Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Susahnya nak bersabar

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Yesterday i took MC due to fever.

This morning i received an email from GM mentioning his dissatisfaction over an outstanding issue which he used to face long2 before i took over someone's place to make reporting and business planning in FMD. And i believe one of the factors why he dissatisfied was becoz i took my MC yesterday, and ultimately someone who supposedly hand over his information to GM was not ready with the info at all, eventhough i had sent him a reminder e-mail and SMSed him yesterday asking him to furnish the data requested by GM. If i was not having the fever yesterday, i'll do that by myself.

And yes, i was the one who took the blame eventhough the things happens was not my fault.

Ya Allah,sabar jelah, mmg volcano dah meletup dah pepagi buta ni. My responsibility is to collect data from each unit, consolidate statistics and make slide presentations apart from doing the business planning.

But if those people didn't give me info due to their own problems, what can i do then? And i swear, this is my last time i give my kind face to these people who don't know how to respect other people's job and responsibility. Should i sacrifice my reputations and feelings just to save their own faces? Damn i won't!! (Ni tgh mengamuk ler ni, geram giler ngan org2 mcm ni)

Sakit hati betul, sebab org lain, kita pulak yang kena. Nasib baik GM bagi teguran yang considered halus ler lagi, takde ler dia pi cc kat other managers mcm dia buat dulu to the person that i'm replacing now. Kalau dia buat mcm tu kat me, lantak ler, seminggu aa i won't smile at him. Baik minta tukar balik to my previous manager, lagi senang hati.

Ya Allah, susahnya nak bersabar, sabar iena sabar. Dugaan kecil jer ni.

Actually rasa mcm nak menjawab balik jer e mail GM, nak jer cakap that i had furnished whatever data that he requested from me except for data XXXXX from Mr XXX who didn't manage to pass over the info to me from last week, and i am not willing to take the blame as the fault was not originated from me, but from someone else. Nak ajer rasanya reply mcm tu and cc kat Mr XXX tu, tapi hati ni walaupun dah meletup volcanonya, still boleh pk rasional lagi, nanti kang kalau reply, pastu sure GM reply balik,pastu i reply lagi, nanti sampai bebila tak habis. Lebih baik create harmony environment between he and me sbb at the end, dia jugak yang akan menilai my performance, kang kena blacklist as budak yg suka melawan kang, susah plak. Dahlaa sometimes me and Zahan acted very defensive at certain times, benci aa kalau bukan kita yg salah, kita yg kena. Ieee...rasa mcm nak bersemuka ngan GM pun ada skang ni.

I replied email GM by saying thank you for giving teguran and i'll improve myself in future, insya Allah.

Sabar iena sabar, sabar bebanyak, kalau pun itu was not your fault, take the teguran as a challenge to yourself, so that after this you'll improve yourself much2 better.

Insya Allah.

Sigh.

Wassalam.

2 comments:

mudin001 said...

patutler terasa gegaran kejap tadi... ada yg meletup rupenyer... b-)

IeNa said...

Hehe, akak mmg meletup pagi ni,habis larva2 gunung berapi dah keluar akibat letusan gunung berapi ekeke.Cuma larva dah cool down, tinggal kerak-kerak jek kat hati ni, cuma tak ler cool down terus, masih ada perasaan suam-suam air panas lagi nih hehe.

Tapi akak mmg staff yg baik(cheh meriak dah ni), walaupun terasa kena teguran yg sepatutnya ditujukan pd org lain, akak tetap bantu GM akak kirakan IRR sbb dia and my managers tak reti nak kire IRR utk project kitorang hehe.Akak berlagak pakai financial calculator akak yg mahal RM 165 tuh, ternganga derang, tu aa, ingat akak tak power ker hohoho. (Astaghfirullah, awat jahat sgt aku ari nih)

Patutnya bagi jawapan IRR salah tadi, biarkan derang, tapi tak baiklah kan,kang org kata berdendam plak hehe.Dah aa kena present project kitorang kat Chief of Information TM, kang malu plak derang salah kira IRR, and indirectly akak jugak yg malu sbb salah kira IRR walaupun sebenarnya niat nak revenge hohoh :P

(Giler ganas akak kalau tgh marah, tapi saper suh bagi akak marah, padan muka derang ekeke)