Monday, October 24, 2005

Erti sebuah persahabatan

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Maaf di atas sepinya blog ini, say menghadiri kursus dan kemudian sibuk dengan tugasan sedia ada.

Hari ini saya dapat result exam, alhamdulillah bolehlah dikatakan cemerlang walaupun sebenarnya aim nak dapat 4 flat hehe. Saya kurang gemar subject calculation, tapi alhamdulillah dimurahkan rezeki utk score Quantitative Decision Making (QDM) sem ni. Begitu juga dgn subject Finance yang saya ambil semester lepas.

Alhamdulillah.

Hari ini saya gembira kerana saya dapat good result, plus saya sudah present monthly report saya di dalam monthly management meeting this evening.

Tapi di dalam kegembiraan, terselit juga perkara yang meninggalkan kesan di dalam hati saya.

Ketika saya sedang menyiapkan presentation slide for management meeting petang tadi, saya terima satu panggilan.

Saya akui saya sudah lama tidak mendengar suara pemanggil. Ketika menjawab, saya dapat kesan suaranya tidak seperti biasa. Suara seperti ingin menangis.

Dan memang suara itu seperti ingin menangis, cuma saya tidak pernah sangka yang si pemanggil akan menangis kerana saya.

Beliau terasa hati kerana kami seperti sudah tidak rapat seperti dahulu. Fikirnya, saya sudah punya kawan-kawan baru yang lebih sefikrah dengan saya. Sebab itu sudah jarang berhubung dengannya.

Saya pujuk beliau agar tidak menangis, dan berjanji saya akan bertemunya nanti.

Tamat perbualan, saya pula yang menangis. Tangisan yang terharu atas perhatian seorang sahabat, dan hati tak henti-henti menyalahkan diri kerana tidak terus menghubungi beliau setiap kali saya teringatkannya. Sering kali saya teringatkan beliau kerana kami memang sangat rapat, tapi tangan saya seperti tak tercapai untuk mencapai handphone untuk bertanya khabar.

Tapi saya juga turut gembira kerana saya berada dekat di hati beliau walaupun beliau sudah punya komitmen yang lebih besar dan lebih utama. Saya betul-betul amat gembira.

Bukankah kita akan biasanya akan makan hati dengan orang yang kita kasihi?

Syukran pada si pemanggil, dan jazakallah pada semua yang mengenali dan sudi bersahabat dan bersaudara dengan saya.

Hari ini saya belajar bahawa kita perlu menyediakan masa untuk bertanya khabar dan berhubung dengan sahabat-sahabat dan saudara-mara. Masa itu bukan hanya patut diperuntukkan untuk diri kita seorang.

Insya Allah akan cuba untuk menjadi seorang sahabat yang lebih prihatin. Sememangnya saya mmg kadang-kadang seperti glacier di Antartika yang memang hanya bergerak sendiri secara senyap dan tidak peduli kadang-kadang dengan apa yang berlaku di sekeliling. Memang bukan seorang yang boleh dikatakan caring orangnya. Saya menyedari sifat ini ketika saya mempunyai 2 orang adik angkat di sekolah menengah dulu. Kasihan mereka kerana dapat kakak angkat yang tak caring mcm saya :)

Apa pun, i've learnt a valuable lesson today, and i'm very happy for having such a caring friend that take me very close to her heart.

Wassalam.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum wbt,


Saudara-saudaraku sekalian,

Sekiranya kemalasan mahupun tabiat buruk masih menghambat diri ketika kita berada di bulan Ramadhan ini, mahu dipersalahkan syaitankah lagi?

Tidak bukan?

Pastinya salah nafsu yang tidak dididik dengan baik.

Pastinya kerana bad habits atau kebiasaan buruk yang tidak dikikis habis sehingga terbawa-bawa ke bulan mulia ini.

Bulan Ramadhan ini bulan didikan dan tarbiyah, untuk kita hapuskan segala dosa dan noda yang telah terkumpul sekian lama.

Yakin sudah kita akan berjumpa dengan Ramadhan tahun hadapan?

Belum tentu.

Maka kerana itu kita perlu rebut segala peluang yang ada ini untuk beramal.

Masa tidak menunggu kita, masih bermain-mainkah lagi kita?

