peperangan, masih utuhkan rasa iman dalam jiwa ini, masih mampukah menunjukkan wajah setenang salju dek mata yang melihat, dan mengekalkan kekentalan jiwa yang sukar digugat? Saya sendiri tak pasti, tapi harap2nya sekiranya keadaan itu datang, saya berdoa moga diperkukuhkan langkah di landasan iman ini. Kita sepatutnya bersyukur, sgt2 bersyukur bahawa kita hidup di dalam kedamaian yang memungkinkan kita berjalan bebas sini sana, membuat ibadat tanpa ketakutan dan sebagainya.
Budak kecil itu, sgt fasih dan lancar berbicara, walaupun umur mungkin 8 tahun, semangat dirinya sudah besar. Api perjuangan untuk membela agama dan negara sudah marak. Realiti kehidupan mengajar kita bahawa apa yang dimulai dengan keganasan, pasti akan menimbulkan keganasan jua pengakhirannya. Celakalah bagi mereka yang memulakan perang tanpa sbb yg kukuh lagi rasional (maaf, perkataan yang digunakan agak sedikit kasar ,tapi kalau utk kafiruun..i dun give it a damn). Korea Utara yang sudah melancarkan ujian peluru berpandunya lambat pulak nak diambil tindakan sekatan, Iran yang belum apa2 pulak sudah diambil tindakan sekatan ekonomi. Mmg nk kena lempang jawatankuasa PBB yang meluluskan sekatan ekonomi pada Iran ni actually.
Oklah..cukup sekadar di sini. Pengisian Ramadhan saya kali ini, rasanya perlu diperbaiki lagi. Banyak lompang sana sini..nak kena tampal cepat2. Chaiyyo Zurina chaiyyo, kena grab this opportunity supaya tak terlepas.
Oklah yer..perlu menyambung kerja. Jumpa lagi insya Allah..selamat menjalani ibadah puasa pada hari ini dan hari2 dlm bulan Ramadhan Kareem yang masih bersisa.
Assalamualaikum :)
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Ramadhan
Assalamualaikum
Sudah berlepas 1/3 Ramadhan..agak2 ada good effect tak kepada peribadi kita?
Still the same, or lagi teruk?
Sama2 kita mencari kesempatan terbuka luas di bulan rahmat ini, untuk memohon pengampunan dan rahmat dari Allah.
DIA sangat bermurah hati untuk memberi pengampunan, kita sahaja yg perlu menadah tangan, mengkhusyukkan diri dan mengikhlaskan diri memohon pengampunan.
Moga Ramadhan ini membentuk peribadi kita menjadi mukmin mukminah yang lebih baik, insya Allah.
Wassalam.
Sudah berlepas 1/3 Ramadhan..agak2 ada good effect tak kepada peribadi kita?
Still the same, or lagi teruk?
Sama2 kita mencari kesempatan terbuka luas di bulan rahmat ini, untuk memohon pengampunan dan rahmat dari Allah.
DIA sangat bermurah hati untuk memberi pengampunan, kita sahaja yg perlu menadah tangan, mengkhusyukkan diri dan mengikhlaskan diri memohon pengampunan.
Moga Ramadhan ini membentuk peribadi kita menjadi mukmin mukminah yang lebih baik, insya Allah.
Wassalam.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Nur Farah Hani @ Fong Chu
Assalamualaikum wbt,
:)
Hari ni ada berita gembira, sbb tu saya menulis di sini.
But before that just nk update yg saya dah habis satu paper..struggling study sbb for the past one whole week, saya demam and tak sihat. Tgh seating exam pun batuk2 lagi. Paper Ethics...this paper mmg tak tau nak kata ok ker tak..sbb kami takde mid term exam..ada assignments, project paper and final exam jek. Hopefully dpt good marks, doakan ek.
This becoming Saturday, my other paper which is Organizational Change & Development (OCD), 8 chapters..malam ni baru nak start belajar sbb semalam penat sgt..tidur awal.
Again, doakan saya juga k.
And this is the best part saya nk beritahu..
This morning my bestfriend Najibot (hoho...mesti marah budak kecik ni daku panggil Najibot)...oklaa..panggil dia Jie Kiut..yg ni sure dia tak marah, malah senyum lebar, kan jie kan? hehehe
Jie Kiut hantar e mail pada geng2 kami informing that one of our Chinese female friends has reverted to Islam...Ng Fong Chu has become Nur Farah Hani Ng Abdullah..what a sweet name... dun you think so? :) Alhamdulillah.
