Monday, March 26, 2012



Very pleased to watch a snapshot of education program that showing one of our batch friends on TV from the same company I'm working in, and also very nice to hear a blogger that I commonly read her blog has achieved her long dream to produce her own da'wah magazine, it is actually good to hear and watch our friends have reached to the best of their moments.

We should be grateful if more Muslims become more succesful nowadays, as Muslim will get stronger and have better capacity to support the ummah. I wish there will be more Syed Bukhari in the Muslim world today so that we can step up and manage our ummah better, from the economic perspective and consequently the political stability, and vice versa (though Syed Bukhari is not well-known as a political leader).

All this while, I never take seriously when people give advice to read the 3 Qul before sleep, till yesterday when I read the Quran and read the verses, and their translations. My oh My, now I do understand the importance of reading them before sleep, or when we are in trouble. I just get the message, after 32 years old! How slow I am hehe. Nevertheless, I'm still thankful for the new 'ilm I have learnt from the Quran. Really, you need to have to take your own time to tadabbur the Quran. My husband always asks me to read the Quran frequently, if not daily. Me as a working wife and a pregnant mother, without any helper to handle housechores and kids for the past 4 years, reading Quran as the daily activity was seldomly practiced. Such a lame excuse, but that was what happened to me before, and I hope with the new helper taking care the chores and kids, I would be able to have my own time to do my own stuff, including reading the Quran and translation. Let's hope this will materialize as soonest possible k, insya Allah :)


Thursday, March 01, 2012

Feel so small



It's been ages for me to put up something in here. Not that I don't have any good or bad things to share, but I think it will be just day-to-day routine that I do feel will not add value either to me or to the readers, and I'm not keen to do that just for the sake to update my blog. I'm not that type of person who is so rajin to update blog/capture pic and upload etc. Just not type of person, i guess :)

Well, as I'm in the new office and environment, I'm hoping that I would transform to someone better, as a Muslim, a worker, a housewife, a mother, a friend, just to be better in every aspect of life.

I'm now 32 years old, sadly to say if you ask me what good deeds that I have done, I feel so small inside myself. I do feel that if it's time for me to go leaving the world right now, astaghfirullah al'azeem, may Allah forgive me for so many wrong things that I have done in the past. I feel so shame, and may not be able to look up to Him, or to Rasulullah if I get the chance to meet him. That's what I do really feel right now, I do feel ashame of what I have done wrongly in the past, and also my weaknesses of not doing something good that I actually have the capacity to do indeed.

Despite that, I'm also grateful for being transferred into this new office. Whereby I am surrounded by those who are keen to deepen their Islamic understanding and be able to discuss with me about the basic Islamic teachings, and keep inviting me to be with them to join the classes, it is just the matter whether I want to spare my time or not to join these opportunities. Talking to this people make me realized that I should re-prioritise back my life to be involved with these group of circles and improvise myself, as I feel that I'm a little bit lost in the daily hectic days of managing my work and private life.

Feel so small right now, very-very small.

This is the time where we need to be with our circle of friends or people that would strengthen our steps towards the positive and rightful direction. Really it would helps.


Thursday, November 17, 2011