Rezeki di depan mata melimpah ruah, tidak tahu bersyukurkah kita dengan mengerjakan apa yang diperintah dan meninggalkan apa yang dilarang olehNya?

Sekiranya di bulan mulia ini masih terikut-ikut dengan perangai lama yang sepatutnya diubah, maka tak mustahil nanti kita akan menyesal.

Jangan ditunggu sehingga masa penyesalan itu tiba.

Tak gerunkah kita?


Note: Catatan ini dibuat hasil refleksi terserempak dengan seorang pemuda Islam yang smoking dengan selambanya sambil melintas di depan saya di siang hari di bulan Ramadhan. Mmg terasa tersirap darah dibuatnya.

How dare he, how dare! Di depan public? Tak terasa malukah?

Sigh.

Wassalam.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Selamat Hari Lahir

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Just wanna wish..

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR to Ika and Hany yang recently celebrate their birthdays :)

Moga Allah panjangkan umur antuma, sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki dan sentiasa diletakkan di bawah lindungan kasihNya.

:)

Maaf tak dapat mencoret panjang, saya ada urusan yang perlu diselesaikan.

Wassalam :)

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Sasau

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Kaifa haalukum?

:)

Moga semua sihat dan berada di bawah lindungan Allah selalu.

I was on leave yesterday. Today i went to TTC for TM Brand training (compulsory) and came back to office at 12 p.m. Hoh, boleh plak terjumpa pokcik Rahimi kat TTC (cheaa,Rahimi dah tukar style rambut sket aa hehe).

Balik2 jer GM dah dtg kat meja kata ada something nak discuss on BP 2006. I was like a lil bit geram jugak ler coz i was not the one who actually handle the documentation part, and my face had became so gloomy that anyone who saw me before the Zuhr prayer could tell straight away that i was not in good mood. Midun had several times asked about my condition whether i was ok not. Obviously not. I was afraid actually becoz i was not the one who did the documentation, and plus the GM wanted to see me alone in the meeting room. Nanti kena marah ker apa ker, sengsorang jer yg tanggung.

Allah itu betul Maha Pemurah, dalam discussion tu my GM and i gelak tak ingat biler buat BP review. Mana taknya, figure budget and strategic objectives statements tak sync langsung.GM asyik tanya why do you write like this and that, aiyaaa..mau jer cakap " Tn Hj, BP ni bukan saya yg buat, saya cuma bagi input jer, group Documentation yang karang everything", tapi layan jer ler. Sejak first review dulu he always looked at me and asked justification why this and that like i was the one who draft everything instead of Group Documentation. Mmg bebetul masak ler dibuatnya sbbnya mana ler saya tahu Group Documentation maksudkan apa yang they all tulis, saya cuma bagi input jer. Gggrrrr.

"Kalau macam ni, mau sasau dibuatnya!" my GM commented on the overall BP 2006 biler tgk figure and objectives statements tak sync.

Hehe, mmg tak tahan gelak aa time tuh, siap suh Tn Hj berhenti cakap dulu so that i can laugh a lil bit longer.Klakar betul. Asyik gelak jek kitorang dlm bilik meeting tu.

Ingatkan biler masuk diskas tu kena prepare jer ler utk gantung diri, rupanya ok. Best best.

And yeah, my GM had approved my 4 days training which i thought he won't at the first place since on last Monday he queried what is the relevancy of that course with my job.

The course actually was offered to me, i didn't apply it at all. Quite dissapointed jugaklah when he asked me that question becoz it showed his reluctancy in letting me go. Yer ler, dah mmg patut ler dia risau. I am the one yg pegang semua data, kalau tetibanya CFO nak anything, mau kelam kabut dia nak mencari info.

Hehe, takpe. I'll try to make everything is in place before i go for the training :)

Hmm...

How's your Ramadhan until today?

Mine? Err..err...tak tau ler naper terasa sedikit jahat pada Ramadhan ni. I think i need to do something to improve on the existing situation.

Wajib! Kalau tak, menyesal. Zurina Zurina, you better do something, will ya?

Ok yer, nak balik berbuka dgn my beloved family. Setakat ni tak pernah miss lagi berbuka dgn family kecuali ketika berbuka puasa di rumah 'Voice from the past', En. Mudin kita.