SMSed her this afternoon, tapi GM pulak tetiba panggil for short discussion, so only called her at 5 p.m. Her husband yg picked up my phone, and then i had some chit chat with Fong Chu(she doesn't mind i called her as Fong Chu sbb mmg dah biasa kat MMU dulu), but i want to call her Farah pasni, her name bermaksud kegembiraan. I was really excited to hear the good news from Jie, becoz Fong Chu and i were close dulu in MMU, especially during Pre-U.
Farah was my classmate, and she has no religion when she was in Pre-U dulu. We and another friend (can't remember who, maybe Jie, maybe Aniza, maybe Farah) pernah discuss about religion, she said she want to find a new religion..i think her parent are Buddhist kot, can't remember.
But she dun't want to be a Buddhist..she's not an atheist becoz she believe there is God, it's just a matter of time before she really want to pick her own religion.
Shortly before our Pre-U term end, Fong Chu told me that she had converted to Christianity. Of course during that time i felt a lil bit dissapointed coz she chose Christianity instead of Islam, despite of our long conversation and discussions about Islam. Tapi hidayah itu milik Allah, kita cuma mampu berusaha.
When she told me that she had converted to Christianity, i was quite shocked, i still remember she described to me about her visits to church, she used to go to church with African students in Malacca last time. There was one time she told me that she could speak and utter strange words out of nowhere during one of her visits to church, and she thought that it was magic becoz she never learnt or heard the strange words that came out from her mouth.
I said to her rite after she told me that she has become a Chriatian,Fong Chu..now you have decided to be a Christian,i'm happy for you coz you has a faith at last after a long time of seeking and considering which religion works best for you, but please don't stop to seek the truth in your religion, becoz whatever religion in this world are preaching for kindness. I quoted this from Ustaz Fahim if i'm not mistaken. Mendalami dan mempelajari agama akan membentuk peribadi insan yang lebih baik, tidak kira agama apa. Tapi yang pasti, agama Islam adalah yang terbaik. I asked her to study Christianity in depth, so that one day mana tahu she'll learn that Islam is the only religion yg complete and benar, and most important diredhai Allah dunia akhirat.
Di MMU Cyber, saya jarang jumpa Farah coz i took Accounting, meanwhile Farah took Business. But sometimes we met each other and say hi..Farah is a cheerful and peramah to everyone. That's why it's nice to talk to her, and usually we were always laugh and laugh, coz she's someone yg suka ketawa and bergurau.
During our convocation, i had a picture with her and Ika. That was the last time i met her or listen to her voice. Until this morning, when Jie informed us about her, and until this evening, i managed to speak to her.
Her husband is working opposite to my office building (NOC, JRC).When Farah told him that i'm currently working in Fraud Management, his reply was " oo.. Fraud..suka cari salah org tu hehe"..erkk...sabar jelaaa dgr statement tu..mana der Fraud cari salah org..kalau Audit tu mungkin ler..kami kan byk handle external cases..yg dalaman ni byknya Audit...hehe..sian Audit kena kutuk lak skang ni. Hehe.
Alhamdulillah..Maha Suci Tuhan yang memberikan petunjuk dan hidayah kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya.
Now i want to kacau my another Chinese friend plak..nk tanya dia biler dia nk revert to Islam pulak hoho. Ya Allah, Kau bukakanlah pintu hati kawanku sorang ni..kurniakan dia kekuatan untuk berhijrah menjadi seorang Muslim.
Ameen.
Pagi tadi juga terima berita pemergian bapa kepada salah seorang consultant DCBA kami dahulu (ayah Abg Reza), perginya Subuh tadi. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un.
Pemergiannya di dalam bulan Ramadhan, moga rohnya sentiasa dilindungi dan dicucuri rahmat Allah.
Wassalam.
:)
Hari ni ada berita gembira, sbb tu saya menulis di sini.
But before that just nk update yg saya dah habis satu paper..struggling study sbb for the past one whole week, saya demam and tak sihat. Tgh seating exam pun batuk2 lagi. Paper Ethics...this paper mmg tak tau nak kata ok ker tak..sbb kami takde mid term exam..ada assignments, project paper and final exam jek. Hopefully dpt good marks, doakan ek.
