Saturday, March 31, 2007

Maulidur Rasul

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Salam Maulidur Rasul buat semua.

Sekarang ini saya berada di Menara, menemankan Siha bestfriend saya berbincang dengan groupmatenya yang sedang bertungkus lumus menyediakan jawapan final exam. Lecturernya memberikan soalan final exam pada pukul 12 tgh hari ini, dan due date untuk submit balik jawapan final exam pukul 12 tgh hari esok (within 24 hours)...giler best boleh buat exam style mcm nih..sempat ler nk berbincang ngan geng2 camner nk jawab within 1 day. Kalau UIA, jgn harap ler dapat chance mcm ni. Terpaksa ler bertungkus lumus sebelum hari exam and predict soalan apa yang akan kuar and kami akan buat bersama2. Kalau tak kuar soalan yg kami target, nasib ler.

Semalam banjer Ika makan, kami berlima makan di Big Plate, Taman Melawati...Ika's favourite place. Banjer makan sempena Ika akan berpindah ke Melaka (dipinjamkan oleh TM ke VADS selama setahun)...ingat after banjer dia makan, kami akan tolong dia packing barang..tapi disebabkan kami sampai umah pun dia pun lebih kurang kol 11.30 malam..dgn perut yg sarat dgn makanan..ended up kami tertidur instead of tolong dia packing.

This morning dia ada event di sekolah dia..mengajak saya and Siha untuk breakfast dgn Rollie..tapi tak join since Siha pun ada final exam kol 12 tgh hari. I prepared breakfast sambil mendengar siaran TV mengenai Maulidur Rasul.

Entah..tetiba rasa sedih datang..especially melihat Nazrey (bekas penyanyi kumpulan Raihan) menyanyikan lagu nasyid mengenai Rasulullah dengan mata yang berkaca2..saya pun turut ternangis. Rasanya sudah lama saya hanyut dgn kesibukan kerja dan sebagainya.


Saya berharap saya akan menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik di masa akan datang.

Wassalam.


Al Mua'llim

We once had a Teacher
The Teacher of teachers,
He changed the world for the better
And made us better creatures,
Oh Allah we’ve shamed ourselves
We’ve strayed from Al-Mu'allim,
Surely we’ve wronged ourselves
What will we say in front him?
Oh Mu'allim...

Chorus
He was Muhammad salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam,
Muhammad, mercy upon Mankind,
He was Muhammad salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam,
Muhammad, mercy upon Mankind,
Teacher of all Mankind.
Abal Qasim [one of the names of the Prophet]
Ya Habibi ya Muhammad (My beloved O Muhammad)
Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad (My intercessor O Muhammad)
Khayru khalqillahi Muhammad (The best of Allah’s creation is Muhammad)
Ya Mustafa ya Imamal Mursalina (O Chosen One, O Imam of the Messengers)
Ya Mustafa ya Shafi'al 'Alamina (O Chosen One, O intercessor of the worlds)
He prayed while others slept
While others ate he’d fast,
While they would laugh he wept
Until he breathed his last,
His only wish was for us to be
Among the ones who prosper,
Ya Mu'allim peace be upon you,
Truly you are our Teacher,
Oh Mu'allim..

Chorus
Ya Habibi ya Muhammad (My beloved O Muhammad)
Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad (My intercessor O Muhammad)
Ya Rasuli ya Muhammad (O My Messenger O Muhammad)
Ya Bashiri ya Muhammad (O bearer of good news O Muhammad)
Ya Nadhiri ya Muhammad (O warner O Muhammad)
'Ishqu Qalbi ya Muhammad (The love of my heart O Muhammad)
Nuru 'Ayni ya Muhammad (Light of my eye O Muhammad)
He taught us to be just and kind
And to feed the poor and hungry,
Help the wayfarer and the orphan child
And to not be cruel and miserly,
His speech was soft and gentle,
Like a mother stroking her child,
His mercy and compassion,
Were most radiant when he smiled

Chorus
Abal Qasim [one of the names of the Prophet]
Ya Habibi ya Muhammad (My beloved O Muhammad)
Ya Shafi'i ya Muhammad (My intercessor O Muhammad)
Khayru khalqillahi Muhammad (The best of Allah’s creation is Muhammad)
Ya Mustafa Ya Imamal Mursalina (O Chosen One O Imam of the Messengers)
Ya Mustafa ya Shafi'al 'Alamina (O Chosen One O intercessor of the worlds)

Friday, March 23, 2007

1 April

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Akhirnya berkesempatan nak mencoret sesuatu di sini.

