Monday, February 20, 2006

After quite some time

Assalamualaikum wbt,


Forgive me, for being so quiet for quite some time, i think this is the longest period that i ever made my blog leaved empty, due to some reasons. I was so bz that i could not even lay my fingers on this blog. I was almost forgotten that i have a blog actually.Hehe.

Starting from last January, i was officially been appointed as Business Controller in FMD. Being a BC, the responsibility that comes along with the post is heavy, since i need to cater several area of scopes at one time. Alhamdulillah Kak Marina, our new staff had came and been assigned by GM to assist me. The burden has lessen a lil bit with her new existence in FMD. Since she is new, i had to teach her about FMD, what reports need to be submitted to our GM and GCFO, the format and what data she need to look into to come out with the reports. She is with TM since last 7 years, but for the past 4 years she was away, went to Washington following her husband who was transferred there. Imagine, after being a full housewife and leaved PC and stuff all behind, she need to catch up a lot to meet her report due dates. I was bz then helping her to get her understand all processes in FMD and how to come out with reports.

At the same time, my final exam was scheduled in end of January. I had Financial Analysis and MIS as my subjects for the semester. For MIS, i had submissions for almost every week. Never had so much submissions for a subject before this actually, but it was ok for me actually, quite fun also while doing those submissions :). The final exams were ok to me, not sure whether can score or not, but i've tried my best to answer. The worst part of the final exam was that, there was no break between the 2 exams, as we have 2 papers in 2 consecutive days. We used to have 1 week break from one paper to the another actually. This rule did not applied to last semester becoz my geng and me "menggatal2" changed our subject to avoid this one particular lecturer, who we know that he loves to give Internet assignment so much to his students, therefore we went for another subject which is the MIS as Strategic Mgmt students did not sit this paper in the previous sem, which was supposedly taken together with our friends from other specializations.

Then after the final exam, i had to rush for loads of tasks that need to be taken care of especially the statistics and preparations for Fraud MCM Meeting. Everytime this meeting is to be held, i will start get bz digging info from here and there, make follow ups from other divisions, send e mails to all respective GM asking for progress and status update, make presentation slide for GM and report since we FMD is the secretariat to this committee meeting, . It took about 2 weeks to accomplish all these tasks just for a meeting. Very tiring and mind blowing task actually.

This morning, the Fraud MCM Meeting was over. That's why i have the time to write in here, despite the fact that actually next week i have to prepare for FMD Monthly meeting, of course with the report, statistics and other stuff. Luckily Kak Marina is helping me a lot on this, i just need to vet through her report and presentation slides only.

One thing since i was been appointed as a BC, several people in FMD has said that i was not friendly and huha as before. I was quite sad to hear that comment actually, but thinking it over and over again, i should be grateful for i know there are people who are concern about me, and had made an effort to tell me their feelings so that i know that they are not happy with the situation. I felt bad actually becoz i dun like people feel dissatisfied over me, so i promised to them that i will change to become friendlier insya Allah. The truth is, i did not put some distance between me and them just becoz i was appointed as a BC. Without i realized actually, I had turned to be more silent and not as chatty as before asi had lots to catch up especially with all my assignments and final project, plus the daily office tasks. With the pressure of no-break-final exams some more, i guess i had became so quiet and gave full concentration on my job in the office, so that i can allocate my time at night for my assignments, as i concentrate on my job, i became less huha huha with my friends as i have not enough time for that as compared to before, and as a result, i was perceived as an unapproachable person during that time.

