Friday, July 29, 2005

Cat Stevens- How I Came to Islam

Assalamualaikum wbt,

All I have to say is all what you know already, to confirm what you already know, the message of the Prophet (Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam) as given by God - the Religion of Truth. As human beings we are given a consciousness and a duty that has placed us at the top of creation. Man is created to be God's deputy on earth, and it is important to realize the obligation to rid ourselves of all illusions and to make our lives a preparation for the next life. Anybody who misses this chance is not likely to be given another, to be brought back again and again, because it says in Qur'an Majeed that when man is brought to account, he will say, {O Lord, send us back and give us another chance} The Lord will say, {If I send you back you will do the same}

I was brought up in the modern world of all the luxury and the high life of show business. I was born in a Christian home, but we know that every child is born in his original nature - it is only his parents that turn him to this or that religion. I was given this religion (Christianity) and thought this way. I was taught that God exists, but there was no direct contact with God, so we had to make contact with Him through Jesus - he was in fact the door to God. This was more or less accepted by me, but I did not swallow it all.

I looked at some of the statues of Jesus; they were just stones with no life. And when they said that God is three, I was puzzled even more but could not argue. I more or less believed it, because I had to have respect for the faith of my parents.

Gradually I became alienated from this religious upbringing. I started making music. I wanted to be a big star. All those things I saw in the films and on the media took hold of me, and perhaps I thought this was my God, the goal of making money. I had an uncle who had a beautiful car. "Well," I said, "he has it made. He has a lot of money." The people around me influenced me to think that this was it; this world was their God.

I decided then that this was the life for me; to make a lot of money, have a 'great life.' Now my examples were the pop stars. I started making songs, but deep down I had a feeling for humanity, a feeling that if I became rich I would help the needy. (It says in the Qur'an, we make a promise, but when we make something, we want to hold onto it and become greedy.)

So what happened was that I became very famous. I was still a teenager, my name and photo were splashed in all the media. They made me larger than life, so I wanted to live larger than life and the only way to do that was to be intoxicated (with liquor and drugs).

After a year of financial success and 'high' living, I became very ill, contracted TB and had to be hospitalized. It was then that I started to think: What was to happen to me? Was I just a body, and my goal in life was merely to satisfy this body? I realized now that this calamity was a blessing given to me by Allah, a chance to open my eyes - "Why am I here? Why am I in bed?" - and I started looking for some of the answers. At that time there was great interest in the Eastern mysticism. I began reading, and the first thing I began to become aware of was death, and that the soul moves on; it does not stop. I felt I was taking the road to bliss and high accomplishment. I started meditating and even became a vegetarian. I now believed in 'peace and flower power,' and this was the general trend. But what I did believe in particular was that I was not just a body. This awareness came to me at the hospital.

One day when I was walking and I was caught in the rain, I began running to the shelter and then I realized, 'Wait a minute, my body is getting wet, my body is telling me I am getting wet.' This made me think of a saying that the body is like a donkey, and it has to be trained where it has to go. Otherwise, the donkey will lead you where it wants to go.

Then I realized I had a will, a God-given gift: follow the will of God. I was fascinated by the new termino- logy I was learning in the Eastern religion. By now I was fed up with Christianity. I started making music again and this time I started reflecting my own thoughts. I remember the lyric of one of my songs. It goes like this: "I wish I knew, I wish I knew what makes the Heaven, what makes the Hell. Do I get to know You in my bed or some dusty cell while others reach the big hotel?" and I knew I was on the Path.

I also wrote another song, "The Way to Find God Out." I became even more famous in the world of music. I really had a difficult time because I was getting rich and famous, and at the same time, I was sincerely searching for the Truth. Then I came to a stage where I decided that Buddhism is all right and noble, but I was not ready to leave the world. I was too attached to the world and was not prepared to become a monk and to isolate myself from society.

I tried Zen and Ching, numerology, tarot cards and astrology. I tried to look back into the Bible and could not find anything. At this time I did not know anything about Islam, and then, what I regarded as a miracle occurred. My brother had visited the mosque in Jerusalem and was greatly impressed that while on the one hand it throbbed with life (unlike the churches and synagogues which were empty), on the other hand, an atmosphere of peace and tranquillity prevailed.

When he came to London he brought back a translation of the Qur'an, which he gave to me. He did not become a Muslim, but he felt something in this religion, and thought I might find something in it also.

And when I received the book, a guidance that would explain everything to me - who I was; what was the purpose of life; what was the reality and what would be the reality; and where I came from - I realized that this was the true religion; religion not in the sense the West understands it, not the type for only your old age. In the West, whoever wishes to embrace a religion and make it his only way of life is deemed a fanatic. I was not a fanatic, I was at first confused between the body and the soul. Then I realized that the body and soul are not apart and you don't have to go to the mountain to be religious. We must follow the will of God. Then we can rise higher than the angels. The first thing I wanted to do now was to be a Muslim.