Mudin,

Syukran laka yer atas jemputan berbuka hari tu. Tak sempat nak bersembang lama. Tahniah juga atas perkhabaran gembira. Take care Ida bebaik ek, bantu mana yang patut :)

And happy juga for my buddy En. Mizie, dah nak nikah dah pokcik ni. Tahniah ek, pasni aku dah tak leh laa main torpedo ngan ko lagi, tapi takpe Ida ada utk jadi proxy aku. Kali ni bebetul punya torpedo ek, just beware! :D

Ok guys, later k. Moga Ramadhan ini lebih mendidik diri saya dan antum menjadi insan yang lebih baik, baik sebaiknya :)

Wassalam.

Monday, October 10, 2005

7 list

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I did this nak kata half-heartedly mcm jahat pulak bunyinya, tapi dek kerana janji saya pada Aida, terpaksa juga saya teruskan. Saya tak selesa reveal apa impian saya pada sesiapa, tapi nanti karang penuh pulak 7 list ni dengan perkataan 'reserved' kalau saya tak tulis. Hehe.

Aida, keranamu kuturutkan jua 7 list ni. Pasni banjer aku ayam golek tau! Hohoho

seven things you plan to do before you die:
1 - Further studies in UK
2 - Perform Hajj asap
3 - Get fluent in Arabic
5 - Become a lecturer in UIA
6 - Establish my own education centre
7 - Further studies at ISTAC or Misra kalau boleh (lepas fluent Arabic)


seven things I could do:
1 - Read books/zines
2 - Play Othello/Chess
3 - Swimming
4 - Hope can become a good Muslimah (tiru Aida)
5 - reserved
6 - reserved
7 - reserved

seven celebrity crushes:
1 - Tom Cruise
2 - Takashi Kashiwabara (Big Wings)
3 - Kim Sung Soo (Full House)
3 - Sami Yusuf (ni mesti ramai tak puas hati ni especially Shima hehe)
4 - 7 (blank gak mcm Aida)

seven often repeated words:
1 - Ibu
2 - Tikot
3 - (pasni tak ingat dah sbb byk sgt cakap)


seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:

1 - Religion
2 - Boleh buat me gelak (hehe)
3 - 7 (reserved)


seven tags go to:
1 - 7 (sesaper nak buat, buat ler..tak nak paksa :).


Yeaa..sudah tertunai janji pada Aida walaupun kebanyakannya adalah jawapan reserved.

As i have said before, i am a reserved person. I dun tell too much on my personal, and if i do tell, i do it indirectly. Those expressions that you guys can digest from all my past postings were just the surface,they didn't reveal too much about me, and i like to remain that way as long as i could afford.

:)

Wassalam.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!

Assalamualaikum wbt,

:)

Kaifa haal antum fi hazha Ramadhan kareem? Khayr?

:)

Saya jadi jahat sket semalam, tetiba addicted tgk VCD Full House.

Aaaa, help me. Rasanya nak kena sorok VCD tu. Ika ler ni yg promote,langsung tak leh nak stop tgk citer tu.

Hehe, selamba jer blame Ika padahal kita sendiri yang pilih nak tgk VCD. Acah jer Tikot, sure ko mesti rasa nak cekik2 aku kan? :D

Hany sdg dalam keadaan tak sihat skang, moga Allah cepat sembuhkan Ummu Nufayl ni. Kalau dah sembuh, Hany kena banjer saya ayam golek tau Hany hehe.

Ok, nak pen off dulu.

Moga pengisian Ramadhan kita lebih baik dr hari ke sehari k.

Saya tgh mencuba untuk melawan addiction saya pada VCD Full House ni. Time-time Ramadhan ni ler VCD best ada kat umah saya huhu.

Bak kata Li Yeung Zhi dan Han Ji En (watak lelaki dan perempuan utama dalam citer Full House)

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!

Go Go Fighting!!

Waa..kena mujahadah lebih sket ler skang ni sbb dugaannya sungguh ler menarik hati hoho :P

Wassalam.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

If we help Allah, Allah will help us back

(1) Top 8 ways to boost your Ramadan spirit this year
by Sound Vision Staff writer

1. Dua
Ask Allah to make this the most awesome, spiritually uplifting Ramadan you've ever had. Only He can make it happen and relying on Him completely is one step in boosting our spirits.

