Usrah

Assalamualaikum wbt,

:)

Not so much to update, cuma perjalanan usrah Nisa' semalam sgt best untuk diceritakan. Rasa sgt best sbb dipermudahkan Allah utk join usrah kali ini.

Semalam Nisa' menjemput Abu Urwah(Bro Saari Sungib) dan Ummu Urwah (Kak Aliza) untuk memberi pengisian dan pandangan mengenai perjalanan Nisa', especially dgn pengalaman Abu Urwah yang luas di dalam membentuk JIM sebagai satu badan dakwah yang berorientasikan pendekatan berbentuk kemasyarakatan instead of politics.

He briefed us on the history of penubuhan JIM dan sebagainya, manakala Ummu Urwah menceritakan pengalaman beliau di dalam mengharungi kehidupan sebagai isteri kepada seorang tahanan ISA. Very interesting, tetapi minda saya sudah letih disebabkan sudah 3 hari tidak cukup tidur menyiapkan tugasan, makanya daripada 100% yang diperbincangkan, saya cuma tangkap the geeze, mungkin 30% jer kot. Ditambah pula di depan saya ketika itu terdapat satu buku hasil karangan Abu Urwah mengenai pembabitan beliau dengan JIM dan juga wakil kepada calon KEADILAN (tak sure ler tahun berapa sbb saya mmg tak check details), maka saya mula membelek2 buku, and last2 satu buku tu saya khatam baca sambil mendengar sket2 apa yg Abu Urwah and Ummu Urwah ceritakan kan depan (hehe..sorry ler Kak Mas..saya khusyuk baca buku Abu Urwah..tu yg tak pk soalan apa nk tanya..tapi takpe..Kak Yder, Kak Faza and Dijah dah power tanya soalan apart from Kak Mas as the sifu :D)

Pergi usrah ngan Kak Adinura..memula masuk keta mcm takut jek sbbnya muka dia cam serius..tapi agak dlm hati dia tgh penat kot, so tak berani nk tanya apa2. Sempat jumpa Umi Kak Adinura, pastu baru kitorang aktif bercakap. Mmg salutelah Kak Adinura bawak keta, giler ganas! Hehe..cekap sgt2. Bolehlaa kot racing F1 after this ek akak*wink* :D . Saya sgt2 menghargai biler mana ketika kami bercakap mengenai opportunity utk membuka business, and saya menyatakan kekhuatiran mengenai risiko membuka business sbb takut rugi. Kak Adinura reply " Kitakan ada Allah, kalau Allah boleh beri rezeki kepada Non Muslim disebabkan mereka berusaha, apatah lagi kita. Kita ini lebih drpd mereka sbb kita punya senjata yg lebih kuat sbb kita ada doa". Fuh, terkunci mulut time tu sambil merenung apa yg Kak Adinura cakap sambil berjalan menuju tempat usrah. Mcm ni, nak resume baliklah my plan nak buka kilang gula kekeke. Kak Adinura ckp, try jer, we will learn along the process, pastu ckp pasal ada org Melayu yg dpt duit ratus2 ribu dlm seminggu sbb supply brg pd Petronas. Banyak kemudahan sebenarnya utk org Melayu ni buat business, tp tak nak digunakan. Nantilah kalau bebetul tekad nak buka business, org pertama yg akan dicari adalah Kak Adinura hehe.

Kat usrah tu jumpa ramai ler insan2 yg aktif dlm Nisa' yg sebelum ni pernah jumpa sekali jer during last iftar Ramadhan, ramai sungguh semalam..happy jugaklah dpt jumpa insan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa. Erza dgn perangai nakal dia,tergelak2 panggil my name as Kak Zurin (yeah i know i know, mcm kelakar...tapi nama tu dah digunapakai sejak zaman Dr Lo' Lo' lagi..memula mcm tak biasa sbb org biasa panggil either Siti or Iena, tp dah derang sumer panggil Zurin..hentam jerlah, at least better ler kot dr sorang manager kat FMD ni panggil as Rina...eeeuuwww..sungguh feminin nama itu, tak padan dgn orgnya yg ganas tahap naga hehe). Best juga semalam sbb dpt jumpa Zahirah, bakal isteri Faiz yg sekali turut bersama dlm usrah. This is the second time we met after several years has passed, since our first met was at UIA during a program conducted by Fazrul in 2001, i think. Dapat kad jemputan kahwin mereka rite after the usrah, but told her that if i could not be at their wedding in this becoming May due to my classes during weekends, i'll pray for their happiness dunya wa akhirah :) Tak dpt nak berjanji utk hadir becoz this semester, i have to prepare biweekly presentation in the class, in which i need to do some preparations prior to the presentation. Tu yg payahnya tu biler nk buat presentation..dah sah2 kena baca reading, simplify and present. Lecturer pulak tak nak yg koman2 punyer presentation, kalau presentation tak menarik (x de grafik, takde animation or presentation delivery tak bagus), markah akan dpt sikit. Pressure betul sem ni, setiap alternate Saturday kena buat presentation, setiap hari Ahad kena get ready ngan case presentation...mencabar betul. Cuma tak sakit sgt this sem sbb kami takde mid term sbb kami dah pergi advance course...kalaulah ader..mau menangis dibuatnya.