I realized that everything belongs to God, that slumber does not overtake Him. He created everything. At this point I began to lose the pride in me, because hereto I had thought the reason I was here was because of my own greatness. But I realized that I did not create myself, and the whole purpose of my being here was to submit to the teaching that has been perfected by the religion we know as Al-Islam. At this point I started discovering my faith. I felt I was a Muslim. On reading the Qur'an, I now realized that all the Prophets sent by God brought the same message. Why then were the Jews and Christians different? I know now how the Jews did not accept Jesus as the Messiah and that they had changed His Word. Even the Christians misunderstand God's Word and called Jesus the son of God. Everything made so much sense. This is the beauty of the Qur'an; it asks you to reflect and reason, and not to worship the sun or moon but the One Who has created everything. The Qur'an asks man to reflect upon the sun and moon and God's creation in general. Do you realize how different the sun is from the moon? They are at varying distances from the earth, yet appear the same size to us; at times one seems to overlap the other.

Even when many of the astronauts go to space, they see the insignificant size of the earth and vastness of space. They become very religious, because they have seen the Signs of Allah.

When I read the Qur'an further, it talked about prayer, kindness and charity. I was not a Muslim yet, but I felt that the only answer for me was the Qur'an, and God had sent it to me, and I kept it a secret. But the Qur'an also speaks on different l I began to understand it on anothlevel, where the Qur'an says, {Those who believe do not take disbelievers for friends and the believers are brothers} Thus at this point I wished to meet my Muslim brothers.

Then I decided to journey to Jerusalem (as my brother had done). At Jerusalem, I went to the mosque and sat down. A man asked me what I wanted. I told him I was a Muslim. He asked what was my name. I told him, "Stevens." He was confused. I then joined the prayer, though not so successfully. Back in London, I met a sister called Nafisa. I told her I wanted to embrace Islam and she directed me to the New Regent Mosque. This was in 1977, about one and a half years after I received the Qur'an.

Now I realized that I must get rid of my pride, get rid of Iblis, and face one direction. So on a Friday, after Jumma' I went to the Imam and declared my faith (the Kalima) at this hands. You have before you someone who had achieved fame and fortune. But guidance was something that eluded me, no matter how hard I tried, until I was shown the Qur'an. Now I realize I can get in direct contact with God, unlike Christianity or any other religion. As one Hindu lady told me, "You don't understand the Hindus. We believe in one God; we use these objects (idols) to merely concentrate." What she was saying was that in order to reach God, one has to create associates, that are idols for the purpose. But Islam removes all these barriers. The only thing that moves the believers from the disbelievers is the salat. This is the process of purification.

Finally I wish to say that everything I do is for the pleasure of Allah and pray that you gain some inspirations from my experiences. Furthermore, I would like to stress that I did not come into contact with any

Muslim before I embraced Islam. I read the Qur'an first and realized that no person is perfect. Islam is perfect, and if we imitate the conduct of the Holy Prophet (Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam) we will be successful. May Allah give us guidance to follow the path of the ummah of Muhammad (Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam). Ameen!



Alhamdulillah beliau telah diberikan hidayah dan diberi peluang untuk menyumbang kepada dunia Islam.

Saya teringat, my turning point untuk saya lebih mengenali Islam adalah ketika saya di Pre-U. Ketika itu saya tinggal sebilik bersama sahabat baik saya Yaya. Kami berdua budak KL yang mmg tidak tahu apa-apa, nil about Islam, kecuali mengenai ibadat2 asas.

Teringat lagi di Maghrib itu..

Ketika itu saya sedang membaca Quran selepas solat, dan kemudian saya terjumpa dengan kalimah Ahsan (yg kelakarnya my senior pun nama Ahsan gak, but during this time mmg tak kenal dia sgt, tau nama jek).

Ahsan...mengambil kata root word Hassan yang bermaksud baik.

Ketika terjumpa itu, saya tiba-tiba tertanya dlm hati apakah kebaikan yg pernah saya lakukan selama saya hidup 18 tahun di dunia ketika itu.

Nothing rasanya.

And saya sgt2 sedih ketika itu, hingga menangis selama sejam di bilik. Yaya entah ke mana ketika itu.

Terasa saya bebetul membuang masa selama 18 tahun itu.

Dari situ saya bergerak sedikit demi sedikit, sehinggalah ke hari ini. Walaupun tidak seberapa pantas, tapi alhamdulillah masih bergerak, dan harapnya masih akan terus melangkah ke arah kebaikan.

Doakan saya menjadi muslimah yang berjaya dunia akhirat.


Seorang gadis itu...