2. Quiet your mind, turn off the...
TV, internet, radio, cell phone, pager, iPod, etc. No, not all day, but for at least 10 minutes a day. Find a quiet place, close your eyes and connect with God. At first, your mind will swirl with the useless and not-so-useless info in your head. But force it to think of three things in these few minutes:

a. Allah
b. your purpose in life
c. are you living your life on purpose?
d. Do this every day of Ramadan if you can. If that's not possible, try it at least three times a week.

3.Learn about great Muslims
Even if you've read it before, read or listen to Abdul Wahid Hamid's Companions of the Prophet again this Ramadan. Read about or listen to the story of a Companion daily. Well-written and short, this is a wonderful way to see how other Muslims retained their strength of faith against incredible odds. A sure-fire spirituality booster.

4. Connect to the Quran
The Quran is God's way of talking to us. It's one of the most important keys to spiritual upliftment. This Ramadan, connect to the Quran in a new way. If you already read Quran regularly, perhaps you can choose a new theme to focus on or select a Surah you haven't read in a while. If you don't read Quran regularly, maybe you can read just two minutes of Quran a day, reading only from the first page you encounter when you open up the Book.

In addition, try to keep a Quranic journal to record your reflections, questions, thoughts, etc. about what you've read.

5. Take care of others
Whether it's someone who's away from their family, a person who's having problems with a spouse or their kids or a fellow student struggling with their grades, make an extra effort this Ramadan to help others out. The spiritual boost you get in return is well worth it.

6. Feed the hungry
While your stomach shrieks in protest, give that panhandler some change, volunteer at a soup kitchen, get involved with your local food pantry or make a couple of bag lunches to give to the hungry you meet on your way to school or work. And don't forget the survivors of Hurricane Katrina, as well as those suffering from hunger in Niger and Mali.

7. Give up one lifelong bad habit
Ask yourself what some of your defining traits are. Then decide which is the worst of them. Is it a hot temper? Apathy? Laziness? Impatience? Whatever it is, use this Ramadan to put an end to it. Practice the opposite of your bad habit every day until the end of the month. By then Insha Allah, you'll look back and be amazed at what a change you've made for the better.

8. Use those Nights of Power
The last ten nights or Ramadan aren't called the Nights of Power for nothing. Use these precious times for deep, heartfelt Dua (supplication), self-analysis, reflection and serious thought.


(2) Jumpa Kak Mas

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Semalam terjumpa Kak Mas and Sufia di surau KLCC ketika my auntie and I nak perform solat maghrib. Dah lama sangat tak jumpa Kak Mas, and biler jumpa tu mmg overwhelmed, happy sgt sampai lepas dah jumpa tu my kepala pening sket. Mmg biasa ler kalau i become overwhelmed with something, jadi pening sket, samada dlm keadaan over tension or over happy. Both could lead me to migraine hehe.

Kak Mas had asked me to join one project Nisa'. Alhamdulillah i had gone thru all the final exams, and i will be having my semester break for a month. Will be back to school one week after Raya. Hopefully i can contribute something within semester break ni. Kak Mas ada nyatakan satu isu yang telah menyebabkan Sis Adinura terbang ke bumi Misra, pening juga isunya. Diharapkan dgn usaha yang telah dan akan dibuat,Allah akan permudahkan segala usaha dan niat yang telah disandarkan kepadaNya.

Insya Allah, kalau kita bantu Allah, Allah akan bantu kita kembali. I had hold to this statement very strongly since i was in SRC dulu. And mmg sudah terbukti dahulu. Remember Ika, yg aku nangis2 lepas solat sbb tension time nak organize program 'Treasure of Knowledge' utk Institusi Usrah dulu? Time tu betul2 risau pasal first time buat program sendiri, pastu budget tak cukup and dun know how to cover expenses for canopy etc, but alhamdulillah the program turned to be great (at least from my personal opinion) especially for malam yg kita organize theatre and nasyid (import from UKM and UIA) in which Ika jadi menjerit 'kehisterian' sbb director malam tu agak blank sket mcm mana nak organize. Nasib baik kita ada adik2 and commitee yg power2 time tu kan Tikot. Ingat lagi Abg Nafis,Drafizan, Sharizal and the rest bertungkus lumus 1 hour before the program. Panic kan time tu, tapi mmg best. Hihi.