This becoming Saturday, my other paper which is Organizational Change & Development (OCD), 8 chapters..malam ni baru nak start belajar sbb semalam penat sgt..tidur awal.
Again, doakan saya juga k.
And this is the best part saya nk beritahu..
This morning my bestfriend Najibot (hoho...mesti marah budak kecik ni daku panggil Najibot)...oklaa..panggil dia Jie Kiut..yg ni sure dia tak marah, malah senyum lebar, kan jie kan? hehehe
Jie Kiut hantar e mail pada geng2 kami informing that one of our Chinese female friends has reverted to Islam...Ng Fong Chu has become Nur Farah Hani Ng Abdullah..what a sweet name... dun you think so? :) Alhamdulillah.
SMSed her this afternoon, tapi GM pulak tetiba panggil for short discussion, so only called her at 5 p.m. Her husband yg picked up my phone, and then i had some chit chat with Fong Chu(she doesn't mind i called her as Fong Chu sbb mmg dah biasa kat MMU dulu), but i want to call her Farah pasni, her name bermaksud kegembiraan. I was really excited to hear the good news from Jie, becoz Fong Chu and i were close dulu in MMU, especially during Pre-U.
Farah was my classmate, and she has no religion when she was in Pre-U dulu. We and another friend (can't remember who, maybe Jie, maybe Aniza, maybe Farah) pernah discuss about religion, she said she want to find a new religion..i think her parent are Buddhist kot, can't remember.
But she dun't want to be a Buddhist..she's not an atheist becoz she believe there is God, it's just a matter of time before she really want to pick her own religion.
Shortly before our Pre-U term end, Fong Chu told me that she had converted to Christianity. Of course during that time i felt a lil bit dissapointed coz she chose Christianity instead of Islam, despite of our long conversation and discussions about Islam. Tapi hidayah itu milik Allah, kita cuma mampu berusaha.
When she told me that she had converted to Christianity, i was quite shocked, i still remember she described to me about her visits to church, she used to go to church with African students in Malacca last time. There was one time she told me that she could speak and utter strange words out of nowhere during one of her visits to church, and she thought that it was magic becoz she never learnt or heard the strange words that came out from her mouth.
I said to her rite after she told me that she has become a Chriatian,Fong Chu..now you have decided to be a Christian,i'm happy for you coz you has a faith at last after a long time of seeking and considering which religion works best for you, but please don't stop to seek the truth in your religion, becoz whatever religion in this world are preaching for kindness. I quoted this from Ustaz Fahim if i'm not mistaken. Mendalami dan mempelajari agama akan membentuk peribadi insan yang lebih baik, tidak kira agama apa. Tapi yang pasti, agama Islam adalah yang terbaik. I asked her to study Christianity in depth, so that one day mana tahu she'll learn that Islam is the only religion yg complete and benar, and most important diredhai Allah dunia akhirat.
Di MMU Cyber, saya jarang jumpa Farah coz i took Accounting, meanwhile Farah took Business. But sometimes we met each other and say hi..Farah is a cheerful and peramah to everyone. That's why it's nice to talk to her, and usually we were always laugh and laugh, coz she's someone yg suka ketawa and bergurau.
During our convocation, i had a picture with her and Ika. That was the last time i met her or listen to her voice. Until this morning, when Jie informed us about her, and until this evening, i managed to speak to her.
Her husband is working opposite to my office building (NOC, JRC).When Farah told him that i'm currently working in Fraud Management, his reply was " oo.. Fraud..suka cari salah org tu hehe"..erkk...sabar jelaaa dgr statement tu..mana der Fraud cari salah org..kalau Audit tu mungkin ler..kami kan byk handle external cases..yg dalaman ni byknya Audit...hehe..sian Audit kena kutuk lak skang ni. Hehe.
Alhamdulillah..Maha Suci Tuhan yang memberikan petunjuk dan hidayah kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya.
Now i want to kacau my another Chinese friend plak..nk tanya dia biler dia nk revert to Islam pulak hoho. Ya Allah, Kau bukakanlah pintu hati kawanku sorang ni..kurniakan dia kekuatan untuk berhijrah menjadi seorang Muslim.
Ameen.
Pagi tadi juga terima berita pemergian bapa kepada salah seorang consultant DCBA kami dahulu (ayah Abg Reza), perginya Subuh tadi. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un.
Pemergiannya di dalam bulan Ramadhan, moga rohnya sentiasa dilindungi dan dicucuri rahmat Allah.