Hari ni best sbb dpt buat discussion ngan my staff pertaining to work process..cuba bayangkan selepas 4 bulan i take over this new post and manage them, baru sekarang ada masa nk review process and buat segregation of duties. Tapi takpe, Tn Hj tak leh marah ler kalau my unit tak efficient during this 4 months, sbbnya Kak Marina and I mmg baru handle keje ni, tak aci aa kalau nk marah. Dahlah post manager, yg buat keje exec...mmg tak cukup tanganlaa..mmg kehadiran Kak Marina dlm FMD ni umpama seribu rahmatlah dr Allah for me, ringan sket tugas. If not, you can see that my blog entries will consistently mention abt pressure, tension, nk nangis or perkara2 yg tak best hehe. Alhamdulillah ok..alhamdulillah sgt2 sbb ada org bantu.

Isu terhangat skang ni ialah komen MP PAS Rantau Panjang mengenai divorcee wanita yg dianggap gatal. Geleng kepala jek dgr...but i think better kita tumpukan kepada masalah yg lebih berat, iaitu nasib saudara2 kita di Iraq dan Palestin. Semua org buat kesilapan dlm kehidupan,kan? Apa pun, sepatutnya sebarang kenyataan perlu diperhalusi terlebih dahulu dengan mengambil kira apakah impak yg akan berlaku. People tend to come out with their own interpretations, and kita tak boleh nak salahkan public untuk membuat assumption and interpretation sendiri kalau terjadi kes2 seperti ini. Harap boleh diperbaiki in future. Dalam Islam wanita sudah diangkat tinggi martabatnya, tidak boleh main pukul rata. Mungkin ada segelintir kes wanita gatal, tapi secara quantitativenya, bukankah kebanyakan kes perceraian dtgnya berpunca drpd lelaki? Tak beri nafkah, suka pukul isteri, no fair treatment to wife and children etc. Not fair for anyone to come out with a statement like that, isn't it? Bersikap chauvinistkah? Tidak buat proper researchkah? As i have said, people tend to make their own assumptions.

Wanita ini kasihnya 200%, tapi sekali terluka, seumur hidup akan dibawa (saya baca quotation tak ingat kat mana). Tapi mmg betul, wanita kalau dah sayang and kasih..cintanya setinggi langit,kasihnya sedalam jurang Mariana (jurang lautan yg terdalam di dunia)..tetapi kalau dah benci..minta maaflah...mungkin sampai ke mati (ni kes extreme ler, dlm Islam disuruh saling memaafkan).

Oklah yer..mahu undur diri dahulu, kita jumpa lagi k..assalamualaikum :)

P/S: Kak Yumni & Kak Wiyah, iena rindu kat akak2 berdua :).

Futur

Assalamualaikum wbt,

:)

Subhanallah walhamdulillah, masih lagi kita berpeluang untuk menghirup nafas pada pagi yg mulia ini.

Tersenyum saya pagi-pagi ini, mengingatkan beberapa peristiwa pada minggu lepas.

1. Berdiri di hadapan seorang lelaki yang sedang membaca surah (tak sure surah apa, mungkin suratul Kahfi) pada pagi Jumaat sambil mendengar iPod dlm train. Tenang sahaja dia membaca tanpa ambil kisah ttg org lain.