Seharian menyiapkan slide presentation Tn Hj untuk tujuan CAP di Johor dan Melaka..semalam menerima SMS dr Tn Hj, katanya mahu berjumpa pada pukul 8.45 pagi untuk discuss about my presentation material. Me sudah takut..ada rasa mcm mungkin akan kena marah sbb my slide tak memenuhi expectationnya.

Pagi ini terpaksa membatalkan hasrat untuk pergi training COMPASS di Menara. Terpaksa subcon pada Pn Hasiah RA, janji untuk belajar dgn dia Isnin depan. Keadaan memaksa untuk sacrifice trainin session ni..lagipun pernah join training COMPASS sebelum ini. Makanya sehari suntuk menghadap slide presentation, selepas berjumpa dgn Tn Hj. Alhamdulillah..ingatkan slide saya akan dapat bad comments, tapi alhamdulillah Tn Hj minta saya enhancekan sket statistics untuk Johor dan Melaka.

Tn Hj and the team akan ke Johor dan Melaka seminggu..betapalah rasanya ia satu rahmat kerana seminggu ini akan digunakan keseluruhannya untuk menghadap keperluan ISO. Waaa..banyak giler keje ISO kena buat..mau nangis dibuatnya.

Chaiyyo Zurina..insya Allah boleh..kalau tak boleh..pulangkan balik kat Tn Hj or QMR hehe.

Ok eh..nak lepak umah Mak Teh malam ni with my younger sistas..dah lama giler tak stay umah dia sbb kelas selalu Sabtu Ahad, tak berkesempatan nak lepak.

Tak sabar juga menunggu 1 April..my MBA batch buat re-union di KLCC...best2! Tak taulaa naper buat cepat sangat...tapi tak kisahlah..yang penting kitorang akan berkumpul balik..sure gempak re-union kitorang nih..cuma Kak Maz jek tak dpt dtg sbb adik dia kahwen...hmm..takpe..Kak Ika, Kak Win, Kak Yana and the rest akan dtg. Azwan masih di Dubai..rindu plak kat mamat sorang nih...for me dia nih considered budak nakal yg pintar..rindu plak zaman me, Kak Yana and Azwan satu group assignment. Mmg kitorang selalu buat grouping bersama sebelum berpecah specialization. Kak Yana ambil Finance, meanwhile Azwan and me took Strategic Mgt. Kalau mamat nih ada..sure mmg riuhlaa reunion kitorang. Zack plak tak dpt join..akn sunyilah sket Abg Man..tapi takpe..Am, Kak Yana, Kak Maz Leeds, Kak Win, Kak Ika ada hehe.

Ok eh..ilal li qa' wassalamualaikum :)

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Surah Al-Asr

Surah Al-Asr

(EVENTIDE OR THE EPOCH)

Surah #103 Consisting of 3 Ayahs


بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِِ

In Allah's Name, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.



By the eons of Time!
وَالْعَصْرِ

Surely, Man is ever in a state of loss!
إِنَّ اْلإنسَانَ لَفِي خُسْرٍ

except for those who believe and do good deeds,
إِلاَّ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ

and encourage one another to the Truth,
وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ

and encourage one another to be steadfast.
وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِ






والْعَصْرِ

By the eons of time!

In this Surah, Allah (swt) starts with the idea of the importance and power of time through the ages. Allah is saying that time never stands still. It goes on. We are running a race against time because whenever we do not follow the principles of Islam we shall be behind. It is only the spiritual part of us that can conquer time. After this brief introduction, God says:



إِنَّ اْلإنسَانَ لَفِي خُسْرٍ

Surely, Man is ever in a state of loss!

Allah says if man pays all his attention to material things, he will lose in the long run. Material things are only of some importance, but not the ultimate goal. To be influential can be important too, but it is not the ultimate goal either. If we are after possession and riches, if we are after power or reputation, we may stand to lose, since they are not the ultimate goals either.

What really counts goes beyond these material goals—it is faith. This spiritual part is most important, since it is the side of us that can lead to eternal bliss.

Here Allah is making a comparison of a materialistic loss to a spiritual loss. Because people understand concepts related to commerce, Allah puts this idea into a market value.

The Ayah says most people are losing, are in a state of loss in their spiritual state, just the same as someone might be constantly losing money in a commercial venture EXCEPT



إِلاَّ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ

except those who believe and do good deeds,

The only people who will not be losing all the time are those who accept the Religion of Islam—who have faith in it and do good deeds.