Yang lembut fitrah tercipta,
halus kulit, manis tuturnya,
lentur hati ...
telus wajahnya,
setelus rasa membisik di jiwa,
di matanya cahaya,
dalamnya ada air,
sehangat cinta,
sejernih suka,
sedalam duka,
ceritera hidupnya ...

seorang gadis itu ...

hatinya penuh manja,
penuh cinta, sayang semuanya,
cinta untuk diberi ...
cinta untuk dirasa ...

namun manjanya
bukan untuk semua,
bukan lemah,
atau kelemahan dunia ...
ia bisa kuat,
bisa jadi tabah,
bisa ampuh menyokong,
pahlawan-pahlawan dunia ...

begitu unik tercipta,
lembutnya bukan lemah,
tabahnya tak perlu pada
jasad yang gagah ...

seorang gadis itu ...

teman yang setia,
buat Adam dialah Hawa,
tetap di sini ...
dari indahnya jannah,
hatta ke medan dunia,
hingga kembali mengecap ni'matNya ...

seorang gadis itu ...

bisa seteguh Khadijah,
yang suci hatinya,
tabah & tenang sikapnya,
teman lah-Rasul,
pengubat duka & laranya ...

bijaksana ia,
menyimpan ílmu,
si teman bicara,
dialah Áishah,
penyeri taman Rasulullah,
dialah Hafsah,
penyimpan mashaf pertama kalamullah ...

seorang gadis itu ...

bisa setabah Maryam,
meski dicaci meski dikeji,
itu hanya cerca manusia,
namun sucinya ALLah memuji ...

seperti Fatimah kudusnya,
meniti hidup seadanya,
puteri Rasulullah ...
kesayangan ayahanda,
suaminya si panglima agama,
di belakangnya dialah pelita,
cahya penerang segenap rumahnya,
ummi tersayang cucunda Baginda ...

bisa dia segagah Nailah,
dengan dua tangan
tegar melindung khalifah,
meski akhirnya bermandi darah,
meski akhirnya khalifah rebah,
syaheed menyahut panggilan Allah .

seorang gadis itu ...

perlu ada yang membela,
agar ia terdidik jiwa,
agar ia terpelihara ...

dengan kenal Rabbnya,
dengan cinta Rasulnya ...

dengan yakin Deennya,
dengan teguh áqidahnya,
dengan utuh cinta yang terutama,
Allah jua RasulNya,
dalam ketaatan penuh setia .
pemelihara maruah dirinya,
agama, keluarga & ummahnya ...

seorang gadis itu ...

melenturnya perlu kasih sayang,
membentuknya perlu kebijaksanaan,
kesabaran dan kemaafan,
keyakinan & penghargaan,
tanpa jemu & tanpa bosan,
memimpin tangan, menunjuk jalan ...

seorang gadis itu ...

yang hidup di alaf ini,
gadis akhir zaman,
era hidup perlu berdikari ...

dirinya terancam dek fitnah,
sucinya perlu tabah,
cintanya tak boleh berubah,
tak bisa terpadam dek helah,
dek keliru fikir jiwanya,
kerna dihambur ucapkata nista,
hanya kerana dunia memperdaya ...

kerna seorang gadis itu,
yang hidup di zaman ini ...

perlu teguh kakinya,
mantap iman mengunci jiwanya,
dari lemah & kalah,
dalam pertarungan yang lama ...
dari rebah & salah,
dalam perjalanan mengenali Tuhannya,
dalam perjuangan menggapai cinta,
ni'mat hakiki seorang hamba,
dari Tuhan yang menciptakan,
dari Tuhan yang mengurniakan,
seorang gadis itu ...
anugerah istimewa kepada dunia!

seorang gadis itu ...
tinggallah di dunia,
sebagai ábidah,
dahípayah & mujahidah,
pejuang ummah ...
anak ummi & ayah,
muslimah yang solehah ...

kelak jadi ibu,
membentuk anak-anak ummah,
rumahnya taman ilmu,
taman budi & ma'rifatullah ...

seorang gadis itu ...
moga akan pulang,
dalam cinta & dalam sayang,
redha dalam keredhaan,
Tuhan yang menentukan ...
seorang gadis itu dalam kebahagiaan!

Moga lah-Rahman melindungi,
merahmati dan merestui,
perjalanan seorang gadis itu ...
menuju cintaNYA yang ABADI!

Forwarded by a sahabat thru e mail.


Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Beautiful colors wa As Sajdah

[Sajdah 32:1] Alif-Lam-Meem. (Alphabets of the Arabic language – Allah and to whomever He reveals, know their precise meanings.)

[Sajdah 32:2] The revelation of the Book is, without doubt, from the Lord Of The Creation.

[Sajdah 32:3] What! They dare say that, “He has fabricated it”? In fact it is the Truth from your Lord, in order that you warn a nation towards whom no Herald of Warning came before you, in the hope of their attaining guidance.