2. Bermimpi bermain dengan baby Ainul di dalam kereta (tak sure baby lelaki ke perempuan sbb kecil sgt and tak tanya Ainul waktu dlm mimpi tu). Skang ni Ainul tgh pregnant, insya Allah deliver bulan 6 ni. Moga semuanya selamat :)

3. Buat project presentation pada hari Sabtu dgn pakai abaya (padahal kalau pegi UIA sometimes pakai baju kurung or seluar jek), malam tu dpt Best Female Dress during AF Nite. Hoho, segan sungguh dibuatnya. Tapi Pokcik Mizie kiter dpt award pasangan paling menyerlah, apa taknya..dari jauh mata dah silau sbb Mizie and Ida pakai baju melayu and baju kurung warna kuning yang memancar2 keke, sorry aa Mizie, gurau jek hihi. Pergi ke AF Nite dgn Aida and Abg Mufis yg picked me up dr UIA, syukran jazeelan ek Aida n Abg Mufis, moga murah rezeki insya Allah :) Jumpa all my bestfriends malam tu, Ika, Jie, Farah, Ayu n Aida. Aini and Siha jek takde. Siha takde sbb kat Penang. Oo Siha, main2 tukar citer Korea ngan Jie ek? Nak join bleh? Ekeke...Jie rasanya merupakan ibu paling sibuk mengejar anak dlm majlis tu, sbbnya Fahim begitu aktif mengusha Sirah(or Seerah) anak Abg Jas hehe. Takpe Jie, ada rezeki ko leh jadi besan ngan Abg Jas hehe. Fawwaz luka sedikit kat dahi sebab terjatuh waktu main ngan Amni, tapi lepas tu derang ok. Hany and Zainal pakai baju sama kaler, warna hijau, cuma Nufayl jek pakai baju Cina warna kuning emas. Everything went well that nite, i'm happy since lama tak jumpa Mizie and Ida, seronok sembang2. Best gak dpt peluk and cekik Jie, lama dah tak buat mcm tu kat dia hehe. Aida pun lama gak tak jumpa walaupun kami satu building, sbb lunch tak sama. Puas jugaklah jumpa hari tu sbb dpt sembang dlm keta ngan Aida n Abg Mufis. Cuma terkilan tak dpt join gathering DCBA kat rumah Kak Sarah, sbb kena prepare slide presentation utk project presentation pada hari yg sama. Next timelah ek kalau ada rezeki :)

Puas dpt jumpa insan2 yg dah lama tak jumpa mcm Mudin n Walida (warna sedondon biru laut lagi pasangan ni malam tu hehe), Lina Yusof,Kak Nisa', Laili, Shima, Fathiah, Momay, Ise and Ehsan :) Sempat juga sembang dgn Kak Ja, wife Abg Faizal pasal kakinya yg sakit, moga cepat sembuh insya Allah :)


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Alhamdulillah last 2 weeks berjaya menghadirkan diri ke usrah muslimat, topik yang dibawa dlm usrah adalah mengenai Futur, iaitu berhenti selepas memulakan perjalanan ataupun langkah (ni definisi secara literal).

Ustazah import from Gombak beri pengisian mengenai masalah futur di dalam perjuangan dakwah. Pengisian itu sendiri sudah menjadi satu nikmat, berjumpa dengan para sahabiah itu pun satu nikmat, malangnya nikmat2 ini yang telah lama saya tidak kecapi sejak sekian lama kerana kesibukan kerja dan study. Betullah ungkapan yang sering saya dengar dan baca di buku-buku dahulu, bahawa cabaran kita yang ingin mengabadikan diri pada tujuan dakwah pada hari ini makin sukar, dengan kesibukan yang tak henti-henti, dan cabaran mad'u yang semakin lama sudah semakin jauh dengan Islam hasil asakan hiburan dan kenikmatan duniawi. Mungkin sudah sampai masanya kita bertanya, di manakah priority kita di dalam menjalani kehidupan yang singkat ini? Soalan yang berbunyi mudah, namun nak menjawabnya, mungkin tidak semudah yg disangka.

Ketika ustazah beri pengisian, hati sendiri sudah tertanya-tanya, sudah futurkah aku? Dah berapa lama tak join usrah, dah berapa lama tak bersusah-susah untuk buat program amar makruf nahi munkar? Dah berapa inci tebalnya hati kita keras untuk merasa kasihan ataupun geram melihat penderitaan saudara-saudara seakidah di negara lain, Palestin contohnya? Tertunduk sekejap hati menghitung sudah berapa lama dibiarkan hati tidak merasa nikmat ilmu dan tazkeerah di sepanjang usrah malam itu. Alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan jalan untuk join usrah pada malam Jumaat tersebut memandangkan tiada presentation yang perlu saya bentangkan di dalam kelas untuk keesokan harinya, makanya mudah sungguh lidah ini mengatakan persetujuan untuk hadir. Betul-betul bersyukur Allah bukakan jalan dan peluang untuk bersama mendengar pengisian yang jarang2 saya boleh ikuti.