Allah Almighty says man is a loser if he is only after material wealth and worldly aims. The person who wins is the one who truly believes in Allah and Islam, and does good deeds, he will earn Paradise.

Allah had mentioned those phrases in many Surahs because they are so important. The two phrases are:

Those who believe and do good deeds.

If a person believes in Islam and has full faith, he will improve himself and become a person of integrity. Rituals of the faith alone are not enough. It is doing the good deeds that complements faith, and both count high in Islam. Doing good deeds is highly valued. Doing good deeds is a form of worship. It is perform­ing the religious duties. Doing good deeds is practicing your religion.

Belief and good deeds go hand in hand, each complimenting the other.



وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ

and encourage one another to the Truth,

Allah adds that the truly successful ones constantly are in a search for the Truth and encourage others to seek the Truth.

The successful are the believers who do good deeds, who encourage others to hold to the Truth and spread it.



وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِ

And encourage one another to be steadfast.

A Muslim not only does good deeds and encourages others to adhere to the Truth, but will also encourage others to be steadfast in their belief in Allah. A Muslim will encourage others to think and consider, not to make haste, to have hope, and to have confidence in Allah. No matter what happens to a Muslim he knows that it is from the hand of Allah and that is the best for him.



THROUGH SURAH AL-ASR ALLAH WANTS US TO LEARN:

that time on this earth is extremely valuable, we should take advantage of it.

that we should put our time to good use and not waste it.

that if we do not use our time to advance our spiritual well-being, we stand to lose.

that the only people who are not losing or running behind are believers in Allah.

the truly faithful constantly help others and do good deeds.

that the genuine success is to look for and follow the Truth.

that the only people who are not losing are those who encourage others to hold on to their faith in Allah and practice patience.



Briefly said, Spiritual success comes through:

Ø Iman, or faith of Islam,

Ø Doing good deeds,

Ø Encouraging others to stick to the Truth and to spread it,

Ø Encouraging others to be patient and wait for what might show up.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Abg Roslan, Kak Fari dan ESQ :D

Assalamualaikum wbt,

:)

Ah..saya tidak tersangka akan menemui Kak Fari dan Abg Roslan setelah sekian lama tidak ketemu..Abg Roslan baru balik dr Arab Saudi atas urusan kerja..terima kasih Hany dan Zainal kerena mengajak saya bersama..rugi Ika tak dpt datang..kalau tak lagi meriah umah Kak Fari dibuatnya hehe.

Abg Roslan dan Kak Fari beriyer2 mempromosikan seminar ESQ pada kami...Emotional & Spiritual Quotient by an Indonesian speaker...next program will be at PWTC in April..the fee will be abt one thousand something...En. Budi had told me abt this program before..the one thousand tu is a life time fee sahaja..after this you can join future program at no cost at all :)

Kak Fari tak sihat..she's having Luphus (tak tau ler betul ker idak spelling ni)..Ika ajak lawat Kak Fari before dia balik Melaka ni..tell you what...she was so excited and happy biler kami lawat dia..siap kena peluk hehe. Bebudak DCBA...biler lagi nak buat plan lawat Kak Fari ni? Ehsan dah besar tau..hensem plak tu..Jannah pun dapat good result for SPM..tak tanya plak dia score baper..tapi excellent laa hehe. Kak Fari masak best malam tu.. Abg Roslan ramah bertanyakan 'kerjaya' Zainal as an OCD practitioner huhu...Jenal..ingat aa..buat program untuk Gen XY...kami ni kan customers awak..kan Hany, kan? Hehe.

Kak Fari intend nak buka sekolah..alhamdulillah..her nurseries are well known skang ni..Little Caliph..bagus sgt2..cuma Kak Fari kurang sihat skang ni..Kak Fari offer Hany keje..dr kol 7 sampai kol 1 jek..mcm best eh Hany..leh memain ngan bebudak huhu.

Nuha dah besar..tapi tak taulaa dia ikut muka saper..nak kata muka Hany pun idak sgt..nak kata muka Jenal pun..mcm takde iras huhu..Nufayl mcm biasa..comel mcm tu gak..rugi tak bawa camera..kalau tak leh snap gambar letak kat sini.