[Sajdah 32:4] It is Allah Who created the heavens and the earth, and all what is between them, in six days, then (befitting His Majesty) established Himself over the Throne (of control); leaving Allah, there is neither a friend nor an intercessor for you; so do you not ponder?

[Sajdah 32:5] He plans (all) the job(s) from the heaven to the earth - then it will return to Him on the Day which amounts to a thousand years in your count.

[Sajdah 32:6] This is the All Knowing - of all the hidden and the visible, the Most Honourable, the Most Merciful.

[Sajdah 32:7] The One Who created all things excellent, and Who initiated the creation of man from clay.

[Sajdah 32:8] Then kept his posterity with a part of an abject fluid.

[Sajdah 32:9] Then made him proper and blew into him a spirit from Him, and bestowed ears and eyes and hearts to you; very little thanks do you offer!

[Sajdah 32:10] And they said, “When we have mingled into the earth, will we be created again?”; in fact they disbelieve in the meeting with their Lord.

[Sajdah 32:11] Proclaim, “The angel of death, who is appointed over you, causes you to die and then towards your Lord you will return.”

[Sajdah 32:12] And if you see when the guilty will hang their heads before their Lord; “Our Lord! We have seen and heard, therefore send us back in order that we do good deeds - we are now convinced!”

[Sajdah 32:13] And had We willed We would have given every soul its guidance, but My Word is decreed that I will certainly fill hell with these jinns and men, combined.

[Sajdah 32:14] “Therefore taste the recompense of your forgetting the confronting of this day of yours; We have abandoned you – now taste the everlasting punishment, the recompense of your deeds!”

[Sajdah 32:15] Only those believe in Our signs who, when they are reminded of them, fall down in prostration and proclaim the Purity of their Lord while praising Him, and are not conceited. (Command of prostration # 9).

[Sajdah 32:16] Their sides stay detached from their beds and they pray to their Lord with fear and hope - and they spend from what We have bestowed upon them.

[Sajdah 32:17] So no soul knows the comfort of the eyes that is kept hidden for them *; the reward of their deeds. ( * Paradise)

[Sajdah 32:18] So will the believer ever be equal to the one who is lawless? They are not equal!

[Sajdah 32:19] Those who accepted faith and did good deeds – for them are the Gardens of (everlasting) stay; a welcome in return for what they did.

[Sajdah 32:20] And those who are lawless - their destination is the fire; whenever they wish to come out of it, they will be returned into it, and it will be said to them, “Taste the punishment of the fire you used to deny!”

[Sajdah 32:21] And We shall indeed make them taste the smaller punishment before the greater punishment, so that they may return.

[Sajdah 32:22] And who is more unjust than one who is preached to from the verses his Lord, then he turns away from them? We will indeed take revenge from the guilty.

[Sajdah 32:23] And indeed We bestowed the Book to Moosa, therefore have no doubt in its acquisition, and made it a guidance for the Descendants of Israel.

[Sajdah 32:24] And We made some leaders among them, guiding by Our command, when they had persevered; and they used to accept faith in Our signs.

[Sajdah 32:25] Indeed your Lord will judge between them on the Day of Resurrection concerning the matters in which they used to differ.

[Sajdah 32:26] And did they not obtain guidance by the fact that We did destroy many generations before them, so now they walk in their houses? Indeed in this are signs; so do they not heed?

[Sajdah 32:27] And do they not see that We send the water to the barren land and produce crops with it, so their animals and they themselves eat from it? So do they not perceive?

[Sajdah 32:28] And they say, “When will this decision take place, if you are truthful?”

[Sajdah 32:29] Proclaim, “On the Day of Decision *, the disbelievers will not benefit from their accepting faith, nor will they get respite.” (* Of death or of resurrection)

[Sajdah 32:30] Therefore turn away from them and wait – indeed they too have to wait.

Beautiful colors of pictures, and a very meaningful surah for our tazkeerah.

Subhanallah wa astaghfirullah. May You bestow us with Your maghfirah wa rahmah Ya Allah.


Value of something

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Why did Allah (SWT) create earth in the first place?

We needed to descend to earth because, as human beings, part of our makeup is that we do not realize the value of things unless we strive to get them; and if we get something easily we do not place much value on it, we then tend to give it away easily and will not be able to appreciate the magnificent blessing we have.

We see this example in ourselves and our relatives; your father has emigrated, struggled for 20 years in the Gulf, for example. Then you bought a car, took a ride and crashed it. You would not be as sad as your father would be. If you had been the one who bought it, not him, you would have taken care of it and felt the blessing of having it.