Teringat pengisian dr Ustaz Anuar Ridhwan during AF Nite, katanya hidup kita ini perlu bersepadu instead of seimbang, kalau kita kerja, perlu seiringkan amal dan keluarga, begitu juga dengan amal dan family, perlu kita sepadukan ketiga-tiga unsur ini.

Oklah yer, beransur diri dahulu. Next week banyak pembentangan yang perlu saya buat, banyak perkara yang perlu dianalisa dsb. Insya Allah kita berjumpa lagi nanti, assalamu'alaikum :)

:)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

:)

Actually tgh penat, tp tak baik mengeluh penat selalu, sbb org lain pun penat juga,kan? Mengeluh sibuk, orang lain pun sibuk juga,kan? :)

Believe or not, for two days i've been sleeping at 3 a.m and 4 a.m in the morning. Starting from this week up to the first week of May, it wil become the highest peak of workloads for me, becoz we'll be having MCM Fraud+MRM Meeting in which in these meetings i have to make presentations at least 3 times. Nak buat presentation of course kena buat analisis, pastu present kat management. Ya Allah, bersyukur sgt2 ada Kak Marina skang ni assisting me doing this and that, kalau tak memang jgn harap blog ini ber'update'. Ini pun update sementara menunggu solat Maghrib di ofis before me and Kak Imah bergerak balik untuk mencari Birthday card for our GM sbb esok birthday dia. Tgk trend sekarang ni, blog Ika and Hany dah senyap memanjang, blog Mudin kekadang ber'update', blog Ummu Amiir, Aida n Aini mmg selalu update, my blog? Hehe..sama kes macam Hany and Ika, kalau ada peluang jek baru leh update, sbbnya tuntutan masa yang tidak mengizinkan. Kalau lama senyap tu especially for the next becoming 3 weeks ni, harap faham2 jerlah yer, mmg jangkanya time tu akan hectic sgt2. Tak campur dgn my studies lagi yang every week jenis nk kena prepare presentation. Sabar iena sabar, kejap jek lagi..kuatkan semangat. Sampai akhir tahun ni jek..pastu dah boleh release sket insya Allah.

My younger sister yg dpt offer ke Denmark has turned down the offer sbb Denmark tak ready nak terima student PhD, so they advise her to take double Master. She did not agree, so recently she opted for USM which has offer the same chance to further study in PhD. Alhamdulillah USM called informing her that she's qualified for the application and will be sent to Penn State Univ, US immediately, unfortunately my sis belum dpt keputusan Senat for her Master thesis. USM asked her whether she's willing to scrap off her current Master project and make a new Master project under USM, which means she'll be turning down all her hardworks within these 2 years. She asked for a defer for the offer and had discussed the matter with me and Ayah. Straight away we adviced her to request for a defer to that offer and continue her current Master in which insya Allah will be fully completed in this becoming August. Huish, takde keje ler for me nak buang projek yang dah berjalan 2 tahun semata2 nak pi US, surprisingly my younger sis kata ada colleuege dia di UM yg buang project Master yg dah separuh jalan. I said to her, dun scrap off her project after all these while dia penat2 buat sampling, kaji itu ini, bawak bersabar for another 4 months, and then she can proceed with her PhD. Dah ler nak buat project dia skang ni, ada org IWK mati accident jatuh dlm kolam waktu nak ambil sample air for her, kang sia2 jer org tu mati hehe. Kalau scrap off, it means she will be wasting her time to re-do the Master project, plus the topic will be determined by USM, not by her, nanti tajuk ntah apa2 nanti, susah jek. Kesian jek nanti kat her current supervisor skang ni yg she claimed is a very very nice person. Lagipun USM has promised to KIV her place as they need badly someone who will undertake any biology project as what my younger is doing now, they are willing to reserve her place indeed. So i asked her to wait patiently, kalau ada rezeki utk study abroad, akan terbang jugak dia nanti. Kalau takde, insya Allah Allah ada perancangan lain. But i'm very happy ler for her, eventho we has promised to each other to continue PhD together in UK after completing our Master.