Semalam lepak umah Ika lepas treat my youngest sister and her friend kat KL...Siha takde sbb dia sibuk nak buat class presentation..kalau dia ada mg best aa weekend kitorang..Aishah and Kak Zura dtg sekali membincangkan plan kitorang yang belum boleh nak direveal kat sini..Ika siap buat plan besar kat umah dia..hopefully bleh join derang...mcm best giler. Kalau jadi..mmg best :D Kak Zura baring2 sbb dia tak cukup tidur semalam..tup tup tertidur. Last2 derang pun tidur sekali kat umah Ika..best best.

Plan esok nak pi umah Farah Wahidah..Jie pun katanya nak join..but have to be cancelled sbb ada bende nk kena buat..tgklah next week ker Farah..Jie pun dah start keje dah time tu..nanti leh lawat Mizie and Ida sekali..aku dah janji dah ngan derang kalau takde aral, kita nak pi melawat. Mizie kata lambat lagi nak hantar Ida balik Kelantan. Kita plan next weekend eh..moga2 plan ok. Banyak benda kita kena discuss ni :D

Ada satu kelas tafseer and Bahasa Arab free kat area Bank Negara..Ika pernah cakap dulu..semalam baru dpt brochure...mcm interested nak pergi..kelas free lak tuh..one whole day hari Ahad. Next posting saya sertakan sekali detail program..pergi reramai pun ok gak,kan..Ika dah nak balik Melaka..sure tak leh join..Siha pun ada kelas Master belah pagi..nampak gaya kalau jadi nak join..pi sengsorang ler nampak gayanya :)

Actually dah lama mencari kelas tafseer..tapi selalunya org ajar nak baca Quran..bukan tafseer Quran. Ni nak kena menanamkan azam nak pegi..rasanya nak ajak my auntie pegi sekali..dia pun suka kelas tafseer ni. Kitorang dah lama stop kelas Arabic due to my MBA class dulu...my auntie pulak ambil CIA paper..tak dpt nak bagi komitmen. Skang ni dah habis belajar..blehlah kot nak join balik kelas2 mcm ni. Rindu plak ngan UIA PJ skang ni.

Kak Maz and Jan sambung ambil kelas Derivatives under Dr Obay..actually plan nak buat subject audit..tapi biler Dr Obay cakap kena buat assignment and project paper, sama mcm bebudak lain..addooii..tu yg tak larat tu. Skang ni mcm dah tak larat nak buat assignment balik..penat aaa. Kalau ambil kelas Derivatives tu..kami cuma dapat exemption final exam jek..yg lain sumer sama ngan student lain. Ler..kalau dah mcm tu..baik tak yah buat audit subject..buat subject bebetul lagi bagus sbb dah alang2 kita buat assignment and project paper..baik ambil final exam terus. Tapi i mmg lemah bab2 subject Finance ni..otak tak dpt nak compute bagus sgt compared to other subjects. Kalau time subject Finance jek..mesti kena belajar lebih sket sbb takut fail. Compared to Accounting questions..sepanjang mana pun soalan..sesusah mana pun..at least blehlaa nak proceed and pk mcm mana nak buat walaupun tak sure betul ker idak..tapi kalau soalan Finance, kalau tak faham soalan dah satu masalah..biler dah tak faham soalan..tak tau nk proceed mcm mana, tu yg takut tu...nasib baik buat Finance under Dr Kameel dulu..senang sket hehe. And nasib baik jugak my classmates mmg terer Finance..Ai Ngoh, Kak Maz and Azrul mmg byk tolong ler..kalau idak..habis aa..hehe.

Aini..ko jadi nak ambil Islamic Banking,kan? Kalau ko minat,ambik jek..let say kalau dlm 2 minggu ko rasa mcm tak best..minta tukar specialization kat Mgmt Centre..derang leh considernya..tak yah risau :)

Aida..million thanks..jazikillah for your dedicated posting to me..saper bleh luper kita selalu bermarathon waktu belajar dulu..syukran for being so supportive..we all know each other very well..that's matter the most to me actually :)

Oklah eh..jumpa lagi insya Allah..assalamualaikum :)

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Hati sudah kebal

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Lama dah tak bersua di sini :)

Alhamdulillah saya sudah tahu cerita sebenar mengapa kawan2 ofismate saya mengasingkan diri dr saya, gara2 kontroversi kisah saya ni seorang yg perfectionist.

Saya menghantar e mail pada dua rakan saya semalam kerana tak berkesempatan untuk menerangkan perkara sebenar pada mereka during lunch. Saya mengajak mereka lunch, tapi ditolak. Takpelah, saya memberanikan diri saya untuk menghantar e mail, beritahu apa kisah sebenar. And they replied back my e mail accordingly.