Allah (SWT) wanted us to go down to earth so that we may long to return to the Jannah, realizing its value. Therefore, only believers lived on earth. Why? Because they were the ones who longed for the Jannah; and those who did not, would pass by the hell. They are the ones who, with great difficulty, resist committing a sin when they could have easily done it because they want to please Allah (SWT), whom they cannot see; besides, they want to go to the Jannah.

I ask you by Allah (SWT), if you worked hard in this world, fasted Mondays and Thursdays while the weather was very hot, prayed in the mosque when it was bitter cold, obeyed Allah (SWT) and resisted sins, where would your position be when the doors of the Jannah are being opened? You would enter running and saying, “Is this the Jannah I worked for all my 60 years?” Do you see how delightful this is? This is also Allah's blessing upon us, that He created us with this nature so that we are able to love the Jannah more.

Imagine if you obeyed Allah (SWT) for 20 years and then met Him, what would that moment be like?

Imagine that you are walking along a street, you are tempted to take an unlawful glance; just say to yourself, “No, Allah can see me; I cannot disobey Him while He sees me.” You are about to take forbidden money; say, “I cannot, Allah (SWT) sees me and is watching me right now.” In Surat al-Alaq, Allah (SWT) says what can be translated as, “Knows he not that Allah does see (what he does)?” (TMQ, 96: 14), but you do not see Him.

Imagine the Day of Judgment when Allah (SWT) calls out, “Oh my servants! Oh inhabitants of the Jannah! Where are my servants who obeyed me without seeing me? Today is the day of abundance, so ask Me for whatever you want.”

Excerpt taken from one of yahoogroups.

~ ALLAH did not promise that life would be easy, but HE did promise to go with you..every step of your life, with HIM by your side..~

A lovely and very meaningful quotation, isn't it? :)


Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Anugerah dari Dia

Assalamualaikum wbt,

If Allah loves people He puts them to trial, He tests them and places them in difficulty. Allah the Exalted states in Surah Baqarah : We will test you with something of fear, and hunger and loss of wealth, and souls and vegetation. And give glad tidings to those who have patience. Those who if in any difficulty or trial, or tribulation occurs to them or happens to them, they say: ˜Verily We are from Allah and to Allah we return.They are those who will receive prayers from their Lord and Mercy and it is those who are guided.

Saya tidak tahu untuk memujuk mereka-mereka yang pernah atau sedang merasa sedih kerana kehilangan, tapi saya tahu kehilangan seseorang/sesuatu yang disayang adalah perit.

Teringat saya kata-kata ustaz Zul ketika berprogram di Cameron Highland bercerita mengenai seorang ustaz sufi yang berdarah kakinya tetapi dia hanya membiarkan lukanya begitu sahaja.

Apabila ditanya oleh anak muridnya mengapa tidak berubat, jawabnya..

"Apa sahaja yang datang dari Kekasih adalah hadiah"

Tidak kira yang datang adalah berbentuk cubaan atau rahmah, wajiblah kita mengimani bahawa sesuatu yang berlaku itu adalah qadha' dan qadar Allah yang telah ditentukan ke atas diri kita.

Bukan mudah untuk menerima ujian perit, sedangkan jari terluka dihiris pun lidah hampir2 rasa nak curse, tak pun rasa nak baling pisau tu kat memana, inikan pulak ujian yang lebih berat dr itu.

Tapi perlu sentiasa diingat:

Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

Apakah manusia itu mengira bahwa mereka dibiarkan (saja) mengatakan:"Kami telah beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi?. Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta.


Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.

Wahai saudara-saudaraku, tidaklah layak saya berkata sebegini rupa kerana saya sendiri tidak tahu di mana kedudukan saya di depan Allah, tapi ingin sangat-sangat saya menyeru untuk bersabar kerana sabar itu adalah penghapus dosa dan penambah cinta al Rabb kepada kita.

Senyum dalam duka itu payah, bukan? Tapi saya percaya semua sudah merasa, cuma 'weightage'nya sahaja berbeza.

Perlu bersyukur atas segala nikmah/cubaan yang diterima.

Bukankah semuanya anugerah dari Kekasih Yang Abadi?



Monday, July 25, 2005

Islamic economic reason vs personal dream

Subhanallah. Cantiknya pemandangan dan gambar frozen cherries.

Rasa mcm nak pergi UK sekarang juga.

My friend had came out with an astonishing statement to me when i mentioned that one day i would like to go to UK to further my studies. I never imagined in life that i would be receiving this kind of answer:

"Don't go there, they are kuffar, don't support their economy"

Gulpp..i had learnt in my Economic class that one way to get positive balance of trade for a country is by promoting education as what UK, US, Australia and some other countries including Malaysia are doing.

Nak pergi ker tak nak pergi?