I still remember when i was preparing myself to go for an interview to further study for master in UK last 2 years, dengan suara sebaknya she asked me to postpone my intention to further study in UK. It is uncommon to listen she speaks like the way she did on that time, she's like swallowing her own sadness while talking to me. She made a promise that she will be going with me to UK once we has complete our Master together. As a sister, especially tak pernah dgr suara dia begitu sebak minta postpone, mmg tak sampai hati nk pentingkan diri sendiri. I cried ler actually after that becoz terpaksa let go impian nak pergi and continue Master in UIA. Time tu belum hantar application pun lagi ke UIA sbb mmg hati giler2 nk pergi UK time tu. Even my mum pun support for me to further study in UK during that time, tapi takpelah, belum sampai rezeki lagi kot :). Kalau Allah izinkan, insya Allah akan sampai juga, betul tak? :)

Oklah ek, nak pegi solat dulu pastu nak cari kad birthday GM. Kalau this year tak dpt MAPS 5, siap aa GM kekeke (cheaa..lain dah niat beli kad ni hehe)

Alrite, assalamualaikum.

Cerita ganas

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I'm not feeling well since last 3 days, having fever and cold. My sore throat did not allow me to eat anything other than porridge and bread. Have no appetite also. Lying on the bed for two days without do anything since i took pills that made me felt sleepy for the whole 2 days.

Last week i had crisis with one of my staff, becoz he did something that was totally unacceptable to me, as her supervisor and also as a friend. I got very angry for that thing he had done to me, and avoided his calls asking for apologies since last 4 days, becoz i was not feeling well and i was so bengang that i felt so jahat not to return his calls whatsoever.

I am someone people used to regard as a friendly person, BUT when someone did something unappropriate to me, there you go, i'll become nasty to that person. I got angry becoz i had highlighted once that i did not like the things that he had initiated that had made me felt so uncomfortable. And he repeated again and that had crossed the line to me.

Yesterday morning he met me asking for forgiveness and i just could not see his face, straight away i said i did not like what he did to me. He said sorry and i just kept quite. I did not felt guilty at all, geram punya pasal. Nasib baik ler my staff ni dah tua, masih ada rasa hormat, kalau tak agaknya mmg mulut ni akan laser sket kot. Huish, jahatnya ler daku. Tapi marahlah sebenarnya, giler2 punyer marah, tak pernah2 saya marah pada anyone mcm tu sepanjang saya kerja kat TM ni. Cuma saya marah jenis tak keluar suara jer, tegur kat SMS pastu senyap mendiamkan diri and buat dek jek kat org tu. Agaknya kalau saya keluar suara, ntah apalah yg akan keluar dr mulut saya time tu. Nasib baik tak pegi return call and marah2 kat my staff ni.

Tapi semalam ada discussion ngan dia, dgn professionalnya buat selamba discuss and tolong dia apa yg patut. Kenalah professionalkan, hal keje n peribadi tak leh campur adukkan (cheaaa..kekadang campur gak hehe). My style kalau ada something yg buat me marah, tak payahlah nak discuss balik bende tu dgn saya sbb saya tak suka discuss bende yg saya tak suka. Once saya dah marah atau say something about it, kiranya habis dahlah, saya anggap bende tu dah lepas. Saya tak suka pendam2 sbb selagi saya pendam, saya tak puas hati, mesti kena lepaskan tak kiralah mcm mana pun. So semalam and hari ni ok kot, insya Allah. Terasa jugak i treated him harshly, tapi saper suh buat me marah, kan dah kena. Dah lama dah naga saya ni berehat dr mengeluarkan apinya, sekali dah keluar mmg rentunglah org tu hohoh. Jahat betul Zurina pepagi Jumaat ni, astaghfirullah.

Oklah yer, nak sambung kerja..jumpa lagi..assalamualaikum wbt :)

P/S: Terasa diri sendiri dah buat satu deviation yg ganas tahap naga hoho. Takpe2, insaf balik after this hehe.

Deviation

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Been thinking about this matter from last week, and only manage to write about it today.

You can measure deviation in any statistical course, use it to calculate how far the actual result have move away from the expected result, or the difference between 2 figures.

The word deviation means an act of deviating, or the amount by which something has deviated, or the (real or metaphorical) route followed by a deviation (source: Wikipedia)

Now, let's ponder about our deviation , if any in our daily life. We can say that whatever things that has misled us from doing what we are supposed to do is deviation. If you don't come to work when actually you are required to do so, is a deviation. Make lies to someone else in which you shouldn't at the first place, is a deviation.