Rupanya mereka merasakan saya ni seperti membelakangkan mereka kerana saya ni perfectionist, and seperti menyinggung perasaan rakan-rakan. I have no idea actually how come this thing become an issue, but i believe semuanya berpunca drpd virus tak puas hati drpd seseorang di unit ini, dan kemudian menular kepada yang lain-lain.

Ketika diberitahu sedemikian rupa, saya rasa gembira coz at least they told me what they felt dissatisfied abt me, at least i'm no longer blur abt what is actually happening all these while..yet i dun agree abt some of their points saying that saya seperti membelakangkan kawan2 dan tidak put trust on them, just becoz i'm perfectionist. I do think i know myself better, and all these while i do trust them, kalau tak takkanlah spend masa sesama selama ni. Tak taulah mcm mana boleh jadi isu distrust ni sebenarnya.

Bagi saya perfectionist ini umpama membuat sesuatu sehabis baik, walaupun pada pandangan org luar takdelah bagus sgt, but for me i want my work to be sehabis baik, selagi saya tak puas hati saya takkan hantar kerja saya pada GM or pada lecturer kalau time saya study dulu. Saya tidak pernah bermaksud nak merendah-rendahkan kerja org lain. It was funny some people regard that one as satu statement menyombong diri, which i dun even have that kind of intention pun at the first place.

Klakar...tapi i apologize jer ler kerana at least mereka beritahu what they felt over me, i respect their feelings. Cumanya sekarang ini saya sudah belajar utk reserve certain things to myself only, takut2 disalahertikan lagi. Istilah perfectionist ini hanya timbul ketika saya berbual dgn seseorang di unit ini, di mana ketika itu saya admit bahawa saya seseorang yang perfectionist. Entah bagaimana istilah itu jadi satu kontroversi satu ofis, dan akibatnya jadi havoc begini. Pasti ada yang bercerita dan kemudian disalaherti oleh org lain. Saya rasa being perfectionist to my own job is actually takde bende, it is only a plain statement, tapi bagi org lain mcm berlagak ler pulak. Tak faham manusia ni kekadang. Orang maksudkan lain, lain pula yang difahami.

Baru ler saya tahu hati manusia ni berbeza-beza, ada yg buat muka manis di depan tapi menikam di belakang. Takpe, saya berlindung kepada Allah dr org2 yang bersifat hasad dengki sebegini. Selagi saya boleh sabar, saya sabar. Harap2 tiada doa buruk yg terkeluar dr mulut saya ketika saya terasa teraniaya sebegini.

Skang ni, hati sudah kebal, mungkin kerana saya sudah berbuat yang sepatutnya seperti minta maaf and buat penjelasan. Kalau lepas ni buat perangai lagi dengan saya, minta maaf, saya takkan terhegeh2 lagi nak minta maaf and clarify things, sbb dah malas. Kalau rasa nak terima saya, silakan..kalau tak nak..saya akan berbuat biasa sahaja. Asyik nak jaga perasaan org, org tak nak jaga perasaan kita. Bak kata Aniza waktu kami keluar sama dulu:

"Siti, kalau kita buat baik pun org kenakan kita mcm ni, baik kita buat jahat betul, hati tak sakit dibuatnya". Hehe, ganas eh statement ni..tapi mmg kekadang terasa nak gak buat mcm tu. Agaknya saya ni jenis lembut, tak melawan, tak reti nak melaser2 org..bolehlah dibuat sesuka hati.

Takpelah...saya ada plan saya sendiri. Sekarang ini matlamat saya ialah untuk memperbaiki prestasi unit saya...dan ada urusan lain yg lebih penting saya utamakan. Sehingga ini sahaja saya akan bercerita mengenai perkara ini, selepas ini saya akan mengambil tindakan berhati2 dengan siapa saya berbicara, dan tentang apa yang saya perbicarakan.

A quote dari GM saya ketika saya tersalah hantar SMS padanya berkenaan dengan adik saya yang risau tidak dapat ke oversea:

Gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man without trial.

Saya anggap ini sebagai dugaan dan ujian dr Allah, moga diberikan kesabaran. Lepas ni nk buat mcm Hany, kalau nak bercerita jer, kena bagi terms and conditions pada org yg nak mendengar, kena make sure dia faham bebetul citer supaya tidak disalahertikan lagi. Huhu.

Wassalam