Hmm..kalau nak pergi jugak, boleh,kan? Biasa ler, si Zurina yang keras hati. Iznan faham kot maksud akak,kan Iznan? Kami dari 'generasi pembentukan' yang sama hehe ;)

Please don't get misunderstood of what my friend had commented abt pursuing studies in UK. He was just pointing his opinion based on his observations, and for your info he was a graduate from Univ of Leeds. Therefore i believe his comment was a just and fair opinion from his perspective :)


Friday, July 22, 2005


Assalamualaikum wbt,

For this one whole week, i was sucked up into tremendous jobs that need my full attention as currently i'm replacing Pn Fida, therefore i'm doing 2 people's jobs rite now. And i'm getting tired actually.

For the first time since i had started working last 3 years, i am having little headache to handle Pn Fida's staff. Susah jugak rupanya nak deal dgn anak2 buah ni :)

For Rollie, sorry for can't make a review for Advancer Si Peniup Ney for you at this moment,this week i had so many things to cater. However, my friend Aida had made a review on this book, please visit this URL if you want to read her review. I believe it can help you to understand the story better :)

I have so many things to say, but i just couldn't. Time is too jealous of me, and i had to run to compete with it. Class had started for the past 3 weeks, and so many things had happened within this month.And i could not tell you guys for i had so limited time to do that. I saw Hany and Ika also got very bz as their blogs also were untouched for quite some time. Wish now i am a lecturer instead of an assistant manager (tgk tu, tak bersyukur jek Iena nih,kan? :P)

I hope Kak Fida balik ofis cepat, eventhough i'm enjoying whatever tasks that i need to cater on behalf of her now. Missed her actually.

Salam guys, i'm too tired to continue my writing. I have an assignment to be submitted tomorrow. And 2 presentations to be presented next week.

Pray for my success k.



Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Ketinggalan flight

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Saya sudah ketinggalan flight. Perlu berjalan dengan lebih laju sekarang ini kerana sudah amat jauh ketinggalan.

Please do visit this URL, .Sesaper yang interested to purchase things/conduct transactions thru online, this site could help you a lot. I'm helping my friend in promoting his website :)


Monday, July 18, 2005

Waleemah Cpol

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Nothing special to be written in here, except...

Tahniah utk Cpol utk waleemahnya pada Sabtu lepas. Saya hanya dapat tahu pun pada pagi Jumaat di YM (bertuah betul si Cpol nih, inform dah ler lewat, pastu guna YM jek pulak tu hehe).

To my dearest sahabat, Cpol,

Moga berbahagia dunia akhirat bersama zaujah. Pasni anak2 ikan tak leh nak gaduh2 sgt ngan naga ek, nanti zaujah anta jealous pulak. But as what Kak Yumni had said, adeq beradeq takkan putus hubungannya, walau gaduh camner pun :) (sejak biler ibu ana lahirkan anta :P )

This dear friend of mine, where i never meet him after 7 years berpisah walaupun dia di UPM and saya di MMU jek, kampus dekat jek actually ( we had known to each other since 1998 during Program Yayasan Tun Razak), he was my group leader, a funny group leader that we were all anak-anak buah comfortable with. Comel jek pokcik ni, kami panggil dia YB Sikat atau PM (bukti dia giler kuasa sbb kami semua dapat title YB jek, dia nak title yg lebih hebat dr tu, sbb tu dia dapat nick PM --> stands for Prime Minister) meanwhile saya dapat nick YB Panadol sbb saya demam panas ketika di kursus YTR dulu (this explains why i am using iena_panadol for my email address, penat menjawab soalan2 org naper saya guna nick panadol hehe). Kami jadi MPP pada tahun yang sama, patutnya berjumpa ketika kunjungan MPP UPM ke MMU, tapi mmg takde rezeki nak jumpa, sia2 jek kena marah ngan Tuan Presiden sbb Secretary dia ni sanggup tak pi meeting kat Putrajaya semata2 nak jumpa geng lama hehe.

Cpol is a nice person, and i believe his zaujah will happy with him until akhirah sbb pokcik ni selain drpd baik, funny jugak orgnya (tak tau ler pesal dia kata ramai junior takut ngan dia time dia jadi faci). Pasni jgn luper jemput ke majlis anta yer Cpol walaupun ana tak dpt pergi sbb ada komitmen study, apa pun ana doakan anta berbahagia dunia akhirat, insya Allah :)

Pasni tunggu turn Paiji and Ahmad pulak yer ;)



Saturday, July 16, 2005

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Be grateful, be grateful

Assalamualaikum wbt,

No matter how big your problems are, there are always some bigger problems and difficulties faced by others. And to compare with mine, it was nothing in comparison. Hence, i should be very grateful, right? :)