Let's calculate and measure our own deviations towards what Allah has set to us but we did not comply, towards those responsibilities that we should perform but we did not, towards all kinds of things that we should take care of but we failed.

Hopefully, the deviations are not too big. And if it is, let's improve ourselves so that it will become smaller, and hopefully the line in our life graph will become a straight line accordingly towards whatever we are measuring to, especially to Allah.

Wassalam.

IF

IF

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you

But make allowance for their doubting too,

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,

Or being hated, don't give way to hating,A

nd yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,

If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;

If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster

And treat those two impostors just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,

And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings

And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;

If all men count with you, but none too much,

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,

And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

By Rudyard Kipling (1865-1936).

:)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Saya tgh penat + fed up baca report org yg saya sendiri tak tau nk interprete. Awat ler buat report yg susah org nk faham..rasa mcm nak jer kubakar report yg satu ni...huish..garangnya daku hehe.Takdelaa..takdelah sampai nk buat mcm tu hehe.

Series..tgh fed up..so utk mengembalikan semangat berkobar2 nk buat minit meeting ni, terpaksa rest kejap menghilangkan rasa tak best ni..urrgghh.

Skang ni sebenarnya saya buat keje manager, makanya sbb itu saya tak cukup masa nak update blog sbb sememangnya saya tak cukup tangan. Fortunately saya punya sorang assistant who is the new exec yg Tn Hj import masuk dr Unit IT kepada unit saya sekarang bg membantu keje2 saya. Alhamdulillah Kak Marina (her name) ni mmg boleh buat report, but i still have to vet thru her report before submission to Tn Hj. My GM ni particular sket, kang salah kang naya jek. Lagipun the same report will go to our GCFO, another person yg also particular pasal grammar and content. Maut ler saya kalau Kak Marina ni takde..mmg tak mampu nak buat keje yg saya buat skang ni. Giler diversified cabang kerja yg saya kena handle. Berat2 lak tuh..aiyyaa. Mana nk kejar report every month, nk jaga fraud complaint centre, nak jaga financial, HR, admin, tu tak kira Fraud MCM and strategy lagi. Since 3 bulan buat keje manager ni, saya pun dah tak mampu nk baca magazine teknologi utk come out with strategy mcm tahun lepas. Serius tak sempat.

And the best part abt Kak Marina ni, dia actually bestfriend Kak Rudiah kat MMU, mcm mana perangai Kak Rudi, mcm tulah perangai Kak Marina ni, giler2 sket dia ni. Kiranya otai exec pompuan ler kat FMD ni sbb bebudak IO tak berani kacau dia sbb the way dia ckp mmg serius jek kalau ngan lelaki, sbb tu ler tak kena buli. Tapi this thing tak penting untuk diceritakan di sini, the most important thing abt Kak Marina ni ialah dia selalu bagi kata2 peransang for me to go on and take the challenge being in my current post rite now. Yang bebetul made my heart tersentuh when i raised out my tiredness and rasa mcm tak larat doing the manager's job ni during our lunch, she said,

"Allah tak beri dugaan or cabaran yang melampaui pada hambaNya sekiranya hambaNya itu tidak mampu. Allah gives you this task and responsibility becos He knows that you are capable to handle it".

Tersenyum saya sbb dpt peringatan yg bermakna untuk mengingatkan diri supaya jd insan yg bersyukur. I've been given the chance to learn new things at the moment, so why not take the challenge isn't it? Mungkin ada org akan kata, bat apa susah2 buat keje manager sedangkan gaji yg diterima hanya sekadar gaji exec jek? Hmm..terpulang pada interpretation masing-masing. For me, this is an opportunity for me to learn new things, to move forward and see my own potential, and to also see how far i can stretch my capability in manage things. Some people put salary as their priorities, well it's up to them. Kebanyakan org yg berjaya pada hari ini adalah mereka yang bergerak sejauh yg mereka mampu and do extraordinary things beyond their common practices. Why not give a try isn't it? If nanti i really cannot tahan with my job, i can always go back to my GM and say to him that i'm not in position to manage the task efficiently, and he is free to find someone else to replace me then :)

Tapi mmg penat, series penat. Ni belum sampai masanya my semester exam sampai ni, kalau my exam tiba pd bulan 5 ni..mungkin tahap pressure akan menggunung naik time tu. Hopefully Allah permudahkan segalanya, doakan k.

Ok ok, tulis lelama nanti keje pulak tak siap. Later k, assalamualaikum :)