Hehe, quite funny for me when i re-think about this. I never know that whatever i do have some impacts to some other peoples' life and feelings, as i perceive myself as a nobody to give such impacts to them. They actually thought that i ignored them at the first place! Oo my God, that never across in my mind actually. But truly, i felt blessed for this, as now i know how meaningful i am to them, how much i realized that having laughters and joke with them is so much important eventho i used to get bullied by Midun, Zaki and geng2 Investigation. Feel happy for that, as now i know that there are some people who are concern and love me very much hohoho :D

The second test was when Kak Fida (the previous BC) had asked us to change my cubicle with her room. In FMD, there is a big room which meant for managers allocated for a BC. Can you imagine how bad i felt when Kak Fida requested me to swap our workplace. She used to be in her room for the last 3 years, and now i will take over her place. So sad isn't it? Eventho Kak Fida is a very professional person and did not show her sadness, but other collueges had made some jokes, saying that she was degraded, from having a big room and now go for a cubicle. I felt bad so much actually that i kept quiet for the whole day. I really did not know how to react to those jokes as it was not me who ask the change for workplace. Honestly, i dun mind not to be seated in the big room, i can always perform my tasks at my own cubicle, but it seems Kak Fida did not feel comfortable to work in this big room as it is meant for BC. I need to inform you that Kak Fida is beng transferred to other unit in FMD, she is seated in a higher grade post by GM so that she will have a chance to be upgraded, but as she was no longer a BC, that's why she need to change her place with me. And now, i have a big room, a very comfortable room for myself. I never expect that i will be in this room permanently holding the post of BC eventho i did wish that i one day i will become one.

Alhamdulillah, everything went fine until today. Of course there are lots to do as i have to prepare some proposal and justifications paper for budget etc, plus supervise people under me which demand good leadership skill, but i'm happy with the current situation. Alhamdulillah.

I think i have to stop now. To some of you who had missed my writings a lot (cheaaa...mcmlah ada yer kekeke), thanks for keep visiting eventho there was no updates before for quite some time. Insya Allah if there is any chance for me to update, i will do so insya Allah.

To Aini, congrats for being accepted to pursue your MBA in both of us could make havoc in UIA yah! ;) Congrats also to Hany for being expecting again, eventho i am among the first to know that she's pregnant since last January hehe. Same also to Farra, Walida (Mudin's wife) and lastly Ainul in Germany who are expecting their babies, and lastly to Ika for expecting 'other thing", perhaps Ika could reveal that thing during our meeting with our beloved Chancellor on 6 May 2006.. i know Ika will kill me for this keke.

Alrite guys, before end, i'd love to wish you all best of luck in everything you do, and may Allah bless us always.


Assalamualaikum wbt.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Salam Maal Hijrah

Assalamualaikum wbt,


Saya ke ofis utk menstudykan diri, di rumah saya tak boleh nk study..kerana adik2 perempuan saya sdg giler membuat kuih dan kek (tak tau ler naper Eqa my younger sis sungguh rajin bake kek dan kuih kat umah skang ni..hari2 masak sampai ibu saya cakap "Korang ni asyik makan jer ek?" Hehe.. gelak besar kitorang dgr ibu cakap camtu.

I'm happy rite now sbb adik2 saya sumer ada di rumah kecuali adik saya Imi yg berada di UUM, pastu cuti seminggu yg memberi saya kerehatan yg tiada taranya walaupun saya kena study utk final exam saya Sabtu dan Ahad depan(takde break langsung for both papers)..apa pun at least otak saya tidak ditimbuni dgn masalah ofis. Alhamdulillah :)

Last Sunday, went to majlis waleemah Abg Faizal..dari jauh sudah kedengaran kompang ketika kami baru park kereta. Meriah sungguh...fisrt time ler kenal Kak Jawahir, zaujah Abg Faizal. The best part for me on that verily day...was when i looked at Abg Faizal's face, and his smile. To see he smile on that night since Kak Iqin passed away, was so priceless to me. Felt like i have my bro back and alive again, with peace and lots of smile. Alhamdulillah...i wish Abg Faizal will be happy with his new family, and not to be forgotten that Kak Iqin will be always at our heart and mind. Who will be ever forget to such a loving and respectful sister? I pray Kak Iqin will be in peace with Allah's bless, insya Allah :)

Abg Faizal..dun time if i call you or vice versa, you won't find me kat tepi sungai lagi ehehe. Instead of tepi sungai...mungkin iena dah berenang2 dlm sungai kot hehe (just kidding ok..kang abg ingat bebetul pulak iena terjun sungai hoho)