I had finished reading Advencer Si Peniup Ney.Siapa lagi kalau bukan karangan Faisal Tehrani :) I know2, some of you will ask, apa ler yang best sgt dgn Faisal Tehrani ni? Saya percaya geng2 terapat saya memahami, Hany, Ika, Aida dan Aini, tak lupa juga pada Paiji yang mengagumi nukilan penulis ini. Beruntung saya punya circle of friends yang meminati pengarang2 dan buku2 yang sama, boleh bertukar2 buku biasanya :)

Saya kira mereka2 yg mampu menyentuh hati pembaca dengan karangan mereka punya anugerah yang besar dari Ilahi. Pada mereka yang sudah berbakat dalam dunia sastera (Hany, Cpol, Ika, Kak Yumni, Mizie , Aida etc etc), moga sentiasa istiqamah dengan apa jua usaha yang boleh dihasilkan. Saya tidak arif dalam dunia sastera, tapi saya menyukainya, cuma tidaklah sampai ke tahap ingin mengenali apa itu prosa dan segala teknik serta sebagainya, kerana saya suka menghayati, tapi bukan mempelajari apa yang sepatutnya ada dalam bidang sastera ini.

Kadang-kadang cemburu juga naperlaa saya tak terer dalam dunia sastera ini, jeles tgk sahabat2 dan adik2 begitu pandai bermain dengan kata-kata dalam mengekpresikan cerita, tapi saya faham setiap manusia dikurniakan kelebihan dan kekurangan bagi melengkapi kehidupan masing-masing. Mana tahu kalau Zurina ini ditakdirkan terer sastera, mana pulak Faisal Tehrani nak cari makan, yer tak? Hehe, astaghfirullah, just kidding, rezeki dan nikmat telah ditentukan bagi setiap orang dari kita di Lauh Mahfuz lagi, semuanya cukup insya Allah :)

Pendapat saya mengenai Advencer Si Peniup Ney, cukup ler saya menyatakan bahawa saya sedikit teresak ketika membaca bukunya seorang diri ketika sedang menunggu klinik buka di belah petang. Terasa saya seperti mendapat kembali impian hati saya, yang sekarang ini sering terlekakan dengan kesibukan harian.

Ada lagi satu trilogi tebal sedang menunggu saya untuk dihadam isinya...

Cinta Madinah.

Hany, jangan jeles yer, kalau tak sempat lagi nak beli, boleh pinjam buku saya dulu :)

Salam to you guys, terasa hati sedang dilimpahi kegembiraan dan ketenangan sekarang ini.Alhamdulillah :)

Special note to Mudin and Ise, dun dare to make joke of me ya, i know both of you will usik me as cacamarba again. I dun care, kalau usik jugak, akak nak impose denda untuk setiap kali usikan, satu biji strawberry you guys hutang akak hehe. Ni betul nih, accountant bernama Zurina sedang buka buku 555 KHAS untuk you two heheheh :D

Wassalam :)

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Sometimes You Are Up, and Sometimes You Are Down

Sometimes You Are Up, and Sometimes You Are Down

The life cycle of a human being is not definite to what he/she merely wants or need.

The concept is also applies to life experiences, joyness, sadness, gratefulness, or whatsoever 'ness' in life.

Hmm...we should feel bright to stay alive, to cheer ourselves with delicacies of life (mum, dad, siblings, spouse, children, friends, money, time, book, magazines, food, clothes, car), shouldn't we?


We have to admit that we are just beings with so fragile emotions sometimes.

Love, hurt, enjoy, depressed, annoying, cheerful...

Those emotions are those feelings that had made and keep us human..and those are also the ones that differentiate us from creatures so-called 'robot'.

I'm a human.

P/S: This note is written while i'm having this psychological influenced mental illness rite after my one whole day meetings. Hoho.


Tuesday, July 05, 2005

IM vs RM

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Maaf kerana dah lama tak update.

(1) Fever & Shopping Spree

Last Thursday i got a fever, managed to get MC but unfortunately i still had to come to work becoz Head of Risk Management need a report urgently from my GM, and my GM was in Terengganu that time.

The next day, i couldn't tahan my demam and took another MC after took an injection for my fever on the same day.

Saturday and Sunday, went to classes (yang sejuk) eventho my demam was not fully recovered. Tapi takpe, my favourite lecturer Prof Mansor ajar Quantitative Decision Making (Ika kata subject ni killer subject), so mcm best jek dok paling depan concentrate dlm kelas dia mengajar. Demi lecturer terchenta, takpelah, pergilah jugak kelas. Hehe, ni niat dah terpesong dah ni, nak pi kelas utk belajar ker atau nak tgk lecturer best?

My answer is: BOTH. Hoho :D (Just kidding)

Lepas kelas hari Ahad, guess where Kak Ika (my classmate) and i were up to?

Shopping. Like nobody business.