Wassalam.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Ego
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hari ni ada seorang insan menegur saya, jgn ingatkan manusia,tp bykkan zikir. Alhamdulillah ada org sudi beri teguran. Barakallah.
Hari ini juga saya berperang dengan hati sama ada mahu membuat tidak tahu sahaja kepada seorang staff saya yang tidak bersetuju dengan cara saya, atau saya menegur beliau mcm biasa seperti tiada apa2 berlaku.
Setengah hari saya bermesyuarat, hanya keluar drpd bilik meeting melintasi tempat duduk beliau menuju ke pantry untuk meredakan batuk. Saya tidak pandang langsung pada beliau, dan tidak kedengaran langsung gelak ketawa atau suara drpdnya. Apabila memandang saya, wajahnya seperti menunggu reaksi saya selepas menerima kehadiran e mail drnya kelmarin.
Selepas Zohor, saya mengambil keputusan untuk menegur beliau seperti tiada apa2 yg berlaku. Niat saya, akan saya terangkan kepada beliau kenapa saya mengambil tindakan yang tidak dipersetujuinya nanti, yang penting saya perlu pecahkan rasa tidak selesa yang wujud dlm diri saya dan mungkin juga pada beliau.
Saya minta beliau hantar satu e mail pada seorang staff TM yang lain, sambil itu berjenaka mengatakan saya sdh mempunyai suara ratu rock Malaysia, Ella kerana serak akibat sakit tekak, manakala dia pun demam juga, lebih kurang senasib ler kami.
Alhamdulillah, terasa diri saya pun relieve, mungkin juga pada diri beliau...baru kedengaran gelak ketawa beliau selepas kami berbincang mengenai urusan asset tadi.
Cuba bayangkan kalau saya memilih untuk buat tidak tahu sahaja kepada beliau, hanya kerana beliau menyampaikan rasa ketidakpuasan hati mengenai cara saya, mungkin satu hari ini dia tidak berasa gembira di ofis, malah mungkin untuk hari2 seterusnya.
Susah untuk membuang ego apabila kita berada di atas, apatah lagi berurusan dengan orang bawah..tapi kalau kita fikirkan, kita dengan staff kita sama sahaja taraf di mata Allah, maka apalah sgt yg nak dibanggakan, apalah sgt nilai ego yang dipertahankan. Entah2 ibadah dia lebih baik lagi dr kita..entah2 kita mmg lagi hampeh dr dia, betul tak?
So moral of the story...curb your ego and don't be shame to apologize to your staff if you are wrong. No harm for doing that. And it is wonderful to realize that a smile from you could make other people feel happy.
Alhamdulillah, demam dan tekak saya sudah kembali baik, cuma suara masih mcm suara Ella lagi, so kalau ada yg nk dengar suara rock saya, bolehlah call yer hehe.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah, ma'assalamah.
:)
4 Ramadhan
Hari ni ada seorang insan menegur saya, jgn ingatkan manusia,tp bykkan zikir. Alhamdulillah ada org sudi beri teguran. Barakallah.
Hari ini juga saya berperang dengan hati sama ada mahu membuat tidak tahu sahaja kepada seorang staff saya yang tidak bersetuju dengan cara saya, atau saya menegur beliau mcm biasa seperti tiada apa2 berlaku.
Setengah hari saya bermesyuarat, hanya keluar drpd bilik meeting melintasi tempat duduk beliau menuju ke pantry untuk meredakan batuk. Saya tidak pandang langsung pada beliau, dan tidak kedengaran langsung gelak ketawa atau suara drpdnya. Apabila memandang saya, wajahnya seperti menunggu reaksi saya selepas menerima kehadiran e mail drnya kelmarin.
Selepas Zohor, saya mengambil keputusan untuk menegur beliau seperti tiada apa2 yg berlaku. Niat saya, akan saya terangkan kepada beliau kenapa saya mengambil tindakan yang tidak dipersetujuinya nanti, yang penting saya perlu pecahkan rasa tidak selesa yang wujud dlm diri saya dan mungkin juga pada beliau.
Saya minta beliau hantar satu e mail pada seorang staff TM yang lain, sambil itu berjenaka mengatakan saya sdh mempunyai suara ratu rock Malaysia, Ella kerana serak akibat sakit tekak, manakala dia pun demam juga, lebih kurang senasib ler kami.