Last Tuesday saya keluar dgn Ika, we hanged out kat Sogo since Ika kena cari kasut baru. Berjam-jam kat sana tengok segala barang sambil Ika cakap tak henti2..agaknya sbb dah lama sgt tak jumpa saya kot kecuali pada majlis waleemah Abg Faizal Ahad lepas, tu yg dia sungguh excited bercerita segala benda kat saya hehe. Tapi serious..saya rasa heaven betul berkesempatan keluar dan bersemuka dgn Ika..rasa refreshing betul. Rasa mcm saya kembali menjadi diri saya yg huha huha sebelum saya ditimbuni dgn kerja yang menyebabkan saya migraine tak henti2 seminggu lepas hoho. Bestlaa..and we had lamb chop for our lunch...and to tell you the truth..i cannot sleep at all for 1 hour sbb terasa panas sgt malam tu..agaknya sbb makan lamb chop tu kot. Took a shower at 11 p.m sbb tak tahan panas sgt..tak boleh tido lagi sampai pukul 1 pagi..tu pun kena pakai kipas. Huh..power jugak aa makan lamb chop ni..boleh tahan panas. Sebelum ni makan lamb chop takde ler plak rasa sepanas lamb mana ntah agaknya..lamb import kot..mmg panas aa malam tu sampai tak leh tidur hehe.

Lepas beli kasut, pegi temankan Ika pegi umah cikgu dia kat Sek Men Teknik KL dulu..nk bincang pasal alumni. Kalau ler dr awal mmg tau plan Ika nak pegi umah cikgu dia..mmg me tak ikut. Malu jek..kita dahlaa bukan budak sekolah dia, tetiba kena ikut perjumpaan sekolah dia..haiyaa. Nasib baik aa geng2 Ika jenis boleh bawak bercerita..takde aa segan sgt. Cikgu Ika pun ok, very nice :)

Last Friday i met my GM for our post mortem session. Mmg tetiap tahun buat and kena bedah siasat on our weaknesses etc. It's good sebenarnya to have this session..and guess what..i had made a statement that i felt will become a very famous quotation for my GM this year.

He asked me about his Point To Ponder ( this is like some sort of muhasabah diri, but in a very sarcastic way kalau pk pk) i straight away told him that i hate it and i mentioned that my first impression for that Point To Ponder was "Tn Hj ni takde keje ker aa nk buat bebende ni?"...and he was got so surprised and laughed when i told him that. Habis ler me after this..mmg kena sembelih aa after this ekeke.

Takpe aa..kata sesi post mortem..kang kalau cakap tak jujur kang, baik tak yah buat post mortem kan? The best part was that, i asked for his forgiveness coz sometimes either it was intended or not, kekadang kita buat ghibah, especially time kalau tgh pressure. He understood and forgave me..and he said..biler saya dah naik corporate ladder nanti, the same thing will happen to me becoz it is so hard to meet all people's expectations..and i felt relieved after he forgave me. Lebih baik minta maaf awal2..mana tau kang tetiba Allah jemput kita, tak sempat plak nk minta maaf. Azam tahun baru ni..tak nak kutuk2 GM dah..penat asyik nk minta maaf jek..penat satu..segan pun satu hehe :D

To Azizaffa..syukran for visiting..i really like your blog coz i love astronomy actually..i love to watch stars, planets and whatsoever things at the sky, eventho i dunno them in details. I once had created a website for my Pre-U IT-related subject, and i picked Astronomy as my content for my website. Not bad though..hehe. And Azizaffa..i dun only like the look of your blog, the contents of it is also resourceful..guys..please visit his/her's very beneficial.

Tu jek nk citer, setelah sekian lama saya tak bercerita di blog ni. Kekadang terasa otak saya sudah tidak secerdas dulu dek sbb tepu ngan segala benda..assignment, project..bla bla. I have to start my study now, or else tak sempat nk habiskan my target of the day. Exam exam...bestnyaaaaaa kalau takde exam hoho.

Salam Maal Hijrah to all, semoga tahun baru ini menjanjikan sejuta kebaikan dan rahmat pada antum semua.