I still remember what did you say to me when i was crying after solat Zuhur time tgh handle program and risau ttg budget (tu yg payah jadi accountant ni, siap pernah debate ngan Abg Nafis biler buat budget review for this program ni, i wanted it to be minimized as much as possible meanwhile Abg Nafis tak setuju sbb hujah dia, kalau nak quality kenalaa bayar lebih sket, but for me, try hard to reduce cost to the lowest level that you can go and then produce the maximum output as many as possible. Mmg accountants berkira sket pasal duit2 nih, tak caya refer postings Aini yg tak puas hati biler ada top mgmt yg spend duit syarikat lavishly padahal derang try giler2 nak selamatkan duit TM, 1 cent pun akan berkira kalau buat international settlement).Hehe.

Ayat yang Ika cakap waktu nampak i cried lepas solat Zuhur time handle program:

"Siti, aku tak risau kalau ko buat program usrah ni, Allah mesti tolong sbb kita bantu Dia. Tapi kalau ko buat program lain, ko patut risau ". (Kalau utk program lain mmg patut kena risau sbb time tu budget mmg tak cukup utk accommodate perlbagai programs yang akan dilaksanakan dalam minggu Treasure of Knowledge tu). Alhamdulillah, tgh hari Ika cakap benda tu, petang tu terus ada solution utk cover duit, mmg bebetul bersyukur time tu :)

:)

Lama dah actually tak bergiat ngan Nisa, kekadang jek join alumni. Itu pun kadang-kadang sekiranya tidak bercanggah dengan schedule study. Tapi kebanyakannya mmg bercanggah :)

Takpelah,kan. Kita cuba sedaya mana yang termampu. Yang penting masih bersama. Tak dapat bagi tenaga, bagilah wang ringgit atau idea. Bergantung kepada kemampuan masing-masing.


(3) Ramadhan datang lagi
I just wanna wish Selamat Berpuasa pada semua. Bulan ini bulan mendidik sahsiah dan peribadi kita. Moga kita menjadi graduan cemerlang bulan Ramadhan tahun ini sebelum menunggu Ramadhan yang akan datang next year.

Kiranya ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kita, sama-sama kita mohon maaf dan juga memaafkan orang lain yang pernah buat salah pada kita. Juga perbanyakkan taubat dan zikir, moga apabila Ramadhan berakhir, kita juga turut menjadi suci seperti bayi yang baru dilahirkan tanpa dosa dan noda.

Wish all the best juga pada Rollie and my friends yang akan ada exam malam ni and malam esok.

Assalamualaikum :)

Monday, October 03, 2005

A missing smile

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I had already sat my last paper exam for Corporate Resources and Strategy yesterday. The questions were ok i think.

After exam, met some of my other classmates who took another paper, MIS. They complained about not been notified that the paper should be completed in 2 and half hours instead of the normal 3 hours that we used to go through for all our subjects before.

Most of them could not completed their last question due to the above reason. I can only expressed my sympathy to them. But if i were at their place, sure i make a complaint to the lecturer.Hoho.

After we had gathered most of our classmates after the exam, we went to Allahyarham Prof Unvar's house to pay a visit to his family. He had 4 children, 2 girls and 2 boys. The eldest in still in college, 20 yrs old and just get married to her husband last 40 days before Dr Unvar passed away.

His wife is a housewife, and the youngest is still in Standard 4. Luckily Dr Unvar had kept his savings and had once showed them to us during our lecture on unit trust investments. He had kept quite a lot actually. Not to our worry, alhamdulillah. Tapi kasihan juga pada anak2nya. Very much look alike to their late father.

Actually on the day Dr Unvar passed away, satu rombongan besar ex students Dr from Bank Negara datang melawat Dr di belah pagi hingga tengah hari yg ketika itu still in coma. Mereka berbaris panjang depan bilik ICU utk lawat Dr. They were still in a very long que when they got to know that Dr had gone, and all of them took half day leave on that day and straight away went to Dr Unvar house. Kak Win, my classmate who live very near to Dr's house mentioned that she never get to see so much people had made any visit and solat jenazah to anyone at her place before like what had happened to Dr. She felt that Dr was a very lucky person. Even ambassadors from Arab countries had came and paid their last respects to jenazah on that day.

One of my classmates had made a remark: I am sure i'll be missing his smile nanti.

And i think all my classmates and i will be missing his smile too.

A missing smile, from someone that had taught us with hikmah and wholeheartedly.

Wassalam.