Alhamdulillah, terasa diri saya pun relieve, mungkin juga pada diri beliau...baru kedengaran gelak ketawa beliau selepas kami berbincang mengenai urusan asset tadi.
Cuba bayangkan kalau saya memilih untuk buat tidak tahu sahaja kepada beliau, hanya kerana beliau menyampaikan rasa ketidakpuasan hati mengenai cara saya, mungkin satu hari ini dia tidak berasa gembira di ofis, malah mungkin untuk hari2 seterusnya.
Susah untuk membuang ego apabila kita berada di atas, apatah lagi berurusan dengan orang bawah..tapi kalau kita fikirkan, kita dengan staff kita sama sahaja taraf di mata Allah, maka apalah sgt yg nak dibanggakan, apalah sgt nilai ego yang dipertahankan. Entah2 ibadah dia lebih baik lagi dr kita..entah2 kita mmg lagi hampeh dr dia, betul tak?
So moral of the story...curb your ego and don't be shame to apologize to your staff if you are wrong. No harm for doing that. And it is wonderful to realize that a smile from you could make other people feel happy.
Alhamdulillah, demam dan tekak saya sudah kembali baik, cuma suara masih mcm suara Ella lagi, so kalau ada yg nk dengar suara rock saya, bolehlah call yer hehe.
Jumpa lagi insya Allah, ma'assalamah.
:)
4 Ramadhan
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Sore throat :(
Assalamualaikum wbt,
I've very painful sore throat today. Feel like my throat is burning rite now. Continuation from my high fever since last 2 days i believe.
Suara mmg tak keluar, this morning presentation i have to import Kak Marina into bilik meeting to present revision of processes on behalf of me. Sgt2 perit rasanya tekak skang ni.
Kena bykkan sabar dlm bulan Ramadhan ni...Ahad ni ada final exam, apa pun tak study lagi. GM dah minta paper HR yg ntah ke berapa kali nk kena submit (jgn salah anggap..the papers keep changing sbb ada request pertukaran from Group HR sendiri, i really thought that on last Friday i'll put my hands off from these papers once we submit them to HR..biler meeting dgn HR byk plak nk kena ammend and isi form baru..penat penat).
Oklah, kepala dah berat..dah tak sabar nk balik umah ni..tak tahan kepala rasa bengang sbb flu, and sakit tekak.
Doakan saya cepat sembuh k.wassalam.
3 Ramadhan.
I've very painful sore throat today. Feel like my throat is burning rite now. Continuation from my high fever since last 2 days i believe.
Suara mmg tak keluar, this morning presentation i have to import Kak Marina into bilik meeting to present revision of processes on behalf of me. Sgt2 perit rasanya tekak skang ni.
Kena bykkan sabar dlm bulan Ramadhan ni...Ahad ni ada final exam, apa pun tak study lagi. GM dah minta paper HR yg ntah ke berapa kali nk kena submit (jgn salah anggap..the papers keep changing sbb ada request pertukaran from Group HR sendiri, i really thought that on last Friday i'll put my hands off from these papers once we submit them to HR..biler meeting dgn HR byk plak nk kena ammend and isi form baru..penat penat).
Oklah, kepala dah berat..dah tak sabar nk balik umah ni..tak tahan kepala rasa bengang sbb flu, and sakit tekak.
Doakan saya cepat sembuh k.wassalam.
3 Ramadhan.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Salam Ramadhan
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, telah panjang usia kita untuk berada di dalam hari kedua Ramadhan.
Saya pasti ramai yang tertunggu kedatangan bulan mulia ini, untuk mengambil kesempatan membersihkan dosa yang berkarat pada diri masing2.
Sayatidak berhajat untuk menulis panjang di sini, kerana saya sedang menggigil kesejukan kerana demam panas sejak semalam. Kedatangan Ramadhan saya disambut dengan demam panas, cubaan dan ujian yang Allah berikan pada awal2 bulan. Takpe, kita terima dengan penuh redha.
Apalah sgt dengan demam panas, kalau nak dibandingkan dnegan penderitaan saudara2 kita di Palestin, Lubnan dan tempat2 lain. Ibarat jauh peluru dari jantung keadaan saya ni :)
Saya cuma mahu ucapkan Selamat Datang pada Ramadhan yang mulia, serta mengucapkan selamat berpuasa dan beramal ibadat pada semua, semoga Ramadhan kali ini adalah yang terbaik di sepanjang kehidupan kita, dan dicurahkan rahmat dan maghfirah atas dosa2 kita yang lalu.