Went to Maju Junction for lunch, and then walked to Sogo to buy shoes (i really need black flat heel shoes since my favourite shoes sudah hancur sbb tuan dia pakai ganas sgt, ended up i bought not only 1 but 2 hoho), bought 1 BUM handbag yang mmg mcm menyesal giler kalau tak beli sbb cun giler). Pastu me and Kak Ika walked to Suma House, along the way we went to Reject Shop, luckily nothing interesting in there, so we went out and went into a shop and i bought 2 pants. And lastly we went to Suma House and i bought 2 tudungs. And then we went back to Sogo for solat and back home for good.

I am someone who is very seldom to go for shopping unless there is important stuff that i need to look upon, really2 urgent, let say i need a new shoes or whatsoever. And i was surprised to learn that people get overjoyed while shopping, i think it was becoz of the hectic situations where you could see excited people around you checking and trying things here and there, and also when you see the new, attractive, CHEAP stuff being displayed on the shelves and calling your heart and soul to check them mostly one by one hehe.

From my 'experiment' on last Sunday, I would say if you feel sick, go and take a walk for shopping,and i tell ya that actually shopping has this kind of 'HEALING EFFECT' on body i think, becoz i was quite forgot that i was sick during the shopping session and successfully toured several shopping complexes in one day. And it's good if you dun bring your PURSE along especially when it comes to any shopping spree (unpaid advice from me hehe). Or else, you will start scratching your wallet here and there whenever your eyes and heart tell your mind 'I NEED THIS ITEM, HERE, THERE, I NEED THEM ALL!!' once you enter the excitement feeling of shopping. Seriously.

Mind you, if you are not enggaged or get married to anak Dato', Tan Sri or whosoever, it is dangerous if you are trapped into this situation.

Morale of the story, please scrunitize your spending wisely. Very very wisely.

Yesterday i replaced my cuti on Friday, and today i come to work with nafas pendek2. Bestnya kalau boleh cuti lama-lama kat umah hehe.

(2) Industry Model (IM) vs Resource based Model (RM)

We had an argument in our Corporate Policy and Management Strategy class last Sunday with our Prof. I highlighted that in today's economics worldviews, most of the business entities today are more heading to IM rather than RB. This is because whenever you want to produce a product, you need to make a survey what market wants and need, assemble the necessary resources and then only come out with output/product. So there are influences from industry when it comes for us to decide which model we want to opt for a business. RM vice versa is where you assemble your resources, come out with product and then only you offer to the market.

The question is, will the market accept our product especially if that product is not needed from their point of view, in case if we want to chose the RM concept?

Look into our world today. Look into Islam situation today.

Can we translate the business analogy up there into what we are dealing nowadays?

Islam from time to time is squeezed into a situation where we need to prescribe whatever dimensions or guidelines from other people(the kaafirun). From time to time, if we dun stand up, we were like those business entities who are limited to what the market need (in this case, our world need) and not on what we want to offer. Let say if the US say "No, we don't need Islam, let's abolish it or else we should re-design them to suit what the world want them to be". Bahaya tak? That's why we need to assemble our resources, come out with a product and offer them as wide as possible.

Sometimes i think we have to think like a businessman to promote Islam. Try to imagine Islam is a product, and we should think on how to select our business type, how should we promote the product, identify the necessary value added features to be added on (yang tak bersalahan dgn agama), the beauty and the benefits of using our product. Select the most effective marketing programs, promotions and post sale services. Best jugak,kan? :).

We should do that i think.

(3) Approach of da'wah

Last Saturday menyaksikan I argued with a taxi driver yang berkata kita kena guna approach yang diajar Rasulullah sahaja ketika berdakwah. Tak boleh guna approach lain, especially by Christians or Jewish (yang pegi bagi financial support kat orang miskin and guna method mcm MLM utk convert org Islam ke Kristian, mungkin agak extreme approachnya, but hello, you are given 'aqal to think rite, i dun think there is harm to consider the options rather than do nothing). For me yes, correct kita kena ikut cara Rasulullah, but if you think in addition there are ways to promote Islam better where di zaman Rasulullah dulu takde, apply jer ler. Time tu rasa mcm nak berdebat jek (actually dah berdebat dah pun tapi sket jek sebab teringat tak tau hadith ker apa yang kalau boleh elakkan berdebat walaupun kita rasa kita betul). Perhaps i'm not that well versed with agama, but for me as long the approaches tak bersalahan dengan agama, and ketika zaman Rasulullah dulu tak digunapakai tapi kita guna kat zaman ni, tak kisah ler, boleh jek apply. Kekadang orang-orang Islam sendiri suka melimitkan apa yang dibenarkan dalam Islam. Camner nak maju? if you guys have other arguments, let's table it and discuss together keh. Mana tau my opinion ni tak valid :D

Ok guys, jumpa lagi. Doakan saya sembuh k.