Mohon diri dahulu, ma'assalamah.
2 Ramadhan
Subhanallah walhamdulillah, telah panjang usia kita untuk berada di dalam hari kedua Ramadhan.
Saya pasti ramai yang tertunggu kedatangan bulan mulia ini, untuk mengambil kesempatan membersihkan dosa yang berkarat pada diri masing2.
Sayatidak berhajat untuk menulis panjang di sini, kerana saya sedang menggigil kesejukan kerana demam panas sejak semalam. Kedatangan Ramadhan saya disambut dengan demam panas, cubaan dan ujian yang Allah berikan pada awal2 bulan. Takpe, kita terima dengan penuh redha.
Apalah sgt dengan demam panas, kalau nak dibandingkan dnegan penderitaan saudara2 kita di Palestin, Lubnan dan tempat2 lain. Ibarat jauh peluru dari jantung keadaan saya ni :)
Saya cuma mahu ucapkan Selamat Datang pada Ramadhan yang mulia, serta mengucapkan selamat berpuasa dan beramal ibadat pada semua, semoga Ramadhan kali ini adalah yang terbaik di sepanjang kehidupan kita, dan dicurahkan rahmat dan maghfirah atas dosa2 kita yang lalu.
Mohon diri dahulu, ma'assalamah.
2 Ramadhan
Monday, September 18, 2006
Alhamdulillah :)
Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hidup saya pada minggu lepas...sgt perit.
Sangat lelah sehingga saya mengeluh dan berasa geram yang tidak sepatutnya berlaku sekiranya kita ikhlas bekerja.
Minggu lepas, sejak Selasa sehingga Jumaat, saya sibuk menyediakan proposal for post upgrading for 2 managers in FMD.
We got the news that Job Evaluation Session will be done on Friday on Monday morning, which means we had only about 4 days to prepare, including slide presentation for my GM. I had to prepare all documents like justification paper, JTORS and structure.
Fine, i'm ok with that becoz i had once made the same paper for my current post upgrading.
But this time, the 2 managers were not available in the office for most of the days last week. GM and I had to review and re-write their JTORs. And i had to prepare everything before Friday..and i was working on the papers non-stop for 4 consecutive days. With my head was also thinking and considering about our MCM Fraud which is to be scheduled tomorrow in which i need to prepare all necessary preparations from minutes up to logistics, my assignment which i thought should be submitted last Saturday, and also case presentation for my Ethics class, it was quite stressful for me.
Due to these JTORs and justification paper, i didn't have any chance to look at the project paper (my group decided to take TM as our case study, therefore i need to review the project paper before submission), and i had done nothing for my Ethics.
I felt very stressful on Thursday after submitted my paper and slide presentation to GM. And on Friday i felt like i wanted to cry and quit FMD.
My GM requested to change lots of things in my justification paper and JTORS at 9 a.m on the Friday morning, whereas he need to be at Menara by 10.30 a.m. I was requested to make amendments right here and then,i hate working under pressure becoz i will not be so sure what have i wrote or did under that condition. And i didn't have ample time to revise the documentations before submitting it to GM.
He took the justification paper from my hand while saying that he did not feel confident that he can win during the Evaluation Session coz he did not get good support.
I was so sad hearing that. I felt like i was the one to be blamed for poor documentation and presentation. I really felt like i wanted to cry and hand over my current post to someone else if he wanted me to do so.
The evaluation session was held before Friday prayer. After Friday prayer, the 2 managers and me gathered at meeting room for my slide presentation review for the becoming MCM Fraud Meeting. I was not sure whether my GM was in good mood or not during my presentation, but he did laugh a lil bit when we made jokes over the presentation.
After my presentation, he requested his PA to leave us, and during that time i was really thought that i'll be dead, to be bedah and kena marah.
My GM mentioned about his frustration on the JTOR and documentations. Despite that,I felt relieved.
Why?
Becoz my GM did not blamed me for the poor documentation. He said i was not the one who supposed to do the JTORS and actually those posts were not belong to mine some more. He could not expect me to write in details what are the tasks that relates to this 2 posts becoz i am not the one who do the jobs. Really, during that time i could feel tears from my eyes could come out anytime, becoz i felt so tired and sad. Imagine, after one whole day i felt so miserable, guilty and terrible, the statement that came from his mounth was so relieving.
That nite, i felt asleep early due to tiredness for the one whole week.
And, alhamdulillah, Allah gave me some room to breath as my project paper is supposed to be submitted next week actually, not last weekend.
And today, we had a news that our GCFO's father had passed away last Saturday. The Fraud MCM Meeting tomorrow is cancelled as he still at his hometown.
Subhanallah, last week, my head was cramped with lots of things to be taken care of. Fraud MCM Meeting, presentation, project paper, preparation for GCFO and top management visit to FMD, all need to be accounted for in my life schedule last week. Nevertheless Allah has spared me a time for break that i need very badly, unexpectedly.
Alhamdulillah wa subahanallah :)
Ok, get to go for Zuhr prayer, later k.
Assalamualaikum wbt.
Hidup saya pada minggu lepas...sgt perit.
Sangat lelah sehingga saya mengeluh dan berasa geram yang tidak sepatutnya berlaku sekiranya kita ikhlas bekerja.
Minggu lepas, sejak Selasa sehingga Jumaat, saya sibuk menyediakan proposal for post upgrading for 2 managers in FMD.
We got the news that Job Evaluation Session will be done on Friday on Monday morning, which means we had only about 4 days to prepare, including slide presentation for my GM. I had to prepare all documents like justification paper, JTORS and structure.
Fine, i'm ok with that becoz i had once made the same paper for my current post upgrading.
But this time, the 2 managers were not available in the office for most of the days last week. GM and I had to review and re-write their JTORs. And i had to prepare everything before Friday..and i was working on the papers non-stop for 4 consecutive days. With my head was also thinking and considering about our MCM Fraud which is to be scheduled tomorrow in which i need to prepare all necessary preparations from minutes up to logistics, my assignment which i thought should be submitted last Saturday, and also case presentation for my Ethics class, it was quite stressful for me.
Due to these JTORs and justification paper, i didn't have any chance to look at the project paper (my group decided to take TM as our case study, therefore i need to review the project paper before submission), and i had done nothing for my Ethics.
I felt very stressful on Thursday after submitted my paper and slide presentation to GM. And on Friday i felt like i wanted to cry and quit FMD.
My GM requested to change lots of things in my justification paper and JTORS at 9 a.m on the Friday morning, whereas he need to be at Menara by 10.30 a.m. I was requested to make amendments right here and then,i hate working under pressure becoz i will not be so sure what have i wrote or did under that condition. And i didn't have ample time to revise the documentations before submitting it to GM.
He took the justification paper from my hand while saying that he did not feel confident that he can win during the Evaluation Session coz he did not get good support.
I was so sad hearing that. I felt like i was the one to be blamed for poor documentation and presentation. I really felt like i wanted to cry and hand over my current post to someone else if he wanted me to do so.
The evaluation session was held before Friday prayer. After Friday prayer, the 2 managers and me gathered at meeting room for my slide presentation review for the becoming MCM Fraud Meeting. I was not sure whether my GM was in good mood or not during my presentation, but he did laugh a lil bit when we made jokes over the presentation.
After my presentation, he requested his PA to leave us, and during that time i was really thought that i'll be dead, to be bedah and kena marah.
My GM mentioned about his frustration on the JTOR and documentations. Despite that,I felt relieved.
Why?
Becoz my GM did not blamed me for the poor documentation. He said i was not the one who supposed to do the JTORS and actually those posts were not belong to mine some more. He could not expect me to write in details what are the tasks that relates to this 2 posts becoz i am not the one who do the jobs. Really, during that time i could feel tears from my eyes could come out anytime, becoz i felt so tired and sad. Imagine, after one whole day i felt so miserable, guilty and terrible, the statement that came from his mounth was so relieving.
That nite, i felt asleep early due to tiredness for the one whole week.
And, alhamdulillah, Allah gave me some room to breath as my project paper is supposed to be submitted next week actually, not last weekend.
And today, we had a news that our GCFO's father had passed away last Saturday. The Fraud MCM Meeting tomorrow is cancelled as he still at his hometown.
Subhanallah, last week, my head was cramped with lots of things to be taken care of. Fraud MCM Meeting, presentation, project paper, preparation for GCFO and top management visit to FMD, all need to be accounted for in my life schedule last week. Nevertheless Allah has spared me a time for break that i need very badly, unexpectedly.
Alhamdulillah wa subahanallah :)
Ok, get to go for Zuhr prayer, later k.
Assalamualaikum wbt.
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